A/N: Thanks for the reviews guys!Even if only 12, I know at least some people care! I'll definitely watch my punctuation, and sorry .GrImMjOw
for spelling your username wrong in the last A/N :(...if you're still reading...
Ok, so before I start with the story, I'll explain to you about the Shamans, who are mentioned over here. They are spiritual tribes who perform rituals and invite disturbed people to find their inner peace and self-confidence and...contentment-if that's a word. They live in the fields around the Netherlands and that's where Byakuya went after suffering from depression due to Hisana's death.
Anyway, here is the next chap!-
A Letter from Byakuya
2nd January, 2011 7.30 p.m.
Dear Rukia,
Happy New Year! Wishing you a merry Christmas as well- I am heartily sorry I wasn't able to contact you any sooner-my soul felt like being alone for sometime after Hisana tragically left us alone in this world, I am sure you understand-
Oh yeah, sure I understand, Nii-sama. My soul felt like being alone too, only because I'm 13 years younger to you, I was able to handle it maturely.
Yeah, Merry Christmas to you too.
-Time passes so fast, doesn't it? It felt like only yesterday when I boarded the plane to Netherlands to join the Shamans with a shattered heart ; because I was too hurt to care for anyone else-
'Care for anyone else'...yeah, like- for instance- your only family left-me..? Yes, Nii-sama time passes fast, because it 'feels like only yesterday' my heart ripped open at the thought of being left alone. You wanna know why 'it feels like only yesterday'..? Because I thought about it everyday ever since then. But it's fine.
-I don't regret coming here- every day, every new discovery has been delightful and worth all the hardships I suffered through. It's been half a year since I last saw you and the depressed feeling has somewhat subsided, and even though the temperature here is freezing, I can feel the warmth penetrate through me, giving me inner strength-
What is wrong with him? Did they brainwash him or what?
But ofcourse you don't regret leaving me, Byakuya nii-sama. What does it matter to you if I needed you and you just ran off?
-Do not try contacting me in any sort of way, I shall send you letters when the need arises. Patience is a good virtue, remember that-
I will not try contacting you even if I knew where the heck you are. You're the most pathetic brother I have ever met.
-I hope to see you soon, dear sister.
Yours eternally,
Byakuya.
Yours eternally, my ass.
Anyway, this was 's the letter I got this morning, without his address written. It's dated a few days back, and it's from Nii-sama as you can see.
My first reaction at receiving this was happiness of then slowly, I began to get angry.
6 months, and he never found the need to give me a call? or mail me, though I doubt the cavemen over there know what Compaq is.
He could have even SMSed me for the very least. How much does that take...one minute at the most?
Urahara keeps on telling me Byakuya was stupid, but now he has realized his mistake. There was nothing- no Christmas present attached or parceled along with the letter. Yeah he realized his mistake, didn't he? That's why there was no hint of him telling me he was missing me, but instead how much he was enjoying the 'new discoveries' or whatever that is.
I bitterly threw the gift I had gotten for Nii-sama in hope of meeting him again for Christmas under my bed. I'm never gonna look at it again. I don't care.
I understand, of course I do. Hisana was my sister too. Does he think I'm some kind of indifferent bitch who can move on and not care or be depressed over her sister's death because she happens to be my sister and not my wife..?
You tell me, if the only person you knew to care about you, and love you and be your whole world, suddenly died, and you were left with her husband, your brother-in-law, who -instead of being there through the hard time- left you under the care of his secretary and ran off to Netherlands to the Shamans to find his spirituality...how would you feel?
I can act like I don't care to people who can't understand, but I can't lie to myself. I know that I miss Nii-sama.
I guess it was too much to ask of Nii-sama to love me.
A/N: Kinda short, I know, and sappy, but I hope you liked it! Oh, btw, I'm shifting from my current house so I might not be able to update for some time. If this story is not updated within three days, automatically assume that I'm busy with the house furniture and stuff, and bear with me! I'm sorry! :(
And of course, as I always seem to be chanting- R&R plz!