I am so very nervous you guys will hate this chapter and be like really? That is it? Oh I'm nervous, but I knew I would be when I put it up but I am taking a deep breath and hope I don't get people telling me I'm an awful writer. Oh my god, I'm scared.

I know I only updated hours ago but I wrote this and really want it to be put it up because is probably the biggest chapter of the whole story.

Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more.
-Meredith Grey

I am getting out today. The family is excited and Nathan has avoided me since I woke up. Not really surprised. I have had a lot of visitors and Lucas has rarely left me. Neither has Grey and they have pretty much fought on who gets to stay with me longer. I made them leave earlier because they were annoying me and I just wanted some alone time as I got all my stuff together.

Grey ended up telling me what the doctors told her and at this moment I'm doing my best to just not think about it.

"Well hello Brookie" I spun around to see the reason I was in this place.

"What the fuck are you doing here?"

Her appearance was one to laugh at. Both of her eyes were a yellowish black, her lip was swollen with a huge split in it, and she once again had a broken nose.

"We need to have a chat" She shrugged innocently.

"Nice nose"

"Yes, well it turns out Grey Simon has some anger issues"

My jaw clenched. "Her name is Grey Davis and well, it turns out you're a psycho bitch"

"Seems a little harsh dontcha think?" Her gum popped at the end of the sentence.

"Not when I spent two weeks in a coma. You do realize you could go to jail for attempted murder?"

"Always the dramatic one" I could tell by her tone she thought she was intimidating.

The bitch obviously had no heart.

"I'm not scared of you Theresa. You're a coward. You put something in my drink, well got someone to put something in my drink because what? What is your motive? Because I have Lucas? Because Haley has Nathan? I never did anything to you. At least not anything you didn't deserve"

"That's really cute" She smirked crossing her arms.

"What are you talking about?"

"You think I'm jealous of your relationship with Lucas?"

I laughed bitterly at her.

"No, I'm pretty certain"

She got an angry look in her eyes. Oh god, here we go.

"Your relationship is pathetic. For you to stay with him while he cheats. You tired of being alone Brookie?"

"What is with you and trying to break everyone that is happy up?"

"I can't see how you would consider your and Lucas' relationship happy." I growled. "Oh you do, you think it's real. That's sweet"

"You care to explain what you are talking about?"

"Why do you think he is with you? Why he pursued you?" She asked with a voice that made me think she thought she was talking to a child.

"I don't know Theresa. Sex? Well that isn't it, because hate to break it to you, we've had sex so if that's all he wanted he could be gone by now. Yet here stays in a hospital waiting for me"

"No silly, money" She told me like I was stupid and I raised an eyebrow at her.

"You think I'm paying him. God you really are crazy"

"No you're not paying him. You can't afford that, but someone will when you admit your true feelings"

"Care to explain, I told you before; you aren't good at being cryptic"

"Oh Brookie. You must know, are you really that stupid? He isn't with me because he doesn't get money that way. You however; he can get you to say you love him and then he is out of the hell hole that you put him. You admit how you feel he gets money. How much I'm not really sure, but trust me he would never want you for what you offer."

She rolled her eyes at me.

"He is with you because your easy. Easy to manipulate" She laughed an evil laugh.

"You think I believe you? You're psycho"

"If you trust him so much, then ask him. Ask him why he wanted you. I'm sure the answer is a good one. By the way I find it hilarious there is one more thing you are allergic to. You really are a freak" Theresa let out a loud laugh.

"What are you doing here?" I looked up to see Nathan standing there with clenched fists.

"Nathan! It is so good see you! God, your sister had to be allergic to-"

"Shut up Theresa! She can't help it. God damn it, she didn't do anything to get them. And I don't see what is funny about it saying as she has to have them for the rest of her life. She will have to be careful about everything she does and she almost died because someone was an idiot! I swear to God that if something permanent would have happened to her I would have tracked you down-"

"I thought you hated her Nathan" Theresa crossed her arms annoyed I guess that Nathan was defending me.

"She's my big sister you bitch. Sure I am pissed I don't want her hurt. I don't want her lying in a hospital because you thought it would be a funny fucking joke to drug her. You think I would be able to live myself if the one sibling that refuses to leave me was hurt because of a jealous bitch."

"I am not jealous because of someone like her" Theresa glared at me as I stared on confused feeling sick to my stomach.

"Yes you are and you should. She has more strength in her pinky than you do in your whole body and you hate it. You hate that she is smarter than you, she is better looking than you and without even trying she got Luke. Something you have been trying for years. So you know what, Brooke is tired of fighting you because she has more class than you ever will but I don't so fuck you. I don't know why you are here but you aren't welcome" He finished angrily.

I was silent as Theresa stomped out the door and Nathan stared at me breathing heavily.

"Hey" I said with watery eyes.

"Brooke… I am an idiot" he sighed shaking his head.

"Why?"

"What if something happened to you and you didn't find me. Brooke I can't do this without you. Yeah I know we rarely speak but at least your here and if I just keep distance you won't leave. People I get closed to leave. Staying away from you is easier, but it doesn't mean I don't love you or want to protect you or defend you if someone tried to hurt you because over the last few months I realized you're my big sister. And I love you and I'm so sorry" he said sadly.

"I'm okay, we're okay. Nothing is gonna change that" I told him hugging him and feeling him nod, "You have to forgive them Nathan. It is so much easier"

"Why? They are just gonna leave again"

"No they aren't. They are buying houses, getting jobs in Tree Hill. They're back and they miss you and they hate you hating them" I told him honestly trying to put all my other problems at the back of my head.

"I hate hating them too" He sighed.

"No one is going to blame you for love them, Nate. It's okay to love them and to not be angry when we have every right to be" He nodded.

"I love you Brooke"

I wiped a tear from my eye. "I love you too"

"You ready to go?" Grey asked and I saw Lucas standing near the door.

"Can I have moment with Lucas first?" I asked and she nodded understandingly leaving me alone with him. He sat down in a chair and looked at me.

I sat on the bed because I couldn't be close to him, not yet. "Lucas…"

I was scared. I didn't want to know his answer.

I needed to say it though.

"Why did you… start to get to know me?"

He looked up surprised.

"No offense, babe. You're Brooke Davis. You are intriguing." He smiled.

"Yeah, I have heard that, but we weren't exactly friends. So what changed your mind?"

He looked around rubbing the back of his neck. "I don't know really. I think it was before you got hurt at my house. I just knew I wanted to protect you"

I think he is lying. Please don't be lying.

"So it wasn't for money?"

I watched him stare at the ground for a long time and I took that as my answer. I never thought it would be true.

"Oh my god"

It was then it all started to make sense. All the small things I should have noticed.

"Are you okay?"Was all it said. Seriously, why does everyone suddenly care about my feelings? It is super annoying.

"That hurts Bob" He smirked as he drove down the interstate.

"I know you are a little slow, but my name's Brooke, with a B, an R, two O's, a K, and an E" I said to him slowly.

"Alright, Bob. Come on, were going to the beach" He smiled.

"Remember that thing we talked about Lucas. And nice to meet you Brooke" Felix smiled sticking his hand out towards me which I took before he went towards his car.

"Well he is nice" I turned back to Lucas to see his whole demeanor had changed. He looked angry and cold.

"Go to the dance with him" He growled and I laughed at him making him glare at me.

"You're jealous" I rolled my eyes while Lucas straightened himself and looked down at me.

"Don't be stupid Bob" He snapped and I looked confused at him for why he was being so rude and why he brought up that stupid name again when lately it seemed to be used less and less.

"What the hell is your problem?" I asked grabbing his arm and he flinched away.

"Nothing. I'm completely fine. Would you like me take you home?" He asked with trying to cover up the anger.

"No, not when you were fine five minutes ago and now your cringing at me touch" I snipped trying to make sure he didn't notice the hurt look on my face. He stared at where Felix was for a second, closing his eyes like he was having an inner battle with himself.

"Hey, look at me" I sighed grabbing the sides of his face and he slowly cracked open his eyes covering my hands with his own.

"Just let me take me home" He whispered and I nodded slowly getting into his car while he kept staring off to where the school was. He shook his head climbing into the driver's seat not saying another word to me which I didn't understand but didn't push.

"I'm not a good person and I hurt people and I am sorry"

He's holding something back though. I can tell. It is as though he doesn't want to like me; he doesn't want to care for me. He seems to always be having an inner battle with himself and I don't get why. Would it be that bad to fall for me?

Once the song had ended we walked back to the table and Lucas excused himself and walked over to where Nathan was. The girls were talking but I was watching Lucas and Nathan. I noticed them go to a secluded corner and were talking about something I wasn't really sure what and when Nathan laughed hitting his shoulder and walking away I thought they were fin, but I notice Lucas run his hands through his hair frustrated before making his way back to me.

"You'll never touch me"

"Please... I promise you at some point in our futures you'll be underneath, begging for me." He walked passed me out and out the door.

He's definitely a difficult person to deal with. One second he is super touchy feely then it's like something in his mind flips and he puts this wall up where he is all pissy and annoyed with me and I don't even do anything.

"Since we got together, one second you are happy and you seem to actually look like you care about me-"

"I do care about you" He cut in but I continued my ramble.

"Then all of a sudden it's like you realize it. Like you noticed you were having fun with me and throw up this wall and are mean and seem annoyed… or you tell me I'm beautiful which you have never said and then you scream. Why can't you just happy with me?" I yelled hurt pushing him away from me.

"I am happy" He tried to tell me and I shook my head.

"Then what is it all of those other times where you are fighting yourself? Did you think I didn't notice? It hurts Lucas…" I confessed looking at the ground.

"But don't you want someone who loves you and doesn't hate you half of the time?"

"Love?" He asked with wide eyes.

"Hypothetically, dumbass" I muttered and he let out a breath. Is loving me that awful?

"Oh" He looked relived. Well that is a blow to the ego

"Brooke" He stood up and started toward me.

I'm so stupid. It was always there. He was taunting me with it. He wasn't relieved I might love him. He was excited he might win. Oh my god, I think I might throw up.

"Stay away from me. I can't believe this. God Lucas, what was I? Hmm… just some joke. Let's mess with her feelings. I mean was it unbearable to be near me, to fuck me. Well then I guess you always went to Theresa. I bet you guys would just laugh about how big of an idiot I am, right?" I said pushing him away from.

"I bet you love the fights we had. That way you didn't have to pretend for a few minutes"

I was so angry. I didn't even think to cry. I just wanted to hurt him.

"Brooke-"

"No, and then the Bob thing. Another taunt, because I'm so fucking to realize you hated me. You have never cared. You didn't hate me enough to make it though. So tell me Luke" He knew I hated that name, "Who made it? Who hated me that-"

I cut myself off. It was like I lost my voice because I knew. I knew exactly who hated me enough. I felt like I was punched in the stomach. I couldn't believe that I thought he loved me. He felt bad because it was his fault. None of this would have happened if the bet wasn't made. Theresa wanted him to come back to him. She wanted him to herself instead of sharing him.

All the love I felt for his disintegrated in to dust. The mere thought of him sickened me. He felt guilty. It was why he never left the hospital. He felt guilty for making Theresa go to that level. In that moment I hated him more than Theresa.

"It was me" Lucas lied.

"No it wasn't. You disgust me by the way." I pushed passed him. "In case you don't realize, we're done"

I went to turn when I stopped. "What was it?"

"Stop-"

"No, if you are cruel enough to take it then you can tell. What the fuck was it?" I hissed.

"Make you fall in love with me for 200"

I didn't miss a beat with my response. "You lost. Who could ever love someone like you?"

I left shaking with anger and saw Nathan waiting for me at the door and my wall of anger broke into sadness.

"You hate me that much Nathan. To toy with my life and my emotions?"

"What are you talking about?"

"You just won 200 dollars. Congratulations" I said the anger resurfacing.

He went pale.

"I didn't hate you before Nathan. I can honestly say now that I never want you to come near ever again."

"Brooke, please-"

"No one will know. Tell your buddy that. No one will ever know" I growled leaving to find Grey waiting for me by the car.

She didn't say anything. She didn't question what was wrong until I got home. My actual home and put my things in my room. I sat on the bed trying to not completely break.

"What's wrong? Did you tell Lucas?" She asked.

"He won't be finding out" I whispered.

"You can't not tell him Brooke. You can't do that"

"Watch me" I said as I put up my wall. The wall I should have never let down.

The wall I shouldn't have let him break through.

The wall no one will ever get through ever again.

I went silent. I wasn't angry, I wasn't sad. I was emotionless, like I should have been. I never wanted him to be near me ever again.

"You do this... it ruins his life" She told me thinking it would really change how I felt at that moment.

"Then we'll be even" I said with no emotion getting up and walking out of the room not caring anymore who I hurt.

There it is folks. All the hints… the summary… duh duh duh. Lucas kind of sucks at the moment. And Nathan and God I hate Theresa. I hate writing her; she makes me want to punch a wall.

The story isn't over. There will be a few more chapters. Hello, Lily is still in it!

Please don't hate me because even though it sounds out of the blue the hinting started at chapter 3. I have had this plan from the beginning but you would never know because it's in Brooke's POV. This is why I didn't put up the companion piece. It would have given it away.

I hope ya'll don't think now this story was random and awful now because it isn't! I promise. Ask the real Grey Simon Davis Upton! She will say I have been telling her about this since chapter one about how I couldn't wait for the big reveal.

Okay I'm done, review!