A/N: WARNING: The following is a little dark, but not really all that graphic, or at least I tried not to write it so. It might also show some ooc stuff, but it also shows some realism. The actions that Nagisa takes are more from what might have happened is she was pushed too much. I am sorry for those Nagisa lovers, but past this point it should became more lighter.

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Since her falling out with Momomi, Kaname had stayed away from approaching Nagisa. She didn't do it to be mean; she did it for the red head's safety. If there was one thing she knew about Momomi, it was the fact that the brunette could be very vindictive and scheming. Knowing this, she also was aware that Momomi would probably follow her every move just to see who the mystery girl was. However, being away from the red head and not knowing how she was doing drove her mad.

As for Momomi, she was heartbroken enough to not do anything. Basically, she was still in the denial phase. She just sulked away and glad that Kaname had given her space to think. However, she felt incomplete without the taller girl near.

As the brunette sat sulking again on one of the chairs in the study room, Shion approached her. From the sidelines, the blonde stood by witnessing the emotional roller coaster her fellow student council members were riding on. Besides concentrating on getting Aname into the Etoile competition, she was also worried about those she worked with. Until this time, she had wanted to approach both Momomi and Kaname, but she never could due to being busy with school things. So the moment seemed like the appropriate time to speak to at least one of them.

The blonde sat in a chair next to the grieving woman, "Momomi?"

It took a moment of no response before she finally looked at her student council president, "What do you want?"

"To talk to you," replied Shion.

The other girl glared daggers into her, "Maybe I don't want to talk."

"Talking helps to remove emotional stress," proclaimed the blonde. "What happened between you and Kaname this time?"

Momomi studied her student council president for a moment before saying anything, while she was trying to figure out whether or not she should say anything. She gave in, since Shion had been there for her earlier. "She's not in love with me."

The Spica's Student Council President wanted to reach out and touch the brunette to comfort her, but she couldn't yet. "I could have sworn she loved you."

"She does, but only as a friend, a friend with benefits."

"Ah, that's awful."

The other girl nodded. "What's worse, she doesn't trust me. I don't blame her, but still…"

"Why would think that?"

"She absolutely refused to tell me who she was in love with."

"Why?"

Momomi couldn't say anything to her president, since it wasn't really good. All her bad deeds were done behind Shion's back; somehow she didn't want the blonde to know of her transgressions or more like her evil side. Momomi knew once she snapped back to her old self, she would go and track down the girl who took Kaname away from her. Kaname had all right not to trust her, but it still hurt her to know that Kaname held so little trust for her.

"I can't say," she managed to say.

The president knew when not to press, instead she tried switching things up a bit, "Have you heard some of the gossip going around about Kaname?"

"What gossip?"

"Ah, apparently, Kaname was seen last week carrying Aoi Nagisa to Strawberry Dorms."

"Aoi Nagisa, the girl who replaced Chikaru-san as Carmen at the school festival?"

"That's her," Shion confirmed.

"And Kaname carried her to Strawberry Dorms?"

"Yes."

Momomi couldn't help but be confused. For Kaname to actually help someone else was really strange. Her ex-lover would only help someone else if it were for her own gain and not from the goodness of her own heart; well if she had a heart and Momomi believed the taller girl had none. Of course, she was only focus on the recent events.

Besides helping out, Kaname went and carried Aoi Nagisa, the brat who had been so self righteous at the play. Momomi had felt no guilt for her actions towards the girl, only anger. She remembered how Kaname had looked at the red head when she stepped into the role of Carmen. The blunette seemed impressed at the girl's acting ability. Momomi could have cared less then, but now... Suddenly, she thought about how she might have stumbled upon who had stolen the heart of her ex-lover. Oh, how that girl is going to pay.

For the past couple of days, Kaname had noticed a change in her ex-lover's demeanor as she sat across from her in the student council room. At first when she stopped sleeping with her, she only ever saw the brunette as being gloomy and irritated. However, her continence now looked smug and almost gleeful. Sadly, gloomy and irritated Momomi put Kaname more at ease than a Momomi who looked like the old cliché of a cat who caught the cannery. The look just stood out more prominent today.

After a grueling meeting of discussing the events for the upcoming Etoile competition and Shion's frustration in not softening Amane's heart in competing in the event, Kaname approached Momomi in hallway. She pulled her towards a wall and looked into her eyes trying to read the girl's mind. The brunette did likewise.

A small smile formed on the smaller girl's face after some time had passed, "My, my, my, what do I owe the pleasure of your attention?"

The blunette smirked, "Well, friend, I couldn't keep my eyes off of you today."

"Oh, did you miss me?"

"Sister, you know how I love seeing you smile and you've been doing it quite a bit recently. You look beautiful when you do."

"Kaname, you flatter me too much." She touched the collar of the blunette's blazer and started rubbing it with her thumbs. "You know, if you miss my smile so much, I know how you can see it more often."

"Oh, I would be more than willing to learn how, but it seems as if you have already found something to make you smile."

"Are you curious?"

"Only a little," the blunette said. Of course, what she said was more than she let on.

Her ex-lover knew her well enough to know that what said was quite opposite of what she felt. Momomi couldn't help but giggle more, "Ah, dearest, I found that I discovered a new taste in the color red."

A sudden chill crept its way up Kaname's spine as she kept her usual cold front. "Is that so?" she asked as nonchalantly as possible.

Momomi waited and wanted to see something more coming off of her, but was disappointed in not seeing anything, yet still she kept her act on. "Yes, there's just something about the color which drives me wild."

"Good for you, maybe I should get you a red dress or something sometime."

"Sounds good, but only if you take me on a date," she replied.

Kaname smirked again, "Ah, you know I can't, love." She kissed Momomi on the cheek and left her standing there wondering what happened.

As for the blunette, the moment she left the school building, she dashed towards the Strawberry Dorms searching for the red head. Fear flooded her as she worried over the welfare of Nagisa. She checked her watch and saw it was not quite time for Tamao to return from poetry club. In her research of Nagisa, she also looked at those closest to her. Since her breakup with Shizuma and her friend being in poetry club, Nagisa had no one to spend time with. She hardly hung out with anyone else leaving Kaname to believe it would allow too much alone time for the red head.

Upon entering the dorm building, Kaname sprinted up the steps towards Nagisa's room. Reaching the dorm, she gave a knock on it and waited. No answer came. A sinking feeling gripped the older girl's stomach. Without knocking again, she opened the door and walked in, but found no one. She made turned to go, when she realized how strange it was for the door being unlocked. With one last look around the room, her eyes landed on the door to the bathroom. No hesitation was left as she took hold of the door handle and ripped it opened. The sight in the bathroom nearly ripped her heart out as she saw a naked Nagisa sitting on the floor of the shower bleeding from cuts on her arms. A blade was held in her hand as the water was spraying on the red head as it was washing her blood down the drain.

Kaname ran over towards the girl, turn off the shower and very carefully took the blade away from the dazed out Nagisa. She wanted to talk to her first, but checking her physical condition came first instead. Thankfully, Nagisa didn't cut anywhere near her wrists. They spread from near the inner elbows downwards on both arms. Some looked deeper than others. There were no signs of other cuts scars, but some were scabbed over as if this cutting business was a new development.

Pushing those thoughts away and without a moment to loose, the blunette grabbed two hand towels to cover the cuts and a larger one to cover the younger girl's nakedness. Once Kaname had wrapped Nagisa up, she took the girl out of the bathroom and rocked her in her arms.

"Aoi," she whispered. "Aoi."

The girl in her arms stirred some and looked up at who was holding her. "Kenjo-san?"

Both relief and anger filled Kaname, "Aoi, you stupid girl, what in hell's name possessed you in doing this to your body?"

Only silence came from Nagisa, who was ashamed about her actions and Kaname had finding out.

The older girl pulled the younger one out from her embrace and forced her to look into her eyes, "Tell me what's going on," she demanded.

"I'm no good," she cried.

"What do you mean you're no good?"

"I cause too much trouble for everyone. I try so desperately to make friends, but in the end, I only cause trouble for people. I feel so alone."

"You're not alone."

"How would you know? My parents don't want me around. All of grandparents are dead."

"I only stand your grandparents, but what are you talking about with your parents?"

Nagisa let her tears fall down from her eyes, "From the moment I was born, they kept running away from me. Most of life was spent being raised by the only grandfather I've ever known. My parents would only visit me like one a year for about a week to two. They would never take me anywhere. As soon as my grandfather died, they enrolled me here just so I was out of their hair. If they didn't want me around, then they should have an abortion instead of having me." She broke down more.

Seeing the anguished of the younger girl, Kaname once again brought the red head into her and rocked with her. "It's okay, I'm here. You're here. I'm happy."

Except for the silent whimpers of Nagisa, there was more silence until Nagisa said, "I'm scared."

"Why are you scared?"

"I'm having trouble in accepting I'm gay. I thought I could have handled it if I could have always been with Shizuma-sama, but she doesn't love me at all. I'm only a substitute for who she really loves." She cried harder.

Kaname once again hugged the girl tightly. She felt like crying along with her, but she held back. "She's an idiot to let someone as cute and funny as you slip away. Don't worry, It's going to be okay."

The girl in her arms shook her head, "No, it won't."

"Why not?"

"I feel so dirty."

"Why, because you like girls?"

"No, I…I…Kiyashiki-san…she…she…to…to…"

Raging anger again filled, Kaname, "She raped you, didn't she?"

Only silence answered her.

"I'm so sorry," said Kaname. "It's my fault. If I hadn't… I promise Aoi, no matter what happens, I'll try to protect you from now on."

"Why would you waste your time with me?"

"Listen, I've experienced my own pain, but no matter how much I experienced, I would never cut myself, I end up angry and spiteful, sometimes horny. I'm still like that; however, when I'm with you and your caring attitude, those feelings leave me. It pains me seeing you like this."

"But I'm causing you to worry about me. I can't do anything right."

"Why would you say that?"

"I make a mess out of everything. My first day here, I didn't make it on time for the dorm's curfew. I was sent to the office, made Tamao-chan worry and troubled Rojuko-san. I burdened Shizuma with my presence. I wasn't good with French, so she tutored me. I think she offered just to so I wouldn't complain any more. I've tried so much, but I don't think anybody wants me around. Did you know because I've so depressed lately some underclassman gave me cookies to cheer up. I didn't know if I should smile for being loved or cry because of their pity."

Kaname pulled away from Nagisa and looked her in the eye again, "Aoi, do you honestly not believe in your own self worth? Seriously, people like you because of who you are. You try so hard and people see it. Can't you see how much your friends love you? I see that you've been hurt, abandoned by those you care about, but at the same time don't forget about the rest of those who just want to see you smile. Isn't that right, Suzumi?"

Unknown to the red head, Tamao had been standing in the door during Nagisa's speech. Upon seeing the scene and hearing some of what was said, she was fill with shocked. She stood amazed to see Kaname tenderly scolding Nagisa. She was also bewildered about her roommate's physical appearance of being clad in only a towel, who didn't seem all that frighten of being in Kaname's arms.

"What's going on here?" the poet asked.

The red head didn't want to say anything because she was afraid of what Tamao would say, think or do. Somehow, Nagisa didn't want to be judged by Tamao. Being scolded by Kaname was one thing, since the older girl it was natural between them, but she never wanted to be scolded by Tamao.

As for Kaname, she stood up from her spot on the floor and walked over to Tamao, "Suzumi, do you have a first aid kit?"

She nodded, "Why would need one?"

"Before I tell you, you have to promise me you won't tell anyone."

"What is it?" she asked glancing from Kaname to Nagisa and back again. "If it has anything to do with Nagisa, then I should…"

"Not this time, but if she continues her actions, then yes, but for now let's give her time," said the older girl, thinking about the cuts and scabs she had seen on the red head. She figured if she could stop the red head from abusing herself any more, she wouldn't have to mention a thing to anyone. However, if Nagisa continued, she knew she would have no choice but to tell someone.

"What are you talking about?"

To Kaname, this conversation almost seemed like de ja vu to her somehow. Shaking it off mentally, she motioned for Nagisa to come over. Reluctant at first, she finally relented as she walked over to them. As she walked over, Kaname shut the door to the room. Now in privacy, Nagisa lowered her towel to reveal the blood stained hand towels. Tamao's eyes flew open in horror at the sight. As for Kaname, she slowly removed each rag to reveal the cuts.

Tears flooded Tamao's eyes. She looked from the cuts to Kaname, "Who did this to her?"

"She did it to herself."

"Why?"

"She was in pain from many things, including her own twisted insecurities about the world. If you're a true friend to her, be as kind as loving as you can be, but more importantly be as understanding as well."

Tamao nodded. She retrieved her first aid kit and fixed Nagisa up with a mixture of butterfly band aids and regular ones. After a private talk with Kaname, who discussed some of things the red head was going through, Tamao's hatred towards the older girl vanished to new found respect.

A/N:When I wrote this portion I was thinking about the movie Prayers for Bobbie which I think was based on a true story.