After hanging up with D, T got in the shower. After years of only having twenty minutes or less to get ready because of the guys she was used to it. Getting out of the shower she spread some leave in conditioner in her hair, to keep the freeze out of her curly hair. Walking back into the main room with only a towel on she dug through her bag for the outfit she wanted. Pulling out her light wash skinny jeans, black panties and a black corset like top she closed the bag back up. Moving on to the next bag she pulled out her knee high black boots, socks, and her hair drier. Getting dressed she brought the hair drier back into the bathroom. She didn't have time to dry all of her hair, but she didn't need to just her side swept bangs. Grabbing her make-up bag she got to work, keeping it natural like always but giving her eyes a more smoky look then usual, grabbing a hair tie out of the bag and putting it around her wrist she closed it up. Looking in the mirror, she took notice of things she usually didn't. Her eyes, a light, almost golden brown, looked happier then they had been, her smile seemed more real and she had a nice tan going on. Around her neck was the same cross necklace and heart necklace, she and her girls had worn since getting out of juvie. The cross for all the sins they have committed and to the hopes that a higher up would hear their prayers. The heart was for love, the love of their brothers, the love of their life, and of course the love for each other. Picking her rings up off the counter and siding them on, she thought of how she got each one. Two of them had been her mothers, and she wore them every day. Another one had been a gift of her niece and nephew for her birthday, and the last one was one that matched a ring Sarah always wore. They were plain but they had words engraved in them, T's said love hope and faith, sister. Where Sarah's said family, love and dreams, sister, Sarah and T had given them to each other for Christmas one year. They hadn't even planned it out but Jonny had given them each a little push in the right direction when they both approached him with the same idea. Lastly T slid the two bracelets on, one was from Ana, it was beautiful and Ana had gotten it because she wanted T and her to have something that matched. The other was a gift from Jonny, it had her initials on the face, and SOA on the back, complete with a little reaper charm. Jonny had gotten it for her when she first came to live with him, so that she would feel like she belonged, that she would realize that she was family.
Walking out of the bathroom she pulled out the last suitcase from under the bed. Pulling out a purse from the top before taking off the false bottom, she pulled out her gloves before even touching any of the weapons in that were perfectly laid out. Putting the gloves on, she opened her bag and slide a gun inside, with two fully loaded clips, and extra ammo. She picked up a smaller one and slide it in her boot, before grabbing the two knifes, one went in the other boot and the last on smaller and incased in a small leather case she slide it in between her breasts. Putting the bottom back in and piling the stuff she pulled out she closed it up and locked it. Picking up her bag from earlier she pulled her wallet out and put it in the purse. Stuffing her bag in the bag with her clothes she closed it and put the lock on the bag. Closing up the last bag and locking it she slide the keys into her purse and grabbed the room key and car keys from the table, before unlocking the door and walking out into the night.
D was waiting outside when she pulled up. He was blown away about how she looked. It was night now and she didn't have her sunglasses on. She was dressed in boots that went to her knees with a cute top showing her mid-drift and a pair of jeans. She looked like she was ready to go out, not to do a favor for the club, but hey what did he know about what a girl wore to go on a club mission? T smiled at him and stubbed her cigarette out. She kept walking and when she realized he wasn't following her, she didn't stop. She kept walking but shouted over her head.
"Plenty of time to stare at my ass later, if your this distracted then I hope I'm not being sent to work with you." She laughed as she kept walking.
D quickly shook his head and followed her, he was planning a sneak attack to see how good this girl was. Right as he went to snatch her from behind, she dodged his attack and caught him from behind. He felt the coolness of the gun pressed against his temple, and both of his arms were behind his back. She leaned in real close and he could smell her perfume. She whispered in his ear,
"nice try" and let him go.
D stood there shocked as she walked into the clubhouse. She didn't pay attention to the crowd that they had gathered. He was broken from his trance when one of the guys yelled
"Maybe we should make her our new SAA, I never thought the great D would be taken down by a girl!"
D flicked the crowd off and walked into the clubhouse. Once everyone was seated except for T, who wanted to stand, they started the meeting. Zeke threw T's file on the table.
"Pretty impressive file, ATF has done some real deep digging on you." Zeke said and opened the file. He took out the pictures and laid them out. There were more pictures from earlier laid out for everyone to see, pictures of T and Hap, T and Koz, T and Jake, and of course T and her girls.
"Jonny was explaining the rules you guys got set up with the Mayan's and the 9ners, said that if a club war pops off you and these two, all leave the country first flight out, to a unknown location. That way you three are not killed or used in a war. I cant believe that three girls got three clubs that hate each other to come together. Well at least make an agreement on something." Zeke continued looking at T, for what she knew was an explanation.
"For all the shit I have ever done, the only thing I have ever been busted for was jacking a car. Even though Jonny tried to keep me under control, I was still being wild, reckless and crazy. I got put in a cell with Lonnie and Marcy and after some bad shit went down we banded together, instead of trying to kill each other. The only way for a woman to be a part of this club is really as an old lady, so I am free to do whatever I want. Well I had more freedom before I became the little killer, but anyways, after beating up a bunch of bitches and a lot of time in the hole, they started to leave us alone. We have been the trinity ever since. Our brothers, knew that if shit went south and one of us got hurt that would be the end of us ever talking to them again. So we all got together and made some rules when we got out. I do what I need to for this club, I help out anyway I can, but I am not a member or an old lady, and my loyalty lies with the trinity, and my girls are the same. Shit goes south we bounce. No fighting for us, none of that shit because even though I don't like Marcus or Leroy, I love my girls and I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I was in a war and hurt one of them, and because of what I can do that's were I would be sent. So its really fucking important that this shit doesn't go south or there will be no way in hell that I can fix this and get rid of Zobelle, his LOAN assholes and the ATF. Right now I am the only hope that they have which is why Jonny is demanding that I come home. My plans almost always work out, and I can keep a level head and make sure that the causalities are kept at a minimum, if any at all. I love this club which is why I am going, even though I don't want too. Well that and because I don't want a huge war to break out and have my girls stuck in the middle. Like you said I am pretty dedicated for someone with no real ties to the club, but at the same time I have my own reasons for doing what I do. I know the risks, I went to school for this shit, but when it comes to my family and my girls I don't play nice or fair. All is fair in the art of war. I do what I must and I live with that, a lot of people don't really get what it is to take a life, they don't understand the strength it takes to wake up every day knowing that you are a killer. Being a killer defines you, it lives in you and it rules your life. Once you become one there is no going back. Sure you could not kill, but when you or someone you love is in danger the instinct comes flooding back and it takes over." T explained.
All of the guys nodded, then Zeke went on to explain what they needed from T. They needed two things, one of which T was not too fond of. Making threats, killing people, torture all that shit came easy to her, she however hated when the guys used her for stupid shit like woman fights and mud-fights. She knew that she needed to prove herself though so she would be doing both. Tonight her and D had to go and threaten some dudes, and then tomorrow was the fight. Guess they were in need of some cash for plane tickets, and even though T had the money to just pay for them, she knew that this was a test.
Walking back into the clubhouse, T took a seat at the bar, while D went and told Zeke how it went. Mike poured her two shots and they chatted while they waited for Zeke or D to come back and let her know she could go back to the motel and get some sleep that she desperately wanted.
D found Zeke, Jay and Ronnie sitting at a table in the back. They had watched the pair walk in looking like they had just come from a date or a club. Not like they had just burned down a shop as a message to the white hate mother fuckers who kept trying to jack their gun shipments, and had prostitutes, young girls addicted crack. Zeke kissed Ronnie before standing up and leading the other two men into the chapel. Ronnie walked over to the bar and joined in on the conversation with T and prospect.
"So, how did she do?" Jay asked. Zeke just sat back smoking his cigarette. He was excited to see how she worked first hand, he had heard lots of stories from Glen but he thought this was better as a quiet mission, to see what his SAA thought she was made of.
D was quiet for a moment, thinking of the best way to explain how fierce and scary she was when she was in action.
"Well, it was a crack house, so blowing it up wasn't that hard. But she walked right in there, looking every bit as fierce as a lioness. She shot two of the five guys before they even knew what happened. I shot the one coming from around the corner at her, while she got the other two who were trying to get their weapons. We walked through the house to make sure that no one else was in it and found a room with a bunch of completely drugged out girls, some as young as thirteen. T demanded that we drag them out of the house before we burned it up. None of the girls even woke up, and we laid them in the woods, far enough away from the house so the fire wouldn't get them. As I brought the last girl out, T went back in. She had all the guys lined up together, with needles in their arms, covered in kerosene. She took a fucking picture of that shit, and of the girls. Man the whole house smelled like ass, blood, death and gas. She nodded at me as she walked back out. I followed her out of the house as she lit a match and threw it on the house. We walked through the forest, back to the car and pulled out. T called an ambulance and told them that she had just driven by a house that looked like it was on fire. But she was so good man, not leaving a trace of fucking evidence behind and it only took us about two hours to do something I figured would take at least most of the night to do. I have never, ever seen someone as ruthless, and crazy and so completely calm in a situation like that. I sure as hell don't mind working with her. That was the easiest shit I have ever done. She's kind of pouting though." D told them
Jay and Zeke both had looks of shock and pride on their faces.
"Wait, you said she's pouting. Why is she pouting?" Zeke asked.
"Because she is one kill away from another tat, and because even if she did complete it, the person who usually does her smiley faces is an ass that she never wants to touch her again. I guess she takes pride in them, just as much as Hap." D answered.
"What did she take the pictures for? Does she have some sort of sick killer keep the prize thing?" Jay asked
"Nope, She said her and Hap always do, sometimes doing isn't enough, sometimes you have to let your enemy see what the fuck you did. Her words not mine" D said.
Zeke laughed, "call her in here I want to see those pictures and get them printed off so we can drop them to those fuckers at the fight tomorrow."
T woke up the next morning, well afternoon to her phone ring.
"Hello?" She asked groggily.
'Hey baby, get up and come get lunch with me?" T heard Ronnie ask.
"Sure, give me like twenty minutes to shower?" She asked
"No problem be by to pick you up soon." Ronnie answered before hanging up.
T and Ronnie enjoyed lunch and went shopping, T picked up a black sports bra and some shorts. Ronnie looked at her curiously.
"For the fight tonight, Zeke knew he was pushing it with this whole mud, girl fight." T told her.
Ronnie just nodded her head as they walked through the wal-mart, picking up things Ronnie need, T grabbing movies and books as well. After paying Ronnie dropped T back off at her motel to take another nap and get ready for the fight.
Zeke and his guys were all crowed around the huge tub-ring filled with mud, T standing by them with a face of complete calm. The ref had already been by to explain the rules, D and Jay were wrapping her hands before they slid the gloves on. Zeke had given the pictures to someone earlier to drop off to Arthur and his little gang. They were all there with a girl, the one who would be fighting T. The girl was about T's height but she had more weight, she didn't look to be as well built as T though. Looking over the competition, T shook her head. Zeke smiled at her and she shook her head.
"I can't fucking believe I'm doing this shit, you know your really pushing your luck with this right?" T asked him.
Zeke just nodded and laughed, all of the guys were eyeing T's body. D and Jay put the gloves on her hands lacing them up tightly. The match started, no one paying attention the guy who dropped the envelope off at the table Arthur and his crew were using, all of them crowded around the ring with the sons. Arthur was betting high on his girl, while the sons bet higher on T.
"Your going down fucker!" Arthur yelled towards Zeke.
Zeke didn't say anything, just kept a small smile on his face. The bell rang and the other girl advanced on T. T just stood there, daring her with her eyes to hit her. The other woman was poorly guarding her face and body and she was moving without thinking it through. As she swung, T hit her in the ribs followed by an upper cut to the face, making the girl fall in the mud. The girl kicked T's legs out from under her and climbed up on her. T had a good block on her face, and had no problem flipping so that she was on top, before the girl even knew what happened. The fight was over quickly after that because even though T had a couple bruises on her back and side, the other woman could barely stand.
T didn't feel bad at all until the other woman exited the ring and Arthur backhanded her hard enough to brake the skin. T glared daggers at him, but said nothing. Woman like that who made themselves complete property to other clubs were none of her business. She did feel bad about not making it seem more even, but she hadn't wanted to fight in the first place so she blamed it on the sons. Walking out of the ring they all patted her on the back, careful not to get to close because she was covered in mud. T walked back to the locker room she was using D, Jay and Austin following while the others went to collect the money. Once inside, D and Jay took off the gloves and Austin stood watch at the door. After her hands were unwrapped she grabbed her bag and a towel from it. Sliding on her flip flops she walked over to the showers. She didn't get undressed because they guys were still in there but she showered the best she could with them on.
Austin, D and Jay all watched T shower. Her nipples were tight and poking out against the dark colored material. The tight shorts were clinging to her even tighter as they became soaked. All three men, kept staring even as their erections grew painful and they had to adjust them. T shot them all a sexy smirk as she grabbed her clean clothes and walked into a bathroom stall.
D, T, Austin and Jay were all headed toward the airport. T had a couple bruises from the fight and the guys even bought her plane ticket there and would buy her plane ticket back so she could get her car. T's phone rang as they pulled up to the airport.
"Hey" T answered
"So there is a huge surprise for you when you get back" Sarah said back.
"I hate parties Sarah, besides its not like there is something to celebrate." T groaned.
"Oh, but there is and the fact that your forgot is just proof that you need this, besides I wanted to do it. Once you remember it will make sense. Have a good flight!" Sarah said and then hung up.
"Damn it." T muttered.
All of the guys looked at her. She just shook her head and kept walking. What the hell am I forgetting? She wondered. Her mind was so consumed with trying to figure out the best course of action for the club that she didn't even remember something important. Is it Ana or the babies birthday? Sarahs? What the hell am I missing? She mind yelled at herself. Once they got on the plane Austin asked about the phone call. T didn't answer him at first, then she looked straight at him and asked
"What day is it?"
"Its June 23rd, why?"
"Shit, fucking son of a bitch. I cant believe that I forgot." T said again.
"What" Austin asked.
T threw her ID at him and snuggled down in her seat she was sitting next to D and was getting turned on from just the smell of him. D made her brain turn into mush, and her heartbeat faster. T had yet to find something about him she didn't like, and it was wearing on her nerves. She didn't need a man, she didn't need another Hap or Koz. D was different though, he saw her. He didn't just see someone who should be owned, he saw someone who deserved to be treated like a queen. T quickly shook those thoughts off. After all she was a killer, she didn't deserve that just like she didn't deserve Ana looking up to her like she did. T didn't want Ana to grow up, she didn't want her to find out how truly horrible T was and hate her, because in her mind once Ana found out she would, either that or she would want to be just like her. And to T, Ana hating her would be better than Ana trying to become like her. T decided than that she and Ana would have to have another talk, and maybe T would tell Ana the truth now. It was a stupid idea, but she did it for the right reasons. She should of never asked for, and they should of never agreed to it. she prayed to whatever god was out there that they didn't allow someone else to become her, follow in her footsteps because T was sure that it would ruin someone just as it was ruining her. What she said to the Florida sons was true, she tried to quit, she tried to let it go but it just kept coming back. T couldn't escape the killer in her, and she wasn't sure if it was because she was too weak minded or because she didn't really want too. Like smoking, T had quit for a couple days just to prove she could but she went right back to it, not because she was addicted but because she didn't really want to quit. It had become a habit in juive and it was a habit she didn't want to get rid of, one of the only ones she had left from when her life represented something normal.
Austin looked at her ID and started to laugh. T glared at him. Austin tossed it to Jay, who laughed at handed it to D. D looked at it at first he couldn't figure out what they were laughing at then he looked at the birthday. He started to laugh then. He handed it back as the stewardess came by and asked them if they wanted something to drink. T pulled out her credit card and said.
"Let me have two bottles of Jonny walker and a coke please. Oh and whatever they want." She handed the credit card and her ID to the lady. She smiled and handed her drinks and told her Happy Birthday. T slammed one of the bottles and poured the rest into her coke. The guys all laughed at her while they drank their beers.
"why do you hate your birthday so much?" Austin asked from across the aisle. T just shook her head and leaned it against the window.
"When I was 17 and moved in with Jonny and Sarah, Sarah threw me a welcome/birthday party, and well she has been throwing me parties ever since. I never had a party until then, I mean seriously how fucked up was it for my father to put me on a plane for my birthday, with an I love you but I cant handle you. Happy birthday have fun with your cousin. Sarah goes way out of control, I think because she feels bad for the lack of celebrations I've had and I hate being the center of attention." T shook her head and leaned back in her seat with her eyes closed.
None of the guys said anything, all of them in shock that she had confessed something that was actually about her. Not the killer part about her but about the part of her that she was before that took over. They all watched her carefully, not sure what to say and figuring the best thing was to not say anything.
All of the guys eventually fell asleep, T didn't, she thought. She didn't sleep in public places you never knew when someone would try to attack. T might not be extremely well known like the rest of the sons but enough people knew her to make her worried.
T was mad that she admitted that to them, but the Florida sons made her feel the way she hoped she would in Tacoma when she became the little killer. They respected her, they listened to her and most of all they valued her, for more then just her killer skills. Something only Jonny had shown her, and even than it was far and few between. T was worn out mentally and she was tired of looking over her shoulder for Hap or Koz's next move, next plan of attack. She felt like a scared mouse waiting to become an owls dinner, which was fucked up because she should be an owl just like them. She should have as much control, but she didn't because she gave all the control to them. Now that she was fighting for it back, she realized just how much control they had and how hard it was to get it back. Even on the other side of the world from them, they were controlling her and she hated herself for it. She hated giving a damn and no matter how hard she tried to let it go, it never went away and that scared her the most. She was fucking terrified of never being able to release their control on her, which was stupid but true. Love or hate or well a mixture of both really was fucking with her and making her do crazy things. Maybe, she thought, I might just have to go back to Florida for a little while longer because I don't know if I will survive living like this for much longer. I am no longer really living, just going through the motions, surviving, barely.
When the plane landed, T and the guys got off the plane and headed towards where they were supposed to be meeting the Tacoma guys. T spotted Marcy and Lonnie right after she spotted the Sons. T smiled at Jonny and headed towards her girls. The Florida guys watched her walk by the sons towards two girls and hug them. The girls headed out without so much as a word to the sons, which was strange to the Florida sons but seemed like a normal occurrence to the Tacoma boys. Jonny smiled as he watched T with her girls, taking notice of the look that D gave her as she walked away. Jonny knew that look, it was a look of longing. Maybe T finally found a son who would treat her as more then an object, but before they left Jonny and D would be having a talk. Jonny knew he fucked up an allowing her to become the little killer and he would never make that mistake again, and he knew that even though he fucked up before he had a chance to fix it now. And he planned too, no more playing with T, no more using her and no more breaking her heart because even if it didn't seem like it, watching his cousin, his sister disappear in front of his eyes was killing him.
Jonny approached the Florida guys.
"Don't mind T, she did her job and got you guys here and made sure that we were here to meet you. She'll be by the clubhouse later for her birthday party or Sarah will kick her ass. We got a couple extra bikes for you guys but for now we got a cage."
The Florida guys all got introduced to the guys that were at the airport. D eyed Koz when they got introduced. The kept the smile but inside, he and his guys were fuming. T had opened up for a few minutes on that plan and while she was at the clubhouse. Giving every member of the Florida charter a look inside who she really was. Now back here, the last place she wanted to be because of this man, they were pissed. D knew that it was this man that had caused her so much pain, so much darkness, more so than the killing did. D wondered if Hap and Koz realized that it wasn't the killing that was killing her, it was them. Koz knew the minute he looked at the guy that he might just lose T. For now though he had time to win her back and get in her heart after all she said that if things were different she would choose him. He had time to prove he could be different, and he knew that playing nice, even if it killed him would help his cause. At least he hoped.
As T walked away she couldn't help but wonder if D was watching her walk away. Her girls noticed her take a quick look back.
"So did you hit it off with one of the Florida guys? That one dude, the SAA was pretty hot, and just your type. The only way he could be more perfect is if his name is David." Marcy said.
T didn't say anything but the minute they stepped outside she lit her cigarette and took a big drag.
"It is." T said taking another big drag. Looking at her girls confused faces. She didn't want to do this here, in fact she didn't want to do it at all. She didn't want to admit the effect he had on her, to herself let alone two of the three people who could always see through her bullshit killer mask or not.
"Wait it is the guy you were looking at or his name is David?" Lonnie asked.
"Both" T said letting out a big sigh. Then added "Come on lets go home, I want to take a shower and I have to get ready for this stupid party because if I show up anymore than fashionably late Sarah will have my ass."
The girls laughed and they all climbed into Lonnie's car. T had two cars, her favorite car was in Florida but at least she had a car here so she wouldn't have to rely on other people. T was happy to be back with her girls, yet she longed for the beach in Florida, for being somewhere that no one knew her. Somewhere she could be who ever she wanted, not part of the trinity, not Jonny's little cousin or the little killer for the Tacoma charter of the sons of anarchy. She was just T or a Tay, or whoever the hell she wanted to be. The girls all got ready at home and took two cars to the clubhouse. Marcy and Lonnie would go for support for awhile and leave after like an hour then T would sneak out and meet them once all the hoe's made their entrance and meet up with them at their bar. None of them were comfortable at parties for the other, but they supported one another no matter what. So when the Mayans had a party for Marcy, T and Lonnie showed up, and when the 9ners had a party for Lonnie, T and Marcy showed up, just like Marcy and Lonnie would show up tonight for T. They had been doing this for a long time, so they didn't think that they would have any problems except for they didn't factor in D. T didn't factor in that D would make it known he was interested in her, and she didn't expect things to blow up with Koz, but than again, it was her fault for not thinking it through, and for not allowing the thought that D was just as effected by her as she was by him.