An Impossible Reality
Chapter 8- This Is Different
Disclaimer- I unfortunately, after much therapy and depression I have understood that I don't and won't own twilight or the saga so I can love instead. (My story though!)
Alix POV
I was so tired of looking at him. He seemed to be everywhere I went now-a-days but no one else seemed to see him. The corridor, he was there. The cafeteria, he was always in sight somehow. Gym merged the other day and I was near his court. And now in the car park, he was there just watching me. It was unnerving and flattering at the exact same time.
I fumbled with my keys trying to get out of his gaze. It made me uncomfortable to have him there. I wanted to talk to him but that would fail my facade of ignoring his presence every day. I had to stay away from him and make him come to me. If he even wanted to. Then they slipped out of short 'feminine' fingers? People have told me they are but I don't see it. I waited for them to clang to the floor and as I was about to bend down to pick them up they were gone from the floor and dangling above my head.
"How do you DO that?" I asked, in amazed irritation. He was so attracting, like I am drawn like a magnet.
"Do what?" he asked innocently dangling to key out in front of me. I took it from his hand with fake politeness when all I wanted was to stab him with my key for being unnecessarily irritating to me but that would be too much and felony worthy.
"Appear out of thin air. You are like Houdini or something!" I hissed as I gained a better grasp on my keys, determined not to drop them again. He was about to speak and then it shot into my brain. "Why the traffic jam yesterday?" his mouth shut then his lips spread into a wide yet still crooked smile. Yay. "I thought you were meant to ignore me, not irritate me to death. And Jake, he didn't need that." I remembered how riled up he got and wanted to laugh, he was always so irrational with his temper it never bothered me, I used to be that way back home.
"That was for Tyler's sake. He needed his chance to-"
"Hold the phone, hang it up and back over it with a truck! You KNEW?" I emphasised the word knew and he snickered uncontrollably at me, I would hit him if I wasn't sure it would hurt me more than him.
He quickly composed himself and began to say whatever he was going to say before I interrupted him. "Yes and I am not ignoring you."
"So you ARE trying to irritate me to death? Since Tyler's van didn't seem to do the job?" I immediately regretted saying it for the pure look of hatred, anger and distaste on his face once the words had escaped my lips. But I am too proud to apologise to this specific boy. He didn't deserve it.
"Alix you are utterly absurd." My mouth dropped and I turned my back on him, ready to leave this stupid conversation about stupid things. I could never make sense out of half the crap he spewed to me, he sounded like Shakespeare!
"Wait..." I continued to storm off towards the school, even in the rain so I pushed my hood of my boyfriend jacket over my head aggressively and proceeded towards the doors. I thought he would give up but he easily kept my fast as possible pace, he doesn't know when to give up. "I'm sorry, that was terribly rude of me. Not saying it wasn't true but it was rude to say it anyway." he trailed. It sounded like he was babbling a little.
"Why won't you just leave me alone? I am not that fascinating. The only thing remotely interesting about me is my frigging accent, and even that gets old!" dear god I just blurted my mind out to a random guy who is a little bit freaky. Stupid non-existing brain filter!
"I wanted to ask you something but you sidetracked me." He smiled and chuckled whilst doing so. I wanted to shoot him sometimes, right between the eyes, I like really want to shoot him in the face but that would cause many girls to mob me and the police wouldn't be too chuffed that I shot the doctors kid in the face.
"Are you schizophrenic or something?" I wanted to sound intelligent for the pure fact that I was starting to look unbelievably dumb stood next to this Greek Adonis of a teen if you could call him that. He looked almost manlier than my dad, and he is a big dude.
"You did it again."
"Okay, okay fine. What do you want to ask me that is so important?" I huffed, placing my hand on my flaring out hip again, turning my head to see we had gathered somewhat of an audience of girls and the obvious people, jess and Angela because Jess would have wanted her to and then the guy's. They were like my own personal fan club but I guess I can put up with them.
"I was wondering that if a week from Saturday- you know the day of the spring dance-"
"Are you trying to be FUNNY? Cos news flash, ding, ding, ding, it's not!" he suddenly got a wickedly amused look in his eyes before speaking again.
"Will you just let me finish my question?" I intertwined my fingers together, cupping my keys at the same time and nodded rigidly. "I overheard you were going to Seattle and I was wondering if you would like a ride there. I just so happen to be going then too and well being perfectly honest I don't think your car can make it." I was about to object till he said his next part, "it looks good enough but the mileage is awful and the speed could be better." I gasped in fake shock horror at his bluntness and he chuckled once more.
"Well I'm glad I make you laugh. So who is the ride with?" I quizzed, I would assume it was him but I could never be sure if one of his brothers was tagging along, or his sisters.
"With me obviously." He almost snorted to me, it was obvious but sometimes going for the not so obvious does work.
"But why?" I pressed, if he liked me liked me then I would not be comfortable driving with him for a whole day and a bit to get to my nana's house and back, I would be too scared he would try and pull a Jacob, I couldn't do that. Not again.
"Well I was planning on going to Seattle in the next few weeks and, being perfectly honest again, I don't think your car can make it on one tank of gas." Again with the bluntness.
"It does just fine thank you!" I hissed and continued to walk through the many people crowding. He was by my side in second not like I didn't expect it; this dude has some legs when he wants them.
"And your carbon footprint?" I paused and he went straight into my back, he didn't notice my halt he was basically hugging me from behind.
"It's a little huge. Okay fine a LOT huge!" I giggled, I always laughed at stupid times and then it clicked that he had his hand placed delicately on my hip almost to the point where I didn't feel it. I shot out from this comfort. He was messing with me.
"Sorry." He muttered.
"What does it matter to you?"
"The wasting of finite resources is not just my business, it is every body's." He did unfortunately have a point. I am not one to kill the planet unnecessarily.
"Honestly Eddie-boy, I can't keep up with you." Patronize him that will work. God I am sarcastic in my head too! "One minute you're all dark and mysterious telling me we can't be friends and then you are all up in my business being friendly. You need to make up your mind cos you are giving a girl mixed signals." I ranted and he nodded.
"I did say we shouldn't, not that I didn't want to be."
"Oh cos I didn't seem to get it the first time, that is ALL cleared up now." I think I need to cut down on my sarcasm. Hmm, nah!
"I think it would be more... prudent, if we weren't friends but I just don't seem to have the strength to stay away from you anymore." He was using strength? He made it look like an effortless action. That seemed to be the only coherent thought I could think with the intense smouldering look in his eyes once he spoke the final words.
There was a little awkward silence before he broke it again. "So, will you please go to Seattle with me?" I couldn't speak, my throat was so frigging dry you wouldn't believe it. I just nodded, and even that was a challenge to find the power to answer him.
"You should really stay away from me." He warned. "See you later Alix." He smiled, breathtaking, mouth-wateringly tempting. I couldn't move for a moment and then I saw mike and Eric look disappointed that they hadn't had the chance to see Edward get owned by a girl. They didn't follow so the true question was never heard, Edward kept it very low. I was so loud, I am glad I didn't ask the question.
I walked to English in a total daze. He dazzled me and most women on a regular basis and I don't think he even realises it. I will never understand the male brain, especially this one. He is so complex and full of mood swings. "Thank you for joining us Miss Allbrighton." My English teacher smirked at me and I glanced at my watch. Crap I was five minutes late. With this guy if you aren't five minutes early you miss a week's full of lectures and essays.
I blushed wildly and sat in my seat. Mike wasn't sat there next to me and that made me feel a little guilty; this is where he always sat. No matter what. The lesson flew by and I noticed that Mike and Eric were still arguing about who got to wait and carry my books, they fought so much I ended up carrying them myself.
My thoughts were so caught up on Edward so it felt like the whole morning flew by in a blur. Before I knew it, it was lunch time and I glanced at the Cullen's table and disappointment flooded me. I must have dreamt it as I couldn't see him sat at their table. Damn, I was kind of looking forward to it a little. I really am losing it. We sat down with our food and I sighed then I felt a nudge in my side.
"Edward Cullen is staring at you again." She smirked and pointed to him. "I wonder why he is sitting alone." My gaze flew across the crowded and hall and low and behold, there he was in all his Adonis glory sitting right next to his normal table but minus four people.
Once I caught his gaze he brought up his left hand slightly and motioned his index finger towards me. As if that wasn't weird enough he gave me a cheeky yet innocent wink "Does he mean you?" Jessica asked astonished.
"Idiot probably didn't get the assignment down for biology or something; I better go see what he wants." I sighed, grabbing my bottle of water and my blood red apple. I took a bite and walked over. When I got to him he smiled and kicked out the chair next to me.
"Why don't you sit with me today?" he smiled. I straightened up the chair and sat down hesitantly.
A long silence was there and I was tossing the apple playfully through my hands. One to the other. One to the other and so on. I think he was waiting for me to say something so I spoke. "This is different."
"Yes... well." He started a let a sharp laugh. "If I am going to hell then I might as well do it thoroughly." Hell? Am I that bad? Jesus Christ lots of people are going to go to hell then. I was waiting for something understandable to escape them marble lips but nothing.
"You know some of the stuff you say is more complicated to solve than a rubix cube?" I joked and he chuckled with me. This was weird and bizarrely comfortable. If this was hell then bring it on!
"I know." He smirked; the smugness of confusing me filled his face. It wasn't much of an accomplishment, I mean I get confused watching most talk shows and they are so easy to understand for most people I don't understand why I get so confused. I am just easily confused, that is the only explanation. "I think your friends are angry with me for stealing you." He mused whilst smiling at them from over my shoulder.
"They will get over it- well at least the girls will. The boys I can't make promises for." I giggled, taking a big bite out of my apple whilst almost embracing the many eyes boring their stares into the back of blouse.
"But I may not give you back." I gasped but was chewing at the same time. This caused me to choke. I chugged quite a lot of my water to clear my airway. "You look worried."
"No you idiotic baboon! I almost died just now! Sorry if I don't look perfectly okay!" I laughed whilst flicking some of my water at him. He cringed away from it like it would burn him or something. "What brought all of this on anyway?" I motioned at our table and he sighed.
"I told you- I got tired of staying away from you. So I am giving up."
"Giving up?" I raised an eyebrow at him and cracked a smile.
"Yes, giving up trying to be good. I am just going to do what I want now and let the cards fall where they may." What an old phrase. I have never heard that one before. I watched as the playful smile he once had faded into a thin line and a hard edge crept into his voice as the explanation neared its end.
"Great. You know you lost me again." I admitted and the breathtaking crooked smile reappeared on his face.
"I always say too much when I'm around you- that is one of the problems."
I let out a short laugh before replying to that. "Well no issues here cos I have absolutely NO idea what half of the stuff you say means." I took another bite but smaller, as to avoid choking again.
"I'm counting on that." He played with the lid of my water idly while he spoke.
"So, in plain English are we friends now?"
"Friends..." he mused still twiddling the cap to my bottle between his long white fingers. Slender and agile, so fast to keep the bottle top spinning continuously.
"Or not..." I felt oddly upset by the fact of his reluctance to be my friend. It was nothing more if he didn't want it; I am not one to force someone into something, unless it is truly for their own good.
"Well we can try, but I am warning you, I am not a good friend for you."
"Well Edward you seem to say that a lot, but I think I will be the judge of how good of a friend you are." I don't know why but I felt the need to be cheeky and disrespectful to Edward whenever possible. He just seemed to force it out of me.
"Yes, that's because you aren't listening to me. I'm still waiting for you to believe it, if you're smart, you'll avoid me." Again with the questioning of my intelligence.
"Well we both know what you think of the level of my intellect." I retorted and narrowing my eyes. He smiled at me apologetically. "So as long as I'm still not smart we will try to be friends?" I asked, trying to sum up the outcome of this very strange and unexpected conversation. Never have I met someone so determined to not be friends with someone.
"That sounds about right." There was silence.
I looked down to the half eaten apple in my hands. It was a blood red, super sweet and juicy apple. The perfect apple in my eyes. The green ones were too sour, and too dry. The red and green ones are on the middle platform but, red juicy ones are just the pinnacle of apple perfection. "What are you thinking?"
"Well, I was thinking of how red apples are better than green apples but I was also trying to figure out what the heck you are. Cos I refuse to believe that you are human. You don't look it, sound it or act like it."
"Are you having any luck with that?"
"Not much." I admitted taking another bite to polish of my apple. This thing was tiny.
"Well what are your theories?" I thought we went through this.
"Edward." I smiled as I placed my hand in the centre of the table. "We went over this; you want my theories you will have to read my mind." He took it better this time but had a hugely noticeable tough time trying to keep his cool smile on his face.
"That is REALLYfrustrating you know?" nooo, nobody can read minds, the only people who can are fakes and phonies trying to con money. From what I hear, the Cullen's are the last people who would do this.
"No I couldn't possibly understand how frustrating it would be to have someone not tell you what they are thinking while all the while they are making cryptic comments designed to specifically keep you up at night. No I couldn't POSSIBLY understand." He grimaced at my outburst and I had another light bulb moment. Before I could even process what I was going to say it just flooded out of my mouth like word-vomit. "Or better, say that same person did an array of bizarre things ranging from saving your life under impossible circumstances to treating you like the AID's virus the next. And then after promising to explain the saving of your life, they refuse. That would also be VERY frustrating." I vented, I was on the edge of my seat, closer to him than I had been before.
"You have somewhat of a temper, don't you?"
"Yes. You see I don't enjoy double standards." We just stared at each other with unsmiling faces till I noticed his eyes waver over my right shoulder and then he lout an unexpected snicker. I turned around to see mike and Eric glaring at Edward and I. Mike noticed me turn around and lost his balance on the top of the chair and slipped off the table sending the chair flying out from under his feet letting him fall to floor on his backside. Eric toppling off his chair in laughter and fright of Mike's worrying angry face.
"You see, your boyfriend was contemplating coming over here and breaking up our fight. He had the impression I was being unpleasant to you." I smiled and began to bang the table with laughter. "What?"
"You think he was my boyfriend?" I managed to get out before cracking up again. "Anyway, I bet you were wrong." The laughter died down and I turned back to see Edward with a very serious face on.
"I'm not; I told you I can read people easily."
"Except for me!" I cheered and pointed to the top of my head. I laughed a little and I saw him fighting off a smile.
"Yes, except for you. I wonder why that is." He mused under his breath, I sighed. He was so complex and intriguing; I just would love to know the inner workings of his twisted brain. He talks different; he looks at things differently and seems to have this strange belief that he can read minds. At least that is what I got from him. But honestly, nobody can read minds. It's impossible. Right?
His stare suddenly turned immensely intense and I had to look away. I couldn't handle. I just stared down at my half chugged bottle of water, then to the missing lid still in Edward's elegant hands. I couldn't even look at his hands due to the wish of looking at his face linked to any part of him. "You aren't hungry?" he asked, suddenly making my head shoot up.
"Um... no." I said simply, I felt like I had a smaller IQ than a peanut. "You?" I asked back, motioning to the empty table in front of him.
"No, I'm not hungry. You should eat more." The intense stare disintegrated and almost a joking expression replaced it. Like I was missing out on some personal and very private joke. I raised an eyebrow at him and scoffed.
"At least I have food. You can't talk!" I smiled and took a swig of my water. It cleansed my mouth before I spoke. "Can you do me a favour?"
"That depends on what it is." He sounded really wary like I was going to ask him to kill himself or something, strange dude. You think I would be used to his bi-polar attitude.
"It isn't much I swear." He waited for me to continue, looking guarded but interested in what I could possibly want from him. "I was just wondering that the next time you want to ignore me for my own good, you could warn me? If I am prepared it shouldn't set me back too much." He chuckled and looked oddly relieved.
I think I heard a stifled laugh and when I looked up I saw his lips pressed into one cold, hard and very restraining line. "That sounds fair."
"Thank-you!" I said, sounding a little over-enthusiastic.
"Well, then can I have an answer in return?" I nodded.
"Shoot!" I took another gulp of water since my throat had become surprisingly dry after that whole 'question' thing I just did.
Cue the spit-take. "Tell me one theory." I managed to direct it away from him and anybody else I was handed a napkin by a small girl quickly. Alice I remember her to be. "Alice!" he hissed and she disappeared back to the other table.
"Not that one!" I had considered everything known to man, nerds worldwide, and scientists, I seriously mean everyone.
"You didn't specify what I could ask you. You just promised one answer." He smirked, finding loopholes must be his thing.
I leaned in with my own comeback. "Well, you have broken promises before haven't you? I do believe you made me one HUMONGOUS one almost a month ago and it has still never been revealed." I heard him utter something about my temper and I forced myself to chill out, even though it seemed a lot easier now than it ever has before.
"Just one theory- I won't laugh" he looked at me from under his lashes, almost batting them a little and putting slightly, I sighed internally and knew defeat was right around the corner.
"I can't, definitely will!" I complained. And he would. If the one selected theory was wrong and far off too he would topple over laugh and most likely tell the whole school and the next thing you know I am not only going to Seattle on my own but I am also sitting on my own for the rest of eternity at lunch.
"Please?" his voice went breathy and airy on me and he had leant in too, at this point the whole cafeteria was silent now, in the expectation that he would kiss me due to the fact that there was mere inches between us and I could almost smell his breath. That would never happen, he would never kiss me. And then my mind suddenly was caught a blank. He the hell did he do that to me? Let alone ANYONE do that to me. Not a lot of people can.
"Um, what?" I sounded so stupid. But what can a girl honestly do when she has a Greek god so close to her face.
"Just one little theory." I sighed in defeat out loud now and leaned back into my chair.
"Fine. I have considered... bitten by radio-active spiders." I took a glance up at Edward and he had a full blown goofy grin on his face, which distinctly resembled his crooked one.
"That's not very creative." He scoffed at me, letting a slight laugh out of him.
"Sorry to disappoint but that is all I've got." I protested to him. I didn't realise how peeved I was until he had smirked and shook his head slightly. I really wanted to be right, and show him I was nothing to be screwed around with.
"You're not even close." He gloated in my failure and I pouted noticeably.
"No spiders?" he shook his head. "No radioactivity?" he shook his head again. "Ugh! Dammit!"
"Kryptonite doesn't bother me either." He chuckled, it is on now Eduardo!
"Hey, hey, hey! You said you wouldn't laugh and I don't appreciate you poking fun at my brain, it is sensitive to ridicule." I feigned sadness which made him smile at me. "FYI, I WILL figure it out eventually."
"I wish you wouldn't try." And just like that the playful, happy atmosphere died and seriousness crept back in.
"This is because......?" I opened for him, I need to know this stuff, he is like a walking riddle and I am so determined to solve this guy it is unbelievable. I don't honestly think I can pin point a time when I have focused this much on anything outside of school.
"Because what if I'm not the superhero? What if I'm the bad guy?" his tone yelled playful but his eyes, his eyes screamed against his tone and outed an inner meaning. He was truly being honest with me; he truly believed he was the bad guy? Not possible! I refuse to believe this.
"Ooooh!" I said waggling my finger at him. "I get it."
His eyes suddenly shot out from his eye sockets as if he thought I had figured it out. "Do you?"
"Duh! You're dangerous." I let my statement sink in with my natural choice of words and then it clicked. He really WAS dangerous. Mysterious. Intelligent. All the characteristics of a serial killer or rapist of something like that, but he wasn't bad. Not in my eyes anyway, and that is all that matters to me. An incomprehendable emotion came into his eyes; I wish I knew what it was. It would make deciphering his species a lot easier. "But you're not bad." I whispered and I saw the free hand he had on the table clench a little at my words, like he honestly heard me. "No, I don't believe you are bad." I said louder, looking up into his golden eyes.
"You're wrong." He almost lip synched, I am surprised I got it myself. I have an ear for music, not next to inaudible speaking. If you can call it that. He bowed his head whilst he spoke, which made it even more surprising that I heard him, and he seemed to make himself with great force, focus on the bottle top he had been playing with for the last hour than focus on me. I was more surprised at myself than anything. I wasn't afraid of him. I can be freaked out by spiders, suspicious looking men (the raping kind), 'The Grudge' movies but not him. All I saw when I looked at him was someone sweet and gentleman like. Although the look I caught in his eyes and the very serious tone in his voice led me to believe that he truly was dangerously bad and that I really shouldn't be with him without a twenty ton sumo wrestler by my side, I didn't care. He didn't make me feel anxious, I was actually more anxious when I wasn't with him. After the accident, I always felt safer with him than Jake, which is truly saying a lot.
I took a wary glance around the cafeteria and spotted pretty much the whole of the cafeteria had filed out. I jumped to my feet and Edward glanced up to see what the hell I was doing. "We are going to be late!" I answered his questioning glance and I held my hand out to help him up. He shook his head and resumed his position he was previously in.
"I'm not going to class today." He said simply, whilst twiddling the bottle cap so fast in his fingers that it was just a blur of white and blue, and tornado at sea. A tropical cyclone?
"And why not Mr. Cullen?" I mocked and he smirked at me.
"It is healthy to ditch once in a while." He smiled simply. I looked to the door then back at him and grabbed my bag.
"Yeah well I didn't exactly ace my GCSE's back home in biology so I am gonna go. Catch you later Eddie-boy." I giggled and I walked out of the cafeteria.
"See you later then Al." I heard him call, and he would get it for that. I hope Jacob never comes to the realisation that that nickname not only exists for me, but I also hate it with a vengeance. I am not a dude so don't name me after one for fun.
Hey all! I had originally made this longer, but I wanted to get a shorter one out so sorry to disappoint but oh wells. The new one shouldn't take long since most of it has already been written. I have some funny (to me) Alix/Jacob moments, some screaming and my favourite shark film known to date, hopefully. I got the idea for the scare from a show called 'RudeTube' that is on channel four in England, it basically takes videos off YouTube and put them on TV and there was one on it with someone impersonating a famous killer to scare somebody. Funny stuff.
Well I will update ASAP love you all and please, I cannot stress it enough, review it please, I want feedback, to know if I should stop it (thought I probably still would carry on whatever you told me) or if I should add in some stuff you would find funny or good for the story.
Chapter 9 coming soon!