Happy stared at the sunset, smoking his cigarette slowly not allowing the Friday party to phase him in the slightest. He ignored the barely clothed whores that had been trying to gain his attention all night. Tonight, he had no desire to bed a used up, no respect for herself woman. No tonight, Hap just wanted to be left alone with his thoughts about his woman. The way her eyes lit up when he slammed her into a wall, bed or even the ground, the way her hair felt as he wrapped his hands in it and pounded her from behind and the fact that every moan and groan and whisper of his name was real. She was as real as they came, as club oriented and street smart as some of the men in the club. She made sacrifices for the people she loved, she committed serious crimes for those same people and she showed respect to people even when they didn't deserve it such as Jax's pregnant doctor bitch. It was true, no one was as perfect as his girl.
It had been a month since he had last seen her, a month since their night at her cabin and he couldn't help it, he was really starting to believe that she would never join him in Charming. They talked about once a week, sometimes more but he could never bring himself to ask her if she planned on coming and she never brought it up. Hap remembered one conversation they had and if at that moment he still would have been nomad he would of drove up there and kicked her ass. She gave him permission to do what he needed to do while he was in Charming, stating that while they loved each other nothing was official and that he could fuck who ever he wanted to, she just didn't want to get slapped in the face with it. Hap didn't admit that he had already had his fair share of the Charming crow eaters but he didn't think he needed to, knowing T like he did he figured she would of guessed it. She was just giving him permission so he wouldn't harbor guilt about it. Something that he wouldn't admit to but he did, it was easier to not feel guilty about it since it was Charming and his club unlike in Tacoma where it was "their" club even if she wasn't a patched in member. Tacoma was her home and fucking those bitches there was like having sex in her bed, just plain fucked up. Something that she had forgiven him for but he knew that if the tables were turned, he wouldn't be able to forgive her. In fact it had been a slight struggle to forgive her for the Florida dude and the tattoo guy. In his eyes she was his old lady, had always been his old lady and would always be HIS old lady. He knew that it was those exact thoughts that were causing him to sit here and think about her instead of enjoying the party with the rest of his brothers.
The week before, Tig had found the country CD Hap had Juice make for him. He knew the retard hadn't ratted him out because Hap had threatened the fucker with his life. Nope, Tig had just been snooping and decided it was something worth giving the killer shit over. No one had expected the reaction from it or the fight in the ring which left them all speechless and Tig with one eye swollen shut and a few bruised ribs. Hap later learned that Juice had been forced to talk about the CD by Clay, which helped a little bit and no one brought up the CD, the music or his girl again. Three things mattered to Happy and his brothers knew that and didn't fuck with that. His club, his ma and his girl once they found out about the CD's background, everyone understood the reaction. Hap figured it threw them all for a loop considering that he and Tig were close, their psycho tendencies allowing them to bond over things most of the other guys didn't or couldn't understand. Hap would never tell them how truly lucky they were to not know, to not feel the shit he felt, Tig felt and T felt. They were allowed to hold the gun, but they never truly had to pull the trigger. To live with things that made them want to empty their stomach contents. Hap was itching for a mark, for some action other than pussy, drama, and the small feuds between the 9ners and Mayans. Of course small time nords were still around, like Darby but well life would be boring without that bullshit and dealing with that was way better than dealing with the actual drama brewing in the club. Clay and Jax were at each other all the time, Jax was full of drama himself with his bitch( Hap couldn't refer to her by name, not after she had completely disrespected his girl after she saved her life and Abels) and the other bullshit. Which is what it all was to him, expect of course when it came to Opie. Opie deserved to Have Clay's head on a damn platter, Tigs too for that matter but it wasn't his business. It was before his time at Charming.
Hap missed being nomad, he missed the freedom of the open road, the random missions he was sent on and he just missed moving with the wind. He felt caged in, something he thought might happen but he had higher hopes. It hadn't ever really crossed his mind, since Clay had first asked him to transfer into his charter, that T wouldn't be coming with. That she wouldn't be by his side giving him good reason to actually settle down. He had just assumed that she would follow eventually, which he knew was a mistake. He knew better than to assume anything with T, she was as wild and free as the wind and as he used to be. It was one of the strongest points that had drew him to her. Her wild and crazy ways, thoughts and feelings.
Before she had stepped foot into the Tacoma clubhouse, he had heard of the others talk about her. He would admit that he was slightly intrigued but nothing out of the ordinary for someone of his stature. He was the SAA at the time and it was his job to protect Jonny and his family. He would of never guessed that this girl would of came along and changed his world. It was still a shock to him that just six years ago, she was a pretty untouchable girl just moving in. Now she was a killer, one of the best and she was his. Their age gap never really bothered him before. It was average really, she was eight years younger than him but with the life he lived he knew that he would be lucky to live as long as Clay and Piney had. He could end up like Otto, doing a long ass stint in the pen or he could be in a grave like Jon Teller. The life span was short for his profession, so far the longest standing member was Glen. The nomads were the men of myhem and they are all… well crazy. The nomad life didn't kill them, no it was the black on their souls that killed them. If they didn't have someone to help share the darkness, while it drove them to do their jobs it also slowly killed them. Hap knew with full certianity that if he didn't have T, he would die the same death as many before him had. Shit, even with her he had a higher chance at death than a lot of the other guys. He still had some of his sanity, unlike Tig he still knew his rights and wrongs but the month apart from her after fully being embraced in her, well he could feel the darkness closing in. Not that he would admit it to anyone. He really, just wanted his girl back.
-LK-
It had been one month since Hap's patch over. He no longer belonged to the Tacoma charter, not that he had for awhile but his whole time being nomad he spent a lot of time in Tacoma. It was easy to forget that he wasn't a part of their charter anymore. Now he was now member in the mother charter, he had planted his feet firmly in Charming, California. Mac wasn't all that shocked when it came up for him to go nomad, Hap was a free thinker, a wild spirit but he was surprised by his settling in Charming. The most shocking part was that T was still in Tacoma. She was still in her hide-a-way only coming out to play every once and awhile and firmly ignoring all comments and questions on a move to Charming and Hap. She didn't talk about him or Charming or what happened the night she took him away from the clubhouse except to ream Jonny for the tracking device. Mac had warned him but Jonny's over protective nature had won causing him to get a rather larger and loud earful from a very pissed off T a few days after Happy's departure.
Mac knew that T was thinking, most likely over thinking the whole situation. Every time he saw her, every time she did a job, he could see the darkness pulling at her a little bit. It could see the worry on her face when someone would bring up Hap, when she saw Glen's bike parked in the lot or when Jonny would announce that the Charming president had called. Mac would see her tense up before acting unfazed while quietly listening from whatever corner she had tucked herself into, something which was very Happy like.
Mac would never tell her or Hap and neither would Jonny that Charming had called twice, requesting that she come down there. They were pretty sure that Hap didn't know about either, the only advice that Jonny and Mac could give both the president and the VP was that the more they tried to force it the farther the two would pull. Both were more confident about her joining Hap in Charming when the time was right to the Charming members than either of them had really felt.
Mac could tell that T was getting close to finally just up and leaving for Charming, until Glen showed up two days ago with news that Hap had seriously fucked up Tig in a friendly ring fight after Tig gave him shit from a country CD of Hap's he "found". The look of murder on T's face was priceless to be honest¸ it was scary and the first sign to Mac that T was inches away from making the move that would change all of their lives. While T would never really be apart of the Charming Charter aside from being Hap's old lady, Clay would use that like ownership. Mac wished that when that day would come that he could be there to watch it blow up in his face because T wasn't owned. Not by Jonny or her father and she wouldn't let Clay own her either. The only person who had any control of her at any point was Ana, but Happy had a slight grasp. Not enough of course to force her to do Clay's biding. It would be funny to watch though, Clay getting his hopes and dreams smashed to bits and pieces. T would never allow Clay's drama and old fashioned ways run her. She would flip the fuck out. Of course being under the family aspect of the Tacoma, Nomad and Florida charters, because Zeke would be sure to pull the family card and Glen used her more than anyone else making her basically a nomad, it would end up bad for Clay. Not that the Tacoma or Florida guys would give him fair warning, shit even Glen wouldn't give the man warning and he and Clay were close. Nope, T was the biker princess if there ever was one and she was just as deadly as the rest of the clubs feared. It was a well known fact that she scared every single club member except for Happy.
Mac looked towards T, who had taken up residence in Hap's old corner. She was able to watch the door and the room with her back facing the wall. It was killer, protector 101 really but it still amazed him how much of the girl that joined them six years ago had changed, how now Killer instinct flowed through her veins. She was cat like, deadly and graceful in every single move she made. Mac smiled at her, she smiled back and downed her drink. Mac watched her get out from the table and leave the room. The weirdest part of the whole situation was how no one watched her leave or ask her where she was going, in fact it was almost like no one else could see her. She had became what she finally wanted, she was invisible.
-LK-
Jax and Clay had made calls pretty much begging that they send T down last week. The response they received were not really what they were hoping to hear. Clay was pissed that no one was meeting his demands or even taking them seriously. Jax was just worried about Hap's sanity. The fight between Hap and Tig was… ruff even for them. Jax figured that Hap would be better off with T down there, he seemed brighter around her. To Jax, well their reasons were good ones, but Clay felt they were disrespectful. Clay wanted the woman, for more reasons than because she balanced the killer but because she was a killer as well. She was smart, efficient and the most coveted woman in the whole damn MC world. Her being apart of the sons was good, but her being at the hands of the mother charter was better. He wanted her as a special weapon, once she was at his club the rules set up by Tacoma would no longer be hers too follow and maybe, just maybe he would finally be able to effectively shake the Mayans and the 9ners.
Either way, they still had Hap and they wanted him at his best. Tig had finally broke through to him, a night after their fight. Tig said that "Hap's fine, he just… misses his girl" that response had probably shocked Jax and Clay more than either of them ever thought possible. No one would ever have guessed that Hap could feel something as plain and simple as he missed his girl. Shit, it was just weird to see Hap worried about any type of female that wasn't his momma.
Tig really thought that it might be best to keep out of Hap and T's relationship and relayed as much to his president and VP. He hoped that they would listen, pushing T on Hap if she didn't want to come would be bad. Hap would know it was of force instead of want. Tig figured that now that Hap snapped, it was better to let the rest play out on its own. He wasnt snooping to be nosy, he was looking for a trigger to set him off and it worked. Hap got his anger out enough to talk a little about what the fuck was up. Right now, Tig knew that it all rested on T. He just hope that she proved better than the rest of the hoes and made shit right with her old man.
-LK-
T shook her head from where she sat in the corner. Hap had went fucking crazy over a CD, on Tig of all people. She might hate Tig and the rest of the Charming guys but she knew that Tig and Hap were close, the closest thing that Hap had to a friend other than Koz. Which had always made her laugh because Koz and Tig hated each other over a dog that died the year T had moved to Tacoma. Tig blames Koz and of course Koz takes it all in stride, T couldn't believe that with all the other shit that went on in the MC life, Tig was holding a grudge over a dog. Sure, mans best friend and all that but the six year feud was fucking old and had held Koz back from getting the transfer when he had really wanted it.
T could list more things she hated about Charming than she liked, so the fact that moving there was constantly crossing her mind meant that the few reason she had for moving there seemed to beat out the whole damn list of reason why she shouldn't. The main reason she even considered the move was because she missed Hap. She had released him on the crows there because she didn't want him harboring guilt if she did move there. She wouldn't let used up pussy scare her, if Hap wanted those nasty hoes, well than he could have them. He just better not bring back shit to her. She was pretty sure that if a crow eater ended up pregnant with his baby that she would kill him. All in all, she just didn't want to have a reason that made her feel like she had to move there. She wanted to do it when she was good and fucking ready. She didn't count on the fact that her night with Hap would open a flood gate of emotion she had long forgotten she could even posses. She missed him, not just the sexual part of their relationship either. She missed the fact that they could sit quietly, she missed the fact that he knew her better than she knew herself and she missed him because he was her best friend. The girls would never truly understand her like Hap because they didn't live the life she did. Not that she wanted them to, because she didn't want them to be anywhere near the life she lived. Even working on crime scenes seemed to be too close to it for her liking but she allowed them to be their own person. They had showed that they really did know how to do their job, so T's old boss finally quit giving them shit about her coming back. T was pretty sure that she would never be returning to that job.
Having Glen in the club house hit her heart because she knew that as he walked in the door, Happy wouldn't be following him like he use to. No Happy was in Charming, the last place she thought she would ever be is now the only place she really wanted to be. She smiled as she caught Mac watching her and slammed her drink before exiting the clubhouse. It was strange that she got what she wanted finally. No one asked her a million questions as she made her exit, no stared at her or tried to stop her from leaving. Nope, no one even looked at her, she felt invisible and she loved it.
As she drove out to her cabin, she couldn't get her mind off Happy. She hadn't really been able to keep her mind off him in the month since he had been gone. She remembered the way she cleaned up their clothes the morning after, she had hung his cut on the back of a chair instead of leaving it on the couch where she assumed he put it when they started getting undressed. How they got naked and up to her room was kind of a blur but all that mattered was that for one night, they got to really embrace each other and they both had wanted it. No longer was it one sided advances, now they were both equal parties in the loving disaster that is their relationship. T walked through the gate, pass the trampoline, into the house and headed straight for the stairs.
She changed into a stolen shit of Hap's that still smelled like him, and climbed in bed. She pulled the book off the bedside table and looked through it. She loved just looking at the pictures that Hap had drawn… She wanted to make all that he had drawn come true. She didn't want the fancy wedding or anything stupid that most little girls dreamed of. No she liked how she just randomly had a ring on her finger, after all she knew how the MC world worked. Being an old lady in the biker world was the same as being a wife in the normal world. Most MC couples just got married because if something happened, the government didn't recognize an old lady to be the same thing as a wife. She wasn't sure if Hap and her would ever get married even though the staff at Hap's mom's home thought that they were married something that Hap himself had told them. At the time, she had just figured that it was so if something happened to him like death or jail someone would be able to take care of his mom. No one better to do it than T, since she looked at the woman as the mother she had missed out on.
T placed the book back on her bedside table, turned the lamp off and put her head on her pillow. She missed knowing that if she wanted him to be, Hap would be laying next to her. It was her fault that she was sleeping alone. All she had to do was pack a couple bags, load up her car and drive to Charming. She knew in the reasonable part of her brain that it really was that easy even though she tried to make herself think different she knew that she was just making excuses. Well, laying there alone in her bed wrapped in a shirt that belonged to and smelt like Happy she admitted to herself that she needed to quit making excuses and just fucking do it. She was still fighting with herself by the time sleep over took her.
-LK-
Jax watched as a decked out silver Audi pulled into the lot. There seemed to be nothing wrong with the car when it pulled into the lot. In fact the car kept reminding Jax of something. He felt like he was missing something, like it was just out of his reach. Juices voice was what finally made the pieces click together. Jax yelled out to the Prospect to go hunt down Happy.
-LK-
Happy walked out of the clubhouse, saying that Jax wanted him and that he was supposed to hurry. If it was to fix another god damn car, Hap was pretty sure that he was going to kill someone. It didn't help his mood any that T hadn't been answering his call at all for the past two days. HE wasn't sure if he should be worried or pissed. He was a little of both, at the current moment and the fact that Jax was demanding that he come see something wasn't helping his mood any.
Hap walked out into the parking lot just as the door on the Audi opened. He watched as one tan leg after another stepped out of the car before finally revieling the last person he expected to see and the only person he wanted to see.
"Little Killer!" Hap hollered from where he was standing. Once he was closer he looked at her shaded eye through his own shades.
"What are you doing here?" Hap asked her. He was close enough to grab her but he wanted to hear her answer first.
She flipped her sunglasses up and took a step closer to him. Hap could smell her and he couldn't help but take a deep breath. She left a step between them before she looked at him in the eyes and answered his question.
"I think you know why I'm here." She replied before taking that last step and kissing him.
Hap wrapped one hand in her hair and the other around her waist pulling her as close as he could. Her hands were fisted in the front gripping hard onto his cut. As they pulled away, Hap flipped up his own glasses.
"Well its about damn time."
-LK-
So I realize that some of you may think that this ending sucks but I had wanted for the story to end the same way it started. So much has changed from the way I thought I wanted the story to be but I am actually really happy with the way it turned out. I sequel may be in the making, which is why I left it open enough to give me a little room in case I do decide to do one. But I wanted there to be enough closure so that if I don't, the story can stand alone. Anyways Thank you to all my lovely readers who have stuck through this really crazy ride with me! Im so glad that you guys enjoyed it! Any questions PM me or leave them in your review, unless its about a sequel because now that this story is done I am going to focus on Love Life and Loss and hopefully Becoming a Killer before I even think about a sequel to this one
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