Cruelty has a human heart, and jealousy a human face. Terror, the human form divine, And secrecy, the human dress.
- William Blake
My family was reunited a month ago. Nathan hasn't spoken to us for a month. He is even madder that they came back then that they left. He is furious with me because I accepted them back into my life so easily. He is even mad at Lucas for getting to know them.
Grey has kept pretty low since they got back. She rarely leaves and when she does she covers herself up. The TV has been talking about her, Beck, and Matty nonstop about the show being cancelled and none of them can be found. Some are saying they went to an island, some said they died and there are a few that make Grey go into a giggle fit.
We go back to school soon and at some point he is going to have to talk to me. Or at least talk to Lucas because Nathan is Lucas' best friend and in a weird way they miss each other.
"How did you and Lucas get together?" Grey asked me as we played with Melanie in the hotel pool. Well, Grey's pool. I guess when three big time celebrities come and ask for the penthouse and privacy they give it them. The penthouse has its own pool.
"I really don't know. Just one day I passed out in front of his house and for a week he fought with me to date him and we have been together ever since" I shrugged.
"Do you love him?" She asked and I stopped my movements and gulped, "You do. You're scared aren't you?"
"I'm Brooke Davis, Grey. Not Grey Simon" I told her and she shook her head.
"I'm not Grey Simon either and I got Beck"
"Lucas and I are not you and Beck. You walk into a room and Beck's day is made. I walk in Lucas knows there is a fight coming." I said sadly.
"I don't know if you know this, but it is hard to not love Brooke Davis. I tried it for years and then I realized loving you is so much more fun" She teased splashing me.
"Thank you" I grinned.
"And Mel loves you too, right baby girl?" Grey pushed the strawberry blonde around in her float and she giggled.
"She is just like you" I told her and she beamed.
"I forget sometimes she isn't mine. I forget I'm just the aunt" She said her tone changing.
"Not to her. To her your mommy"
"But I don't want her to forget her mom, because she was probably a good mom and a good wife. Melanie knows that. I don't want to replace her."
"They would happy you adopted their beautiful baby girl" I played with Melanie's hand.
"She is my baby girl. Everything I do is for Melanie. I am just glad no one can take her away now. For a while they tried, but they can't anymore." She smiled at Melanie who reached for her.
"Mommy!" She squealed and Grey laughed picking her out of float.
"Where is everybody?" I asked.
"Delilah is at local hospitals, Devon is looking for a house, and Beck is also looking for a house" She told me nonchalantly.
"Like a summer home?"
"No, we're moving. You really think I was living you and Natey again? Girl please…" She said with a ghetto voice and I rolled my eyes.
"I'm happy" I grinned.
"Me too, never thought coming home would feel this good. I do have to ask, how bad were you and Nathan while I was gone?"
"Nathan knocked a kid out once because they made some suggestive comments after seeing you in a magazine. No one knew why Nathan got so mad, well except Lucas and me. I broke a girl's nose because she said I got pregnant at 13. I really just don't like her, she loves you though."
"How many fights have you gotten in with her?"
"Lost count. She's a-" I glanced at Melanie, "bitca"
Grey threw her head back laughing. "Good one. What has she said?"
"Called me a whore, a slut, a freak, a coward, told me I was going to die of cancer-" I listed off and paused when Grey glared.
"You say she likes me?" She asked as she carried Melanie out of the water.
"Loves you, like posters everywhere of you, Beck, and Matty" I followed her confused and heard the door open to see Back walking in with Cam and Matty trailing behind him.
"Watch your daughter" Grey handed Melanie to a confused Beck and pulled a sundress over her head.
"What's wrong with her?" Beck asked.
"I don't know" I was just as confused.
"Follow me, Brooke" Grey said grabbing a dress and tossing it at me.
"What are you doing?" I asked when she pushed me into the elevator.
"Making my presence known in this town. You don't mess with Davis'"
"Oh well, she also tried to break up and Nathan and Haley, and is very rude to Raine" I added and Grey growled pulling her sunhat on and stomping out to the car.
"I don't care if I am a mother that bitca is going down" She snapped and I just covered my mouth to hold in a laugh.
"What are you going to do?" I asked as she drove down the road.
"Going to the mall with my best friend. I'm Grey Davis"
She pulled into the mall parking lot and looked around. "Do you see her car?" She asked.
"Yeah, the Mercedes" I pointed it out. Not many people have a pink car.
"What a rich bitch"
"You do realize you have more money than anybody in this whole town right?" I asked as she got out of the car.
"I earned my money. Now come on, it's time to have some fun" She looped her arm through mine and tossed her hat into the backseat before turning and gracefully dragging me towards the door.
"Oh my god, is that Grey Simon?" I heard that sentence more than once as she walked through the mall as though she didn't know what the people were talking about they were obviously used to it.
She went into one shop telling me I could get whatever I want before she went to the dressing room with already full arms. I rummaged through the racks with wide eyes at the prices when I heard an annoying voice.
"Brookie… I didn't know you shopped here. Doesn't seem like something you could afford." She smirked and I smirked back knowing at one point Grey would walk out.
"Just waiting for my sister, Theresa" I replied.
"God Brooke, how many siblings do you have? Is your mom just as much of a slut as the rest of the family?" My jaw locked as I tried not to get into a fight with her.
"Excuse me?" Grey tapped on her shoulder and Theresa turned and her jaw dropped.
"Hi, these didn't fit" Grey dropped all the clothes on her.
"I… I don't work here" Theresa stuttered.
"Oh, well it is a good thing. I mean if you talk to your customers like that I would fire you." Grey picked a piece of invisible lint off her dress.
"You would too if you knew her. She isn't the type you would hang out with, she is a slut" Theresa told her like they were best friends.
Grey shifted her eyes to me. "Is this her?" I nodded and Grey looked back at her with a sugar sweet smile.
Grey put her hand out. "My name is Grey Davis formerly known as Grey Simon and will be Grey Upton in a few months. That 'slut' that you were just so rude to is my baby sister. I heard a lot about you and I can see now why Brooke punched you. You needed that nose job. You don't know me therefore you don't know what kind of people I hang out with because there are people like you in California and those are the people I avoid. If you ever mess with any Davis or Raine Jameson ever again, I will find you and I could start so many rumors about you that people would have to believe them." Grey finished with a smile on her face before looking at me, "Green doesn't suit her well" She grinned before spinning on her foot and walking out the door.
"See you later Theresa" I stifled a laugh when I saw Grey standing there waiting for me.
"What a bitch. Who does she think she is? Sitting there and saying you are a slut. She doesn't even know me or you for that matter." She rambled practically speed walking out the mall.
"She isn't far from the truth Grey" I mumbled and Grey stopped quickly making me almost run into her.
"What do you mean?" He mouth formed a pout and her eyes dropped like she was left out on a secret everyone knew.
"Come on Grey, Lucas sleeps at my house almost every night. You think we are just sleeping?" I asked and she cocked her head to the side.
"I mean I guess not… was he your first?" She asked and I felt ashamed at my answer. I looked at the ground and shook my head, "That's okay, as long as you are safe" She regained her smile.
"Was Beck your first?" I asked and she nodded.
"I am a slut" I said embarrassed.
"No you aren't. I just found the right one the first time. You are not a slut, because a slut never admits it" She explained wrapping her arm around my shoulder.
"Come on, best friend. I'm done showing you off" She laughed at my remark, and we left the mall feeling very accomplished.
"He still not talking?" Lucas asked me a few days later as we walked home from the café.
"To his siblings… no. To his niece and nephew, yes. What has he said?" I asked nervous of the answer.
"That he doesn't see how you can forgive them so easily. He then started to scream at me not understanding how I can date you. He was very angry with me" He said lightly and I groaned.
"I'm sorry. I know I should be mad, but it is so much easier to just laugh and hang out with them instead… I'm an idiot aren't I?" I questioned when I noticed he had stopped us from walking.
"No, the exact opposite actually. I'm glad you are acting so mature about it, you know? You have changed so much since we started" He kissed the top of my head.
"You have to do with most of that." I grinned at him.
"You want to go to a party tonight?" Lucas asked randomly and I shrugged.
"I don't have to drink, right?"
"Nope, you can drink water or coke or whatever you want. You can stay with the whole night" He persuaded and I smirked.
"What if I don't want to spend the whole night with you?"
"Then I will find Theresa and we will have a good old time" I pouted at the thought and he let out a loud laugh, "I'm kidding pretty girl. I would rather just go home if you didn't want me"
"Promise?" I put my pinky in front of him and he looped his much bigger pinky around mine.
"Swear"
I hated that I decided to come to this party. This isn't me anymore. I feel immature for just standing in the same room with these people. I don't know why I agreed. Maybe because I didn't want Lucas to forget everything that makes him… him for his girlfriend of only three and a half months. It feels longer than that. It feels like I have been with him forever and not on that god just leave me alone way but in the god don't leave me way. I know I still need to tell him about how I feel but for right now I will let him have his carefree fun and worry about all the deep heavy things tomorrow.
I was standing to the side in the kitchen sipping on coke all by myself when Felix walked in looking not his usual self. "What is wrong with you?"
"I realize these parties are not fun when your girl isn't here with you" He grumbled tossing his cup into the sink. "This is boring"
"How deep do those feelings go that you feel for my roommate?" I asked with a raised eyebrow.
"I shouldn't care this much right? I mean, we haven't been together that long but her not being here with me makes me…" He trailed off with a groan.
"Empty? Confused? Lost?" I suggested and he nodded.
"Trust me I understand" I laughed bitterly sitting my cup of coke down.
"She just makes me want to be better. She could do a lot better and I am going to be with her until she figures that out" he told me honestly.
"Why don't you just go? You're obviously miserable"
He laughed and shook his head. "Because she doesn't want me to forget my friends but she didn't want to come out tonight. She wants me to have a guy's night" He grumbled.
"How long have you been here and how much have you had to drink?" I asked and he shrugged.
"About three hours and I don't drink"
"Well, you have been here long enough. You can go see her now" He looked up with bright eyes.
"You sure?"
"Yeah, she told me that if you looked absolutely miserable that you could go. If you were all over some slut I would have to intervene." I shrugged and he chuckled.
"That girl will be the death of me. Thank you Brooke" He kissed the top of my head gratefully before practically sprinting out of the packed house.
"Well don't you get around Brookie?" I groaned spinning on the stool to look at her.
"What now Theresa?"
"So, Grey Simon is your sister…" She paused to look behind me. I turned to see a hulking guy walking passed us. I turned back to her to see she had a weird look on her face. "Doesn't mean anything. You still are the disgusting freak we all know you as" She shrugged.
"You done Theresa?" I asked tired. I was so tired of fighting everyone that I really didn't want to do it anymore. I had nothing to prove.
"Not yet, but you will have to wait for the good stuff" She smirked and I rolled my eyes.
"Please don't be cryptic Theresa, it just makes you stupider than you already are" I replied turning back to pick up my drink.
"I would be spending time with Luke if I were you. I mean, he will dump you sooner or later. I'm guessing sooner and then he will come back to me. Watch yourself Brookie" She growled.
"Alright Theresa" I sipped on my drink uninterested.
"Have a nice night Brookie" She smiled tapping my shoulder as she walked out.
"God, I hate her" I heard a voice say as a body plopped down next to me.
"Hey Bev" I responded and she smiled. Bevin was one of those girls that you would try so hard to hate but you couldn't. She had every right to be a bitch with her looks and her popularity but she was by far the sweetest person I had ever met. She reminded me a lot of Grey with her airhead comments and her good heart. I honestly think that is why Nathan is so protective of her. One time this guy pretty much harassed her every chance he ever got and when Nathan found out he beat the kid and threatened him and the kid was scared to even look Nathan in the eye.
"She is so heartless. She has no right to talk to you like that. What have you ever done to her?"
"I broke her nose" I suggested and Bevin let out a loud laugh.
"She totally deserved it. If it wasn't the fact she was cheer captain I would have cheered you on, but I think Skills did enough cheering for everyone." She shook her head.
"Thank you for you know not hating me. You have every reason to" I told her with remorse. I feel bad for all the little comments I had made about her before I actually got to know her.
"Hating people is overrated. It takes to much energy. Life is too short to be angry." She said wisely. I never thought she would be so serious.
"You ever tell my brother that?"
She laughed and nodded. "Every day since I have met him"
"Thanks for watching out for him."
"You're lucky to have him as a brother." She said with a small smile.
"Yeah, I just wished he realized how amazing he really" I took another sip of my coke. It was really hot in this place.
"If anyone can do that it is Haley James"
"Has he changed since they got together?" I asked because I wasn't around him long enough to ever notice.
"He is kind, well more kind than he used to be. He is quieter, but the change doesn't change him. It just made him the Nathan Davis we both know he is." She talked about him like he was a big brother. You could see a sparkle in her eye that she was proud of him and she loved him. Bevin was probably the only girl that felt such platonic feelings for my brother. It is probably because she is head over heels for Skills but still, it feels good to know he has somebody that isn't out to take something of his.
"Thank you for watching out for him. For awhile you were probably his only voice of reason." I said and she smiled widely.
"I take pride in that, but hey I gotta go find my man. I will see you later and don't let Theresa bother you. I have known about Grey forever and it never changed how I looked at you or Nathan. I liked you guys before." She surprised me by giving me a quick hug before skipping out the room. She knew about Grey? Weird.
God, it is so hot in this house. I am just sitting here and I feel like I am sweating like crazy. The heat is definitely getting to me and my eyes felt heavy. The heat must have just crept on me without me noticing because I could barely see. I felt drunk even though I hadn't had anything to drink all night.
I tried to let it pass. I looked around for something to drink but all I saw was alcohol which I knew wouldn't help me and water. Water never helps when you feel like this. People walked around me not noticing mostly because it is a party so they probably think I am just drunk. God, why did Lucas have to go outside to play basketball?
I felt like I was about to throw up and when I stood up to go to the bathroom I lost my balance and grabbed the side of the counter. I needed to find Lucas or Nathan or anyone. I stumbled to the door and pushed passed people and barely noticed someone had grabbed me.
"Brooke? Are you drunk?" I heard a voice but it wasn't familiar. I think it is because I was so sleepy because when I looked up the fogginess cleared only a slight bit for me to see raven black hair.
"Natey-" I let out in a groggy voice. God, I had never felt like this. I didn't like this and I just wanted to go to bed.
"Brooke, your burning up. What is wrong?" He sounded concerned. I don't even have the energy to be happy about that.
"Natey, I-" I didn't finish because at that moment everything went silent and black.
Ahh! Oh no! Well you will have to come back soon to see what happened!