Hey everyone here is chapter 19.

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Chapter 19: fighting

It had been a week since Sam had come from the hospital and things were really tense between everyone. Sam wasn't really talking to Brooke and Tammy. Brooke tried over and over to get Sam to talk to her but she wouldn't. She had been having a lot of nightmares but wouldn't let Brooke try and make her feel better. She was still mad at Brooke and Brooke knew that. Tammy stayed off to the side by herself. She was always taking naps because she started getting tired earlier in the day. Brooke just thought that it was her way of coping with everything that had happened lately.

Sam and Tammy were on Thanksgiving break so they were home all week. Brooke had decided that she was going to make a big dinner and invite everyone over in hopes that this would help with the problems that they were having.

"Sam where is your sister?" asked Brooke walking into Sam's room.

Sam was sitting on the bed writing. She had been writing a lot lately because it helped her feel better. It wasn't just that she was mad at Brooke. She felt ashamed because she had left her and was such a bitch to her. And yet she was mad at Brooke she felt like she should have stopped her. She knew that Brooke would have never in a million years let her leave if she knew what was going to happen but she still felt angry.

"Probably taking a nap again." said Sam trying to get Brooke out of her room as quick as possible.

"Again?" said Brooke, "Maybe I should take her to the doctor's. All she has been doing is sleeping and when she is awake she's unbalanced."

"I'm sure that she's fine. Can you close the door when you leave?" asked Sam.

Brooke just looked at Sam. She couldn't believe that she wasn't even giving her a chance. Brooke wanted to find a way to get Sam's forgiveness but Sam shut her out every time she tried. She understood why Sam was mad and she accepted it but things were different now.

"Sam can you just stop? I'm trying to fix this okay. I know you are mad but please give me a chance." said Brooke angrily.

Sam looked up from her notebook.

"You can't fix this Brooke! Nothing you say or do is going to ever make things better again. The only reason that I am still around this place is because Tammy's here." yelled Sam.

Sam regretted the words as soon as they came out of her mouth because they weren't true at all. She still loved Brooke and she wanted to forgive her but she didn't know how. She had been shutting people out for so long that it was like all the progress that she had made when she first moved it was gone and she was back at the beginning. She didn't want to be angry anymore. She hated the feeling but she didn't know what to do.

"Dinner will be done in an hour." said Brooke.

Brooke got up and began to leave.

"Brooke I..." said Sam quickly.

"No its okay I understand. I messed up. I let you go when honestly I wanted to hold onto you but I thought you wanted to be with your real mom. I thought that I was doing the right thing. That was why I didn't bring out the adoption papers. I didn't want you to feel pressure but Sam its not like you fought to stay either or even tried to stay in contact when you were gone. It wasn't only me." said Brooke.

"Because I was scared!" yelled Sam becoming more frustrated.

"And I wasn't?" asked Brooke, "Sam from the moment you came into my care I always knew it was temporary. I had to be cautious because I knew that if I got too close and Rebbecca showed up then you would be gone. And I did. Sam it didn't take long for me to love you even when you were throwing parties in my store and causing trouble at school. It didn't matter because you were my kid and that day that you called me mom showed me that you felt the same way and let me know that I was doing something right with you. Letting you go was the hardest thing that I ever had to do in my life."

Brooke wiped the tears that were beginning to fall. She looked at Sam who was crying too. Sam felt bad. She knew that her leaving had been hard on Brooke. She knew that even though she called Brooke mom and told her that she loved her Brooke was always scared. She never felt like she was right because she didn't give birth to Sam. That didn't matter to Sam at all. She loved her no matter what.

"But you shouldn't have let me leave!" said Sam crying.

"Sam I had to. If you really wanted to go then I couldn't stop you no matter what I said." explained Brooke.

"But I didn't want to go!" yelled Sam.

"So then why did you? Why didn't you call me and tell me that you wanted to come home. I would have went to get you in a heartbeat." said Brooke.

"I don't know. I guess I wanted to fight for me and you didn't so I felt like you didn't want me. Then I was already there and Rebbecca was okay for a while but then she got with her boyfriend and they started drinking." said Sam as tears began to stream down her face.

Brooke just looked at Sam. It hurt her that Sam was so mad at her but she was right. She knew that she should have fought and she hated herself for that. It was her fault that Sam had gotten hurt and Tammy had almost killed Rebbecca.

"I'm sorry." was all Brooke could manage to say.

"She told me that if I told then her boyfriend would kill you. He was a cop and I thought that he was going to help me but he didn't." said Sam.

"Sam did he do anything to you?" asked Brooke.

Sam shook her head no and Brooke felt relieved. She couldn't even imagine what she would have done if the answer to that question had been different. She wouldn't have been able to live with herself.

"She used to say that I should have never left you. That I was stupid and you wouldn't love me anymore." said Sam, "I believed her. And it got to a point where I just decided there was no use in fighting anymore."

Brooke walked over and sat on Sam's bed. She pulled Sam into her arms and Sam didn't even try to fight her.

"She was wrong. I still love you and I never stopped. I am so sorry that I let you go baby. I'm never going to let you go again."

Sam cried into Brooke's shoulder. She knew that she and Brooke were going to be okay. It would take a little bit of time but they were going to get back to where they were before she ever left.

"Brooke.." said a small voice at the door.

Brooke and Sam looked up. Sam wiped the tears away. Tammy was standing in the doorway. She looked like she was really sick. She had dark circles around her eye.

"Hey honey. Come here." said Brooke.

Tammy walked over to Brooke. She sat on the bed and nuzzled close to her. Brooke wrapped an arm around her.

"Tammy have you been taking your medicine?" asked Sam.

"I have but it's expired." said Tammy quietly.

"What?" said Sam,"Tammy what the hell were you thinking."

Tammy flinched.

"Oh Tammy I'm sorry." said Sam realizing that she scared Tammy.

Tammy hated to be yelled at. It reminded her of her old foster dad and Sam knew that. She had just slipped.

"Tammy how long have you been taking the medicine expired?" asked Brooke.

"Two weeks." said Tammy.

"We have to take you to the hospital." said Brooke.

Tammy stood up. She wasn't going to no hospital. She couldn't stand those places. They scared her so much. Brooke couldn't make her go anywhere she wasn't her mom. She didn't know anything.

"No! I won't go to the hospital." Tammy practically yelled

"Okay, no was is going to make you go to the hospital." said Sam.

"We can go to the doctor's office but if they tell us that you need to go to the hospital then you have no choice." said Brooke.

"Okay." said Tammy.

"I will go call." said Brooke.

Brooke got up and left Sam's room. Tammy went and laid on Sam's bed.

"Tammy.." said Sam.

"I know. Just leave it please. I'm too tired to argue." said Tammy.

"You're hurting yourself again." said Sam.

"No I'm not and it isn't your business okay. I made a stupid mistake. Why are you surprised?" asked Tammy.

"You are my sister. It is my job to worry Tammy. I love you." said Sam.

Tammy was quiet. She knew that she was messing up. She loved Brooke and Sam but she still didn't know how to let people take care of her. She didn't like to be helped even though she knew that she needed it. She always used to want someone to take care of her and someone to rely on but that was a long time ago. She had given up on those dreams and now she was so closed off that she didn't even remember what she used to be like.

"I'm sorry." said Tammy.

"I know." said Sam.

Brooke walked back into the room. She saw Tammy with her eyes closed. She was mad at her but knew it wasn't the time to start anything.

"C'mon. The doctor said that we could go now." said Brooke.

When Brooke, Sam, and Tammy got to the doctor's office they let Tammy go first.

"So what seems to be the problem?" asked the doctor.

"I've been taking expired insulin for two weeks. I'm nauseous, sleep, and really really dizzy. Iratable too but that's more of just me." said Tammy swaying front and back on the examining table.

The doctor took out his pocket light and waived it in front of Tammy's eyes.

"No offense doc but I'm not blind. I just need knew meds." said Tammy.

"Tammy!" warned Brooke.

"What?" yelled Tammy, "Just leave me alone gosh. You are not my mother!"

"Have you been taking sleeping meds or any kinds of drugs?" asked the doctor.

"I got the sleeping pills from her cabinet. I was just trying to sleep at night." said Tammy

The doctor walked over to the medicine cabinet. He took out his key chain and unlocked the cabinet. He took out a needle and walked back over to Tammy. Tammy saw the needle and freaked out.

"No! Stop you can't give me that." said Tammy.

"Tammy it's just a shot." said Brooke.

"Wait!" said Sam suddenly.

Sam got up and went over to the doctor. She looked at the needle.

"She's allergic to penicillin." said Sam.

"You didn't put that in her medical report." said the doctor looking at Brooke.

"She doesn't know anything about me." said Tammy tiredly.

Tammy was having trouble staying awake. She layed down on the examining table. The doctor put the penicillin away and got another needle. Sam approved and he gave the shot to Tammy.

"She needs to rest and I would suggest hiding any pills. I'm going to subscribe stronger insulin. It's a month's supply so make sure she uses it right. I'll give you a year full of free refills for now. I want her to come back in three months for a checkup." said the doctor.

"Okay." said Brooke, "Thank you."

Brooke, Sam, and Tammy all went to get Tammy's medicine and then they went back to the house. Tammy was feeling horrible. She had hurt Brooke and she knew it. She hadn't meant to but she did and she was so angry at herself. The medicine was working and she was starting to feel normal again.

When the car pulled up to the driveway Tammy didn't get move. Brooke looked and Sam looked at her but she was facing away from them.

"Tammy are you okay?" asked Sam.

She got no answer. Tammy hated that she was always so mean to the few people in her life that actually cared about her. Sam looked back at Brooke and gestured for her to check on her. Brooke got out of the drivers seat and scoot into the back seat.

"Hey." said Brooke putting some loose hair behind her ear, "You okay?"

Brooke could see that Tammy was crying.

"I didn't meant to." said Tammy in a low voice.

"Come here." said Brooke.

Brooke pulled Tammy into her arms and she began to cry into her shoulder. She was scared and alone. She didn't know what was going on with her lately. She was being so reckless and stupid.

"I'm sorry." cried Tammy.

"I know baby." soothed Brooke as she rubbed Tammy's back, "It's going to be okay. I'm not going to leave you."

Tammy believed her. Sam looked on. She was happy that Tammy was trusting Brooke even a little bit. She knew how hard that was for her sister. She was always so afraid of getting hurt that she just cut everyone off.

"How about we go inside now and we spend a night together?" asked Brooke, "We could watch some movies and make popcorn and just hang out in our pajamas."

"Sounds good." said Sam.

"Okay." said Tammy as she began to stop crying.

Brooke wiped the tears off of Tammy's face.

"Can I see that smile that I love so much?" asked Brooke.

Tammy smiled and she meant it. She was happy.

"There you go." said Brooke.

Brooke kissed Tammy's forehead. They all got out of the car and went inside. Tammy and Sam changed into their pajamas while Brooke began to get the popcorn ready. When they were all set Tammy got to pick out the movie. She picked The Parent Trap. It was her and Sam's favorite.

Tammy put the movie in and then sat between Brooke and Sam. Within a half hour Sam and Tammy were fast asleep. Brooke looked at them and smiled. These were her daughters and she was luckiest person in the world.

There you go. Sorry it took sooooo long.

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