Sorry! I feel guilty but Mom dragged me off to a family gathering (compulsory) and then school started and I have massive tests coming up most likely I will not update until next Monday or even after that! But I have not given up! Promise! Okay cue crazy fan girl scream*screams loudly and gets weird looks from parent* Richelle Mead is writing a story about how Rose and Dimitri goes and visits his family! *screams* I CAN"T WAIT! Also, I have no idea about what happens with Lissa, I'm stumped! Pls PM me with some ideas! D/c I own nothing.

RPOV

I'm good at being a hard faced bitch. It's what I do, most of the time. But right now I feel nervous, anxious, angry, longing and most of all love. I don't want Dimitri to go. I want us to be accepted, I want to go out and hold his hand freely. I also want to murder Adrian. But that's irrelevant. I hop out of bed and get dressed. I decide on being good. It's my best option really. So nothing against the dress code. This is hard as practically my whole wardrobe is against dress code. I eventually choose jeans and a shirt that isn't too showy. I make my way down to Kirova's office and lean against the wall. I don't mean to but I let a few tears out. I look up and pair of storm grey eyes are staring at me. An unfamiliar face, probably a new guardian. He is around 22 and reminds me of someone. "Are you-" he is cut off by Dimitri. He has emerged from Kirova's office. His face is blank and only the barest hint of despair is visible. "Rose, meet Guardian Johnson. He is new here, and will be taking your training sessions."

"I-what? What about our training sessions?" I ask. I have a horrible, black feeling in my stomach.

"Rose, I'm leaving the Academy. I'm going to guard a Moroi. His name is Ibrahim Mazur and he lives in Russia. Goodbye." The words are said stiffly. My heart shatters. He walks away and doesn't look back. I slide down on the floor and put my head in my hands. No. He can't do this. I want to run after him, to make him stay. But I don't. He doesn't love me, I know that now. I sob in earnest now, the tears running down my cheeks. He doesn't want me, doesn't care about me.

JPOV( Johnson's point of view)A.N I haven't thought of a name yet! Any suggestions?

I walk along the corridors. This place is huge, bigger than any school in Canada. I have a feeling I'll get lost easily. I finally make my way to the Headmistress' office and see a girl leaning against the wall. She's pretty, in an exotic kind of way with dark hair and dark eyes. She is also crying, just a little bit. She reminds me of somebody... Of course! In that massive file I was given, wider than me. This girl is Rosemarie Hathaway, my future student. Her old mentor is being drafted to Abe Mazur, requested by Abe himself. She doesn't look like a danger to humanity, maybe her file was wrong. Maybe this is the wrong girl

"Are you-" I get cut off by a man who ducks out of the office. He's Guardian Belikov, her old mentor. "Rose, meet Guardian Johnson. He is new here and will be taking your training sessions."So she is Rosemarie after all. I'll just call her Rose. It's easier. I try a smile at her but she doesn't notice. Oh, right! I'm supposed to have that impossible to read guardian face on. Oops. I stare at the wall ahead. Impassive, I think but impassive reminds me of passionfruit and that word always makes me smile. I tune into the conversation in time to hear Belikov say goodbye. Rose stares after him. Her face is disbelieving, as if she can't process what is happening. She then slide down the wall and starts to cry. Weird, I think. But she was crying before so maybe that's what she's sad about. Nevertheless, I can't leave a girl sobbing in the corridor so I lean down to talk to her. I am so not comfortable with this. I'm not a girl! What if she's crying about her relationship problems or something? I can't deal with that! A horrible thought hits me. What if she has PMS or something like that? Oh, God please! Anything but that!

" Are you sad?" I ask. Way to go Johnson. Of course she's sad. Why else would she be sobbing her brains out. She looks up with a glare.

"Are you retarded? What kind of question is that? And by the way, just because you're my teacher doesn't give you the right to pry into my private business!" She yells. Okay, maybe I deserved that one. I probably sounded like a paedophile. Are you sad little girl? Don't worry, I'll make you feel MUCH better. I shuddered. I realized I had zoned off and Rose was giving me a weird look. Right, time to get serious. I arrange my features into a guardian-like mask. " Rose, whatever it is, I expect you to be at the gym 6 in the morning." (A.N night, really) I say brusquely. She nods and shakily stands up. Pity floods through me. This is more than just the normal teenage stuff. I wonder what's happened to her. She passes me and stumbles. I catch her and she sobs even harder, terrible, racking sobs that tear at me. Something is wrong, desperately wrong. I get a proper glance at her face. It's twisted in agony and she murmurs something between sobs. It's shocking. And for the first time since Canada I feel really,truly afraid.

She pushes my arm off with surprising strength and turns to me.

" Maybe you have my file. But you have no clue what I can do, how I can hurt people. You'll find out though. Sooner rather than later." She hisses violently. I step back, surprised. She walks off, still unsteady. Okay, so maybe she is a danger to humanity. Or vampirity. Is that a word? I enter the office, Kirova is talking to a short, redheaded dhampir. I clear my throat.

" Um, Headmistress Kirova? I'm Guardian Johnson, Rose's new mentor." I say. The dhampir turns to me.

" You got a man? After all that!" she groans.

" Guardian Hathaway, he was the only available guardian. And he is extremely capable. 10 strigoi kills and 3 battle stars." The dhampir, Rose's mother I realize, stalks out of the room. I stiffen at the mention of my kills. They are not something I like to celebrate. Kirova starts talking to me and as the words leave her mouth I realize she's a grade A bitch. Fabulous. I listen to the lecture attentively, noting that Rose is shadow kissed, violent and prone to sarcastic comments and causes trouble. I sit up straighter at the shadow kissed bit. That means she'll have spirit's touch, which will make her emotions extremely volatile. That probably explains the tears outside. I interrupt Kirova mid-lecture.

" Headmistress, I saw Rose outside, she was crying, quite heavily. Is there anything I should be concerned about?" I ask. Her face takes on a thoughtful look. She is silent for a while and I wonder if she heard me until she says carefully

" Rose's personal life is somewhat complicated. I can't betray that privacy. However, if she chooses to confide in you than I have little objection. But Johnson? Don't get to close to her. She is volatile and her heart clouds her head." I nod, and taking it for dismissal I walk out of the room, wondering what on earth she meant by her last comment.

RPOV

Forget broken. My heart has just been fed to the shredding machine and then incinerated. After that weird conversation with Johnson I ran to Dimitri's room. I just needed something. Anything. Most of the room was bare. But on the bed was a book. A western novel. And- I couldn't believe this- his leather duster. How could he have left it? On the other hand, he probably took a whole suitcase full. I grabbed them both, and a necklace I saw lying on the table. My rose necklace, the lust charm. It would have faded by now. I knew I was being pathetic, but I couldn't let him go. I would never let him go. I ran out of his room and across the commons into my room. I saw an angry looking, and bruised, Adrian. But I couldn't take joy in that right now. I decided to skip classes, I just couldn't handle that right now.

I threw myself across my bed and sobbed into the leather duster. I had no words to sum up this feeling. I raised my head and saw a pair of scissors on my bedside table. An idea swam into my mind, one that Dimitri would oppose. But he wasn't here, was he? He left me. I reached for the scissors and crossed to the sink in the bathroom. I began to cut. Long lines of red, not enough to kill, or render unconscious, just enough to make myself numb. Because now I understood what Lissa did. I understood perfectly. And inside me somewhere, something locked itself away.

Whoa, I'm dark sometimes. Blame The Fray. I was listening to their album, How to save a Life when I wrote this. Okay, I may be able to update tomorrow but only if i get say... 10 reviews. How's that? Oh, and if you don't have an account it doesn't matter! I get,like, 250 hits and 7 reviews! I value feedback! Plz PM me with names for Johnson and surprises for Lissa. Actually, PM me with the Adrian situation too. I did have a plan but then I realized that wouldn't make any sense and it would be non-funny. Oh, don't worry, Dimka is coming back! Along with Abe... And for the record Rose IS NOT PREGNANT! The impossible should stay impossible. And plus, that would kill my fun! I'm torn, should Johnson fall in love with Rose or not? PLEASE R&R

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