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The start of T's week had went by quickly, leaving her in a slight panic Tuesday night. T and Ana had hung up a huge map in T's room, stars marking everywhere Ana wanted to stop. T knew that this trip would be expensive and would most likely clear out all of the money she had saved, but she didn't care. Ana deserved a vacation and T really did too. Being with Ana was easy even if T was a little bit more on guard than usual. Lonnie and Marcy knew about the trip and had relayed the details to Marcus and Leroy as they got them. T wanted all of the clubs to steer clear of her and Ana she didn't want to have to worry about getting attacked by them or other random clubs either. She wanted peace and quiet and to enjoy spending time with her niece. The first stop for them would be Disney World, the perfect start of their trip, and Ana has been wanting to go there forever. T stared at the huge map, some places might end up being skipped over but T planned on making the most stops as possible, she even decided they would leave a few days earlier flying straight to Orlando and making Disney the first thing that they did, even before she got her car. She was getting a rental from the airport and they would drop it off at the rental station by the clubhouse. It was only a couple hours away, but T didn't want Disney to be tainted by whatever she learned from the Florida sons or D. This trip was strictly about Ana, and well making a huge dent in the money she had already saved up. Ana still had her gift cards and T knew she planned on using them for souvenirs. T promised Ana for her 18th birthday that they could go to New York, so for now they would see everything in the south that Ana wanted to.

The house was quiet, it was so weird for T not having Marcy and Lonnie yelling at her to come watch some movie or whatever. But since they got their CSI jobs T hardly ever saw them, they were always working and in a way she was jealous. Guess this is how they felt when I was always out doing club favors but at least they had each other. I on the other hand have no one, and this trip with Hap tomorrow is fucking killing me. T thought, trying to calm herself down yet again. Lying down on her bed, she grabbed Hap's book again, stopping at each picture trying to remember each detail from every day, every moment that Hap had drawn. It was a shock to her, that days that had meant the most to her seemed to matter just as much to him. These drawings were a side of Hap, she had never seen and probably never would. She could hope though, that tomorrow when they talked she would get a glimpse of the Happy that had drawn these pictures.

Happy sat at the clubhouse bar, ignoring the sweet butts as they tried to cling to him. What was happening tomorrow was eating at him. T wanted to go visit him mom with him and ride with him just like shit used to be. He couldn't decide if he was about to seriously have his heart stomped on or be given the hope he had prayed for. He wasn't one for hope or love or even praying but somehow T had wormed her way into his heart. After allowing that one good emotion, after feeling what it was to be loved and to love, he didn't really want to give it up. He knew that it was his book, that his book would either make it or break it for him. He hadn't given it to her in hopes of winning her back, he just really wanted her to see that he did love her, as much as a killer like him could. Even when he was a little kid, Happy had never really been one for talking about his feelings or showing emotion but they were always there, always pushed to the side, begging to be released. T had done that, and when Hap tried to deny it all, his own mother called him out on it. She had been the one to tell him that he loved her, that she was his salvation. The only thing in this world that would keep him sane because even if he didn't know it he had been searching for her for a life time, and a life without her in it would be a cold world for him. His mother's Native American people had strong beliefs and Hap had grown up emerged within them. Somehow his mother just knew things and in Hap's whole life never once had she been wrong. He hadn't been to visit his mother in a while, not after the last time, and not after the dream. She had told him everything he didn't want to hear, and the dream proved to him that his mom had been right all along. Hap had opened that book that night, after waking from his dream of nothingness, a dream of one long dark stretch of road. It was a dream he had before, but in this one there was not light at the end of the tunnel. With T gone there was no hope for him. His mother's words running around his brain, Its not to late, but if you don't do something it will be. Her future is bright, it always has been but I fear for yours. A life without her for you contains no light, all darkness and nothing to keep you here. I will die before I watch you go down that path. Hap was afraid to visit her after that, he was afraid to face anything. He knew that he was flirting with the line of death all the time. That was a major part of wanting to belong to a club again. Charming was the perfect choice, not too far from his mother or T. Hap wasn't sure if he wanted to kill someone or cry, when his dreams of the future disappeared. All he knew is that he had to let T see that he loved her.

Seeing her the day she came home, he drew his final picture and bought his time until he placed his book in her car. He put it in there before they all sat down to talk. He knew he wouldn't say anything in there for more reasons than the fact that he was emotionally challenged. Nothing would explain better than his drawings. It was her life since she came here, five years ago and what her life would be with or without him. Hap had prayed for a miracle even though he long ago quit hoping that a higher power would give him a sign. For some reason that night after t drove off, he prayed to his mothers ansectors, begging for something to change the direction his life was headed. Only tomorrow would tell, he did what he could to fix his wrongs it was all in her hands now.

Mac sat at a table in the back of the club house. He watched Hap ignore the sweet butts trying to get his attention. Mac hadn't talked to Hap about his conversation with T. Looking closer Mac noticed that Hap seemed to be nervous, something he never was. Standing Mac pushed the woman off of him and headed for the bar, taking the seat next to Hap.

"Whats up brother?" Mac asked.

Hap looked at him, Mac kept his face calm and waited silently for Hap to respond.

"You talked to T?" Hap asked after a minute.

Mac nodded his head.

"Had lunch with her Friday, no one had seen her since the talk you four had. I figured I should check up on her. Why whats up?"

Mac watched as Hap thought things over. Everyone talked to Mac, he was the residential shrink. If you didn't seek him out, eventually he would find you. Mac kept the men in the club calm; he talked them down from anger, fixed relationship problems and came up with great plans and ideas for their club.

"She's going with me to see my mom tomorrow."

"She's went with you lots of times. Whats so different about tomorrow?"

"T hasn't been on the back of my bike since I went Nomad. Shit honestly bro, I made a move and she wants to talk tomorrow. I'm not sure if she is about to tell me to fuck off or that she loves me. My life without her is dark bro, the darkest its ever been. My ma says I still got a chance but I'm not so sure. I fucked up I know I did, and I didn't make my move to get her to take me back, really I just wanted her to see that I really do love her."

"What did you do?"

"I gave her a sketch book, full of pictures of her from the very first moment I laid eyes on her. I've always wanted her. That's why I started helping with the training. She just has the type of personality that makes you want to be around her. Shit dude I never even hit that and she calls to me."

Mac nodded his head, he chose his words carefully before speaking again.

"We had a long talk about you. T spent two days in her head, trying to work shit out. She knows her options. I told her that she needs to sit down and talk to you about it. This shit going on between ya'll is just that between you two. What you did it worked, and shes got lots to explain to you and you got lots of shit that needs to be explained to her. Shit will be clearer between you two tomorrow than it ever has been. As far as I know she hasn't made a decision yet and in the end I think she is going to surprise all of us. You need to really think about what your going to do if she does choose you. You still going to Charming, you going to stay nomad or come back to Tacoma. That will effect her decision. I know that she understands why you want the transfer but I know she wont leave Ana at least not while Ana still really needs her. T is strong and stubborn and seriously fucking confused right now. All we can do is wait it out. I have a feeling that by the time she gets back from her trip with Ana she will have made a choice. And between me and you, she knows about Koz and Maria and she's happy for them so Koz isn't even in the running right now." Mac said giving Hap a pointed look

Happy actually cracked a smile. Mac patted him on the shoulder and grabbed a beer from the prospect. Mac walked back over to the table he was sitting at. He wanted to laugh when the sweet butt he shoved to the floor climbed back in his lap. The things women did to get in good with him is ridiculous. With the exception of T and a few others, pussy was pussy. Mac enjoyed being a VP though, even though he had to deal with lots of drama and diffuse a lot of fucked up situations, he enjoyed the pussy perks of it. The sweet butts and crow eaters all wanted to climb the latter and he was as high as they could get, that and he didn't like a lot of weird shit like the SAA's.

Mac watched the sweet butts around the room. The smart ones went for the prospects, their best hope of becoming an old lady. The patched in members didn't really want pussy that everyone had already hit but the prospects were still new enough to see the good in everyone. Mac caught Hap getting up out of the corner of his eye. Mac was proud of Hap as he turned down all the pussy being thrown at him. After all he had a date with his destiny tomorrow. Mac hoped for all involved that T choose Hap, no one in this world would make her as happy or understand her as well as Happy did. Fuck what Ronnie said, T and Hap belonged together. Mac watched as Hap headed towards the dorms, who knows tomorrow Hap might actually get to fuck her. Mac figured that would be the only real way to see if they would work out, after their talk. It would give Hap a chance to show her physically how much he gave a fuck.

D sat at the bar in the Florida clubhouse. Zeke had just told him that T would for sure be there on the first to get her car and she wasn't coming alone. She was bringing Ana and they were going on a road trip. D wasn't sure how to feel about that, he knew that T wasn't coming to stay and since she was bringing Ana there was no way he would be able to talk her into staying. Zeke had patted him on the shoulder after he delivered the news, and D hadn't left his bar stool since then. D wasn't even sure how he felt about it all. He was banging sweet butts left and right trying to erase the memories of taking T in the shower and so far nothing was working. Every night when he closed his eyes, he saw her. She was sleeping on his chest, she was waking him up with breakfast in bed and head. She was punching through the glass cabinets in her kitchen, she was killing those mother fuckers from the favor they went on. D seriously thought he was losing it. Every time his phone rang, he got excited in hopes that it was her, he was smelling her even though her scent had long ago been washed off and over taken by smoke, beer and pussy. He heard her voice even though she was nowhere near and no one had talked to her, not even Ronnie. He heard her moans while he was fucking the sweet butts, he was tired of it all. T was haunting him and she didn't even know it.

Zeke and Ronnie sat at their kitchen table eating breakfast.

"So, T and Ana will be here in a week. D took it bad, he was hoping that when T comes down to get her car it would give him a chance to talk her into staying, for good." Zeke broke the silence.

Ronnie nodded, never before had she been wrong. This time she wasn't so sure. Something big happened with T in Tacoma, Sarah wasn't sure what it was but she did inform Ronnie that T was riding with Hap to go and visit his mom.

"They need to talk, I really thought that they had a love like ours but something big happened. T's riding with Hap to go and visit his mom today. Sarah said that she has no clue whats going on. When Jonny, T and the guys sat down to talk, Hap didn't say shit. T holed up in her house for two days after that and no one saw her. Not even Ana, than she came over Sunday and had family day. Monday Jonny came home and told her that T and Hap were going to Cali to visit his mom. Not sure what he did but Hap did something big to make that girl all kinds of confused." Ronnie told him.

Zeke nodded, he knew that Jay and Mac had been talking. He also knew that Mac was relaying info to T, while Ronnie and Sarah were doing the same. Zeke wasn't sure what would happen to his SAA, if T chose Hap over him and he couldn't help but feel like all this was on his head anyway. The couple ate in silence after that, at least until Zeke's phone rang.

"Yeah?" Zeke answered

"Zeke" Glen replied.

"whats up brother?"

"Guess what I just heard? We all know Hap hasn't patched over to Charming yet, in fact he hasn't made any real decisions since he went Nomad. Now he pulled some stunt with T and he might not be going to Charming at all. I don't know for sure because I'm still waiting on Hap to call me but Clay called me and told me that Hap is putting off his vote being placed on the table."

"Really? Because Ronnie was just telling me that Hap and T were going to visit his mom today, together."

"Together like shes driving he's riding or together on his bike?"

"On his bike."

"Aww shit, doesn't look good for team Florida. T aint been on his bike for over a year. Ever since Hap went Nomad and pulled that tat stunt, you know that tat was the last thing Happy did in Tacoma before he went Nomad? Something about just because he aint around doesn't mean he wants anyone else to be either. On a good note, Koz is getting cozy with some sweet butt and I think hes out of the running"

"Shit. I cant help but feel like this shit is all my fault"

"Damn straight it is" Ronnie mumbled.

Glen laughed. "Looks like the queen isn't too happy about whats going down."

"You know how she is, cant stand to be wrong." Zeke replied.

"Well that's all brother, just thought I would share the info with you. Let D know I'm hoping he has some good words for her when she comes down there. Not too sure who's side to pick with this one. I have a feeling no one will be the same once the choice is made. Some of the guys are even talking about making bets." Glen replied.

"yeah well I'm hoping she chooses D, a killer with nothing to live for is a danger to all."

"Yeah, but you have no idea how crazy Hap has been without her. Not sure you really want to actually. He's brushed death more times in the last few months than ever. Its like he's flirting with the line, T is his salvation and without him it will be tough to get some of the shit needed done. I'm going to call Mac and see where her head is at on all of this, if anyone knows he will." Glen said before hanging up.

Zeke looked at Ronnie for a long time before relaying what he just learned.

"Glen really think that Mac knows where her head is at better than Sarah or her girls even?" Ronnie asked.

"Shit baby, Mac knows where everyone's head is at. He makes it his business to know, I can tell you right now that Tacoma wouldn't run as smoothly as it does without him. To Mac, one distracted mind will get them all killed and he's right." Zeke answered before getting up and kissing his wife.

Walking outside he lit up a cigarette before dialing the number, he answered on the first ring.

"My bet is that you want to know the same thing Glen did. I already talked to him and Jonny, I was waiting for your call" Mac answered

"Yeah well, a lot of shit is riding on this." Zeke replied.

"You think she doesn't know that? That we all don't know that?"

"I don't know man, I really don't."

"Look this shit is eating her up. She didn't leave her house for two days. Hap pulled a big card in proving that he really does fucking love her. She knows D is pulling a big card too with fixing up the house. She knows that no matter what someone is going to get hurt, herself included. She's narrowed it down to Happy or D. Koz is hooking up with Maria and they seem to be happy, which is all she wants for everyone. Even if she doesn't get it herself, I told her she needs to sit down and talk with Hap and D and Jay because I told her what I could about how Hap is without her and Jay has to do the same for D. Choosing wont be easy and it most likely wont happen anytime soon. The blame cant be placed on anyone but D and Hap and Koz for this shit. The T everyone thinks they know isn't really her and it sure as hell isn't who she wants to be. In the end she will do whats best for the club, the guys and than herself. She is too damn selfless for her own good, and that is a trait that is going to destroy her."

"Yeah, I guess Ronnie was right, we are all more worried about how this is going to affect the club as a whole and our clubs individually than how its going to affect her."

"You and Jonny kind of, Glen just wants to win big money off this, they are going to start betting one week after she leaves for Florida. Glen plans on being here tonight to see how shit went with Hap today and he's driving down to Florida in a couple days to see how it goes with D. Lots of brothers are going to bet on this." Mac said, his tone a mix between amusement and disgust.

Zeke laughed.

"I got to go, shit doesn't get done by its self around here." Mac told Zeke.

Zeke knew Mac had told him what he could, and what he told everyone else but he had one more question.

"Who are you betting on?" Zeke asked.

Mac sighed "all three of you asked the same damn question. I'm betting on Ana."

Zeke stared at his phone after Mac hung up. Zeke was confused by that, because no one she chose would allow her to stay with Ana. So it didn't make sense to him. Maybe T's decision will rest in Ana's hand. Who ever Ana thought t should be with was probably who she would choose. Zeke decided than that they better be super fucking nice to Ana, if they wanted to get T down here with D. Zeke climbed on his bike and headed for the clubhouse to relay the info he just learned. He also planned on telling them all that whatever Ana wanted while she was down here should happen, She was their best bet.

After hanging up with Zeke and having told three people the same thing three separate times this morning Mac was exhausted. All three of them wanted to know who he was betting on and he told them the truth, Ana. He was sure they all thought that T's choice rested in Ana's hand because none of them really thought that T would just choose no one. Mac was pretty sure that was what she would do that. Pick no one, because that was the best choice for the club and the guys, and maybe it would be the best choice for her as well.

Mac hoped that she did choose someone because she needed someone else to help ground her, Ana wouldn't be able to do it all on her own. T would self destruct without someone helping her. He knew that it would fall on him to make sure that she stayed grounded. She was an asset to this club, and she is an amazing person who deserves nothing but happiness. She wouldn't take it though, even if it was hanging in front of her face.

`T finished getting dressed; checking her hair, outfit and make up for the third time. T grabbed her bag of the dresser adding her cell and Hap's book. Heading out the door her nerves started to kick in again. It had been a year since the last time she made this ride with Hap, shit it had been a year since she had been on the back of his bike. T was nervous but excited, she missed riding down the highway with her arms wrapped around Hap. She missed the feel of his abs under hands, she missed how strong his shoulders felt when she put her head on his back and the thing she missed the most was the smell of him. T could ride on anyone's bike with them, but riding with Hap had always been her favorite, she hardly ever rode with anyone for fun after the last time she rode with Hap. It wasn't the same, it didn't feel the same and she never got as relaxed as she did. T sighed as she turned into the clubhouse parking lot. Her eyes landed on the row of bikes parked there, and she knew something was up the minute she spotted Glens bike. Parking and climbing out quickly she walked towards the clubhouse door. Hap better not fucking be canceling and if he is the least he could do was call¸ T thought as she opened the door and walked in.

Happy, Glen, Jonny and Mac were all sitting at the bar. Hap was dressed for a long ride and oddly for some reason the sight of him turned her on. All three men turned and looked at her as she walked towards the bar slowly. Glen held out his arms for a hug first.

"baby girl, we were just talking about you." Glen said as she moved on to hug Jonny and Mac, leaving Happy for last.

Hap had only slightly turned towards her, so she placed her hand on his shoulder.

"For some reason that doesn't surprise me, so who's betting on who?" T asked

Mac laughed, Happy looked at her funny while Jonny and Glen looked at her sheepishly.

"What that had to be a reason you were here Glen, and you love drama so I figured it was me. Bet I run into you while I'm in Florida too. So who you rooting for? Happy or D?" she asked looking at her cousin and Glen.

"Betting hasn't started yet" Jonny and Glen mumbled

"Am I really that transparent?" Glen asked her

T laughed at him "Yep"

T gripped Happy's shoulder and he leaned back into her, tilting his head upward to look at her. She leaned down close to his ear

"You ready?" She asked softly.

Happy grunted in response. T nodded and took her hands off his shoulders and took a step back. She watched as Hap stood up, admiring his butt in her favorite pair of jeans. In fact he was wearing all of her favorite stuff. T smiled at that, he was making an effort. She wanted to laugh as well though because one night she had drunkenly told him that she loved those jeans and he wore them more when she was around, in fact she was pretty sure that he went out and bought a few more pairs just for her. Hap walked to the door, but T stood at the bar. He looked back at her and she nodded.

"So Mac, who you betting on?" T asked

Jonny and Glen looked at him, Mac smiled at her.

"Me? I'm betting on Ana." Mac replied.

T nodded and headed for the door. She figured that Glen and Jonny would draw more information before they bet. Mac though, he knew that Ana was the deciding factor in this. Not that she would have a choice like T was sure everyone thought, but what would be best for Ana and the club would be the one she chose. Besides she thought it would be nice for Ana to get spoiled by everyone, after all they all wanted to win big. T knew she shouldn't find it funny that the guys in most of the clubs were betting on her love life but she did. She also knew that a lot was riding on her choice, which is why everyone was now so involved. T smiled as she watched Hap on his bike smoking a cigarette waiting for her. She walked to her car and popped open the trunk, pulling out her jacket and helmet. She closed the trunk before sliding on the jacket, helmet in hand she walked back towards Happy. She reached out and grabbed his cigarette taking a huge drag off it. Hap just shot her a look as he started up his bike. T flicked the butt into the middle of the dirt before climbing on. T wrapped her hands tightly around Hap's waist and buried her face in his back.

"Ready?" Hap called over the engine.

"Hell Yeah!" T shouted.

T smiled as she felt Hap take off.

Jonny and Glen looked at Mac, who was cheesing like a damn fool.

"What the hell does that even mean? I'm betting on Ana?" Glen asked

"What the hell do you think it means? It means that Ana is the deciding factor. So we all better kiss her little butt and try and talk her into who we want her to end up with." Jonny replied.

Mac just smiled as Jonny and Glen started weighing the pros and cons of each man and with how they could benefit the most. Mac knew as he told T who he was betting on that she got the meaning. Mac was making Ana the deciding factor, the reason she would stay or go. Mac knew though that it was looking like at the current moment, T wasn't going to pick anyone. Mac had already decided to wait until the very last moment to place his bet, and it was his luck that he got to be in charge of the betting.

Mac decided that everyone would text their bet to him and the amount they were betting, on Ana's first day of school. By than T would have for sure made a choice, the road trip would be over, T would have talked to everyone she needed too and Ana would be in school so T would be free to do as she choose. In the end Mac wouldn't know until T did or right before she did.

The whole Florida charter sat back as they watched D destroy a punching bag. Zeke felt shitty but he would of felt worse if D didn't know about T and Hap's little trip. After all it really wasn't something that should be kept from him. He had to know what he was up against.

D kept punching and punching, all he could see was red. Thoughts of T and Hap, together on his bike just fueled his anger more. T had never even been on the back of his back, in fact she was against it. Mac said she hardly ever rode on the back of anyones bike, even though she still kept her helmet and jacket in the trunk of her car, both of them. Mac said sometimes she would but that it had taken a long time for her to do it. The first time after the tat stunt she had freaked out and got right off. D could understand because sometimes guys freak out on a bike after they have their first accident and shit. For T, it wasn't a physical thing, it was an emotional thing and she refused to ride with anyone she was attracted too. It was too close for comfort, it brought back too many memories and it just hurt her, something she wasn't used to showing. Emotion wasn't really something she showed anyone but Ana and Junior.

D stopped hitting and walked right towards his cut. He threw it on, pulling the key out of his pocket and stalked towards his bike. Nothing would make him feel better right now and they were all sitting ducks, waiting for a call from Glen to learn how the trip went. That was still hours away, at least. Shit it could end up being a whole day. D got on and started his bike, he drove off leaving all of his brothers watching him.

"Shit looks bad. Real bad." Jay replied after hanging up his phone.

Zeke turned his head away from where his SAA had just taken off from towards his VP.

"What you mean?" Zeke asked

Jay looked thoughtful for a moment. Zeke watched him carefully, he knew Jay would tell him what happened but he wanted to see if he could pick up how bad it actually is.

"Glen said that T knows about the bet for sure, and that her and Hap seemed pretty cozy before they left. Nothing really to go on, but he said that the way they interacted was… something he hadn't seen since she got out of Juive. He said he will call when they get back, shit Glens even passing on pussy tonight to wait for them to get back, of they come back. They all think that they are going to fuck tonight. Guess we are just going to have to wait and see. No one knows what Hap did and if they do they aint telling. I would bet Mac knows but you know how he is about confidentiality. He wont tell and Hap hasn't spoke a word about it, T either." Jay said cationly.

Zeke looked at Jay before he kicked a bucket on the ground next to him.

"FUCK" Zeke yelled. "this is not good at all." He added in a quieter voice.

Jay nodded and headed back towards the clubhouse. He was worried because D was in a bad place and for a killer that was dangerous, it was dangerous for all of them. Picking up his phone he dialed Mac.

"Was waiting on your call." Mac answered

"So how bad is it looking?" Jay asked

Jay waited while Mac thought his question over.

"Don't really know. They were good before they took off but for all I know they could get into a huge fight by the time they get back here. T and Hap, when they are together they always surprise us all. Hap shows her more emotion than anyone but his momma, and T well that girl is full of surprises. I know that she wont decided until shes talked to D and you though so don't get to down about it. Focus on doing what you think you need to do to keep D sane and what you plan on telling her. A lot is riding on that. Leave out the fact that hes banging crow eaters left and right in hopes of forgetting her though unless she asks. Oh and don't lie to her, she always knows when someone is lying. Its creepy." Mac told him.

"Thanks for the info brother. I know theres no way you will tell me what Hap did to get back in her good graces huh?" Jay asked.

Mac laughed "What happened between them is between them. Just like what happens between her and D will be between her and hi. In the end T is the only one with the power to make a choice. Well her and Ana." Mac replied before hanging up.

Jay closed his phone and took a big swig of his beer. He had a lot of shit to do and only a little time to figure it all out.

"Fuck my life" he grumbled. As he slammed the rest of his beer he took the hand of the girl who had been eyeing him all throughout the night. He lead her back to his room for the night. After all there wasn't a whole of a lot he could do right now. He had to wait until T came down to Florida to try and convince her to pick D and stay in Florida. He knew he had his work cut out of him, but if he could somehow make it seem like it was best for the club for her to be in Florida he knew she would.

AN: Again sorry about this chapter I am of course not happy with it but I thought that you guys deserved something Vote, Vote, Vote and Review, Review, Review. Pretty please? The Hap and T road trip will be in the next chapter promise