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Crash
13th Jan, 2011 (Thursday)
Oh my God.
OH MY GOD..
I don't believe this. After all that had already had happened.- now this…
I feel empty.
What did I do? Isn't it enough? After finally believing that I was going to be a normal family with my brother-in-law returning after 6 months..I just- I can't believe this is happening to me..
I don't want to cry- I hate to cry like this while Ichigo holds me. I don't want to show him I'm weak.
But what am I now….? I'm officially under Urahara's custody, because now- now I don't have any other family…...
Byakuya Nii-sama's plane crashed somewhere along the sea due to unknown reasons. There are no survivors. So far. And they don't expect any. It crashed in the sea after all.
I didn't- I can't- I feel ruined.
When Urahara called yesterday to tell me, I thought I was going to shatter. I just stood there, waiting, stupidly, for Urahara to tell me he was joking.
But he never did.
Ichigo was watching T.V. nearby, but the noise of the baseball match..everything..it seemed so far away..so distant…
When Urahara actually said those words-
"Rukia..I'm sorry. Byakuya's just… Flight no.268 is down…"
My mind froze, and the phone dropped from my hands as I stared into nothingness..
"Rukia?" Ichigo called uncertainly.
I looked over at him, slowly turning my head. I knew I wore the same blank expression Renji had worn what now seemed so long ago after Tatsuki's outburst…
I felt myself swaying, losing control-
"RUKIA!" Ichigo cried. I saw everything around me slide as he jumped up from the couch at me. There was a noise of breaking glass, and everything went black. I dreamt of a walking a road last night. A road which seemed attacked; like a battle zone. There was an eerie silence when I caught the sight of a figure. It walked towards me, and I realized it was Nii-sama. But his- his eyes- they looked shocked, an agape mouth and- and I dunno..I just- he looked so pale. He looked at me with haunted eyes-
I screamed and woke up.
"-WAS A DREAM!" came Ichigo's yell from close to me.
I opened my eyes to find him on top of me, holding my wrists tightly as I lay on my bed.
"It was just a dream, okay?" he breathed heavily and got off me, pink in the face.
"You want something to drink?"
I shook my head. I felt sick. My head ached- my heart ached..everything ached.. I burst into tears. I didn't care if he saw me- I could kick his ass afterwards. Right now, I just buried myself in his chest as he wrapped me in a bear hug.
"Hey…I heard what happened- Urahara's been calling like crazy. Rukia.." he said softly. I was soaking his T-shirt, but he didn't care, only held me tighter. I didn't even want to notice when my heart skipped a beat- I didn't want Nii-sama to go. Stupid as I am, I still don't want to believe..
"I w-want him back.." I sobbed "I do-don't want N-N-Nii-sama to die! I-"
What can I do now? Why did he have to come back now anyway? Couldn't he just wait for another 6 months? Why now..?
"Rukia, I know-"
"EVERYBODY SEEMS TO KNOW!" I screamed, throwing myself away from him "Everybody seems to understand, then why is it that I'm the one who loses everything?"
"You're not the only one, I-" he began, but I interrupted him.
He couldn't mention his mother now. His mother's death was nothing compared to this… I lost my whole family, he just lost a mother!
He stared at me, eyes shocked.
And that's when I realized that I had just said all of that all loud. I can't believe I had said that. I feel sickened with myself..what's wrong with me?
The next thing I knew, I had flung out of my bed and thrown my alarm clock against the wall with all the force I had got. I just wanted to hurt something really badly…to know that I was not the only who was hurting….
"Rukia!" Ichigo cried, alarmed.
I tried to throw more things, but Ichigo tackled me down. I struggled hysterically for a long time, punching, hitting and kicking every part of him I could get. I heard him grunt in pain as I punched his jaw, but he didn't let go of me.
And then out of nowhere- his lips crashed on mine.
I felt my heart ache more…he had pinned me to the ground and was kissing me right then…and yet it hurt to know he had just did it to shut me up.
I mean, hadn't he…? My tears slipped between our lips..I tasted the saltiness until he softly kissed it away
I just let everything melt; I don't care anymore.
He released me finally and looked into my eyes.
I'm pathetic, aren't I? Everyone I love is so far away from me.
I looked away at the snow-clad grounds out the window. It suddenly occurred to me- it was morning..
"You-" I rounded up on Ichigo "You aren't at school."
"Ofcourse I'm not, midget" he mumbeled, still relaxed on the floor, head facing the ceiling "You think I could leave you like the crap you are right now? Reminding of which, get back to bed. I don't want you having a cold- I'm gonna end up taking care of you anyway. Jeez-"
My eyes softened and I hugged him, ignoring the continuous ache in my heart.
"What the-" he said, taken aback.
"Thankyou, Ichigo. Thank you just so much."
He hugged me back "You idiot midget.."
I just wish-
I just wish it'd stop hurting so much.
A/N: Sappy, much?
I killed Byakuya *ducks behind table* sorry! But I gotta add some drama to this thing- Rukia's life can't be too happy! ;)
Except of course- the ending- I can't think of anything but a happy ending!
Hope you guys liked it.
Oh, and I might not be able to update in a while. If I don't, then please bear with me and don't think I've put this on hold again. XD
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