An: So I got my laptop back and I am in complete bliss! Here is your chapter! I hope you guys like it! It took a lot out of me. There is a part where you should listen to a song, well I thought it went well. Enjoy the chapter and please review! I don't know that you like it if you don't review!
xXx Layla's mommy 3
T woke up with a hangover, in a bed wearing a shirt she was pretty sure belonged to Happy. As she tried to move she felt an arm tighten around her. Looking down she saw the tan, tattooed arm and knew right away she was in Happy's dorm. T laid still for a moment trying to remember last night. She remembered finding Hap with the whore on his lap, she remembered fighting him, she knew she fucked the girl up and that she spilled her guts to Mac in her car. Oh yeah and after that Jonny joined them in the car with a bottle of Jack, T was pretty sure she drank the whole bottle while Mac retold Jonny the story.
T flung Happy's arm off of her and sat up, causing him to lazily open his eyes and look at her. "Morning babe." He said with a slow smiling creeping onto his face. T ignored him as she climbed out of bed. She had finally had it all figured out, until she caught Hap with that whore playing happy biker family. That pissed her off and she knew had she been in her right mind last night she wouldn't of ended up in bed with him. It was one thing to fuck while he was on the road and he was Nomad so he was on the road a lot, but to shack up with some bitch at her club house, that was wrong. She could of fucked Jay, or Seth and in fact she had wanted to do both but she didn't because she didn't want to hurt Happy. What a load of crap that turned out to be. She knew in her heart at some point she would forgive him but right now she just didnt have it in her.
T searched around for her clothes, stripping off Happy's shirt glad to find her panties were still on a tell tale sign that she didn't fuck him last night. She didn't want to touch him, not after that whore had slobbed all over his cock with her nasty mouth and cooter. She didn't even glace back at him while she dressed, not even as she heard the bed squeak from him sitting up. She pulled her shirt over her head and walked towards Hap's pants. Picking them up she pulled out her keys. Shoes in hand she walked towards the door, not stopping even as she heard Happy's voice call out to her, she scooped her bag up and opened the door. She was sure that Happy would follow her but at the moment her head was pounding and she wanted nothing more than to go home and go back to bed. She would call Mac and Jonny later to get the whole story on the rest of what happened last night.
T ignored all of the guys who looked at her as she walked into the main room of the clubhouse. She didn't smile or nod or anything she just kept her eyes on the door. Jonny stepped into her line of vision, a bottle of water and a cigarette already lit and held them out to her. She took them from him and gave him a slight smile. he handed her a shirt that was hanging off the back of a chair.
"Your bloody and look like shit. I'm sure your destination is home not the police station." He said with his trade mark smirk.
T hit the cigarette a couple times before handing it to Jonny and sliding the shirt over her head. She took it back from him once the shirt was on. She gave him a hug and walked out the door, not looking back even though she could hear someone following her. The sun was bright in her face and hurt her head even more. She unlocked the door and climbed into the car. As she was fishing threw her bag for sunglasses she heard a knock at the window. Happy was standing there, his hand on the door handle. She looked at him and shook her head as she slid the shades on. His dark eyes looked open, almost like he was trying to show her his soul. She didn't say anything as she started the car, Hap did the unexpected than. He stepped away from the car, T pulled out of the lot but when she looked back, he was still standing there staring after her. He's chest covered in tats and scars, his jeans hung low. T thought that for once Hap looked normal, not like the killer he usually was. And for the first time since she woke up she really wondered what the hell got said last night.
-LK-
Mac stayed seated as he watched T come out of Hap's room. He said nothing as he handed Jonny a bottle of water and a cigarette for her. T had opened up last night and Mac knew better than to push her. He didn't hear all of her and Hap's conversation but he also didn't hear fighting or moaning or head board banging once they went into his room either. He heard T's voice sounding soft and venerable and Hap's voice tender and calming in reply. That was a new thing for them, together or apart. She didn't even sound like that when she told him about Seth and Carolina.
Mac watched the whole exchange between Jonny and T he saw their relationship rebuilding itself, again. The pair of them and their relationship had changed a lot of different times for a lot of different reasons since T had moved here. The first being when T got close to Koz, the next when T went to Juvie, again when Sarah had Junior, when T became the little killer and the last being when all the Hap-T-Koz drama went down. Mac had never seen two family members as close as those two, go through as much as they had and still have room to grow and change. They would repair their relationship and be closer because of it. Cousins by blood but brother and sister by life, that was a saying they had and Mac was surprised that there wasn't a tattoo to follow it.
Mac wasn't surprised to see Hap come out of his room or that he followed T out to her car. Mac could tell that they hadn't talked yet, which meant that T didn't remember much after drinking that whole bottle of Jack. She would though, she always did after enough sleep and time to think. Mac would keep his phone by him all day because at some point T would call for clarifying details of the previous night. Mac looked out the window and as he did, he watched Hap step away from T's car. He was impressed that Hap wasn't forcing her to talk to him, he was giving her space to get her thoughts together before they talked. Their talk last night must have been good for Happy, and hopefully their relationship would prosper from it. A lot must have been said the night before, and by the look on Hap's face, Mac knew he was right.
-LK-
Happy couldn't get last night out of his head. He held T tight to him all night, spooning and cuddling in a way he never had before. T had never been an emotional drunk but after spilling her guts to Mac about that Carolina biker dude, she spilt her guts to Hap about everything that had to do with him. Some of the shit she said hurt him bad, in a way only his momma had ever been able to do. Some of it made him feel like he was on cloud nine and some of it just made him feel confused. T had been lost for a long time, in so many different ways that Hap was surprised she found a way up. One conversation stuck with him the most though because even though he was a bad ass killing biker machine, it made him want to cry.
"That girl, Happy she might not of meant shit to you but what she had is what I want. She had my life, she lived my life I don't care that it was only for three weeks. She got to be laid up in a house with you, cooking and cleaning and laundry. She got to wake up to you in the morning, doesn't matter that yo0u didn't cuddle with her. That bitch, that whore she had my life Hap. She was acting like she was me, she had you and status and whatever the fuck. You gave that to her, you gave my life away. That's what fucking hurts Hap. You got jealous and tossed me aside like I didn't fucking matter."
Hap had been speechless after that, because he wasn't sure what to say. He didn't see that way and that was all he could tell her
"No one replaces you T, no guy who has ever loved you can replace you. Koz and Maria are happy and good together but she doesn't replace you, that biker dudes baby momma didn't replace you and no one will replace you for D. Being with her was never even a thought, I knew once you came home that it would be us, living in a house, you I was waking up to."
"Doesn't matter Hap, that's what she thought. It don't matter how many times you told her different because you were showing her different. Your nomad, you fuck around on the road. I know that, but this is my home Hap, you don't fuck around on me here."
Hap wanted to get mad at her for trying to boss him around but as he thought it over again he realized that what she said should be true. What she said was true. He disrespected her in the hugest way possible and that might be something she wont be able to forgive. Hap remembered leaning in and whispering in her ear "I love you, only you." T's reply almost killed him
"I don't know if I can forgive you Happy. I wanted to be happy, together but I just don't know if I can."
Just thinking about that caused Hap to slam the door to his dorm, he was so lost in thought he didn't even realize that he walked in the clubhouse and into his room. He was trying to do the right thing when he stepped away from T's car and let her drive off but he had a sinking feeling in his stomach that he might never see her again, that she might never forgive him and if she didn't, Hap knew he would never forgive himself.
-LK-
Maria felt nervous as she entered the main room of the clubhouse. There were people sitting around, the guys all watching TV, playing pool and whatever else it was they did normally. It felt tense in the room though. She felt their eyes on her and for the first time since becoming Koz's old lady, she felt unwelcome and out of place. She didn't say anything as she heard a door slam and from just looking over the room, she knew that it was Happy. Spotting Koz, the worry written on his face made Maria's mood sink even lower. Even Koz's arms wrapped around her couldn't make her feel better. When shit with T was rough, everyone was in a bad mood. Maria knew that it was because of her other girls thought that they could get away with more. She was worried about how that was going to affect Koz more so than how it would affect her.
"Don't worry baby. Shit will blow over." Koz whispered to her. His arms were wrapped tightly around her but she still felt like she was alone and open."Besides, you proved yourself last night" He added. That made her getting a sick feeling in her stomach.
She had a huge feeling that once they left the clubhouse with a bloody and passed out Rachel that her hands wouldn't be clean anymore. Just thinking of what they did the night before made her want to puke. Rachel had pushed too hard, got in too deep and even though Maria had warned her, she still felt like there was more she could of done to save the girl. Even though Maria felt bad, she knew that it could have just as easily been her that wouldn't be waking up anytime soon. They didn't kill her but they weren't to sure that she would survive either. Rachel was in a hospital room, with a serious concussion and the Doctors said that if she woke up she would have some serious memory loss. It was the only way to make sure that she wasn't killed but Maria didn't like it. Rachel wouldn't remember the sons or T or any of them. Maybe though, she was better off, being an old lady wasn't easy. It was scary, dangerous and unpredictable. Maria didn't know how T could handle being as large of a part of that life as she was.
-LK-
Koz was worried about T, Happy and Maria. Even with his arms wrapped tightly around Maria, he still felt like she was going to disappear. T wouldn't let that happen though, and Koz took comfort in that. Maria had proved herself last night and even if some of the guys still worried about it, no one would go against T's wishes. T was a force to be reckoned with and the only man in this club who would willingly stand up to her was Hap. Koz figured that as long as Maria still had T's respect she was safe from harm, even from other clubs. No one would mess with T because while she loved her guys, she would kill them in a heartbeat if need be, even Happy and Jonny. Koz still loved her, in fact he was sure that every man who had ever loved her still did. She was like that though, no one ever forgot her, no one ever replaced her and no one could ever be compared to her. She was in a category all her own, no one could ever compete with that.
While Koz was sure T knew the power she held over them, she never misused it. She took care of her own, something that had to be a West family trait because Jonny was the same. Koz looked towards Hap's dorm. He was worried that Hap had fucked shit with T up for good this time. Koz knew that Hap would never survive without T, at least not really. He would be alive but he wouldn't be living, T was his soul and without her, Hap would go off the deep end. Koz didn't want to watch his best friend go down that road. As always, it was up to him and Mac to fix this shit. Jonny was way past done trying to save them, and Hap was in a bad place with T. Whatever they talked about the night before must not of fixed shit or T would still be in Hap's bed.
Koz looked across the room to where Mac was sitting. He nodded his head and after a nod back, he knew that they were in business. Operation save T and Hap was about to go underway. Koz just hoped that they all survived trying to fix it.
-LK-
T ignored her phone, she was still tired and she had a meeting with the girls and their boss in a couple hours. She didn't feel like dealing with club drama or relationship drama or even as much as it hurt her to say, Ana's school drama. T just wanted to lay in bed and pretend that everything was going to work out the way she wanted it too. After an hour of trying to fall back asleep, she got out of bed and headed for a shower. Once showered, with her hair done she put on her heels and slacks with a nice button up shirt and a jacket. She wasn't surprised that Lonnie and Marcy were in the living room waiting for her, dressed the same way as she had.
"Ready to be a team again?" T asked her girls.
They both nodded. T smiled at them and scooped up her purse. It was time to grow up and get a real job. After all she couldn't kill people forever.
-LK-
It had been three days since anyone talked to T, Mac was sure she must of remembered a lot from the night she came home. She didn't even call and ask him about anything. Mac had gotten a little out of Happy and Koz got a little more but they still were not sure how to fix it. Mac pulled his phone out of his pocket and called T again. This time he listened to the voicemail instead of hanging up. Gone was the automated voice saying the number and to leave a message, instead he heard T's voice.
"You have reached Taylor West, I am unable to answer the phone currently. Leave me a brief message with your name and number to be reached at and I will return your call as soon as I am able. Thank you and have a great day."
Mac couldn't help it, he started to laugh. All of the men turned to him, wondering if maybe he had gone crazy.
"Anybody tried to reach T on her normal cell, not the burner?" Mac asked
Happy, Koz and Jonny nodded while the rest shook their heads. "Did you listen to her voicemail?" he asked
"Nope, I didn't think leaving a message would get me anywhere." Koz replied.
"I think our little killer went legit." Mac replied, laughing again at the shock on all of their faces.
-LK-
Ana was excited when her aunt pulled up to get her from school, instead of taking the bus. While she had been talking to her and texting with her everyday it had been since they got back from the trip since she had seen her. Ana dug her sunglasses out of her bag before climbing in. Once in the car she turned to her aunt and smiled. T had told Ana that she was doing the CSI work with her girls but looking at her aunt it was obvious that a lot had changed in the past four days. T's hair was down and in its usual curls but she had on dress pants with a cute cami, Ana spotted the jacket in the back.
"Wow, you look professional!" Ana said
T smiled at her "It looks funny on me huh?" she asked with a laugh.
"No, you look nice. Its just different, kinda like the cowboy boots and hat when we were in Carolina." Ana replied.
T nodded "Text your mom and tell her I picked you up so she doesn't worry when you don't get off the bus. Lets go get some food."
Ana took her phone out of her bag and opened it to text her mom. T turned the radio up as she sped down the main road. Ana didn't even ask where they were going, she was just happy to be back with her aunt.
-LK-
T had enjoyed spending the day with Ana, catching up on all the school drama she had missed, how classes were and which teachers she liked the most. T shared a little about work, mostly just saying that she liked working with her girls again, which was true. T didn't like the job much though. She missed her free time, she missed being wild and she missed the guys. She wouldn't admit it to anyone but T didn't think she was cut out to be a normal person, in fact she knew that she wasn't. Not that anyone she worked with would agree, T was already promoted to being the lead investigator of her team, which held ten people. She was the leader, she always had been a leader but this time something just wasn't sitting right. She felt like she was missing something. She knew it was more than just Happy, even though her heart hurt when she thought of him, she had been avoiding him and the rest of them for the past couple of days. Not just because she was mad at him, but because she felt like she was a traitor.
After all she was supposed to be the little killer, and here she was working for the law, wearing a suit and talking all proper. She let her accent come out more than her slang, but she felt like an imposter all the same. She was supposed to stand by her guys, by their woman and by Ana. She had pushed it all to the back burner when she started the job, but she knew she shouldn't have. In trying to squash the killer part of herself, she felt empty. She still had her skills no doubt, she was sure that they weren't even rusty but she felt… less of a person than she normally did. While she knew her job could be looked at as a good thing in case the Sons so happened to fall in with the law, she couldn't see it that way. She only saw it as a betrayal.
T pulled into the driveway, she wasn't surprised that Sarah was walking towards the car of that Jonny was blocking her in the drive.
"The guys wanna talk to you sis." Sarah said as she leaned in and gave T a kiss on the cheek before picking up Junior. T held her hands out of the window and took Junior in her lap and gave him a hug and a kiss.
"Yeah I figured that by Jonny blocking me in, wouldn't surprise me if he had a couple guys waiting to box me in so that I actually go to the clubhouse." T said with a shake of her head before telling Junior she loved him and handed him back.
"They just worry. We all do." Sarah replied as T shifted into reverse.
"I know, but I am no longer the girl I was when I first came here. You guys need to realize that I grew up." T added before waving out her window for Jonny to move back. She rolled the window up before Sarah could add anything else.
T turned right on to the main road and headed for the shop. She knew that Jonny was tailing her and she noticed a couple of the other guys were on either side of her. She pulled into the lot and parked. As she turned her car off and opened the door she heard the guys turn off their bikes. T wasn't happy with being dressed the way she was at the clubhouse but it wasn't like they gave her much choice, at least she still had her boots on. She lit up a smoke as she walked towards where Jonny was waiting for her.
"You could of called and told me to come by. I would have, I'm not hiding." T said as Jonny put his arm around her shoulders.
"The past twenty unanswered phone calls say different sis." He replied.
T rolled her eyes behind her sunglasses, this was ridiculous. She had a job and other shit to worry about besides club drama, but she knew in heart that the club was still number three. Right after Ana and Junior and her girls, her job didn't even rank in the top ten things that mattered. And if that wasn't a clue that shit was twisted she wasn't sure how much bigger of a sign she would need.
-LK-
Mac watched T from his bike, she still walked with her usual grace and confidence but it seemed as if she was weighed down slightly. Something Mac had hardly ever seen. T never crumpled under pressure, no matter where it came from or what she was facing. That was just her way. Even though the sun was setting Mac noticed she kept her eyes still hidden behind her shades, another T trait. They would stay in place until she gained her killer composure and nothing would be able to be seen. To everyone, T seemed to be confident and cool, but Mac always knew she used the time behind her shades to achieve that. He joined T and Jonny when they neared his bike.
"Hows it going baby?" Mac asked her as he leaned in for a hug. He felt T's embrace, it was warm and inviting and held something that Mac couldn't place a name too. He was sure that it was something very not T like.
"Still trying to figure shit out ya know?" She replied with a smile.
Mac nodded in response as he looked her over. T was always a looker, with that perfectly shaped body, the long dark hair and brown eyes that everyone swore went right to your soul. While she looked nice in what Mac could only assume were her work clothes, they looked out of place on her. The dress pants, were something he was pretty sure no one had ever seen her wear, the tank top thing was normal but looked more upscale that what she usually wore. She looked professional and that was… well different.
"Yeah, yeah I know. What the fuck am I wearing. It looks funny right?" She asked, causing Mac to realize he had been staring for too long.
"Just different is all." Mac replied.
T nodded her head but made no reply causing Mac to think that she was way more uncomfortable than she lead on. T turned on them than and walked towards the clubhouse.
"She never was one for beating around the bush." Jonny said as he started after her. Mac nodded in response and while he still couldn't place it, something felt off.
-LK-
Maria clung tightly to Koz as they all awaited T's arrival. She didn't know where she stood with her and that worried the shit out of her. Because even though she would never admit it, Maria would rather be on the bad side of a lot of different club members than T. If T wanted her gone there would be no 'respect the brotherhood' it would just be done, on her terms with or without the club. That was just T's way. Maria had no ideals that going legit would change the woman, in fact Maria was sure that it would only make her be more careful. Maria knew though, that no one would miss her but Koz.
She held her breath as the club door opened, while she sat by Koz's side and tried to act like she had no fear, she was sure she looked freaked out. Everyone looked towards the door as T strolled in. She looked different in business clothes but you could tell she was still the same scary ass woman. Maria watched as T scanned the room, and though Maria couldn't see T's eyes she was sure they stopped on her. No one said anything as T approached them, and Maria felt like doomsday was approaching. She just hoped that she survived.
-LK-
As she walked into the clubhouse the smell of beer, smoke, man and grossly enough pussy, comforted her, for the first time in days she felt at home. She scanned the room, looking for Hap and Koz. While she didn't see Hap any where she did see Koz and Maria. T wanted to laugh at the fear that was displayed on Maria's face but she didn't think that the woman would find it funny. While T approached the pair, she noticed Maria's unease grow. T racked her brain for what would of caused that affect and realized it probably had something to do with the sweet butt thing. T figured she should fix that.
"Maria, I'm not going to kill you, so stop looking at me like your waiting for me to pull out my gun." T commented when she was in front of them. Koz laughed, but T noticed Maria's sigh of relief. She saw Maria nod and Koz pat her hand, T knew than and there the Maria had been worrying about it for awhile.
"If you were so worried, you could of called. I would of put your mind at ease days ago. " T added before turning to Koz and flipping her shades up. She leaned towards him and kissed his cheek.
"I told her there was nothing to worry about but everyone has been on edge since you and Hap, whatever the fuck it is that happened between you too. They guys have been acting like dicks. Making her feel uncomfortable and shit, I think everyone was waiting on your word before allowing her into the fold." Koz replied with a smile
T shook her head, while she knew she wasn't an actual member of the club, she did control all of the women involved. She just didn't figure that anyone would have had a problem if she didn't. "I guess I should of made myself clear then, you guys are happy, I'm happy for you. This no longer includes me. As long as your not shaking up with Hap, I really don't care." T replied
She watched as Koz got a nervous look on his face and began looking around. T took that as a cue to look around as well. She noticed a sweet butt stumble out of the hallway, her haired dyed in what she assumed was a horrible copy of her own. She watched the hallway as Hap came out after her, zipping his pants close. As she meet his eyes, she turned cold. She saw the girl out of the corner of her eye looking scared and quickly making an exit out of the door. T let out a huge sigh and turned back towards Koz, who was glaring daggers over her head.
"So" Koz said tearing his eyes away from happy. "Hows it feel being legit."
T shrugged "Feels nice to work with the girls again, I already got promoted to being team leader." T replied in a monotone. She didn't want to let her anger at Happy out. She was tired of feeling like she was in an episode of Biker and restless. She didn't want to be the soap opera anymore. She wanted to go back to normal or what was as close to normal as she knew. It didn't include these clothes with a 9-5 job, no matter how good it paid. She wanted to be back in the shop office, taking calls, arranging tows and ordering lunches. She wanted to be out there on the back of a bike, she wanted to pull her trigger at a paper target or a real one. She wanted that back but she didn't know how to get it back. She gave up Koz to Maria, she scared D into hating her, and Hap couldn't figure out how to keep it in his pants. She supposed there was always Carolina but she didn't want to go there yet. She still had time to figure shit out, before she had to make a decision. Daddy was still well enough to oversee the farm and the horses, she still had time to figure shit out.
-LK-
Hap said nothing as his hand wrapped around the sweet butts hair, it was dyed the same color as T's and for a moment her imagined it was her. he quickly got rid of the delusion and forced his cock further down the bitches throat in a way he would never do with T. He knew that he shouldn't be doing this, he shouldn't be with another bitch, T was bound to show up at the clubhouse soon and he should be ready to face her wrath and hope for forgiveness and some awesome make up sex, but for some reason when the bitch offered him a blow job he couldn't turn her down. After he came half in her mouth and half on her face he stood her up and pushed her toward the door. She need to get gone before T saw her and fucked her up too.
As Happy walked out of the hallway and into the main room, he finished zipping his pants and looked up. His eyes connected with T's and he immideatly knew that he had been caught. He saw the pain in her eyes even though it only lasted a moment before becoming the killer mask he had come to learn to hate. She turned her head back towards Koz and his chick. Hap ignored the death glares coming from Koz and just about everyone else and focused on T. She was dressed differently, but still as beautiful as always. While he wanted to go and throw her over his shoulder and drag her off to his dorm, he knew that it wouldn't go over well and that he might get shot. So he stood there, in front of the hallway and begged her with his mind to forgive him. Happy heard someone approach and looked over to see Mac.
"Really? You could wait until after she came? Damn it Hap. Me and Koz are trying to fix shit, you make that impossible you know? T will only forgive so much and I think you might be over your limit. Get it together fast or give the fuck up. I sure as hell wont put my balls on the line for you." Mac said, looking away from Hap and towards T.
Happy wanted to hit him for the look of love he wore in his eyes but he knew that it was stupid. A whole hell of a lot of men loved T. What it came down to was who she loved back, who she gave a chance too. Happy knew that he didn't have a lot of room for mistake left. He knew that Mac was right and that while he wanted T to forgive him for everything, he knew if the tables were turned he might not forgive her for anything.
"Women are way stronger than men." Hap replied as he headed back down the hall towards his dorm. He knew he better take a shower before going anywhere near T. Not that it would make much of a difference but he knew that it would show her he was at least putting towards an effort.
-LK-
Mac watched Hap walk towards his dorm. He shook his head before going and taking a seat next to T. He placed his hand across her shoulders and was pleasantly surprised when she leaned in. She took his free hand and squeezed tightly. He knew that T spilling her guts had changed their relationship. Mac felt like at the moment T was leaning on him for strength and when she whispered "Help me" He knew he was right. Mac stayed seated when T stood up and headed towards the bar. He waited for a couple moments before joining her. She had a bottle of Jack in front of her, Mac watched her take a swig of it as he took a seat next to her
"What do I do?" She asked him.
"You take a couple shots and head down to his dorm to talk to him. He's really fucked up without you. All those girls mean nothing but a release to him. He isn't shacking up with anyone, that's the first girl I have seen him with since you got home. He's been hiding in his room. We had to force him on a mission. While I know that being drunk isn't an excuse I'm pretty sure hes toasted." Mac replied.
T nodded in response and took a huge swig of the bottle. She lit up a cigarette and smoked it slowly. "I hate my job. I feel like a traitor, and imposter." T said after another drink from the bottle.
"All we want is for you to be happy baby girl." Mac replied.
-LK-
T nodded in response to Mac's words but she couldn't figure out what made her happy. Was it her girls? Or Ana? Was it Happy? Or the horses on daddy's farm? T didn't have an answer. At some point all of them made her feel happy, but at the same time they pissed her off just as easily, the girls with the pressure to join the job, daddy with his constant need to be in control and Happy with the fact that he kept fucking hurting her and she kept letting him. T took a long hit off of her smoke before putting it out. She took another drink from the bottle and stood up. She turned to walk to Hap's dorm. She took two steps before turning back around and grabbing the bottle off of the bar.
Fuck it, she needed something to give her the strength to do this. Might as well get drunk. She walked down the hallway and opened Hap's dorm room. She could still hear the shower going, instead of sitting on the bed, she walked into the bathroom and sat on the toilet. She was sure Hap knew she was there, racking her mind for the words to say she took another swig from the bottle.
"You break my heart Hap." She whispered, looking out the doorway and into his room. His bed looked inviting and while cuddling had never really been her or Haps thing she wanted nothing more than to lay there wrapped in him. She took another swig of the bottle before she heard him say anything.
"I know and I'm sorry." She heard him say quietly, she almost didn't hear it over the shower. She heard the shower turn off and while she wanted to turn towards him, she took another swig of the bottle again. She didn't care if she would have a hangover in the morning. She was off, well on call but she was hoping for the day to be her own. She didn't want to work, she wanted to lay in bed.
(Slide, goo goo dolls)
She tried her hardest to ignore her Hap's nakedness but she found herself attracted to the skin just above where the towel was. His back was strong and muscular, just the sight of his tattoos was turning her on. She missed the sex, she missed how it felt to scratch her nails down his back. All in all she just plain missed him. It didn't matter about all the fucked shit that had been happening with him and her, with the Jack clouding her thoughts. She had a feeling that she was going to regret it in the morning but right now she didn't care. She took another swig of the bottle before she stood up. She pulled the cami off and unhooked her bra. She walked towards Hap, his back still to her. She ran her nails down his back, before leaning over him. She felt her nipples harden against his back, she kissed his shoulder and ran her nails down his back again. She felt him shiver, before she pulled away from him. Hap turned around and as she looked into his eyes, she saw his hunger. The look gave her goose bumps and she felt her panties get wet, just the sight of him turned her on. She pulled on his towel and watched it drop, she ran her hands down his chest and used her nails as she ran them back up. Hap grabbed her by her pants and pulled her close to him. She tilted her head up and looked at him. He looked down at her and leaned in to kiss her. She let him devour her, in some part of her mind she felt him undoing her pants but she couldn't focus on anything but his lips on hers. Happy wrapped his arms around her and picked her up, she wrapped her legs around him as he walked them over to his bed. He dropped her off on the bed, she felt his hand on slide into her pants but was quickly distracted as he took her nipple in his mouth. She let out a loud moan, not giving a fuck who heard. She felt Happy pull her pants down her legs, she groaned from the loss of contact as Hap's mouth left her nipple and trailed in a path of kisses down her stomach as he pulled her pants off. His kisses trailed down her legs as he pulled her panties off. She felt herself begin to shake as he kissed his way back up towards her pussy. She wanted him to suck her clit, she wanted him to make her cum before he slammed into her, she was turned on more than she could believe. She moaned loudly as his mouth connected with her lower lips. She lost all train of thought as he devoured her, kissing, licking and biting her. She felt her climax approach she heard herself moan out "Don't stop Happy, never stop." As she felt the rush of her orgasm take over, she almost screamed. She might have screamed she wasn't sure, but she felt herself let go. She felt Happy's body lay on top of hers, still in her haze, she felt his hand slide across her cheeks, wiping away her tears. She's felt the wetness around her eyes but she wanted to deny the fact that she could actually be crying. She felt Hap lean down and whisper in her ear as he slid inside of her
"I'm sorry, oh god I am sorry. I love you T, forgive me. Please forgive me."
He cut off any reply, before she could even think of one as he kissed her. She wrapped her legs around him as he started to pick up pace. She moaned and groaned as he slammed into her. She knew she was digging her hands hard into his back and that in the morning he would have marks. He didn't seem to notice or care, his pounding never stopping, she didn't want him to. She wanted to live in this moment forever. She wanted to lay with him, she wanted to be wrapped in him, she felt more complete with him than anytime else. She let her legs fall away and Happy pulled back, she didn't say anything as he looked at her, she didn't do anything but moan louder as his hand gripped her thigh tightly. Her moans got louder as he started to twist and pinch her nipples. He was wrapped into her, she was his world and when he was inside of her he felt complete. He felt untouchable, and even after he came he would want to stay next to her he wanted to stay inside of her. He looked down on her, underneath him and he couldn't help but to feel like this moment wasn't going to last forever like he wanted. As he felt his orgasm approach he let all thoughts of the future disappear. All he could feel was her pussy tightening around his dick, all he could feel was the rush. After it was over and he layed upon her, she hand running nicely over all the scratches she made, he prayed up to the stars that something would happen. That something this time would change it all. That he would get T, that she would be his. He felt like he sounded like a bitch, but he wanted a happily ever after with the only woman in the world he had ever loved and would ever love….
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