Okay, the last part was Tommy's POV, so it's happening at the same time as Lilly's. There are cross overs in the two. This part is also from Tommy's POV. I hope that makes more sense. When I started writing them, they were all going to be separate stories, but I thought it would be easier to just bunch them all together. Sorry for the confusion.

Tommy and Kwest had spent countless hours in the studio making the song he was now listening to. But Tommy knew that something was still missing, and he could hear the tune in his head, one that had replaced her haunting words, a song that she had given to him so many years ago. He could almost picture her in the studio laying it down by herself, something that he was doing to do for her now.

If we walk away now
There's no turning around
Gotta say what I mean
While you're here with me
I'm not sure I'll find words
To cover the hurt
That I see in your eyes
But I gotta try

He knew that she wasn't there with him, and he wasn't even sure how he was going to get this to her, but this was the only thing he could do now. The only way that he could tell her.

"What?" Sadie asked, not looking up from her desk.

"Where's Jude?" Tommy asked, sitting down across from her.

"Excuse me?" she looked up from her papers.

"I need to find her Sadie, I need to give her something." Tommy sighed. He knew this was wrong, he shouldn't have come to ask where she was.

"She doesn't want to come to your wedding Tom, so save the invitation for a scrap book." Sadie shook her head looking back down at her papers.

"If she had any common sense she'd be there." Tommy rolled his eyes at her comment.

Sadie slammed her pen down hard on her desk, looking back up at him with fire in her eyes.

"It would prove to the tabloids that she's not on this break because of my wedding." Tommy quickly saw that he had crossed a line.

"Tommy, want to know a secret, since you're the only one that doesn't seem to get it?" Sadie asked, pushing herself back from her desk, and going around her desk to stand in front of him. "She is taking a break because of you." She shoved her finger into her chest. "So don't come and ask me where to find my sister!"

Tommy stepped back from her, holding up his hands in a sign of peace. He didn't want to fight with her, and he didn't want to hear what she was saying to him.

"Please." He knew that this was the one time to use all the real emotions that he was feeling, the confusion and pain he felt. He could only hope that if Sadie could see that, then she would help him.

"Even if I knew where she was, I wouldn't tell you." Sadie shook her head before going back to her desk. "And don't' bother asking Speid or Jamie. She's made her clear she wants a break, from everything."

"Someone will tell me." He said turning to leave her office in a hurry.

"Oh no you don't Tom." She quickly followed behind him. "Leave her be!"

"I just need to see her!" he whispered harshly at her when she grabbed his arm, trying to stop him.

"Tommy?" A small voice asked, one that brought him back to where he was, where he should be.

I know rocks turn to sand
And hearts can change hands
And you're not to blame
When the sky fills with rain
But if we stay or walk away
There's one thing that's true
I still love you
I still love you

No one would tell him anything, he couldn't find her, and the people he had through were friends, weren't being very friendly on the matter of Jude. He had taken to looking through her fan sites, to see where she had last been spotted. He knew it was ridiculous, but it was his last hope at finding her, and putting his mind to rest. But he had been lucky, he found a post along with a picture. Jude had been spotted at the airport just a few days ago. She was back in Toronto.

"Haha." Tommy laughed sitting down at the table next to Kwest. "She's in Toronto."

"Who?" Kwest asked, looking up from his computer.

"Jude, Sadie refused to tell me where she was." Tommy smiled, soon this would be over.

"Well yeah, I could have told you that." Kwest said shaking his head.

"What?" Tommy asked.

"Tommy?" Lilly's voice called from his front door.

"In the kitchen." He called back, still glaring at Kwest.

"Oh, Kwest, I didn't know you were here. I didn't think we'd see you until the wedding." The girl smiled carrying in a black garment bag.

"What do you mean you didn't know he was here, didn't you call him?" Tommy said kissing her cheek before continuing to glare at his friend.

"No, but I got your tux for this weekend, I've got to head to the flower shop, and pick up some stuff for my shoot later." She gave him another quick kiss before leaving the kitchen with a small wave to Kwest. "Bye!"

"She didn't call you?" Tommy asked, closing Kwest's computer. Tommy could tell from the look in his eyes that Kwest was holding back a lot more than he should. "Who told you." It wasn't a question, it was a demand, one that put their friendship on the line.

"Man, she called after seeing a picture of you. She was worried, and I don't blame her." Kwest sighed. "She didn't want me to say anything, in fact she asked me not to say anything. I respect her enough to do that."

"You've known where she was this whole time." Tommy shook his head. He had been so sure that Lilly had been the one to call his friend, the one that was looking out for him. But to find out that it was her, the one girl that he couldn't stop thinking about.

"She's leaving next week, going to Asia." Kwest told him. "But before you ask, I don't know where she's at, we've only emailed a few times. I'll ask her if I can send her something, cause I doubt she'd open anything from you."

Can you search down inside
Let go of your pride?
If I forget trying to win
And just let you in
I didn't travel this far
To watch it all fall apart
So give me your hand
And take a chance

He stared down at the number. He knew it was all he had to go off now. Kwest had tried to send her the cd, the mix of songs that he hoped would explain everything, but he had no way of knowing if she had gotten them, or actually listened to them.

The small silver phone in his hand felt hot, almost like it was going to burn him. And he knew that it was wrong to do this, to stand in Sadie's office and use her phone. But they had all left him with no choice.

He watched at the screen quickly changed to a picture of Jude. He could hear the soft ring, and then her voice.

"Hey Sadie, sorry I didn't call you back yesterday, I went to that church by the house, the one we use to go to. It just helps me clear my head."

He couldn't say anything. He didn't know what to say to her. His stomach turned with guilt, but he couldn't help but smile, because he knew where she was.

"Sadie?" Jude asked. "If you pocket dialed me again, so help you, I'm going to call you in the middle of the night."

He couldn't help but chuckle at that, and he heard her take in a sharp breath.

"Tommy." She whispered.

He was ready to apologize, to say anything, but with his mouth hanging open, words ready, the phone clicked off.

I know rocks turn to sand
And hearts can change hands
And you're not to blame
When the sky fills with rain
But if we stay or walk away
There's one thing that's true
I still love you

Tommy stood looking up at the church, the large stone building was intimidating, with the statues, flowers, and everything else that made it look like a place of worship. When he had gotten married the first time he had been so drunk that he could hardly remember it the next day. And he was sure if it wasn't for all the liquid encouragement in his system that night, he never would have married Portia. But even that wedding hadn't taken place in a church. This wedding was real, and he could hear the vows in his head, the word forever seemed to scream at him. But a passing car brought him out of his thoughts.

He looked back around, seeing Lilly standing at the top of the stairs on her phone. She had picked the church, and he had mindlessly agreed to it, like he had with everything else. He didn't want to be bother with the wedding details, even before Jude's reappearance in his life. The wedding just seemed like the next thing to do, even if he was scared shitless. He could feel his muscles tense up as Lilly motioned for him to join her at the top of the stairs. He climbed them slowly, trying to think back to the last time he was in a church. But half way up, in mid step he stopped. The last church he was in was with Jude. They had gone to look for places to record her third album, the one she later ruined, and he had to remix. He had admitting to loving her in that church, they had started in a church.

He was frozen now looking up at his future wife, while his mind pictured Jude standing there instead, waiting for him. It was easier to climb the stairs thinking it was her, he would go anywhere with her, or for her. But when Lilly's voice broke his thoughts he had to kick himself as his stomach filled with guilt. He shouldn't be thinking about Jude. He was going to marry Lilly.

Riding with me as close as before
Whatever happens, I won't ask for more
Here in my heart from now 'til the end
Flame out or fly, we have to try again

"If she's leaving, what are you doing here?" It felt like everything around him paused at her words. He couldn't have heard her right. But as he looked into her eyes.

"But-" he wanted to explain things to her, to try and make everything better.

"I know, it's okay." She cut her off. To Tommy she seemed unnaturally calm, almost like she had seen it coming from the very beginning, and maybe she had. But it was so hard to look at her. He had promised her so many things, and here is was, taking them all back, and she was encouraging him to do it.

But he felt like the weight had all been lifted from his shoulder. He suddenly didn't feel angry anymore, all of the frustration he had was gone, making him feel like him again. The voices in his head were silent for the first time in months, and he couldn't hear Jude's haunting song. Lilly was freeing him, freeing him from everything he had been feeling guilty over.

He pressed his lips to her forehead, he wanted for comfort her, to make her feel better. But he couldn't do anything for her. She had given him everything, and he was taking everything from her. "Thank you." He whispered before getting up and quickly leaving her there. He couldn't watch as she broke down, realizing what her words meant.

All he could do was look for her, for Jude. Just like at her birthday, all he could do was think about her, and how much pain she was in. at her party he was worried about her, thinking that something had happened, something to make her want to leave her music. He hadn't once thought that it could have been him. But now he was looking for her for a different reason. Now he wanted to take away all her pain, and hold her in his arms. He wanted to kiss away her tears, and breathe her in. The idea of going to a church with her wasn't terrifying.

I still
I know rocks turn to sand
And hearts can change hands
And you're not to blame
When the sky fills with rain
But if we stay or walk away
There's one thing that's true
I still love you
Yeah, I still love you

If we stay or walk away
There's one thing that's true
I still love you
I still love you