AN: So here is the next chapter, check it out and let me know what you think
She pulled off the highway, taking a small road not known to many people. It was her quiet place and the only place that seemed to give her peace lately. She parked the truck and climbed out. After the day she had just endured the empty pasture, with the crickets and stars made her smile. She spent most of the day signing papers, making phone calls and sitting by her fathers hospital bed. Her whole life, she thought of her father as unbreakable, but the recent events made her face the truth. He was frail… not something she ever thought she would admit. The tough, never lost a case lawyer was on his last leg. For T, it was a harsh reality. She had taken an extended leave from her job, a job she had just started and never really wanted. She had to leave her family behind along with the club that had been her life for the past 8 years. But looking up at the stars, she felt like her worries weren't so big. She didn't feel as bad for leaving her girls or Ana and Junior. Jonny and Sarah understood, T needed to go take care of the farm and of Daddy.
T had always been an insomniac, a worrier/ care-giver type, mixed with a whole lot of wild and crazy. Something that had suited her fine in the club life, but it wasn't working out so well in the farm world. She slept her best between three and five am, unless she drank a lot or had a good fuck. And running a farm on only a couple hours of sleep wasn't easy. But sitting on the hood of her dads truck staring at the stars, she didn't worry about the farm, daddy or the club. She didn't feel the emptiness that had become the only emotion she couldn't turn off. Looking down at her phone, a real phone not the throw away phones she had become so attached to, not the work phone she had for a little while but a real cell with a contract. It was weird to think that her life had changed so much in the past few weeks. She had went from a club killer, to a CSI worker, and now she was in the one place she never thought she would be¸ running the family farm. She let out a sigh as the numbers changed from 3:00 to 3:01. She climbed off the hood and headed for the door. She felt the tension rise back into her as she pulled off that small deserted dirt road on the far end of the farm. She sighed heavily as she pulled back through the gate and parked the truck by the barn. She looked towards the horse stable, giving herself a mental slap she headed up towards the house. She needed a few hours of sleep, her horse would be there in the morning. She climbed the stairs, undressed and was asleep as soon as her head hit the pillow, even though she could of swore she wasn't going to be able to fall asleep.
-LK-
Greg stood in the kitchen, his body leaned against the huge window positioned between the kitchen and dining room, one of the last things that Taylor's mom had demanded before she died. She said she wanted to sit there and watch her daughter play or ride her horse. She said she wanted to be able to see the farm, the life of it even as her own life faded. Now Greg stood there and watched over Taylor, his god daughter, the only daughter he had ever known run the farm. She was a force to be reckoned with when it came to how things should be. She looked how he always thought she should, hair pulled back with a cowboy hat on, plaid shirt and wranglers, finished off with a pair of well worn cowboy boots.
"She growed up good huh?" Greg was shaken from his thoughts by his wife at his elbow with a cup of coffee.
"Always knew she would, even mixing with those bikers. She's a leader, she belongs here. Such a shame on the circumstances though, she would of chosen this path eventually." He replied.
His Annie looked thoughtful for a moment. "I know you and her pa believe that, but I'm not so sure. All that matters is that she is here now." She gave him a smile before heading back to the kitchen.
Greg shook his head, while he didn't want to believe it he knew that his wife was probably right. Taylor was happy living the life she had, she had left this life behind, until now that is. Greg heard the roar of motorcycles and glanced towards Taylor to see if she heard, before the door burst open and Josh ran in.
"Where's Ms. Taylor?" He said in a panic, his twelve year old self looking a mix between star struck and scared shitless.
"What happened boy?" Greg asked as Josh caught a glimpse of Taylor in the window and headed for the door, not stopping to respond to his question. Curious, Greg followed him out the door and caught the end of Josh's rushed statement
"And they look like they are going to kill each other."
Taylor glance back at the open door, and Greg. She didn't looked worried at all, her face was a calm mask but Greg could see the storm brewing in her eyes. Apperantly, she wasn't expecting no guests .
"Thanks Josh, can you go check on those cows out there for me?" she asked.
Josh looked part relieved and part disappointed, at least until taylor handed over her horse to the boy. Tay walked over to Greg, he wasn't worried about what was going to happen, not really. But he was worried about how it was going to affect Taylor, she might act calm and collected but she was stressed and not getting enough sleep, a fact that worried him and Annie to no end.
"No matter what happens, keep the men out in the field, and make sure that no one looks out that damn picture window. I don't know whats going on, but im pretty damn sure it isn't going to be pretty."
Greg nodded his head, "Be careful baby girl"
"Don't worry pa-pa Greg, I always am. Thanks." She said to him before pulling a hand gun from her back. Greg watched her walk away in shock. He knew that she could shoot, shit he had been the one to teach her. But he never even realized she carried a gun.
"Whats going on hun?" Annie asked from the kitchen doorway.
"Not too sure, but whatever you hear stay the hell away from the window." He said before heading out the door.
Greg had just finished locking all the gates leading to the drive when the first shot when off, and he was pretty damn sure that it was Taylor doing the shooting. And while he knew he probably shouldn't be, he was proud. He couldn't help the smile on his face. His god-daughter was home, and wasn't nothing going to take her away or threaten it. Not even a group of bikers….
-LK-
T glanced out the picture window. Josh had said there was three groups of bikers in her drive all looking like they were going to fight. She spotted Jonny right away, the head of the middle group, it was also the largest. Jay was at the head of the group on the far right, and Seth was on the far left. And while she hadn't been around those hells angels guys in a long time, she was pretty sure that their crew was on even keel with the SOA. T walked over to the door and opened it, as she stepped on her porch she lit a cigarette before she began her walk out to the bikers. All she could hear was the yelling, and that was before she got off the porch. None of the men noticed her but she noticed something she hadn't before. The two cars behind Jonny's group, she spotted Ana's face in the window. T watched Ana reach for the door, but shook her head quickly. Ana nodded in response and T looked at the other car. Her girls were in there, they smiled but made no move to get out. They knew better or maybe they just knew her but she was sure they knew something was about to go down. T hit her cigarette and stood for a moment, hoping the guys would notice her. Of course they didn't, she was wonder what the hell they were all doing down here, no one asked her if they could visit. T held her gun up, and shot into the air. The noise quieted, and at that moment she realized just how pissed she was.
"What the fuck are ya'll doing here?" She said in a calm tone.
-LK-
Happy stood next to his bike, glaring at the leader of the Angel's. He knew that was Seth and he hated that mother fucker. He hated him for making T relive a past she wanted buried, he hated him for being a man that T loved even if it was long before he knew her and he hated him because he threatened her, and no one threatened T. He whipped out his gun when he heard the shot, looking around for where it came from, praying it was a member of the Angels. Looking around, he wasnt prepared for what he saw.
T stood in front of the house, her gun aimed at all of them. She was dressed in what Hap could only call "country clothes", but what shocked Hap the most was the words coming out of her mouth, paired with an accent.
"What the fuck are ya'll doing here?" She said and Hap knew at that moment, that they should of called and asked first. Everyone knew T hated surprises…..
-LK-
"If someone don't answer me I'm gonna shoot first ask question to the next alive person in the group. Jonny, lets start with you." T said, her anger becoming evident, it didn't help that everyone started talking at once.
"We wanted to come down and help, see ya, we missed ya." Jonny replied, he ignored the snickers behind him. He couldn't help it, something about being where he grew up brought out his accent, shit even when he talked about home his accent came out.
"I see and it just slipped your mind to call and mention it? Like I don't got enough shit going on? I got two different SOA charters on my lawn along with a group of Angels. Not exactly how I wanted to spend my lunch." She replied before turning to Jay.
"And you… Where the hell did you come from?"
"Well Jonny had called and told Zeke he wanted some guys up here to make sure you were ok, Zeke said something about some Angels bugging you. So we came to check it out…." Jay trailed off.
T turned to Seth. "Heard about your daddy and heard you was back in town. The boys and I wanted to make sure everything was alright and that you were good, besides we all miss you. Some of these guys haven't seen you in over five years. Some of them didn't even believe you were still alive."
T shook her head and lit another smoke.
"number one, Jonny I fucking hate surprises so I don't even know what the fuck you were thinking. In fact all you fuckers know I hate surprises so I should shoot your asses on principal. Number two, Jay we got some things to discuss. Seth we got some shit to talk about too. Number three, I'm a big fucking girl I can handle myself. Nobody is fucking with me or fucking me. Number four, I am alive and fine. Number five, No shooting in my god damn town, no fights, no nothing. Number six all you fuckers get off my fucking lawn. I got work to do. Seth give me your number, I will call you and we can set up a time to talk. Jay, there is a motel down in town. That goes for you fuckers too Jonny. My girls can stay here, even though I wanna whoop all your asses. Now get!" T said in a forceful tone before walking up to Seth and getting his number.
She walked through the crowd of bikers, towards the car. All of the men were staring at her, something T was way to used to. She barely noticed the faces in the crowd, but the men wore looks of shock and disbelief. No one thought that their arrival would piss her off as much as it did. Ana already had the door open and was running towards her. T gave her a big hug, and held her close as she heard the bikes start up. She nodded at some of the Angels she hadn't seen in awhile as they took off, followed by the Florida sons. Jonny and his group sat on their bikes but made no move to get going. T walked to the car and took Junior out of his seat before telling Sarah where to park. She walked over to her girls. Marcy opened her door
"Come on T, don't be mad at me." Jonny yelled. T handed junior to her before turning around to face him. She raised her gun, everyone was quiet. T shot his tire, "I said get the fuck off my god damn property! Damn it!" She yelled back.
"How the fuck am I supposed to go anywhere now that you shot my god damn tire?" He yelled back.
"You ride bitch like a girl." She screamed at him.
"that's enough Taylor" She heard said in a tone that left no argument, she turned and faced Greg.
Greg tossed a set of keys to Jonny. "That's for the red pick-up, I'm sure you remember dinner is at 5, Annie is expecting ya'll. Now get out of her before she shoots your ass." Greg said as he approached Jonny. He gave Jonny a hug and smile.
T shook her head before taking junior back from Marcy and grabbing Ana's hand. T didn't look back at them at all.
"She sure is pissed." Sarah replied as she approached the men. Lonnie parked their car next to Sarah's and the pair got out. Both girls shook their heads but approached the men, not quite sure where T had went.
"Well no shit. Lot going on round here and you showing up outta no where isn't exactly what the girl needed." Greg said giving Jonny a look that made him bow his head.
"She's my baby sis Mr. Greg, I couldn't just leave her to do it all on her own." He replied.
Greg shook his head, before telling Jonny to grab his bike. The group watched as the two men walked to a brand new red pick-up. A ramp going from the ground up to the bed, and waited for Jonny's word on what to do. Mrs. Annie came out of the house and motioned for the girls.
"Come on, let me show you where you girls are sleeping. She will calm down soon enough, she took the kids out on the horses." The three women followed her inside, because after all there wasn't anything else they could do.
-LK-
Jonny and greg were quiet as they walked away from the group. "wanna tell me the real reason you came down here with a group of biker men?" Greg asked when they were far enough away.
Jonny looked down at the ground, he wasn't sure why but Mr. Greg had always made him feel every bit the teenager he was when his parents left their part of the farm to T's dad and moved them to Washington.
"I cant loose her, I need her." Jonny replied as they reached the truck. He pushed his bike up the ramp. "My wife needs her, my kids need her and my club needs her. I cant just let her stay out here on this farm."
"Don't you think that's T's choice to make?" Greg asked.
"I cant live with her deciding to stay here unless I know I did everything in my power to get her to come home." Jonny replied
"Did you ever think that maybe she is home?"
"This isn't home, she ran away from this place. Tacoma is home." Jonny replied
"She didn't run, she was sent. Her daddy wanted to do right by her, give her the option. You know she wont sell and I'm getting old too. I cant take care of the farm for much longer. This is home to her and its home to you, too. But shes a grown woman, she can decided for herself what she wants to do. Plenty of capable hands could run this place, but its in her blood, this place was built from your familys blood and if she wants to run it, shes got every right too. And nobody gots a say in it but her and you know she aint leaving until her daddy dies." Greg replied, before shaking his head and walking away.
Not even giving Jonny a chance to reply, but Jonny knew that no reply would be the right one. He did it on selfish reasons, they all did. No one even gave thought to the fact that T might actually wanna stay. They all just knew if they called T would tell them not to come and in their plan, not coming wasn't an option. Jonny started the truck and pulled up beside the Mac,
"follow me, for now we need to let T calm down. She will be ready to talk after dinner." Jonny said as he drove the truck to the end of the road and waited for his guys to follow.
Looking next to him, he spotted the hat and put it on his head. As he looked in the rearview mirror and saw his reflection he understood what Greg was saying and knew, that he fucked up.
-LK-
T had barely paused at the kitchen door as she asked Mrs. Annie to show the girls where they could sleep. She was pissed but she was losing some of that anger with junior in her arms and Ana's hand in hers. She could never stay angry when she had they kids with her. They were like a balm to her shattered soul and she knew that Ana would take every chance she got to ride the horses.
Being out on the horses with Junior and Ana, calmed her some. She was still pissed though something she didn't think would pass anytime soon. She had been back in town for three weeks and it was already swarming with bikers. Something that wasn't good for her or the farm. She couldn't be mad at the fact that they were in town though, because it was her fault they were there. She just didn't want to deal with them on top of everything else. There was more than enough room on the farm for the SOA guys and Seth and his crew didn't live too far so the drive was nothing, in fact she was sure that they drove down the highway that went by the farm frequently. Sighing T shook her head and pulled Junior close, she couldn't help but smile down on him as he squealed and laughed having never been on a horse before. T had been riding them since she was his age, she knew she had talent and grace on a horse, much like she did when she rode on the back of a bike.
"Ana, its almost dinner time lets head back!" T hollered out to Ana who had riding ahead of them.
She wanted until Ana was back next to her to start talking again.
"So, I got a surprise for you. Guess it's a good thing I didn't send it yet since you guys are here now and all." T told her.
Ana looked down, "I'm sorry. They made me promise not to tell you. I didn't even know we were coming until we were in the car on the way here."
T laughed at that "I'm not mad at you baby, its not your place to be in the middle of all this. Trust me sometimes there are situations in life that your better off not knowing."
Ana nodded before taking off on her horse again, heading towards the house. She turned back and hollered out "Come on I'm hungry!"
T laughed again and picked up the pace a little. She wasn't in a rush and she didn't want to bounce Junior around too much. As she came to the back of the house, she spotted Sarah standing on the deck while one of the hands was leading Ana's horse to the barn.
"Hey Andrew" She hollered to one of the people she had come to rely and respect the most on the farm aside from Greg, he was also the guy who had met her at the airport when she got in.
He turned around, a looked at her.
"Bring that horse back over here. Ana rides, she takes care." She watched the surprise cross his face for a moment before leading the horse back over.
Sarah had started down the stairs and T looked at her before handing Junior to Andrew and dismounting. T took Junior back and handed his to Sarah. "He had a good time, where did Ana go?" T asked, leaving no room for talk about their "surprise." There would be plenty of time for that later.
"She headed in to get washed up for dinner. Its almost ready." Sarah replied, slight concern showing on her face.
T ignored her look and turned around. "Don't go no where with them horses. I will be right back." She said to Andrew before hitting the porch steps at a fast walk.
Once in the house, T walked to the stairs and hollered for Ana. Ana came down the stairs as Jonny and the rest of the guys walked in. T ignored them and looked at Ana, "You know when I was your age, I had already been riding for a lot of years but there are rules with this type of thing. Your ride, you take care. And don't even give me that you don't know how or your hungry crap. Because you do know how and I'm hungry too but so is that guy you just passed your horse on too."
Ana nodded once and headed for the back door, T turned and followed ignoring the foot steps behind her. She heard Jonny direct the guys to the kitchen and followed T out the door.
"You going to follow me, you better hope you still remember how to help out." T said not even bothering to look at Jonny as she took her horse from Andrew and told him to go on and eat and to ignore the biker guys, they were most defiantly not wanted guests.
"Its not something you ever forget T, its lives in our blood." Jonny replied.
T and jonny walked quietly into the stable. T caught Ana look at her dad pleadingly. She heard Jonny laugh and say "No way baby girl, like your auntie said if your going to ride its your responsibility to take care of the horse when your done. No matter what."
T knew that Ana was going to be pissed off but on a farm everyone pitched in. It was a lot of work running a farm and T believed fully that just because she owned it didn't mean that she didn't have to get her hands dirty just like everyone else. T knew that Jonny was waiting for Ana to finish before he started to talk but T was surprised that Jonny went to one of the hands and told him that he could go eat. The guy looked questionly at T, she nodded .
Ana finished shortly after that leaving T and Jonny alone in the barn. "I know your pissed off T, but just like this farm runs in our blood, so does the club. The club is important and a way of life to me and it used to mean the same to you. I cant just let you walk away from it, at least not without knowing that I did everything in my power to get you to come back. I need you T, we are too damn close for me to just let it all go. You're my best friend and you keep me sane and you're a huge part of the kids life. On a club level, you're the best damn killer we ever had, your smart and you keep a lot of the guys out of trouble. Your in charge of making sure all the women are safe and understand their role in the club. Its lonely without you T, you mean to damn much and the past couple weeks with you gone legit and on the road trip and shit, I've felt you pull away. It leaves a void in a lot of us, shit all of us. What about you and Hap? Yeah your still mad as hell and close to hating that mother fucker but you guys have always been like that. There really is a fine line between love and hate , you and Hap live on that line and for reasons no one can understand you like it that way. Both of you like it like that, the fighting and fucking and drama and all of it, that's how you guys are. Trust me when I say you seem stronger together than apart." Jonny disappeared behind a stall to finish cleaning it.
T put her head on her horse, trying to process everything that Jonny had just dumped on her. She was already on over load, she was over tired and stressed to the max. Now she had three different groups of bikers in her town, wanting to prove to her why they were the best option. She had lots of options and she knew it. She just wasn't ready to deal with, hence avoid everyone because right now the only thing that mattered is the farm and Daddy. The rest of it would still be there for quite awhile. Maybe she would lose out on Happy, maybe she would fall behind and miss some stuff but it wouldn't be anything she couldn't stand not witnessing. She wouldn't be able to live with herself though if she left her daddy in his time of need.
T finished caring for her horse, she could hear Jonny humming to sn old country tuner they had heard a million times growing up. She let out a sigh as she started placing everything back into the tack room. Tonight she would have dinner, drink some wine on the porch and visit her daddy. She would deal with all the biker drama the next day, after she got some sleep.
-LK-
Jonny wasn't surprised that T left him in the barn by himself finishing up the last two stalls. He had said some of what he had set out to say, the rest would come in time. He did see the error in his ways and he knew that he had acted foolishly and with an agenda of his own. Not once ever stopping to think of what T was really going through and he felt that maybe that was part of the reason he wasn't pushing her and part of the reason he was cleaning up horse shit. He found an old radio in the back and turned it on, of course it was playing country music. The new more pop kind, Rascal Flatts was singing an old but good song. Jonny hummed along and when they got to the course he sang words he thought he had long ago forgot.
"I Wake up and tear drops that fall down like rain, I put on that old song we danced to and then I head off to my job I guess not much has changed. Punch the clock head, for home, check the phone just in case. Go to bed, dream of you, that's what I'm doing these days."
Jonny remember that it had been one of T's favorite songs when she had came to live with him and she played it a million times. Country music was always her way of letting shit out, the song usually reflected her mood and her realized now that if he would have been paying attention, he would of realized that T really did leave someone she cared about behind in Carolina.
-LK-
Seth couldn't help it, seeing Tay dressed up in all her old country clothes gave him a serious hard on. She had her accent back too and he knew that as long as she was back in Carolina he wouldn't be able to move on. Not that he had been trying in the month that had passed since he saw her last. Shit, all he had been doing was thinking about her. It was a shame of the circumstances that brought her back but he was happy none the less. He knew that him and his boys would be the last on the list to talk to or be "dealt" with by her but he didn't care. With T, a lot of the time being last was way better than being first. The way he saw it, Jonny and his boys would be the worst off. Jonny still looked the same, even though it had been a whole lot of years since he had seen him. Seth and Jonny had never been "friends" but Seth had meet the guy when the Sons and the Angels made the truce, which also caused the Sons to back down from starting a Charter in Carolina. Seth was just a newly patched member than, freshly eighteen and all he could really remember was being jealous of the young kid that was already a VP, and he didn't even have any blood ties to the club or any club. In fact Seth had heard that Jonny had been a farm boy with a bad streak that moved to Washington when his family sold the farm. Seth wouldn't of guessed in a million years that Tay was his cousin but seeing the pair together he saw the resemblance. It was in the eyes, in the way they carried themselves and the way they both covered their past but it came out when they were home. Jonny shook his head and picked up the beer. Being lost in thought wasn't where he needed to be right now, at least not unless he was coming up with a plan of how to get T back and to make sure that she stayed in Carolina. He was happy that Jonny and his boys felt that he was a big enough risk to have some of the Florida guys ride in to town to make sure that T was still with the Sons. That fact made Seth laugh, Tay was pretty much one of the only people Seth knew that couldn't or wouldn't be swayed, as a killer and now 'T' he was pretty sure that it would be like trying to make the impossible happen. She had always been stubborn but being a killer had made her harder, less afraid, if she even felt fear anymore, than she had been as that young girl Seth had loved five years ago. She was still as beautiful as she had always been, in fact Seth was pretty sure that no one would ever be more beautiful than her at least not until he had a daughter.
Seth looked over as he heard a chair scrape and realized that he had been spacing again. Ant was taking a seat on the chair across from him.
"Tay is still as beautiful as the day we saw her at that charity event. She's got that killer look in her eyes now. That's different, she would at least felt a little freaked by three groups of bikers on her lawn back in the day. Today she looked like she would of shot all of us and not even thought twice."
Seth took a swig of his beer.
"She would of, shes a killer now. The Sons little killer, you know the one we heard all those stories about."
Seth couldn't even laugh at the shock on Ants face because he was pretty sure that his had looked the same when he first found out that Tay was the little killer.
"No fucking way. How long have you known and not said anything?" Ant asked once he got over the shock of it.
"A couple years, didn't believe it myself. I saw it though, when she was here. Its plain as day once you know what your looking for. Tay was always a tough one, one that I could never really break, shit I bent the hell out of the girl and she gave it back but she never broke. From what I hear, the girl hardly ever bends now."
Ant nodded in response and the pair sat quietly thinking and drinking their beers for a moment. Seth was almost back into space out mode when Ant asked
"So, what do we do?"
Seth thought for a moment before replying, "We let her come to us, let those other fuckers wear her down a bit. She will be pretty close to making a choice by the time she gets around to us."
-LK-
T didn't even sit at the table with everyone else. She ate a little bit in the kitchen, took a couple shots of her dad's hidden Jim Bean before grabbing her smokes off the counter along with a glass and a whole bottle of wine. She took up her spot on the porch, the fire was already going something that Greg had been making sure was done before dinner just so she could sit there and unwind. Something that she remember her momma doing before she got sick, even sometimes after she got sick.
T remember telling her momma it was cold out and to come in, but her momma would just pat the spot next to her and say "I'm already dying baby, might as well enjoy the time I got left." T remember the first time her momma said that she ran away crying. She felt bad but she didn't want to face the fact that her momma was dying. She got used to it though and it became something that they ended up doing every night. The first time T had ever smoked pot was with her momma, the cancer pain was too much and the doctor had given her some medical pot. She remembered being thirteen smoking pot and drinking wine in front of the fire with her momma. Sure she was young but it didn't matter, she wanted to experience some first with her momma. It was a good thing they got to spend that summer doing it, since she died that winter.
T took a sip of her wine, she could hear everyone finishing up dinner. She figured the girls would help Annie clean up, something T usually came in to do. Tonight though, she didn't want to talk to anyone. She knew that the guys would be headed out for a smoke soon though, so she prepared for her peaceful time to be interrupted. T sent a silent prayer up to her momma, begging that she send her a sign on how the hell to get through all this, a sign to show her the right choice to make.
T had came through the back and into the kitchen, not even bothering to glance in the dinning room. She really wished that she had when she saw that it wasn't just the Tacoma guys, but the Florida guys too. She glanced at them all, then went on drinking her wine and smoking. Greg had came and took a seat next to her as he lit his own smoke. T knew that he was up to something, she quickly found out when she smelled the weed. She wanted to curse at him, but she knew it would get her nowhere and she respected him too damn much to actually curse at him, around him was one thing but actually at him, well it would never happen.
She took the offered joint and hit it a few times before passing it back. She was glad for the effects when they started to kick in, mixed with the wine because it calmed her enough to have at least conversation with the guys. She hugged the Florida guys, because in all honesty its wasn't them who needed to know better. Seth knew she had hated surprises five years ago, she figured it was common sense that he would remember but it wasn't like he had her number and he sure as hell couldn't just look her up. Jonny and the Tacoma boys was a different story, they knew and they all had her number, shit she still had her burner phone. They were smart though because if they had asked, T would of NEVER allowed them to come down. When she was honest with herself, she didn't want them there because it made her choice so much real, it made the fact that she wanted to stay feel wrong, kinda like how being legit made her feel. But the farm brought her peace she didn't have working with the girls and doing all the CSI shit. The farm also made her sad because it reminded her of why she was here and of why she left. It was hard being there, it reminded her of the days when they were a "happy" family. Those days were etched in everything, the house and the farm. It was killer for her to be there but it also made her happy. She was so fucked up in the head and she knew it, she just didn't care. She was who she had become, she was happy with that.
Jay took the seat on T's left, Greg made no move to leave something she was grateful for, but he did pass the joint back to her. T felt like her body was on fire with Jay sitting next to her. The memory of their fight when she was in Florida was still fresh in her mind and on her body. Even though the bruises had long ago faded away, there was no doubt in her mind that Jay might be the best lay that T had ever passed on. Bad thoughts of him crossed her mind as she took a long deep hit off the joint, she took a larger swig of her wine. She knew that now wasn't the time to think about wanting Jay, shit now wasn't the time to think about wanting anyone, besides Jay wouldn't want her back. She had already been with Hap and D. She was so lost in her thoughts she almost didn't even hear Jay whisper
"Do you feel it? Remember it? I dream of it all the damn time."
T looked around before looking at him, everyone was in their own conversations except for her, Jay and Greg. T took the joint that Greg was offering, as she did so she nodded her head, took a hit and replied "All the damn time."
The pair said nothing else but sat there, thighs touching and thinking of a fight that could of lead to an amazing fuck. T was about 97 percent sure that Jay was the type to really please a girl. Hap could get her off, but he was hardly ever gentle. Not that T wanted gentle, but for some reason she had a feeling that Jay would be a mix of wild, crazy, gentle and rough that she would enjoy.
-LK-
Happy was doing his damn best to not walk over there and shove Jay out of the seat next to T, he figured that she would be less pissed off at the Florida guys because they didn't know her as well. Yeah they might know she doesn't like surprises but T knew how the club worked and she knew that the Florida guys just did what they were asked. They didn't have a goal, not like the Tacoma guys. Happy knew that shit with him a T was almost too far gone to be saved, he had his work cut out for him. He knew that T wouldn't let him stay nomad to just be with her, he knew that she wanted him to take the spot in Charming so he could be closer to him momma. It was hard for him to realize that, maybe he really had lost her. The worst part was knowing that it wasn't really either one of their faults, it was all at the hand of a God that Hap was pretty damn sure hated them. Both of their parents were sick, her dad was worse off but still, it seemed like everything that could possibly be done to keep them apart was being done. It sucked that they had no power over what was happening, at least not any power that they could live with. As far as Hap was concerned he loved three things the club, his momma, and T.
Hap was pissed when Koz called him a few hours after he left to tell him the news. T was in Carolina and if he didn't love the club as much as he did he would of turned his bike around and drove straight there, but he had a mission to complete and the guys said that they were coming up with a plan to fix it. So far it was looking like the plan was going to be a fail. Happy figured that he had this last chance to be with T, even if it wouldn't end up being forever like he wanted, but instead just for a moment. And that's what gave him the courage to go over to her.
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So review and let me know what you think. Yes I do realize that some of you are going to hate the way this chapter is going to end, but hey I have a plan and well as it always does with writing, shit might change.