The words cut deep, deeper than he had expected. He would sit in the studio and could still picture her standing on the other side of the glass, her cheeks stained with tears and make-up,, her black dress clinging to her small frame, and her hair in perfect curls hanging down her back. The only thing he couldn't picture was her eyes. When she had first left he wanted to forget everything about her, but her dazzling blue eyes wouldn't fade, but now for the life of him he couldn't remember them or how sad they looked. It had been two months since that night but he could still see her. He hit replay on her song, the last song she would sing.

Once she had returned to London her label made it official, Jude Elizabeth Harrison was on a break with no immediate plans to return to the studio. He didn't know what was more heart breaking, her final song to him or the fact that she had truly quit.

He could feel his eyes pool with tears again as he listened to the song, to her words. It had been so hard for him to focus on anything else, because even when the song wasn't playing he could still hear her, her pain. It wasn't fair to the people around him and that was frustrating because he had other people he needed to think about, one person that needed him.

The knock on the door made him quickly turn the song off and rub his face in both frustration and to hid his tears.

"Lilly is on line 3." Sadie's voice filled the room.

"You're not the receptionist, why are you delivering messages?" Tommy snapped. It was wrong but his frustration leaked out everywhere now, he had no control. Everyone around him had become use to it, he was Tommy after all, his mood swings were worse than a pregnant woman.

"Because it's Sunday, Darius and I have a conference call with Paris this afternoon." Sadie didn't respond to his tone. She only raised an eyebrow at him. "Why are you here?"

"I work here." He said motioning for her to leave the room. He had no real reason to be there, no work to do, not to record, but he always felt better sitting in studio A. If he hadn't seen the blinking light on the phone, he would have forgotten why Sadie had come into the studio. "Hello?"

"Hey honey, I just got called to do a shoot in New York, the guy they had flaked. So I'm heading to the airport." The woman sounded breathless and Tommy figured she was rushing around her apartment to fill a suitcase.

"Oh okay." It was a relief to know that she'd be away for a few days. He had been horrible towards her the last two months and he needed this time to get his head on straight.

"I know you're busy, but could you go by the church tomorrow and drop off the guest list? They asked for it last week and I haven't had the time." He could hear the stress in her voice. They had decided not to get a wedding planner because Lilly was sure she could handle planning the wedding herself.

"Yeah, of course, anything for you." He nodded, his stomach got tight at the idea of the church. "Have a safe flight and call me when you can." He didn't give her the chance to say anything else before hanging up. All he wanted to hear where Jude's words and the tears in her voice.

He sat in the swivel chair, turning slightly side to side. Lilly had been gone for two days when his prays had been answered. Kwest had shown up at his door with the simple message that he'd been told Tommy needed a friend. He loved Lilly for that, she was able to see that things he needed, and could easily help him without asking.

Now Tommy had someone he could share the song with, someone that would understand, and be on his side.

"Wow." Kwest rubbed the sides of his face. It was the fourth time they had listened to the song and each time it seemed to be more heartbreaking, almost as if the breaks and cracks in Jude's voice were truly her heart shattering. "This song, it's amazing."

"It's her last." Tommy told him. He had already relived the events that had taken place. "She stood right there, and in one take, left me with this."

"On her birthday?" he had been invited to the party, but hadn't been able to come due to work. "Don't misunderstand this, but wow, you really broke her."

"I know." He agreed.

"So what are we gonna do?" Kwest asked after a moment.

"What do you mean what are we gonna do? I'm getting married next month!" he exclaimed. That was what it was coming back too. He loved Lilly, she was his life now, but that didn't stop the girl from his past to still haunt him.

"Yeah but look at you T, you're a mess. This whole thing clearly means something."

Tommy knew he was right. If it didn't mean anything, he wouldn't care, and he couldn't admit that he did care, because he felt like it would mean he didn't care enough about Lilly.

"Is that why you came?" Tommy asked, he wanted to know what had been said to get him there.

"All I can say is I got a message saying you needed a friend." Kwest had told him that before, but wouldn't say anymore. "So what are we gonna do, write something back?"

The two sat there brain storming ideas until they came up with the only thing that seemed good enough. It would be more meaningful to both Tommy and Jude.

"This doesn't mean I love Lilly any less." Tommy stated.

"I'm not questioning your feelings towards her." Kwest said putting his hands up. "Let's lay it down. I'll Remember You, Bob Dylan cover." He spoke into the microphone before controlling the soundboard.

I'll remember you
When I've forgotten all the rest
You to me were true
You to me were the best

How could she have ever asked him that because even if he wanted to he could never forget her. She had been the girl that had opened up his heart and soul. The girl he allowed himself to love again after everything he had been through. She had accepted him and all his flaws at the age of 15. Her love had been so simple and honest that it was the most real thing he had ever had in his life. She had changed him without even realizing or meaning too. He changed to be good enough for her.

When there is no more
You cut to the core
Quicker than anyone I knew
When I'm all alone
In the great unknown
I'll remember you.

"You're a selfish ass Tom Quincy." He could still hear her screaming that at him. Her face flushed with anger and annoyance. "Not everything in this world, or in my world revolves around Lil Tommy Q." it was something she often reminded him of. Her insults would fly and she was always able to bring him back to reality, to remind him that he was just one man, one of no more importance than anyone else. She had been the first and only girl to treat him that way. She could insult him in a way that didn't change his feelings for her, and she was always ready to call him on his bull shit.

I'll remember you
At the end of the trail
I had so much left to do
I had so little time to fail
There's some people that
You don't forget
Even though you've only seen'm
One time or two
When the roses fade
And I'm in the shade
I'll remember you.

He had picture his life with her, everything he wanted he wanted to do with her and to be by her side through everything she wanted to do. She had told him that he was her anchor to reality, and he loved her. But their relationship was short. Neither of them truly had enough time together and had both turned and ran scared when it got hard. Tommy ran when he realized she loved both Tommy Q and Tom DuTious. And Jude had ran from him when he had wanted to make her his. They never gave themselves the time to succeed or fail.

He had meet some many people in his life time, and he knew that he would never be able to remember all of them, he had proven that to her when she asked for a list of all the women he had been with. He couldn't even remember all of their names, but it was part of the life they had. He knew that if he had to forget everyone he knew or had meet, Jude would always be the one person he would never be able to forget. She had touched his heart in more way than one, and he would never want to forget her.

Didn't I, didn't I try to love you ?
Didn't I, didn't I try to care ?
Didn't I sleep, didn't I weep beside you
With the rain blowing in your hair.

He knew that he could have done so much more for her. When they were together, they were amazing, they were in love, and when they were apart, he broke her heart. The night he had called her poison still haunted him. He could be so cruel to her, for no real reason, and he knew that was part of the reason she was able to leave him behind. He had always carelessly thrown her away when things got hard, he never tried to fight, maybe he never loved her enough. But he knew that he did love her.

I'll remember you
When the wind blows through the piney wood
It was you who came right through
It was you who understood
Though I'd never say
That I done it the way
That you'd have liked me to
In the end
My dear sweet friend
I'll remember you.

"In my opinion, you sound better than Bob Dylan." Kwest offered as the song ended.

Tommy wasn't sure if it was the right choice of song. Could he call her his dear sweet friend, would she understand what he was saying if he did that? But he knew that his words to her would connect to this song. He had told her that he would remember, and this song explained that he would never be able to forget her, not until the end.

"What?" Kwest asked, seeing the look.

"I don't know if that says everything." Tommy sighed, looking over the list of songs he had pulled. Kwest had wanted him to write something, something real and true. But Tommy couldn't do that, not to Lilly. Plus he was scared of what he might say if he wrote something to Jude.

"Want to pull her catalogue?" Kwest asked.

"Yeah, there's one I want to listen too." Tommy told him. "But I think I should do it alone."

"Alright, let me know if you need anything." Kwest said before leaving.