28.
I stared at the door and forgot the world around me. Nothing is more important to me than Danny and I'm going to tell him that the second he comes walking through that door. I've been a fool to jump of that bridge. I can see now how dumb that decision was. I've got no excuses to make only that I love him terribly and living without him isn't possible.
'TOM!' I snapped out of my thoughts and saw Dougie crouching before me. His face relaxed the second he noticed he got my attention. His blue eyes pierced into mine and his blonde hair was lying over his forehead with the perfection it always did. When did he wake up? And how long has he been trying to reach me?
'You have to eat something mate' He said. I shook my head. I wasn't hungry.
'Come on Tom, what you're doing.. It isn't healthy' He said worried
'At least he isn't trying to kill himself' I heard Zena say from behind me
'Zena!' Dougie said strong
'What? It's the truth'
Dougie gave her an angry look.
'Fine! I'm going to my room'
I heard her footsteps on the stairs which became quieter and quieter. Dougie's face softened and he looked at me again.
'How long?' I asked before he could say anything. My voice was hoarse.
I saw how Dougie wondered if he should tell me or not. His eyes looked at me from head to toe. 'It's been two days' He said eventually.
Two days? It's been that long? I thought just a few hours. I haven't eaten or slept since he left but I wasn't tired or hungry. I was numb. The only thing I felt was desperation to ask Danny to forgive me.
But.. This means that he hasn't been home since he left. My respiration fastened and I started to panic. He's never going to come back! NEVER! He has probably gone back to Xion, where he belonged. The world I kept him from.
'Sssh Tom' Dougie said trying to calm me down. 'You have to get some sleep'
He pulled me up and led me to my bedroom. I repressed the tears that appeared on the way. But once I was in my bed and Dougie left, I let them out. I had a perfectly happy life and I've ruined everything!
I wish I could go back to the beginning, where Danny saved me from my death. He had saved me uncountable times, he was always there. Even when I thought he wasn't, he proved me wrong.
Wait a minute.. That's it! I just have to do again what I always do! Why didn't I think about this earlier? I jumped out of bed and got dressed again. I ran back downstairs but was surprised to see Dougie there.
'What are you doing?' He asked with narrowed eyes when he saw me so pumped up.
'The only way to get Danny back is to die' I said smiling wide. I was proud of myself to finally come to a solution to bring him back to me.
'He has lost it' Zena said. She was hanging over the couch and holding her diary. I hadn't even seen her.
'Tom.. Remember that Danny left BECAUSE you tried to kill yourself?' Dougie asked. He acted like he was talking to a little kid and that annoyed me.
'Yeeeeah BUT the only way to get him back is to do it again' I explained with little frustration in my voice. I don't expect them to understand but I was losing precious time here.
Zena and Dougie shared a worried look and then both looked at me. I couldn't wait for them to see my point and started running towards the door but I had forgotten Dougie is a lot faster than me and reached the door before I could.
'I'm sorry Tom but I can't let you go' He said
'Get out of the way' I said with my teeth pressed together. This is not the time to start messing with me.
'No' He said
'Fine' I said and tried to reach the heck but Dougie stopped me. We started fighting and Zena now was standing before the door while Dougie was busy struggling with me.
'Lock the door!' Dougie yelled to her and she quickly ran to the coffee table to get the keys. But before she could come back, the door suddenly opened and a dark figure was standing in the doorway.
Dougie and I stopped fighting. Everyone's mouth fell open but mine was by far the widest.
I know that figure too well. I've seen it so many times at night when he was standing on rooftops. But I couldn't believe my eyes until he stepped into the light and his perfect blue eyes looked into mine.