So I'm back, hope I didn't lose all of you guys! As always I own nothing except the T and her people and my story line. And I don't have a beta, never have so all mistakes are my fault. It's a little hard to edit your own stuff. Lol
T woke up with a shortness of breath, she felt like she was being crushed. As she moved her arms she realized that they were wrapped around some ones back. She ran her hands lightly down his back, she wasn't so drunk the night before that she didn't remember what happened. Happy, she had amazing sex with Happy, again. She wasn't sure why he felt the need to sleep on top of her, but for the minute she didn't want to worry about it. She kept running her hands down his back. She could feel where she scratched him the night before, some of them were deep in a way she was positive that they had to be painful. She could hear him breathing next to her ear. She wasn't sure what to do, she knew that she couldn't go back but she wasn't sure if she how to move forward. She would always love Happy, just like she would always love Seth but she wasn't sure if she could find it in her to let it all go and she knew that for shit to work out she needed to.
So much had changed over the course of a single summer. Her life kept flipping, she constantly felt drowned. She could see the light above the water but she couldn't figure out how to swim towards it. T took a deep breath, which she was glad for when Happy shifted and crushed her lungs again. She couldn't figure out how she slept like that all night. Happy could sleep anywhere, in any position so she wasn't surprised that he still hadn't woken up. She was thinking about just shoving him on the ground when a phone went off. She laughed as Happy's head flung up quickly, she ignored the smirk that he gave her as he rolled off of her to grab his phone. She waited a few seconds before getting up, to make sure that he was paying more attention to the phone than her. She grabbed her clothes and headed for the bathroom. She could hear Happy's voice getting louder through the bathroom door. He was arguing with someone, but T couldn't really find it in her to care about why. Before, when she was submersed in the club drama, every raised voice and argument had meaning to her. She felt bothered that her first thought wasn't what the hell is going on, but instead it was cant he shut the fuck up?
After she used the toilet, she pulled her pants and her cami. She slipped her heels back on and looked in the mirror. She looked closely at herself, she looked the same but she felt like an imposter still. Not even last night with Happy would get her mind off of her current problems. She pulled her hair up into a messy up do. It looked better than the birds nest that it was before. She was jarred from the mirror by Happy pounding on the door.
"come on T, I got shit to do." He called through the door.
She looked at the door for a moment before grabbing her purse and sliding her shades on. She flung the door open and walked out. Hap stepped in front of her. As he reached for her glasses, she smacked his hand away.
"Well, you wanted me out. Go do your shit." She said walking around him.
"We still need to talk T." He said to her back as she walked away. As she reached the door she turned around and looked at Happy. He was still naked, a sight that usually distracted her.
"Isnt this a turn of events, Happy actually wanting to talk?" She said in a smart tone before turning the knob and walking out. Not even bothering to close the door behind her. She knew that she was pushing him, but at the current moment she couldn't find it in her to care. She was too lost to find her way to the surface and with the way life was going, she wasn't sure she wanted to. Never before did she believe a day would come that would make her want to pull away from the club. Shaking her head, she picked her pace. She smiled and nodded at everyone who took the time to do so first but all that was running through her head, was she needed to get the fuck out of there.
-LK-
Happy stared at the still open door for a moment before walking over and slamming it closed. He walked around the bed to grab some clothes when he something pink caught his eye. He walked over to it slowly, the closer he got the more he was sure of what he was about to find. He reached down and picked the pink garment up. It was T's panties. The fabric, the style, the whole damn thing reminded Hap of the days before everything went to shit. T used to leave her panties in his room all the time, always in a random spot. Sometimes just sticking out slightly from under the bed, sometimes on his bathroom door knob, his pillow, and one time he found them hanging from his ceiling fan. He couldn't help it, he started to laugh. He opened his dresser drawer and threw the panties in with the huge pile already there. He closed the drawer before going through the rest of his dresser for clothes for the day. He was glad for finding her underwear, the memory put him in a good mood.
As he walked out into the main room he ignored the looks from his brothers, all of their eyes held questions. Happy couldn't answer them, even if he wanted too. Which he didn't. He walked outside to find Jonny, to let him know he needed to make a run for Glen. He spotted T, standing at her car smoking a cigarette and talking to Mac and Koz instead of having already left like he thought. Happy could tell it was some what of a heated argument because Koz was using his hands a lot as he talked and T was standing in a defensive position. Even though he couldn't see her eyes, he could read her body and he was pretty sure that if Koz didn't stop soon her defense was going to turn into offense. Happy tilted his head slightly when he saw T relax, Mac had said something to calm her in a way no one could do, except for Ana and Junior. Just their presence was like a soothing balm to T's killer instincts.
"What do you think they are taking about?" Hap heard a female voice ask.
He turned only to find Maria standing next to him, watching the threesome as well. Happy could see the worry and slight jealousy in her eyes. He shrugged his shoulder, as Maria tapped her foot on the ground. They watched for a few more seconds before Hap couldn't take her foot tapping anymore.
"Look, your going to have to get real used to not being in on a lot of shit. T, Koz and me, we have the type of bond that cant really be broken, even if one of us wishes it so. And more times than you think, we do wish that it didn't exist. She doesn't want him, shes happy hes with you, but don't go getting all jealous because T will kill you, with or without Koz's permission if you get on her bad side." Hap said to her before turning and walking away. Time was wasting and since he had to get out of bed with T and deal with her being a bitch, again. He better fucking get to hurt somebody.
-LK-
Maria stared after Happy with a look of shock on her face. He hardly ever said anything to her, and the fact that he just gave her a mouthful came as a shock. It took a moment for his words to sink in. Once they had, she wished that he wouldn't of spoken to her. She knew that legit or not, T still was in control of all the women involved in the club. Sarah may be the head old lady but T was the enforcer. Sarah could get her hands dirty but she never had too. T did all of that, T beat the shit out of sweet butts caught trying to fuck the wrong man, T made sure everyone knew their place, was taken care of and she was damn good at it. Maria shook her head. She and T were good, she wasn't going to kill her. Koz loved her and the club was starting to accept her. Her life was good, but she couldn't help but be jealous at the scene in front of her. T was a larger part of the club than she would ever be, and her bond with Koz was stronger than Marias would ever be as well. She couldn't help but be jealous that she would never be number one in Koz's heart. Maria let out a sigh before looking down at the paper in her hand. She had just gotten it back. It was now or never, and maybe just maybe, this would push T out. Just a little bit.
-LK-
T stood there staring at Koz and Mac who had ambushed her as she was trying to leave. At least Koz was done talking because T felt that she was for sure about to smack him. Mac must have noticed because he stopped Koz before he went any further. They were laughing when T heard the heels on the pavement. She looked towards the noise. Maria was walking towards them. T gave her a slight smile before turning back to Mac and their conversation. She was just about to ask Koz a question when she saw the paper fall from his hand. T scooped it up. She looked it over before she flipped her sunglasses up. She glared at Maria as she handed the paper to Mac, who had came to stand in front of her.
On the paper were test results. Pregnancy test results to be exact. Maria was pregnant, about five weeks. T wasn't tall enough to look over Mac, so she tried to step around him. Mac, with his eyes still on the paper followed her movements blocking the pair from her view.
"Move the fuck outta my way!" T said with a glare as she looked up at Mac.
Mac turned and looked back at Maria and Koz, who were just standing there. Maria looked happy and nervous while Kozik just looked shocked. Mac spotted Happy walking out of the office and shouted for him to come over. Mac whispered in his ear, and before T knew what was happening she was over a shoulder and being taken back into the club house.
T didn't even waste her energy fighting Hap. She knew it would be useless and to be honest she wasn't even in the mood for a fight. She flipped off everyone in the clubhouse who was hooting and hollering. She didn't say shit as Hap tossed her on the bed, she didn't even look at him. She didn't have shit to say to anyone at that current moment. She wasn't sure if she wanted to congratulate Koz, or beat the shit out of Maria. Why the fuck would she give him that paper in front of people, that's some shit that needs to be discussed in private. T shook her head, it wasn't her place to give a fuck anymore and her pager beeping was proof of that. She pulled it off her purse and looked at the number before opening her purse for her cell. She turned away from Hap as she called the number, gave her name and was put on hold. She heard her bosses voice on the line a few moments later. After telling him to text the address and that she would be there as soon as she could she stood up.
Happy was staring at her, watching her in a way that always made her nervous. She turned around and grabbed her shades off the bed. Happy blocked the door as she made a move towards it.
"I promise to leave the bitch alone. Now move out of my way, I need to shower, change and get to a scene." T said in a dull tone. She was hung over, exhausted and really just wanted to enjoy what was supposed to be her day off. Now she was loaded with more questions and less answers than she started out with.
Happy moved out of the way, as T walked out of the door she heard Happy's raspy voice say "I got some stuff to do for Glen, don't know when I will be back."
T looked over her shoulder, back at him. "Have fun." She said in the same monotone and walked off.
Outside, Mac was still standing by her car but Maria and Koz were no where to be seen. T couldn't help but feel like the reason that one piece of paper pissed her off the most was that everyone had what she wanted, but she knew that she couldn't or maybe wouldn't take it even if the opportunity arose.
Mac smiled at her as she approached and while she knew his smile was meant to make her feel better, it made her feel worse. T was as much a part of the club as any patched in member and even though pulling away felt like the right thing to do, she felt… empty. She lit up a smoke as she leaned into her car, sure she had shit to do and not a lot of time to do it but Mac stuck around because he had something to say. T knew him well enough to know that much, besides maybe he would help her answer some of the questions floating around in her head.
"They had some shit to discuss, sorry about having Hap drag you off like that. I just know how you are with shit like that and until you decide which what side your on, I figured it was best to remove you from the situation."
T nodded, Mac had saved her from doing a lot of impulsive shit and had been doing so since she first came to Tacoma. She owed the man a lot more than she would ever be able to repay. She hit the unlock button on her keys and opened the door. She felt Mac's hand on her shoulder after she threw her purse on the passenger seat.
"I know that your feeling a whole lot of things. Seems like everyone in the whole damn world is getting what you would…. what you do kill for. Your time will come baby girl. With or without this club and Hap. I know you love the club, the guys and Happy and I hope you stick around, but with your daddy getting older and now with this new job. Maybe you will realize that you have always been and always will be bigger than some bikers wife." Mac said before removing his hand from her shoulder.
T climbed in the car and reversed out. She waved back to Mac and pulled out of the lot. The heaviness of the past twenty four hours weighing heavily down upon her, and Mac's words making her feel the loss of the club more than ever. Being a biker's wife is what she wants, isn't it? Or maybe as she reached out into a real, normal world that was changing. Maybe it was time to realize, to really see that there is so much more to life, to the world and to her than being a part of the club. Maybe it was time to change her dreams. But as the emptiness set in, T knew she was up for a long road. Nothing felt right, nothing kept her sane and she couldn't even begin to figure out what made her happy.
"Damn it" She mumbled and hit the steering wheel. So much for getting some of her wandering questions answered.
-LK-
Mac waited by the door for Happy to emerge from the clubhouse. Jonny had already told him that Hap was going on a run and had hinted that maybe the pair should have a chat before he left. Mac had just lit a cigarette when Happy came out of the door.
"Jonny send you to talk to me?" Hap said by way of greeting.
"Would of did it even if he didn't ask me too." He replied
Hap nodded and the pair started walking towards the bikes.
"T and Koz got into it this morning, but I know you saw it. Koz is a little pissed at her going legit but mostly he's pissed at the game you two keep playing with each other. I know it isn't a game, but you know how hard it is to explain shit to Kozik. You both got a lot on your plates. You got a bunch of pressure on you and though T wont say it she doesn't like adding more pressure to your life. She knows she will never be number one and she doesn't expect to, even though she deserves to be. Shes been a part of club life for a lot longer than we all thought and to be honest I'm not sure if it's a good thing or not. That girl is a lot like you Happy. She takes on everything and walks around with the world on her shoulders like its nothing. It breaks her though, it breaks you too. You guys can either be the saving grace or the death of each other. A lot happened this summer. She finally saw her daddy and she knows he isn't going to last a lot longer and that's pressure on her life. That whole farm will be her's once hes gone. She wont let someone else run it, she wont sell it. Eventually she's going to have to move down there and take care of it. I think that she doesn't want to make you feel like you have to go with her, she wont want you to have to choose between the club and her. She wont let you choose. I think she's pushing you away on purpose, pushing all of us away. I'm going to be honest with you, just like I was with Jonny and T herself. She's better than just being a biker wife, she always has been and always will be. I don't want to lose her anymore than the rest of you, but if the time comes we might have to let her go. If we can handle that, and the truth with that is I don't think we can. Shes a huge part of this club, not just our charter but the club as a whole and her loss will be felt but every charter. We need to figure this shit out, soon. Before she gets so far gone that we cant reel her back in. She's already starting to lose it."
Happy didn't really know what to say about Mac's speech, he knew that it was the truth. Hap could already feel the loss of T, he could feel her pulling away. It left a void in him that he didn't think it was possible to feel. An unexplainable emptiness tied in with emotions. Trying to figure that shit out was never something that Hap really learned how to do, something he pushed off and never delt with. But he knew it was about time to grow some balls and face the fact that T made him feel something, lots of fucking somethings. That pissed him off and made him grateful all at the same time. Shit, he couldn't really remember the last time he actually felt anything. He knew how it should feel, how it would feel, but this time he could actually feel it. Like the emotions were real, something he could touch, even though you cant.
Happy just nodded. Mac gave him a brother hug before telling him, "Have a good run, be safe. We can come up with some type of plan when you come back."
Happy climbed on his bike, started it up and drove off. Now he really wanted to hurt someone, but now at least he had something to think about on the ride.
-LK-
T stood on the sidelines, while her team was taking pictures of the crime scene. It was always the same thing, since she had started. She was the boss, the one with the control, the eerily creepy one, who had a sixth sense for their type of work. She always just seemed to know shit and while no one said anything to her face, T knew that they all talked about it. T stared down at the dead and even though she knew she shouldn't, she wondered what the person who had killed them had felt at the moment they ended that life. She knew though, no matter the reasons behinds the persons reasons for killing how it felt when they ended that life. She had been there, done that a lot more times than she cared to admit to her fellow co workers or a lot of other people in the world. T was a killer, she could write a book on it if she wanted to. This crime scene was mild compared to some of the others she had been too. No dead kids, no raped and beaten to death woman, just a couple of dead guys in what at first glace looked like a drive by. T, knew better though. It was a set up, even though there were no cuts, it looked like something the 9ners would set up. Not that T would say that to Lonnie though.
T shook her head free from the thoughts, and walked around taking more pictures. She was in the middle of talking to the dumb ass police officer, who was first on the scene when her phone rang.
T looked down at the caller ID, and when she saw the Carolina number she knew that nothing good was going to come from the phone call. A billon thoughts raced through her head, but the only thought that stuck was 'daddy'. She sent a silent prayer up to a God, she had long ago quit believing in, begging that he let everything be ok.
"West" she answered.
"Ms. Taylor West?"
"This is she"
"This is Carolina General Hospital calling, I'm sorry to say but your father had a heart attack early this morning. He's stable, but we're not too sure how long he's going to stay that way."
"I'll be there as soon as I can" She said before hanging up.
T dropped the phone, before screaming
"GOD DAMN IT!"
T knew then that, even though a lot had already changed. More shit was about to go down. T walked away from the scene, Marcy and Lonnie following close. T could feel the tears building behind her eyes. She didn't want to cry yet, she didn't want to cry at all. In fact the only thing T wanted was to feel that killer numbness. Her father is laying in a hospital bed, she was losing the club, she hated her life and she was just plain tired of everything. Now she had to call the airport and she knew the person she wanted to take her.
After telling the girls what happened, T called her boss. She had to meet with him and let him know she needed to take a leave. She didn't like the meeting, she didn't like that all she could say was 'I don't know' because T always had a plan. Now she was floating around with only one destination in mind, daddy. She climbed in her car, lit up a smoke and headed towards home to pack. Only, one more stop before the air port and Carolina. Jonny's….
-LK-
Jonny and Mac felt that they came up with a pretty good "get T back" plan. So when Jonny heard the tires squeal into the parking lot, he was a little shocked. He waited in the office as T walked up the drive towards his office. Jonny couldn't place a finger on it, but something was wrong. Not just little off as it always seemed to be with T lately, nope this time whatever it is, is major. T had a duffle bag slung over her shoulder, was dressed in clothes that she used to wear, not that office/CSI crap she had been wearing, and she had her helmet in her hand. Jonny cocked his head to the side, waiting for her to say something. The last thing he was expeting was for her to flip her shades up. Her eyes were swollen and red, there were tears building behind them.
"whats wrong?" Jonny questioned as he stood up and walked towards her.
When he got close to her, T wrapped her arms around him and started to cry. Jonny just held her and let her cry, slightly rocking her and rubbing her back. The whole situation reminded him of when her momma got really sick and was in the hospital for the last time. It all clicked then, he pulled away a little bit and put his arms on her shoulders. He leaned down a little bit and looked into her eyes.
"What happened baby?" He asked in a quiet gentle tone, afraid that anything normal might set her off.
"Daddy had a heart attack, hes in the hospital. They called, he's dying Jonny." She said in a quiet easy voice. One that Jonny only heard her use when she talked to Junior.
"What do you need me to do?" Jonny asked as he pulled her back into a hug. Holding his best friend, his cousin, his sister close and he knew even before she spoke that she was leaving. No plan in the world was going to bring her back.
Then she said the words he knew were coming, but dreaded them anyways "Drive me to the airport."
-LK-
T clung tightly to Jonny as they sped down the road. Jonny didn't ask any more questions after T asked him to drive her. He just took her hand and led her to his bike. She loved how Jonny always knew the right thing to do when she needed it. The girls were her best friends, but they had grown up with only their brothers and their clubs as family. The deaths that occurred in them were common, Jonny was truly the only person who T felt safe enough around to really cry and the only person she wanted to drive her to the airport. Jonny had been the only person to break through her walls when her momma died, the only person to truly understand. His parents were already gone, her daddy being the last one alive. T shook her head free from those thoughts, from the night that Jonny's parents passed peacefully together in their sleep like something out of the notebook, of the nights he held her while she cried or let her get wasted while momma was sick and before she died. And while it killed a part of her, she knew she was on her own this time and she needed to be.
The strum of the bike, the quickly passing scenery, and just the freedom being on the road without constraints folded her like a warm, safe and secure blanket. She knew that the road ahead was long and tough, she had been there before. Hospitals and nurses, the smell of bleach and death all mixed into one. She wasn't a stranger to death by any means, she was a bringer of it. She had killed more people than she could or even wanted to count.
She had already phoned home, Mr. Greg would be at the airport to pick her up. Knowing him, he would be driving her daddy's truck while one of the other hands drove his. HE would hug her, welcome her home, give her the keys to the truck and let her go on her own. Greg and Annie were her god parents and had been a part of her life and the farm for as long as she could remember. While going home because daddy was dying was scary and not something T had ever wanted to do, she could live with herself a little bit more knowing she spent two weeks of the summer on the farm, running things, riding horses and just spending time with daddy doing the things they used to before T turned into the wild, crazy, reckless woman she was now.
T looked at the airport as it came into view and wondered, what was going to happen now. She wondered if she would ever really see the airport and Washington as home again. Jonny pulled the bike up to the curb, people were unloading cars and taxi's. Families, business men and even soldiers were everywhere. T was happy for the busy airport, for knowing that she would be able to get lost in the crowd, but she found herself wondering how many other people were going to visit sick and dying loved ones.
T climbed off the bike and gave Jonny a hug. As she lit up a smoke, she looked at Jonny. He was watching her in that careful way of his. Afraid that anything other than something simple and gentle might set her off, a fact that T worried about herself. She looked away from him, she didn't want to over analyze things any more. She just wanted to go, she wanted to get back on the bike and act like none of this happened but she knew that wasn't an option. She wanted to rewind time, to have been a better daughter, a better women, a better something or just better. It was to late to change the past now. She took a last drag off her cig before putting it out. She looked back at Jonny, gave him a weak smile and walked away. She was almost to the doors when Jonny grabbed her arm.
"Call me when you get there, let me know if you need anything. The Florida guys can be there in 9-12 hours and I will be on the next flight if you need me." Jonny said before pulling her in for another hug. He kissed her forehead and walked away.
T picked up her pace and walked as quickly as she could to the ticket counter, she wasn't sure if it was her imagination or not, but she swore she heard the roar of Jonny's bike. She looked back towards the doors but Jonny was gone and she couldn't help it but she felt like Jonny took a part of her with him…
-LK-
T climbed off the plane, three lay-overs later. She stood on the runway of the small little airport closest to her daddy's farm. Her single duffle bag slung back over her shoulder, glasses shielding her eyes, and looked around. The last time she had been at this airport she was saying good bye to Carolina. The irony of the situation didn't escape her. That she was returning to the place she ran from five years ago. No matter how much she swore she wasn't running from all that happened, she knew a part of her was. Her dad may not have always been the best dad, but he got her out when she needed it the most. Looking around she spotted Greg's red truck, he always kept the same make and model, just got the newer version every couple years. A huge red ford F 350, the perfect truck for the farm, Greg was leaning against it his cowboy hat pulled low, his wranglers covering the top of his cowboy boots, looking the same as he always did. T walked slowly towards him, even though she kept looking around, she knew that he had spotted her, probably the minute she spotted him. When she was close enough he pulled her in for a hug. It was hard for T to keep the tears in, because this man had always been like a father to her which only reminded her of why she was back here, in the same small town she grew up in, standing on the same runway that had taken her out of this place for good so many years ago.
"Welcome home baby" Greg said, as he took her bag and flung it over the tail gate of his truck.
T followed him to the other side and spotted her daddy's blue F 150, a younger man leaning against it. No one bother with introductions, the man just handed her the keys with a look of awe and sadness. T had heard from Mrs. Annie that they had hired some new more experienced staff on when she and Ana had been there for a visit but T hadn't went out of her way to meet or get to know any of them. Mostly she poured over daddy's books, seeing how well the farm had been doing. T gripped the keys tightly in her hand, she remembered learning how to drive in a truck a lot like this, in fact that same truck was still on the farm.
"You still know how to drive one of these bad boys?" Greg asked her as he laid a hand on her shoulder.
T nodded her head, too choked up on past memories to really use her voice to answer him. She saw Greg nod in understanding, "I'm sure you remember how to get there from here. See you at the house when your ready." He said before walking towards his own truck.
T climbed into the truck, adjusted the mirror and the seat before starting it up. The country music that blared from the speakers was a comfort to her, she still listened to country back home but more as a guilty pleasure than anything else. T pulled out onto the run way, Greg following closely behind her. T rolled down the windows as she raced down the road. She looked over to the passenger side of the seat and spotted her hat and boots, when they stopped at the light, she picked up the hat and put it on her head. Greg pulled up next to her shouted out the window.
"Looks like the country girls home!" T laughed as he took off down the road.
It had always been something that they had done, race down the long road before it turned into a side by side. T hit the gas and took off after him. After all maybe Greg had a point, for the first time in a while T felt like she was where she's meant to be, she felt like she was really home.
-LK-
T took a left turn, and followed the small road to the main highway. It lead right to the hospital. She had left Greg in the dust about five miles back. T felt the nerves creeping up on her as she turned right on the highway. It felt like she was reaching the hospital too fast, she felt like she wasn't dressed to be back home, except for the hat on her head. She wasn't even really sure that she wanted to do this, no matter how much she needed too. Visiting anyone in a hospital always brought back bad memories for her, it always made her heart drop into her stomach even when something amazing had happened, like the birth of a baby. T turned into the lot and parked the car as far away from the door as possible. She lit a cigarette, a stared at the doors from the back of the parking lot. Greg had taken her clothes so she couldn't change out of the tank top, and jeans she had on. But her boots were sitting on the passenger seat, along with a flannel that she had bought when she came and left there when she did. T took off her normal boots, and put her foot into first boot. She knew at once, that these were her momma's old boots, the ones T refused to wear. They hugged her feet just right, in a way that was so perfect she had to assume they had done the same for her ma. T tucked her jeans into them and climbed out of the truck. Her wallet in one hand, the truck keys in the other and started the long walk across the parking lot. Regretting with every step that she parked so far, she felt like everyone who saw her was staring. In truth they probably were, it was a small town and everyone knew her family and they probably couldn't believe that the woman they were looking at was the same girl that got on that plane five years ago. T didn't waste time making small talk or even wondering about the people she passed, she barely saw them. All she saw were the hospital doors and the fact there behind them somewhere, her daddy was in there.
-LK-
When jonny got back to the shop, he told Mac what happened. He had already stopped by home and told Sarah, who would in turn tell the kids. The only thing left to do was tell the rest of the guys and Hap, which neither one of them wanted to do. Both men were worried about how Hap would handle that. They hoped that maybe Kozik would call Hap and break the bad news. Jonny was tired and sad and worried about T and his uncle. T had never had the life Jonny did, no matter how hard Jonny tried to give it to her, he couldn't. She was already too grown up by the time she got to come and live with him. She had already been working on the farm, driving and apparently involved in the biker life style. Jonny had lost both his parents, at the same time but they had died peacefully in their sleep of old age. T had already lost her momma when she needed her most and now she was losing her dad and even though she might not need him or like him, Jonny knew that T like knowing he was still in this world if he she ever needed him. She had a hard life, sort of. Even though her dad could give her everything she wanted, T still had to work for it, work for happiness others took for granted on a daily basis. T was wild and crazy and beautiful. She had grown into a wonderful women, with no one to really thank for it but herself.
Jonny had Mac round up the guys, first order of the meeting would be to talk about club stuff. He was saving the T thing for last. Plus he figure that maybe the guys would have some good ideas on how a "Get T Back plan, number 2"
-LK-
T walked into the hospital, talked to a nurse and was directed to her dad's room. She stood outside the door for a moment, afraid to go in but knowing there was no turning back. She turned the knob and walked in. Her father was asleep on the hospital bed, he was pale and looked like he had been through hell. The nurse said that his doctor would come by and explain his condition as soon as he got a moment. T took the seat next to his bed and picked up his hand. It strike her again, much how it did the first time she returned home, that her dad was old. T never saw him as anything but the strong, partly strict man that raised her, held her when she cried, taught her to run a farm and ride a horse. T let the tears fall as she gripped his hand. The door opened and a man, big and strong and somehow familiar walked into the room. His white coat and the chart in his hand lead her to believe it was his doctor.
T stood up and shook his hand, he introduced himself as Seth Rogers, the name making it all click into place. T kept her mouth shut about it though, she wanted to hear about her dad and his condition not re hash her past with the senior she dated her freshmen year. The guy that cheated on her with the head cheerleader under the bleachers, than begged for her forgiveness, which even to this day he still hadn't received and probably never would. She was thankful that he didn't make any comment on it but explain that the heart attack had really affected him and that he was only conscious for hours at a time and during those times he always asked for her. After he explained that they honestly felt like he was just staying alive for her, T took her seat back in the chair and picked up his hand again. She ignored Seth as he crunched down by her
"I'm really sorry Tay." He said in a quiet voice.
"Thanks." She replied still not looking at him.
She was thankful as hell when he left it as that and stood up. She was glad that he left, as the door closed behind him, she heard her dad say. "I've always hated that boy since he broke your heart. Bastard, you know that Kelly girl is trash now, five kids all different dads and works at the piggly wiggly."
T couldn't help it, she laughed really hard and than she started to cry. She layed her head down on his bed and cried. She felt her dad's hand in her hair and the shh sound he used to make when she cried about momma being sick.
"Everyone dies sometime dear, but I don't want to talk about that. You know, you look just like your momma dressed like that. I bet every stared at you when you came in here. Probably scared the shit out of them, think they saw a ghost." Daddy said with a laugh.
T just smiled at him and wiped her tears away. "How's Ana?" He asked, his voice raspy.
T got up and got him some water, she held it close for him once he started drinking T started talking.
"She's good, as beautiful as ever and all she ever talks about is our trip down here and the horses. She loved to go riding. I'm thinking about buying her a horse. They got a nice farm not too far from the house out there. It's a small one, but I know that it would best the best gift for her, since she cant come to Carolina every time she wants to ride one."
"Got the perfect baby on the farm, she came from your horse and looks just like her. Make the arrangements and have her sent up there. She don't got a name yet, I was planning on sending her up there before this there happened." He replied, a devilish twinkle in his eye.
"I can do that. I reae."
"Got the perfect baby on the farm, she came from your horse and looks just like her. Make the arrangements and have her sent up there. She don't got a name yet, I was planning on sending her up there before this there happened." He replied, a devilish twinkle in his eye.
"I can do that. I read your letter daddy and well, I wrote you one too. You want to read it? Or you want me to read it for you?" She asked
"I can still read you know, and if I cant than I will get one of the nurses here to read it or one of the mommas. They come to visit me a lot. Been waiting on you to come home."
"I know daddy, I got here as soon as I could."
"I know that baby, why don't you go on out of here to the farm, check on things for me. I think momma Beth will be by soon." When he saw the look of hesitation on her face he added "Im not going to where yet baby, go. Get some good home cooking and some sleep. Come back tomorrow. Its already late, past supper time at least."
T nodded and stood up, she kissed him on the forehead and set the letter down on the bed. When she got to the door she stopped and turned around. She could tell he was already almost back asleep, but she told him anyways "I forgive you daddy. I love you." And walked out the door.
The door closed behind her, so she didn't hear him say "I know, I love you too baby."
-LK-
Okay so I'm already working on the next chapter, sorry its taken so long for this to come out. Ive been crazy busy and I had a bit of writers block. I almost decided to end it where it was… but I changed my mind. So I hope that you like it. The next chapter will be out in a week or so… depending on how fast I can get it out. The words are there, just not coming out right. So we shall see what happens….