This is it! This is the final chapter! It isn't the end though because of the sequel!
And then i have the companion piece which is really a super long one shot and it isnt really a story. More like snippets of the parts in ALone that maybe you thought what was going through Lucas' mind?
Thank you! Craxygirl54 for reading the chapter first and telling me it was okay to put up
Look at this. Everybody wants a life without pain. And what does it get you? She needs to be on a poster somewhere to remind people, pain is there for a reason.
- Miranda Bailey
I stayed away from my house the last few days. The thought of seeing Nathan made me sick to my stomach. I've been with Grey. She hasn't asked me anything but I know at some point she is going to ask.
I'm dreading that.
It's easy to just not think about it. I don't need the stress and thinking about it won't change anything so I just put it out of my mind. I've preoccupied myself with school. We haven't actually started but if I want to get into college I need to do some extra work. So I only have three weeks until senior year so I went up to the school with Raine and she got me a few classes to do.
I complete one a week which you would think is impossible. Apparently it isn't. The classes she gave me teach me everything I need to know and at the end of the week I take this test. It is really weird and I really don't think the idea of it is logical but whatever, I guess at this point I don't know anything.
"What are you learning today?" Grey leaned over my shoulder and I shrugged.
"Math" I replied with no feeling.
"Ooh, sounds fun. Math was the only subject I really cared for" She sat in front of me with a big smile on her face.
"Yep, well I got to get this finished" I said signaling the end of the conversation.
"Brooke, why don't you and Lucas just talk? I mean you-"
"Leave it alone Grey" I snapped at her.
She gave me an angry look.
"You can't do this Brooke. You want me to tell Easton? See what he thinks?"
"Why would that change anything?"
She gave me a humorless laugh.
"Because you are doing the exact same thing Raine did!"
I rolled my eyes at her. "No, this is totally different"
"Please explain"
"I don't want to talk about it. God, I came here to get away from it but if you love to bring it up so damn much I will just go home."
"Brooke-"
I don't know why I got so angry all of sudden. I just wanted to scream at her.
"I mean I'm not you! I'm not scared of home!"
"Oh yeah I can really tell by the way you have stayed here since you got out!"
"At least I didn't go cross country to get away from my problems!" I yelled at her and she threw her hands up in the air.
"Oh my god! Are we still on that? I said I was sorry!"
"And that just makes three and a half years disappear? It doesn't Grey! You just left! No phone call, no email! And then I try, I try to call you and you shut me out!"
"Brooke, what is going on?"
I broke. I couldn't do it anymore.
"I mean is there something wrong with me? Something in my brain where I can't realize that people don't want me around?"
I went to push passed her and she grabbed my arm.
"B, what happened?"
I had tears streaming down my face. My resolve had broken because it hurt so badly. I knew it wasn't real, I knew it was happening to quick, but I didn't analyze the signs.
"Just leave me alone" I mumbled leaving the apartment and quickly making my way out to the car.
- 000-
I made it to the room and barely had the door shut before I started to cry. Not cry, sob. Heavy sobs that probably would scare most people. I crawled into my bed and pulled the covers over my head. It wasn't supposed to be like this. The pain wasn't supposed to hurt this bad.
I had never felt this pain. It was like someone took a brick and just dropped on my heart. I felt like crying all the time, it hurt to do anything. It hurt because I should have known. I should have known I wasn't good enough. I should have known he was cheating on me.
I should have known he was a liar.
I wasn't even sure what hurt more. The fact it was Lucas that took it or because it was Nathan who made it or because they told Theresa or because I had a strong feeling Felix knew.
It just all hurt me and I wanted it to all go away.
"Brooke" I heard on the other side of the door.
"Fuck you, Nathan" I replied through my tears.
He didn't reply.
I needed to calm down. I needed to get my shit together. I needed to forget him and forget what we had.
It was going to be hard.
Three days passed and I hadn't left my room. I barely even got out of bed. I did that stupid class and finished it this morning so I had about two days until I have start the next one.
People tried to talk to me but I avoided them. I avoided Nathan, I avoided my mom. I made myself go take a shower, get dressed and leave. I made my way down stairs and saw Easton, Devon and Nathan sitting there watching TV.
"Hey, Brooke. Good to see you up. We were just-"
Devon was cut off by the loud slam of me shutting the front door. I was starting to the car when the front door opened and I was relieved to see it wasn't Nathan. My hands were shaking. I wasn't even sure why.
I tried to act like I didn't care again but it was no use. I couldn't forget. I tried to unlock the stupid car but I couldn't do it. I didn't pay attention to the two grown men walking towards me. I dropped my keys and kicked my car.
"Cookie?" Devon walked slowly.
"None of this would have happened if you guys didn't leave" I replied.
"We talked to Grey" Easton said from beside Devon.
"I don't care"
"You need to talk to Lucas, Brooke" Devon said and I shook my head biting my lip as more tears came at the sound of his name.
"Shut up" I said and they sighed. We heard a car pull up and Grey stepped out with Melanie on her hip.
"What's wrong?" Grey asked walking up to us.
"I mean you guys break up all the time, why is this one different?" Devon asked and I a small sob emitted from my lips.
"I know it sucks, but you got to talk to him" Easton said and I turned to Grey with pleading eyes.
"Sissy, please don't make talk to him" I begged.
"He has a right to know Brooke" Easton tried to convince me.
"Maybe you guys-"
"Just leave her alone" We turned to see Nathan on the other side of the car. A new set of tears started from seeing him.
"Nathan, they need-"
"You guys don't know anything so leave- her- alone. She doesn't need to talk to him. They broke up and she doesn't want to talk about it so just stop" He snapped at all of them.
"He deserves to know, Nathan" Grey said with anger.
No, no, no. Nathan can't know about it.
"Know what?" He asked confused.
"It's his baby too" Easton snapped.
Of course Easton would be angry about it. He did lose four years with his baby. Nathan's eyes darkened and turned to his car that Grey had bought him to make him forgive her.
"Nathan, please. Please don't tell him" I begged but he wouldn't listen. He just got in his car and left.
"Why would you do that? God, everything was fine!" I cried grabbing my keys and leaving in a completely different route than Nathan.
-000-
I don't know why I came here. It didn't really make sense to me. I just started to drive and somehow I ended here.
Maybe it does make sense; I mean honestly she is the only person I can trust. Not like she is going to go tell everyone my secrets.
I sat in the chair beside her bed.
"So for two weeks I knew what it was like to be you. Near the end, I heard everything. So it makes me wonder. Do you hear me Snow? Or am I just talking to an empty room?
"You're brother and I broke up. For good this time. It turns out he didn't seem to really care like I thought he did. That hurt Snow. I found some other things out to…"
I played with her little hand. "You're gonna be an aunt. Well, I wasn't going to tell him. I didn't want him knowing. I still don't. I don't want him part of this baby's life. Doesn't really seem fair when he doesn't care about me, I mean how will he treat my kid?"
"That isn't fair" I turned to see Lucas for the first time since we broke up.
I wasn't upset or depressed when I saw him standing there like I thought I would be. I was pissed and angry.
"Fair, you don't know the first thing about fair" I hissed standing up.
"Were you just not going to tell me? How the fuck is that right?"
"You want talk about right? How about you fucking me just for money. I'm not a prostitute Lucas" I was so angry.
"Obviously, they are at least safe!"
I let out a bitter laugh and shook my head.
"It takes two to make a baby Lucas. Sorry, I know you and Theresa want your perfect-"
"Fuck Theresa" He growled.
"You already did that… while we were dating!" I yelled at him.
"I never cheated on you" He said lowly with anger radiating off him.
"Oh and I believe you. I believe every word you say to me" I said with sarcasm.
He ran his hands over his face.
"I'm sorry for making this so hard for you." I snapped. "You know you go to school and never have to worry about it. I'm gonna be looked at like a slut. You're off the hook Lucas."
"What is that supposed to mean?"
"You think I would ever let you around my baby?"
His eyes slanted into a glare. "It's my baby too"
"You never know… I'm a slut right? I could have cheated just like you did" I lied.
"You never cheated on me"
"I know you think you are the best at everything, but why would you think I wouldn't?"
"Cause you love me" He yelled with a smirk and we heard a whimpering.
We turned to see the brunette in the bed stirring around and my eyes went wide. Holy shit, we woke her up. She opened her eyes and tears welled up in her eyes. Lucas seemed to be stuck in his spot with wide eyes.
"You're a great actor Lucas." I sighed walking passed him. "Tell your sister I love her, because she is the only Scott I love" I said leaving. I should have stayed but I felt like I was intruding so I left as the doctors rushed in.
"Hi" I looked up to see Alex sitting on my front porch.
"What are you doing here?" I asked walking passed her to let us both in.
"I'm sorry about you and Lucas" She said and I nodded.
"It's whatever." I said shakily sitting at the dining room table.
"Brooke…"
"I know you were right. But please, please don't tell me you told me so" I turned to see her nodding and I started to cry again.
"What happened Brooke?" She asked.
I couldn't tell her. I was ashamed and embarrassed and I couldn't tell her because she would tell Rachel and I didn't want Rachel and Felix breaking up. They were good for each other.
"I'm pregnant" I hadn't told anyone that.
Her mouth fell open.
"Did he break-"
"I broke up with him. I can't tell you why because I don't want anyone knowing but we won't be getting back together and I don't want him to be in my baby's life"
I felt lost. I didn't know what to do.
"Brooke, you know that isn't the right thing to do" She said with sadness.
"What he did wasn't right though" I cried.
"I know B, but is the best revenge really making your child think it's father doesn't love him. You had an awful father. One you thought didn't love you, are you going to make your kid think that? What about your brother? He grew up thinking his parents didn't want him. So what Lucas did was awful, but don't take his kid away from him. You know that isn't what you want to do"
She left me then, by myself. Left me to think about everything.
Think about how Lucas was an ass for making me have to think about this.
A few weeks later I decided I needed to talk to him. I had gotten calls from Karen asking if there was anything I needed and I told her no and asked her about her baby girl. She of course was ecstatic to talk about the raven haired beauty.
I found him with his sister. She was sitting in the bed with Karen and Keith off to the side watching her intently. They were scared that any moment she would fall back asleep.
It was the weirdest thing, not even the doctors knew what to say. She was completely healthy. I walked in and Snow's eyes landed on me. I was nervous. What if she had no idea who I was?
She had beautiful eyes. They weren't like Lucas'. They had more of innocence to them and were a few shades lighter. Her smile was what I thought it would be. Big.
"Hey Snow" I said and her eyes lit up.
"Brooke!" She said excitedly and a let out a breath of relief walking over to her giving her a tight hug.
"I was scared you wouldn't remember me" I confessed and she let out a giggle.
"How could I forget you? You're Brooke Davis" She smiled big at me and I grinned back. The first real smile I had since the break up.
"And you're my favorite Lily Scott" I replied and she giggled again.
After a few minutes I excused myself and sat in the hallway by myself. Lucas came out and sat across from me.
"What are you doing here?" He asked.
"I just wanted to see her, okay?" I needed to talk to him about why I actually came here.
"Bro-"
I cut him off. "So I have thought about it. This isn't just your kid; this is your parent's grandbaby and your sister's niece and nephew. So they deserve to see the baby… even if you don't. I grew thinking my dad hated me and the fear of my kid thinking that is enough to make me put my hate for you aside"
"Thank you"
"I'm not doing it for you. I'm doing it for my child. Because if it was up to me, this baby would never meet you or Nathan. I can't do that though because I refuse to let my family know what really happened. You need to know though, we aren't friends. We aren't enemies, we're parents. Don't think I like you or I care about you because I don't. You're the father of my child and that's all you'll ever be." I finished and he nodded.
"This baby will never know and since you aren't going anywhere we act cordial when around family but don't mistake it for genuine kindness" I stood up and he stayed on the ground.
"So what are you telling me to do?" He asked staring at me.
"What you do best… lie" I let him then with a weight off my shoulders.
No one would ever know the truth of the four months I spent with Lucas Scott.
Thank you for everyone that has stuck with me through this whole entire story!
It might seem vague but there is still a sequel which clears up a lot! I promise!
It won't be in Brooke's POV though, just third person...
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