An Impossible Reality Chapter 5 : Holy Crap!, a twilight fanfic

An Impossible Reality

Chapter 5- Holy Crap!

Disclaimer- I unfortunately, after much therapy and depression I have understood that I don't and won't own twilight or the saga so I can love instead. (My story though!)

Alix POV

I woke up, praying it was just a dream but then there it was. Vivid in my brain like it was happening at that very moment, I was kissing Jake (wow!) yet I was thinking about Edward. What the actual hell? Jake liked me, wanted to kiss me and my stupid brain, my bedazzled brain thought of the dazzler himself. I cannot believe I was so dumb, I knew it. I knew I liked Edward a little more than I liked to let on but I still let Jake kiss me. Maybe it was a sad attempt to stop my heart from feeling what it felt, I failed miserably.

I groaned as I checked the time. 6:30 am it read. I didn't have to be up for a while but I guess I might as well, if I go back to sleep then I won't get back up. But maybe that wouldn't be the worst idea. I shook my head; I am not playing hooky so early into my time here.

I walked into the closet and pulled out my favourite dark blue skinny jeans and grabbed my music tee-shirt. I added my grey cardigan and my converse. Picking my accessories was essential; they polish off the outfit for you. I picked out my favourite diamond necklace. It was in the shape of a tiger tooth but was diamante. It was given to me by my cousin Hayden. He said I reminded him of a tiger, ruthless and fearless. He really didn't know me that well when you think about it. I have fears of losing those I love, being hurt intentionally and dying of cancer. That is my worst fear.

I decided to have mocha as my morning drink today. To keep me going through the day, but I couldn't drink coffee straight off, I needed chocolate in there to even out the taste. I chugged it, letting the look-warm liquid flood my stomach. I sighed with enjoyment as I put the cup in the dishwater after the final swallow.

I was out of the house by 5 to 8, I had plenty of time to get to school, but I wanted to be early today, to see if Edwards' new regime of talking to me keeps itself up. I also just wanted to see him really, it's sad I know as he very obviously doesn't like me like that, maybe I should have just gotten with Jake last night. Became HIS girlfriend, not just a friend he kissed that one time. But I shook that thought away quickly, I couldn't deck in our friendship, if it was meant to be Edward wouldn't have crept into my mind.

The second I opened the door I was hit with the snow I had longed for since I got here. I loved the snow; it made me happy and feel carefree. At least that was till I skidded onto the front of my car, but at least I found the note Jake had left me. "Alix, I put snow tracks on your tires, you are welcome. Kiss" I read aloud to myself, I sighed, the kiss threw me off guard and balance and I dropped to my butt on the floor. "Ow!" I yelled, my butt was now cold and numb, yay! (Sarcasm)

I climbed into my car and turned the heat on full blast as with my music. I played the song I played for Jake last night, I had them recorded by my cousin, he bought me the recording equipment to make my dream happen, and I was so grateful.

I relived the night in my head, savouring the kiss, the kiss that made me smile, made me happy and made me want to scream, but it wasn't enough. Jake was a step down from what I truly wanted, but I wanted to want Jake so badly. I shook away the thoughts and continued to drive. I saw more white in the forest, this time it was blurred with gray and black, with a tint of a familiar colour I couldn't place my finger on. Great! My crazy, messed up mind is seeing more than white now, woop!

I pulled into the lot and didn't see a soul there, until five minutes later when the usual early birds filed in. I saw the nerds scuttle off inside to the library I could only assume, the breakfasts here were not as appetising as you would wish to believe. It's quicker and cheaper just to eat at home. Then the silver Volvo arrived, with Edward, Alice and Jasper filing out, a jeep coming in next with the other two, Emmett and Rosalie. Edward glanced at me smiled at me and hopped his butt onto the front of his car. Alice and Jasper sat next to each other still half inside half out of the car and I just emerged from the door of mine.

I couldn't take my eyes off of them, they were so beautiful, graceful and elegant were the only words that could spring to mind. They were like 4 cars down the lot from me and as I tried to look away I managed it with severe difficulty, until a loud screech rung in my ears and I was on red alert. I had a movie moment when it all slowed down and I saw it all clearly.

A blue van, dark blue- a great colour for the darker hours if you wanted to be hidden- approached me at full speed. There was a frantic Tyler in the front seat, killing the breaks trying to stop, whilst swerving at the same time, trying not to hit me at a frontal angle. I saw a few shocked teens that had now filled the once empty car park, trying to acknowledge what was happening and then there was a frozen faced Edward Cullen, Alice making the same face. I glanced back to the van in my slow motion moment.

I wanted to duck in my arms, cover my vision so I didn't have to see my death yet I couldn't look away. I was fixated on my death. I missed my saviour last time I was almost killed; at least I think I was going to be killed, unless my dream wasn't a vision of what COULD have happened, and was just a figment of my vivid imagination. I didn't care; if I was going to die I didn't want to see it.

In the time my slow motion moment had given me I could have just ran with my best try to get away, my car would be totalled but at least I wouldn't be. I turned to run, clearly too late but at least I would have taken the chance I was given at some point but I was pushed to the floor, cracking my skull against the cold, black tarmac.

I took my gaze from the floor I had just hit and looked up to not only see the van, stopped just inches from my fragile cheeks with a huge dent in the side but what made the dent intrigued me. It curved around the clenched left fist of Edward Cullen. I blinked re-opening my eyes to make sure he was still there. His cold hand was on my face, forcing me to be pierced with his golden attack strategy.

"Alix! Are you okay?" I nodded and tried to get up. Only to be held back down by his ironclad grip. I looked puzzled at him and he shook his head. "Oh, no you don't!" he chuckled a little, my eyebrows forced to be burrowed together in confusion. "You hit your head pretty hard," he stated. I protested and then it hit me, Edward was lay on top of me; I kind of get how Jake felt when we were on the beach. I forced him to allow me access to sit up, he didn't want to but I persisted.

When my head reached to as high as it was going to go I felt my surroundings spin around. Like a whirlpool was sucking it all away, I let my back flop to the floor, feeling a cold, firm hand stop me from crashing to the ground completely. "There it is," I groaned, and he chuckled again.

"Like I said!" then he laughed a little louder. I glared shutting his beautifully carved marble like mouth.

"This is no laughing matter Edward Cullen. Ow! My freaking head." I wanted to cry but there was no way I could cry in front of Edward Cullen without hearing about it later. He laid my back down to the cold floor and I flinched in shock. Which was colder? Edward's hands or the floor? I had no clue I just wanted to be warm again, if I ever could be in Forks. I heard roars of worry begin to erupt from my school mates.

I could definitely hear Mike, especially as he got closer and Edward rumbled a low growl from his chest. Wow, he REALLY didn't like Mike; I just thought they had differences. "I'm cold Edward." I stuttered, shivering as I said it. He removed his grasp from my shoulders keeping me down and shot to the place where the van had spun off a little and collided with the car next to mine, I was lucky that my car was unscathed.

I propped myself up against my car and looked up to see Tyler. "Tyler? Wake up!" I called and he stirred. If that was all you had to do to a knocked out person how do people live in comas? "Are you alright?" I asked really worried about him, he was bleeding but my head was throbbing. Nope his was definitely worse. I crawled over to his side of the wreckage and fought the urge to try and open the door.

"Alix, are YOU okay? You almost got hit by me. I am so sorry I tried to-" he tried but I let out a cold hard shush from my bright red lips.

"I am fine. I hit my head but no bleeding. And, you still didn't answer my question." I tried to joke but he was guilt ridden from an almost accident. "The ambulances will be here soon, I can feel it." I sighed, holding the hand he had managed to get out of the conveniently cracked open window. I heard another growl and looked to Edward. "How's your hand Edward?"

"Cullen's here?" Tyler asked, unable to see him at the end of the mess cluttering the car park. I nodded and Edward came into view of Tyler.

"My hand?" he asked, looking puzzled that I had noticed.

"Yeah, you hit the van with it right?" I asked, doubting myself a little until he paused for an unnecessarily long time. That confirmed it, he did something. Although not sure what it was, I was sure about it that something had happened.

He played with a strand of his hair before laughing a little. "You did hit your head Alix; I am not surprised you are hallucinating." The sirens seared through the air signalling the cries to stop and the emergency paramedics to get the van moved. I looked to Edward to frown at him; if he pushed the van away then I wanted to know. Not to tell people or announce he is a superhuman but to have some kind of recognition that I really wasn't losing my mind.

"I'm not-" the van suddenly jerked away from us revealing the open world I had silently said goodbye to. I gasped when I saw Jessica, Angela, Mike, Eric, and even Lauren in tears, some more fluent than others. Then things went faster than I thought humanly possible.

Before I knew what was happening, nor had the chance to deny it I was attached to a stretcher being lifted into the back of the ambulance. "I'm fine!" I screamed and Edward shook his head.

"She hit her head when I got her to the floor. I would check it out." He whispered.

"Traitor!" I yelled and he smiled, crookedly of course. I motioned for him to come over before they 'loaded' me, he came and I pulled his ear to my mouth. "I WILL get an explanation Edward." I warned and he chuckled.

"Fine! Just get out of here." He waved goodbye and I was left to await the freak outs from my family and friends. Mum was going to without a doubt have a panic attack. Dad would be worried but wouldn't scream at the top his lungs in fear for my life. Jen probably wouldn't care at all, and I knew for a fact that nana would have heart attack if I don't tell her.

The ride was silent since I was on my own and I had chance to process my thoughts. At least I thought I would cos all of a sudden Jacobs's ringtone shot through the tiny back of the ambulance. I glanced at the guy in the mirror and he nodded. "Hey Jake!" I cheered.

"Are you alright? I heard about the car accident." He panicked. He had heard about it already? It happen like 10 minutes before the call, whoever spreads new that fast deserves and award.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I smiled, he clicked his tongue and I heard Quil and Embry in tears about my near death experience. I chuckled "Is that who I think it is in the background?" I laughed, Jacob doing the same. "But in fact, Edward Cullen saved me!" I chuckled, but this time it was not returned.

"He did WHAT!?" crap, did I just verbally shoot him in the head? "He a freakin'..." he trailed and tried to rephrase, I wanted to know what the hell was going on but I guess that was never going to happen. "Never mind, I am coming to the hospital to see you, I think you might sweeten it up so I have to see it for myself." The line clicked and was followed with the buzzing noise of being hung up on. I sighed and shut my phone.

The ambulance pulled up outside the hospital and 'unloaded' me. I complained saying I could walk but they still pushed me inside on wheels. I groaned and tried to cover my face from the many people looking at me because of my protest.

Once in the emergency room I spotted Tyler was already here, with Edward by his side. That little stupid little.... I glared at him anyway. He smirked and continued to wait for Tyler to wake up again, he was put to sleep as for his fear of needles, and I was with him on that one. Needles and I just don't mix.

I was there for like 5 minutes before my mother came bursting through the door with a worried look on her face. "I am fine!" I protested before she had chance to ask. "Someone," I emphasised looking towards Edward, "made a show and dance over me bumping my head a little on the ground but it is fine. Again, fine!" I said the last bit slower and she nodded.

"I heard that you almost got hit by..." she turned to look at a very guilty looking Tyler. "You could have killed her, have THAT on your conscience!" she cursed. I touched her arm and shook my head at her when she turned around to look into my eyes.

"Don't say that, he was trying to stop, it was icy today." I assured, she nodded and slumped into a chair next to the bed I should be sat on.

"I heard that there was a new patient in my ER. I didn't believe it, hi I'm Carlisle." He smiled holding his hand out for me to shake. I did hesitantly, this was Edward's father. "I see you met Edward." He smiled as he checked the clipboard with my details. "Your vitals seem okay, look here." He said quietly and soothingly and I looked to the finger he signalled. He shone a bright torch into my eyes one at a time until he was sure I was fine. "You took quite a spin, how do you feel?"

"I feel fine, some don't believe me when I tell them!" I looked to Edward at the word 'some' and Carlisle noticed. "Watch!" I challenged. I hopped to my feet instantly and began to walk until my legs buckled beneath me, (not being able to walk for a while takes it out of you.) I fell right to my side and landed quickly into Edward's chest. "You need a jacket or something. You are like ice!" I commented.

"And you apparently need someone to walk you everywhere." I heard a growl from beside us closest to the door and I looked to see Jacob. Edward gasped and cupped his mouth quickly running towards his father leaving me to walk towards my friend. Edward and Carlisle started whispering to each other and then stopped abruptly.

"Jake!" I squealed and practically pushed all my weight onto him, but he didn't even wobble. "See? I am fine, you didn't need to see me to know that!" I giggled and he stroked my cheek, getting a very obvious rise out of Edward who swiftly ran out of the room, his father hot on his heels. I shrugged and looked to Jacob; we were now both stood on the floor.

"I will leave you two kids alone." Mum smiled, winking to me as she left. I cringed at her crudeness and then turned to look back at Jacob.

I sighed and sat on the bed, looking to side and patting it for Jake to follow. He did as told and I began, "Jake, about last night. I am sorry." He said the last bit at the same time as me. "Why are you sorry?"

"I kissed you, you didn't want it, and I am sorry."

"Hello? I kissed you back. I just... don't want to ruin the friendship we have, if it is meant to be it will happen again like fate." I placed my hand on his and sighed, "Jake, I love you. But I can't BE with you." I stood up and he pulled me back down onto his lips. I shrieked, not the reaction he was hoping for but he didn't let me go this time. I tried to mumble Jake to get him to stop but I couldn't get a word out. I kept hitting his shoulders with my barely free arms, his tongue battling for access to me. I still denied this to him, I loved him like a brother, and I think I should have been more specific. He began to release a little and I pushed away with the strength I had reserved when realisation hit me that he had the power in this kiss this time. And finally his clutch eventually released. "Jake!" I shrieked again as I shot back from him and stood away.

"If I wasn't going to get the chance again then I might as well savour it." He grinned; I rolled my eyes and dragged him out of the room. "I have to get going, school can only let me out for so long." He moaned and I nodded pushing him towards the door.

"Later!" I called and I heard him mutter "yeah, yeah." I rolled my eyes again and went off in my search for Edward Cullen.

In the silent hospital corridor I looked around. I saw nobody here and began to continue on my prowl for my explanation. I was almost gone when I heard a door open from around the corner. It was Carlisle, Edward and his older sister Rosalie. They seemed to be having an argument or a very heated discussion from the look in Rosalie's eyes. "What was I supposed to do? Just let her die?" I heard Edward hiss, were they arguing about me? I hope not, they were a close nit family and I would hate to be the reason for a dispute.

Rosalie's mouth opened, ready for her next instalment into the argument but then I felt Carlisle's beautiful golden eyes, just like Edward's lock onto me. They burnt on my stupidly in sight leg and he spoke "Maybe we should take this into my office." He calmly suggested but Rosalie was half way down the hall before I had even been totally revealed. I saw Edward look worriedly at me, like he knew what I wanted. He should, he promised it to me.

"Can I talk to you Edward?" I asked, he looked to Carlisle and he nodded. Edward, letting out a long and heavy sigh approached me.

"What?" he snapped. He was so hostile now, why? He was fine with me before, did Rosalie make him aggravated? Did she tire his patience to the point where even I was irritating him without saying a word?

"You owe me an explanation." I said simply, still kind of fazed by the actions of Rosalie. She really must hate me to want to be to be crushed by a van. He scoffed, looked out of the window and looked back to me.

"I don't owe you anything." He chuckled, running his long white fingers through his thick bronze hair. I sighed and he looked suddenly very puzzled, the control was now clearly in my hands.

I moved my left hand from hanging idly by my waist to being placed on my hips dripping with attitude all directed at Edward. "Oh yes you do, I quote: I WILL get an explanation Edward." I said in my normal voice. Then I mimicked his voice the best I could, it sounded awful but I did my best. "Fine! Just get out of here." He sighed, guessing that my mind was better than he thought. "So, spill the information."

"What does it matter? You are alive right? So no reason to-" I cut him off, placing the hand on my waist up in the air. I seemed to have a habit of cutting him off, and I like doing it, getting control in conversation with this Greek Adonis was not easy so any chance I get I would be taking it.

"No way are you getting out of this. There is all the reason. I just want to know how you did it; it is purely for my sake Edward please?" I begged.

"Well what do you think happened?"

"Well, not to sound crazy but... you stopped the van. You pushed it away with your hand, I mean, I saw it. Your hand fits perfectly in the dents in Tyler's van. We both should have gotten squashed like bugs and not to mention you were nowhere near me, how, is what I want to know!" I vented, all my thoughts, my worries and my queries flushed out of my lips like I had the tap of speech on full blast. It wasn't like me to blurt out my mind but it happened. It seems whenever I am around Edward nothing goes the same as it would have back home.

He scoffed again and leaned in a little closer to my face. "Well no one is going to believe you, so..." he trailed, did that mean?

"So it's true?" I asked, shocked that he had let it slip. He sighed, "I wasn't going to tell anybody, I swear I just... I just NEED to know."

"Then what does it matter?" he asked, surprise spread across his perfect face.

"It matters to me, and my sanity frankly it will drive me crazy otherwise."

"Can't you just thank me and get over it?" he asked, he really must regret saving me or something, if he really wants me to just forget about it. This guy just surprises you more and more each day.

"Th-thank you." I stuttered, he scared yet attracted me all at the same time, no matter what he says or does, I WILL find out, whether it kills me while I do it. I must have shown my plans on my face because the next thing he said, it was like he was reading my mind.

"You're not going to let this go are you?" I shook my head.

"Not a chance in hell!" he smirked at this then composed himself quickly and precisely. His position stiffened before he spoke again.

"Well then I hope you enjoy disappointment." He almost whispered it then left. What was his issue? I just wanted an explanation, I want to know what his happening in my life, I have the right to know don't I? He almost flew down the corridor before turning into a door; I can only assume that it was Carlisle's office.

I met my mum in the waiting room and went home. I was tired of the constant attention and no one anywhere would let me have peace if I went back to school, and being perfectly honest I don't think mum would have let me go back anyway. The closer I am at the moment the better for her.

"I'm going to my room." I said grumpily as we pulled into the driveway of our home. "Can you get my car, I don't feel comfortable driving right now." I asked, tossing her the keys in the process. She nodded and left the room. I screamed into the pillow, half expecting Jacob to show up in my doorway again, I wanted to talk to someone who wasn't going to smother me with worry. My sister was a safe bet but she was never here, always out with someone else, she doesn't like family time.

I decided I was going to do it, I was going to call Jacob. No matter how awkward it would feel I needed company or I was going to lose it completely. "Jake?" I asked, when the phone was answered. I heard giggles and then I realised, he was still in school.

"This is Mr. Black's teacher, is there something specific you wanted from him today?" I heard one of his teachers ask, I heard people whispering and Jake groaning in embarrassment. Was I on speaker? Let's do this then.

"Y-yeah Alix?" he asked sounding really worried about what I was going to say.

"I was wondering if we could talk, about that kiss earlier?" I smirked, I heard a head bang on the table and some wolf whistles from some people in his class.

"Alix!" I he cried, I giggled.

"Oh believe you me, this is merely the beginning to the torture I am going to put you through from the sneak attack in the ER. I mean I was still dazed from almost getting hit by a van!" I heard some gasps from his class mates and decided to end the call now "Oh well, my house as soon as Jakey." I tried seductively and he gasped himself at my tone. I hung up my phone and giggled evilly at my recent scheme, he was going to get hell for that and I am so going to tell the rest of them later, this should be a fun week.

Jacob POV

Probability is very difficult for me. I am no math whizz and my teacher is such a goofball if I could stand those leeches I would transfer in a heartbeat. I was just beginning to get it when Alix's ring tone shot off, echoing through the tiny class room. Crap, she must have gotten bored and forgot I was in school.

Mr. Jenner walked over to me with his hand outstretched. I handed him the phone hoping he would just let the phone ring out but instead he opened it and clicked on the loud speaker. I was literally screwed to hell and back. "Jake?" I heard her beautiful voice ring out through the room. The girls behind me were giggling a little and the awkward pause on the other line meant she heard it.

"This is Mr. Black's teacher, is there something specific you wanted from him today?" Mr. Jenner asked, smirking with his 'cool' way of discipline. I let out a groan of embarrassment, hopefully she was just hoping for me to be free right now, and honestly I wish I was. Anything to get out of this moment right now.

"Well, I was hoping that Jake could come over afterschool, I am bored and lonely and I am going to go crazy if someone who is definitely sure I am fine from the accident this morning doesn't keep me company. Plus Jake?" when she mentioned my name, asking for me I was dreading it, but I could deny HER an answer, being mad at her made me mad. I coughed in shock and composed myself quickly.

"Y-yeah Alix?" I was really worried, and you could hear it, the guy's right in the opposite corner of the classroom were sniggering and if anything else embarrassing happened to me I am pretty sure I would NEVER live it down.

"I was wondering if we could talk, about that kiss earlier?" NO! She just talked about that in front of my WHOLE class! I was dead meat with the guy's and the wolf whistles drifting through the room, getting louder with each second. I banged my head really hard against the table, begging for the floor to eat me up right now.

"Alix!" I hissed, she giggled a little, it made my heart flutter but that soon died when I realised she was probably never going to finish till I was just as embarrassed as she deemed acceptable.

"Oh believe you me, this is merely the beginning to the torture I am going to put you through from the sneak attack in the ER. I mean I was still dazed from almost getting hit by a van!" my teacher gasped and so did the giggling girls behind me, I looked behind and looked at them innocently. "Oh well, my house soon as," I thought I was home free then "Jakey." She breathed, sounding very seductive. I gasped unknowingly at this and began to blush wildly.

I think I was redder than the bright red text books I was using. The phone clicked and was disconnected. Mr. Jenner chuckled deeply, "Mr. Black, I hope that is lesson enough for you to turn your phone off during my lessons. Now class, probability..." I zoned out and became extremely worried, angry and embarrassed.

The bell couldn't have rung sooner but I was caught in hall by the guy's laughing at the back of the class. "She sounded hot!" he laughed.

"Drop it Kayne!" I ordered, he flinched a little at this and then backed off, his friend did the same.

"Man you are lucky!" he yelled and I muttered my classic phrase, yeah-yeah. I say it a lot but it is my signature thing. Like a catchphrase for a talk show host. It is needed.

2:40 hit slowly and I almost ran to my car, and I was at Alix's house in ten, this seemed to be my average speed. I knocked on the door and her mom answered it. "Hey... um." I stuttered, they were split up, but what did I call her.

"Call me Lynn, Jake. Alix is in her room, expecting you." She smiled a huge smile so I assumed she told her.

"Thanks," I muttered before taking her steps two at a time. I reached her door quickly and knocked.

"Come in." I heard her giggle and I opened her door. She was sat there, dressed in her skinny jeans, her music tee-shirt and she was playing with some pearls she had placed around her neck. "Hey Jakey," she said the same way she had on the phone.

"That was not funny, I am going to get shit for that!"

"Language!" she laughed. "I'm sorry, anything I can do for you?" she whispered getting closer. My breathing got heavy and she laughed again. "I'm sorry but you did deserve it." She admitted, I didn't agree but nodded none the less. I glared and sat on her bed, she sat next to me but draped her legs over my waist.

"You wanted to talk about the kiss did you?" I quizzed and she shook her head.

"I just wanted to drop you in it in class." I nodded once, slowly and sadly. She noticed and stroked my arm soothingly. "Sorry Jake," she sighed and I looked back at her.

"Only the beginning of the torture huh?" she nodded again gleefully and then looked at the clock.

"When is my next chance to go to La Push? I haven't seen the pack in a while." She sighed, I followed along but this was just a lie to her. She asked about the whole why I called my friends the pack thing and I said we are so large we call ourselves the pack. She bought it and uses the phrase herself, kind of funny.

"Um, actually, we wanted to throw you a party. A 'You are alive!' kind of party you in?" I asked and she nodded hugging me.

"Thanks, that is a great way to get me out of the house." I smiled and began to tickle her, this was my chance to get her back. She squealed again and fell off the bed. "Ow you little..." she trailed, refraining herself from swearing, that was cute and then she glared. "Oh it is getting ten time worse now baby!" she threatened and sat back next to me. Oh crap!

Woop! Long chapter this time, I am kind of proud of how much I wrote. Any ideas for the next couple chapters then feel free to put it in a review and please review even if you hate it so I get some kind of feed back kay? Ty!

Chapter 6 coming soon!