A/N: Takahashi Sesshoumaru: 27

Harada Rin: 21

Kaze Kagura: 24

Takahashi Inuyasha: 23

Higurashi Kagome: 22

Houshi Miroku: 23

Taijiya Sango: 22

'Italics': Thoughts

Bold: Emphasis

'Bold Italics': Flashback

To All: Thank you for being very supportive. I really appreciate it a lot. I know I can be a bitch at times and leave all of you hanging. And I'm so sorry for that ne? I really don't intend to leave you guys hanging but sometimes I just can't help it. I've decided to continue writing this story though I might take a long time to actually update the story. So please bear with me. The story's getting interesting now, but please bear with the SessKagu part of the story. I think they'll cover the next few chapters of the story. I hope this chapter is not much of a disappointment!

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Chapter Eleven: I want to be with you Sesshoumaru

There, stood just a few feet away from me, was Kagura. Having her hair tied up in a ponytail, wearing a maroon off-the-shoulder blouse and black skirt caused the hitch of my breath. She looked like a sex goddess.

"Yo," she greeted me in a bored tone.

"What is it that you want now Kagura?" I asked her indifferently despite the surprise of her presence at my office.

Hey eyebrows formed a v-shape as she openly glared at me. "Can't you be more courteous instead of demanding?"

I quirked my eyebrows at her in silent defiance. She merely sighed and looked up at me. "Can we talk in your office?"

I gave a curt nod and opened the door of my office for her to get in first. Once she got into my office, I directed my gaze at Sango, "That'll be all for now. Make sure no one disturbs me."

Sango nodded in understanding and went back to her desk while entered my office.

"Now what can I do for you?" I questioned the enchantress in my office.

Kagura, who was sitting on the couch at the corner of the office, gazed at me in contemplation. She got up of the seat and started pacing around in my office probably out of anxiety. I simply watched her, giving her some time to collect herself.

"Sesshoumaru, when will Rin get back?" she asked out of sudden. I would have to admit that I was taken aback with the question. But nevertheless, I still gave her my answer.

"Probably in three to four days time."

She stopped pacing and stared back at me and mouthing a 'O'. She mumbled something to herself and started her pacing once more.

Starting to get irritated with her pacing, I walked towards her and grabbed hold of her arms. "What's your problem?" I demanded.

Her shocked face was replaced by sudden anger when I demanded her. "I seriously begin to think that you don't know the meaning of courtesy!"

Ignoring her last remark, I narrowed my eyes at her and demanded her once again in a lower tone, "Now tell me what your problem is."

She wrenched her hands from mine and glowered at me in pure loathing. "It's none of your business! I just wanted to know when Rin is coming back! That's all!"

"Well if that's the case you could have just called me or asked me later once I reach home."

Hah! Finally, the cat got her tongue! She turned away from me, fixing her gaze on my ash tray. I took a few steps towards her and gently grabbed hold of her hands. Turning her to face me, I stared into her eyes.

"What is wrong Kagura?"

She merely threw herself at me and began sobbing. I put my arms around her hesitantly and started cooing her. It really broke my heart to see her cry like this. "Tell me what it is," I softly commanded her.

She buried her face in my coat and cried harder. I patted her hair in a soothing way. We stood there hugging each other until Kagura ceased her sobbing.

I pulled her back and looked into her swollen eyes, "Why did you cry?"

She looked away and stepped back from me. It took every ounce of my energy to not pull her back into my arms again. She felt so right in my arms.

Turning her back to me, she took one large breath before letting it go again, probably in the attempt to compose herself.

"I just felt guilty, that's all," I heard her hoarse voice.

I raised one of my eyebrows even though I know she can't see it. I didn't say anything waiting for her to continue. She was aware of it too. She turned and faced me once again.

"I felt guilty towards Rin. And I'm still feeling guilty."

"Why?"

She bit her bottom lip and she fiddled with her bracelet. Her eyes shifted to the ground as she tried to form the words on her lips.

"I…" she hesitated and then looked at me again this time with confusion and guilt clearly present in her eyes.

"I think I'm beginning to fall for you Sesshoumaru," she said in just one breath. Her gaze lingered on my face before dropping it to something behind me.

My heart stopped a beat before it started beating again, this time two times faster than my normal speed. I merely stood there in shock (though I didn't show it in my face) and asked her a 'What'.

"I like you a lot. Not as a friend or acquaintance. But more…than a friend. I like you like how a woman likes a man. I'm…I'm afraid I'm falling in love with you," she whispered, her eyes still focused on something behind me.

I held my breath at her confession. For a moment I thought I was dreaming, but I knew better. She wasn't a figment of my mind but real. She was standing right in front of me with guilt wrenching her guts.

I took a step towards her and grabbed her restless hands. She ceased all movements and hesitantly peeked at me from under her lashes.

"Look at me Kagura," I ordered her and immediately she gave me her undivided attention. The young enchantress bit her bottom lip under my cool scrutiny. I removed one of my hands from hers and brushed my knuckles on her bottom lip, silently asking her release it from in between her teeth. She complied immediately as her eyes became unfocused.

I traced her lips with my index finger watching her fluttering her mesmerizing eyes. She looked so beautiful when she seemed lost and dazed. It just made my heart ache with delight knowing that she saw me more than a friend. It just made me want to kiss her senselessly.

And that was what I did.

I crushed my lips onto hers and felt pleased when Kagura gasped in surprise. I took the opportunity to plunge my tongue into her mouth as I ravaged her mouth thoroughly. Her hands, which were once in mine roved about my body and gradually settling them behind my neck. One of my hands slowly moved to her nape and caressed it. Kagura elicited a moan as she moved her hands into my hair, pulling me closer to her.

We withdrew from the kiss trying to catch our breath. I was the first one who got composed. While she still trying to catch her breath, I reveled on how blissful the kiss was with her. I'd kissed so many women in my lives before, but never had I felt such strong emotions while kissing. Kagura awoke all of my emotions with a start. And I loved it.

Finally getting her composed, she gazed up at me and frowned. She pushed herself away from me and made distance between the both of us. She then hugged herself. Good God, why couldn't she just accept the fact that there was something more going on between the both of us?! She didn't have to face this alone!

"Why are moving away from me like nothing has just happened?" I questioned her in irritation.

"Because I rather pretend that this is just a dream than guilt eating at me for betraying my only friend, knowing that something happened a few moments ago," she bit back.

'Always so stubborn,' I thought to myself in frustration. "Don't spout nonsense, Kagura. Definitely you realise I harbour feelings for you way longer than you expect. And I'm not going to let you just walk away from me like this after knowing how you feel for me."

Her furious glare clashed with mine as she sneered at me, "You only look for your own benefit don't you Sesshoumaru?! You don't care if other people around you gets hurt as long as you get what you want, is that it Sesshoumaru?! I've never seen such a selfish bastard ever in my life before!"

Taking long strides towards her, I pulled her against my body and the whispered in restraint rage, "Yes, I am selfish. What is the point in putting me in a situation I'm unhappy with? I don't see the reason why I can't fight for what I want for my happiness. And now I desire you. I want you because I love you. I've had eyes on you way before I married Rin, do you know that? I've been hunting for you all those months but only to meet failure time and again. I just had to meet you after I married Rin, and I believe there is a reason for it. Fate brought us together once again."

Her brows knitted in confusion as she searched my face for answers.

Squeezing her arms in resignation, I gave out a silent sigh as I recounted our uneventful meeting in the restaurant a few months ago. After hearing me out, her eyes widened in surprise and wonder.

"You… you did what?" she asked me in disbelief.

I gritted my teeth as I answered her, "I tracked you down but to no avail. Is there a problem with that?"

She ignored my question as she grasped as much information she could get as possible. Her eyes were still wide in surprise as they move about my office, not once looking at me.

Already impatient with her silence I continued, "Rin and I were married because we were compelled to. We don't love each other at all. We're legally married but we're just like two strangers living in one big house. The both of us have come to an agreement that we're allowed to do whatever we want as long as our paths don't cross each other. Does this confession make you feel better?"

Her attention snapped back at me once again as she shook her head in objection. "I don't know if you love her or not, but I know Rin loves you. She loves you so much that she's putting up a façade making you believe she wants nothing to do with you."

'What is she blabbering about?' my mind questioned, in shock. As much as I didn't want to believe, somewhere deep inside my heart wished what Kagura was telling was the truth. Of course I wouldn't openly agree with her. I still kept the indifferent expression on as I waited for her to continue.

Kagura merely chuckled and continued with what she was saying, "Rin talks so highly of you. Whenever I'm with her all she talks about is about you. What you like, what you don't like, what you feel on certain issues. It's always about you. She reads you like an open book. How can one know all these if she doesn't love you? How can she not love you when her eyes brighten up with adoration where you are concerned?"

I merely stood where I was and stared at her while my mind swirled with various questions and emotions. Was Kagura making this all up or was she telling the truth about Rin? I didn't want to believe her and yet I wanted to. A part of me felt unknown elation coursing through me while the other was still dubious of what Kagura said. But nevertheless I still felt stronger for Kagura than for Rin.

Kagura fixated her crimson hued eyes on me and whispered, "How can I betray her trust she has for me by feeling such forbidden emotions for you?"

"How can you sacrifice your own happiness for her?" I countered back.

"I'm sacrificing my happiness not only for her, but for everyone around you and for my reputation. What will they think of me if I agree to be with you?"

Making a disapproving sound, I moved towards her again and held her in my arms. "There's always a solution for everything including the circumstance we're in. You just have to say 'yes' and the rest you leave it to me. I know what to do," I soothed her.

She looked at me with controlled tears and doubts of her own. Giving her time to think, I hugged her as I patted her back.

After a few minutes of silence I heard her muffled agreement, "I want to be with you Sesshoumaru."

I pulled her back and looked into her eyes, this time with greater intensity. Without giving her any time, I crashed my lips onto hers for the second time. I ravaged her mouth until all thoughts and doubts flew away from her mind. Just as we were kissing the office phone on my desk rang. The both of us ignored the call and indulged ourselves in our kiss.

We weren't even aware that the phone stopped ringing.

And we weren't even aware that we had visitors into my office until we heard a gasp of shock.

So that's the end of the chapter. I think it's a little slipshod, but I promise to do better in the next chapter. I've been really busy with school and all. Despite facing writer's block and loss of inspiration for this story, I managed to continue writing because I know how irritating it is not to know the end of the story. So don't worry, Restria hasn't given up on you guys ok?! Only if you readers review that is. Hehe.

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