A/N: Oh Kiba Wolf, what are you doing to me? I haven't written in a long, long time and I'm afraid my style might have changed, but you've got me wanting to start this collection back up again. Thank you so much for all your kind reviews and support.
Spoilers in this chapter for episodes 58/59 of Brotherhood and chapters 100/101 of the manga. Just a warning for the people who haven't gotten that far into the series yet or haven't finished.
029. Existence
The thought of her being gone forever scares him far too much.
He finally realizes the entirety of this simple fact as he's forced to watch her bleed out, her blood staining her beautiful, beautiful neck and splattering across her face. If only he had his gloves. If only he had been quicker. If only - He's known for years that he loves her. He figured out that fact years ago when they both much younger and didn't know the horrors of the world, the things that men could do to one another. He just wishes now that he would have told her because if she dies - No. She won't die. Can't die.
She has to survive this.
She just has to because if she doesn't - Well he wouldn't really know what to do with himself. His existence, his entire self, his dreams all depended upon her. She was the driving force behind them all even if she wasn't aware of that fact. That's another thing he desperately wishes now that he had said to her. Actually, there are far too many things he should have told her and now he wonders if he'll ever get a second chance. He can only watch her grasp her neck and the blood, her blood, seep through her fingers, through her hands that he had on many occasions wanted to grasp.
Her eyes tell him everything. She's willing to die for him because he means just that much to her. She would tell him that, but she can't. In fact, she wants to die so long as he remains safe, in one peace. She would do anything for him and she knows that he would do the same, except she's asked him not to, begged him not to with her eyes.
He understands completely (They've been together for so long now). He doesn't want to understand, but he does.
When he's free of the lifeless soldiers' hold, he runs to her, hold her. Please don't leave me yet. Not you, anyone but you. There a storm raging instead of him as he calls out the intimate Lieutenant to her, his hands fumbling on her as he tries to hold her. Don't you dare leave me. Don't you dare die. For a second he think he's too late. She's dead in his arms and he's so willing to perform human transmutation knowing that it will damage him, possibly kill him even. He's willing because he doesn't want to live without her. She's so, so dear to him.
note: I was totally going to continue with this, but then I decided not too. I tried to go ahead and continue, but it failed so hate him all you will for ending it like this!