Ahh… I'm embarrassed. My sister read the chapter and was very upset with me for something.

I do not own the word bitca. I do not take credit for that…. Happy now?

I know it's not perfect, but it's life. Life is messy sometimes.
-Mr. Levangie

I was tired. I felt like I had a blanket over me that I couldn't pull off. I tried to open my eyes but honestly I was too tired to so I just laid there. I wasn't sure where there was exactly. I heard beeping but that might just be in my head.

"Ugh… best friend, this sucks" I heard Peyton. She sounded like she had been crying. Why is she crying?

She sighed.

"Lucas is a mess. He blames himself. I'm not really sure why. I think he loves you, Brooke. This is the time we can tell you everything because for once you won't talk back. You're one of my best friends. You have been there for me when my mom died, when Jenny came around, and I've been there for you. I mean you don't tell us everything but we notice things Brooke" She sniffed. "I notice things. You live him, don't you? God I'm stupid, you aren't going to answer. I know the answer though, you do. I don't understand how no one sees it."

She let out a sob that broke my heart. I wanted to tell her I'm okay but I was too tired too.

"Brooke, I have had enough death in my life, so could you please just wake up and be my Paul McCartney again? I mean I will not ever get annoyed when you don't cry over movies, or the fact you never get mad at me when I am stupid. I will never be mad at you again." She paused before smacking my hand. "Come on, Brooke you got your attention. Wake up."

She growled.

"Sorry… I just miss my best friend. I got to go. You have a long line waiting for you"

There was a new voice now.

"God you are such a whore."

Gotta love Rachel.

"You look like a mess. I am going to kill that bitch… Grey already is half way there" Rachel laughed.

Oh no, what did Grey do?

"For such a little thing, she definitely can pack a punch. You Davis' are scary. Lucas is scary me Brooke. He hasn't left since you got here. He just now left the room so we could see you. He cares more than we all thought. So maybe you should wake up and tell him you love him and you guys can get through-" She cut herself off. "Brooke, please"

Rachel was crying. I don't think I have ever seen her cry… well heard her.

"I need you to wake up already. The house is quiet without you and Lucas screaming at each other. Felix said he was sorry. Sorry for leaving you and coming home to me. He said he is sorry he left you alone. I told him you knew that. No one excepted this, not even Theresa. She got hers though, I promise. So just take your time I guess because there is no use trying to get you to wake up because you are so damn stubborn"

I heard the chair slide back loudly and a new occupant took its place. They took my hand and I knew who it was when I could feel the cool metal of a ring. He leaned up and hugged me tight.

"Hey Cookie. You always loved hospitals" He sighed. "Joke… I know you hate them. You know since I got back we tried to ignore everything that happened and when I got the call I guess I couldn't ignore it anymore. Maybe it's because you aren't looking at me or can't tell me how stupid I am so I am talking."

He had never sounded so serious.

"I was never the smart one, the athletic one, the mature one. Before you were born, mom would always say my first born, my baby girl and Devon. I was the screw up. I was the one that took five years to finish high school. I was the one that had ADD. I was the one with all the little problems I caused. And then Easton left… and went and was his amazing genius self. Grey left, and became famous and rich and I thought why can't I leave? What is holding me back? I didn't plan on leaving. I really was just getting milk. I was in the checkout line and one of my old teachers was behind me and he just looked at me. It was like he knew I wasn't going to end up doing anything. I snapped, I got and the car and drove."

He took in a deep breath.

"I know I'm not Grey to you. Or Easton to you. I know though, that I'm your Devon. I was supposed to protect you from Dan and I guess rich girls that are jealous of you. I wouldn't have ever come back but when I went to that college, I walked in and saw her Brooke. I was goner when she ran into me and spilt her coffee all over me. She was embarrassed and thought I was going to be an ass. I just laughed and told her I was used to pretty girls pouring coffee on me. I of course meant you and Grey. She just smiled and turned blood red. I fell for her so hard, and then next thing I know she is going to California and I thought I could say okay. I could let her go and be content. Go through the motions of life without her, or I could tell her about Grey, tell her I know place where we could stay and be the happiest guy in the world. I chose the former. I thought she could do better but I couldn't even let her out the door before I changed my mind. I then told her about you and Nathan and Easton and Dan and she told me I needed to come back. I was scared, scared you would all hate me so when I proposed I decided to find you, but you guys had moved and changed numbers and I thought wow I lost them. Delilah told me I would get them back and then you called. You called and I knew everything was going to be okay."

He paused again.

"Because we are Davis'. We have to get through all this hard shit so we can get all the good stuff. So right now it is hard, but you are a Davis. A Davis to the core and you're going to be okay. So I'm not going to cry and say I can't lose you. You have seventeen years to know that one. I'm not going to say wake up because we are Davis'. We don't get a lot a sleep so take all you can get. We're gonna be fine. You are gonna be fine. Especially when you got Lucas. God, that kid is freaking out. So if you do wake up, make it soon so he can sleep some."

Devon tapped my hand and then left. Everyone keeps talking about Lucas. I'm glad to know he is here.

"Brooke Davis"

I would have laughed at her tone if I could.

"You are one of my oldest friends. We will probably be related in less than five years and I can't wait. I don't know what to say, honestly because silence is what you and I are good at. We can sit there and know everything without us talking. So I'm going to sit here and learn everything… " Her voice was wavering. She was shaking as she took my hand and kissed it.

"Clay said he loves you by the way. And he misses you… everyone misses you of course. It's hard not to." She then sat there. I would have thought she left if it wasn't for she was still holding my hand.

I'm not sure how long she sat there before she spoke again. "So you love him, huh? I knew you two were trouble. I guess we were right. You Davis' were not going to care about anyone until the right one. Nathan fell for my sister. You fell for Lucas. Grey and Beck. Raine and Easton. Devon and Delilah. I still can't believe that one. You can tell he loves you. You can tell by the way he refuses to leave this damn hospital even though we have all tried to. I love you Brooke Davis. I guess that's all I have to say."

She released my hand. I heard the door open and someone sat down. They didn't speak. They just sat there. I had no idea who it was. They just sat there. Never touched me. It felt like forever and when they stood up I was confused.

I guess they aren't talking. I didn't hear the footsteps so they were just above me. It was creepy saying as I had no idea who it was.

It was then they spoke. Spoke something that took me by surprise. "It's Wednesday"

"I love you" I smiled as we walked down the street from the bus. Some girl had kept throwing things at me and of course Nathan freaked out.

"Ah… I love you too I guess" He stood there for a second, "Only on Wednesday"

"It isn't Wednesday" I pouted.

"Exactly, B" He laughed taking off when I started after him

"Brooklyn Penelope Davis, I should be so pissed right now" I was torn out of my memories by my mom's voice, "You had to go to that party. You are moving back in baby girl" She pushed my hair back.

"I finally got my babies back and now here you lay. It wasn't supposed to be like this. I am so tired of my kids being hurt, Brooke. I just need you to get better okay my beautiful baby girl. I love you so much" She kissed my forehead. "Thank you"

She didn't say much more except she told me about Lucas before leaving.

"I said I wasn't going to let anyone hurt you again. Yet here you are. God Brooke, could you just not leave the house for a while?" It was Easton.

"He's right Brooke" Raine was there to. I felt little arms wrap around my neck.

"I love you" Bobby kissed my cheek.

"Be strong Brooke. We need you." Easton told me.

"Lucas loves you Brooke. He needs you. You need him." Raine said wisely.

"I guess we should go, Beck wanted to talk to you"

I heard some mumbling and then the chair once again scrape against the floor.

"Hey Brooke. So I don't know very well. So I can't sit here and talk about memories because we don't have any yet. We will though, we're going to have lots of Christmases and Thanksgivings and birthdays. Neither of us are going anywhere. I don't think I knew Grey until we got back here, I mean I knew her I just… you bring out this side in her. When we found out you were in the hospital it's like she knew already. Before we even got the call she was quiet and wasn't loud. She then knew what had happened and just left. Next thing I know she's arrested for assaulting a minor. She's a mess Brooke, because you are her best friend. You guys have those weird things like kissing your finger and touching the roof when going under a yellow light. Or when you do a pinky promise you kiss it. She is just so lost without you and she just wants her best friend back. She blame herself because she screamed at that girl and the girl just got so jealous and everything. Grey will never be happy really happy without you. So please wake up because I can't go through the days knowing she is hurting"

I heard the door open and I wanted to smile when I heard his voice. He walked over kissing my lips and I wanted so badly to kiss him back.

"Hey pretty girl, you know how I feel about sleeping people" I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders just by hearing him talking to me. He climbed up into the bed wrapping his arms tight around me.

"I will never forgive myself. I'm gonna lose, I know that. So I'm going to hold you because I know… you are going to regret this. I'm gonna lose you"

I was so confused. I wanted to tell him I was fine. I didn't blame him and that I would never regret us.

He held for a long time. He didn't speak just held me and played with my hand. Soon the door slowly opened. "You're here"

"I'm good with words" Grey said. She sounded so broken. Lucas climbed out of the bed and left me and if I could I would have whimpered. I didn't want him to leave me yet.

"I'll give you guys some time" He said and Grey climbed on to the bed.

She was already crying.

"Blossom… haven't I taught you anything? Never drink something if you sit your cup down. We don't know what she put in it of course. We just know you were allergic to it and had an awful reaction which landed you here for two weeks. The doctors told me a few things. I don't know why me, why not mom. They said they didn't think you would want mom knowing so we have a lot of things to talk about when you wake up. The doctor said we could talk about it when you were ready. I got arrested. I beat Theresa up and was looking at jail time but I told them if the bitch dropped the charges, we wouldn't charge her for what she did to you. Her parents didn't want her getting in trouble so they agreed."

She sat there and I could hear her sniffling.

"I don't regret leaving. I should but I don't. I regret leaving you, leaving Nate. I don't regret anything else because I found the love of my life, so did Devon. And you found Lucas. Lucas who is just amazing to you and won't be going anywhere for well ever. But we will talk more about that later.

"You remember when you were ten? You got really sick and you had surgery and we lost you for a few minutes. That's how I feel right now; it hurts more now because they told us you were fine. Remember I got you that stuffed animal? And I uh... cried a lot"

"It's when your coffee addiction started" I said and was surprised she heard me. I thought I said it in my head but her head popped up and I realized I had opened my eyes.

She nodded and tears ran down her face as laid into hug me letting out a sob.

"It's okay Grey"

"I'm… so sorry" She said breathing heavily.

"It isn't your fault" She went to protest and I cut her off. "Stop Grey, it isn't. If you are going to say it is then you can just leave"

"Fine" She wiped her tears away and pulled away from me.

"Can you get me some water?" I asked and she instantly handed me a bottle which I practically chugged.

"Brooke, um… I got to tell you something" She said and before I got to respond the door opened and Lucas stood there.

I smiled at him and he practically ran to me. "I'll tell you later" Grey got up and left the room to leave Lucas with me and he kept kissing me.

"I'm so sorry"

"Why does everyone keep apologizing? It isn't your fault"

He shook his head and looked down.

"You don't understand, babe. It is my fault"

"No it isn't. So just shut up and kiss me" I growled and he reluctantly pulled me into a kiss.

"I missed you so much" He mumbled into my lips.

Short… I know. I just wanted this chapter to be about Brooke in the hospital. Her getting drugged was not the thing I was hinting at from the beginning.

I decided on the companion piece what I might do is make it a really long one shot with all the important things that happened and how Lucas looked at them and what went through his head and not what Brooke thought he was thinking because what he actually thinks and what Brooke thinks he thinks are completely different.