Chapter 3
"Guys I wont you to meet my son John Jackson Teller" Gemma and op looked at me with a shocked look I looked in to Gemma's eyes and could see the understanding in them which shocked me more then anything I thought there would be anger in them rather then understanding. I felt tears spring to her eyes
"Tara" op said stepping closer to me I waved my hand in front of me and wiped my tears away
"Im fine' I knelt down and put my hands on the stone
"How old?" Gemma asked
"6 months. He was born on the 05/08/99. He had the family flaw they noticed it after he was born he spent 6 months there they did everything they could to help him but I was to late it almost killed me to see him die he was the only thing I had the connected me to Jax I was going to tell him that day he died I had walked outside and I had rang the house and you answered Gemma"
" I think i remember that I told you that you had caused enough trouble and to never ever call again you stupid slut" I nodded and laughed
"Yeah basically what you said just the nice version. After I hung up I went back to his room and seen the doctors crowded around him when they seen me come in there face went grim I new before they told me I felt my heart brake into even littler peaces it was already broken from Jax. After the funeral I put everything into my work a only stopped when I had to eat and sleep at least once every month I would come here and talk to him it was nice I was always happier when I left after talking about everything. That's when a few years later I meet Kohn" I cringed at his name Gemma seen and rubbed my arm "He was nice at first then he started to go on about how its good that John died cause I would of made a bad mother or how its good that he was dead cause if he wasn't he properly would of killed him already or he would have been stupid because I was stupid that hurt that's when you started to beat me I went to as much lengths as I could to get a restraing order against him but because he was a cope no one believed me finally one cope to me seriously saying that her husband was like that she did it for me but he take it as a challenge after that I started to ignore him suddenly become busy wouldn't return his calls hoping he would get the hint but he didn't he started to send me flowers and chocolates then 1 day I got home from working all day and he was waiting for me as soon as I seen him a ran and ran and came straight here I wasn't here long before he founded me he beat and rapped me" I seen opies fists clench I could see the anger in his face "Op"
"Opie baby calm down she's all right now" Gemma said "Calm down"
"I know" he turned to me and hugged me after a minute he let go but kept one arm wrapped around me as if to protect me
"That's when I moved back to charming after talking to Dana one day she told me I had to get back there our else she was going to drag me back by my hair" we all laughed
"That sounds like my girl" Just as Opie said that it stared to rain we quickly rain back to the cars Opie jumped on his bike and I led him back to the house I had brought while living out there I had kept it because it was only a five minute drive fore the cemetery we got inside and got the kids settled in to the beds up stairs I went back down stairs and seen Opie and Gemma sitting at the table talking I walked in and lend against the door frame
"Watches talking about?" Opie stood up and kissed my head
"Im going to go put my bike in the garage and take Gemma's car to the store to get some food to stock the fridge you I have my cell if you need to talk our you wont me to grab something"
"Thanks Opie I promise we wont stay to long we can go home tomorrow I know you wont to get back to Lyla and the kids"
"Its fine im with my sister that needs me right now its her sons birthday in a few days if you wont to stay here then ill stay with you we can send the kids back with Gem the door before we leave and good see John and talk to him for a little while and then we can head back"
"Thank you it sounds perfect I would love to do that" I lent up and kissed his cheek "Hey can you get me some chocolate ripple ice cream please"
"Sure anything else?" he turned to Gemma
"No im okay baby just get enough food to last as a few days' he nodded and left I looked back and Gemma and she tapped the chair next to her I went and sat down and she put her hand on my knee and lend closer to me
"Does Jax know?"
"No I wanted to tell him so many times but it never was the right time I rang so many times over they years I would ring and when he would answer I would hear his voice and I would chicken out im sure if you checked my phone records it would properly say that I rang him at least 100 times it mostly went to voice mail when I rang or Wendy would answer the phone I think once or twice you or Clay would answer and I new I couldn't talk to you guys you wanted to kill me so id just hang up"
"That was you we thought it was some one from the Mayans checking to see if they where home to do a drive by every time that call would come thought we would leave so quickly im sure we brake speed records" we both laughed
"Sorry if I had known I would of stopped"
"Its okay honey it actually ended up being a good thing sometime but I won't tell you that" I nodded
"Can we keep this between us for now im going to tell Jax just not right now I gave him something today that could really hurt him and I don't wont to tell him something that could hurt him more" She looked at me confused
"Your secrets safe with me. What are you talking about though honey you gave him something that could hurt him?"
"Just letters from his dad that he sent to Maureen Ashby stuff about Thomas and him how he hopes Jax doesn't turn out to be anything like him there's letters there where he talks about how he new you and Clay where together how it was like you weren't trying to hide it but he didn't care cause you where happier then you had been in a long time"
"How many letters" Her voice sounding like she was in shock
"There where at least 15 all together but I didn't give him a few because he says in a few about how if the letters stop that it means that his death comes by his best friend and his wife"
"Where are they?"
"In the back yard at Jax place in a hole in the ground along with a lot of other stuff that I wanted to beery "
"Good I wont you to keep it that way don't EVER let Jax see those letters because if he does he will think that Clay killed John but he didn't he will kill him and then it will kill me and then it will kill him to see me that way I know that will be hard for you to keep from him but its part of being an old lady" I nodded I new what she meant as hard as it would be I understood what she was saying she was protecting her son I new that keeping this from Jax meant protecting my family my future with Jax
"Okay Gem-" Before I could finish what I was saying I hurd Abel's crying I quickly ran up stairs and seen him in the floor I quickly walked over and picked him "What's wrong baby mummies here its all right tell me what's wrong"
"Geam ba Geam"
"Aww its all right baby mummies here I wont let anything happen to you" He wrapped his arms around my neck and pulled him self closer I went down stairs and sat on the couch not to long later Gemma came in
"What happened?"
"Just a bad dream he's been having them a lot lately so have I actually but it's more of and on"
"What are they about"
"Half sack and watching him die"
"Sweat heart-"
"I know." I paused "I felt so helpless Gemma. Kip was gone before he fell to the ground and Cameron had already threatened to kill Abel and me. I was trying to come up with anything I could do but even when I took the chance to get Kips gun he saw that and pulled his gun on me. What was I supposed to do Gemma, even if I had fought him and died trying to save Abel who would that have helped? Abel would have still been gone only you guys wouldn't have known who took him. Then Jax blamed me he pushed me I was hurting to-" I stopped with tears in my eyes pleading with Gemma to understand. She pulled me into a hug and kissed her forehead.
"Tara calm down. We know there was nothing you could of done we understand that you and I both know that if you had of died that would of killed my boy as much as I hated it you owned his heart he would kill any one that hurt you he loves you he didn't blame you he blamed him self and he pushed you away so that you could live a life without him and not always having to look over your shoulder"
"I know thank you" she nodded and stayed next to her un till Op came thought the door we made diner and sat down and ate it. After we cleaned up I felt tired and decided to go to sleep early because she new she would be up early with the kids. She set up the spear rooms for Gemma and op and got in bed she put one of Jax shirts on the only one the still smelt like him she went to sleep thinking about him
Cameron slid the knife into half sacks stomach and there was nothing i could do about it or to save him.
I sank to the ground next to his body and watched as Cameron went to Abel. What am I going to do; if i made him mad he could kill Abel or me and my unborn child
. He started crying and had put the weapons down while holding Abel so i knew if i had any chance on getting out of this i had to get to half sacks weapon.
I made a small move toward it but Cameron saw it and picked up his gun again.
"Don't be brave, get up and go to the wee ones room" What could i do; i knew if i died my unborn child did as well and no one would know who did this, so i cooperated.
I was tied up and watched as Abel was taken from my life.
I woke up instantly sweating like a pig I looked at the time and seen that it was 5 I went over and checked on Abel and Eli when I seen someone sitting in the chair next to the bed I looked closer and seen that it was Opie
"OH Op sweetie what are you doing awake you scared me"
"Oh sorry I hurd Eli getting fussy and got up to check on her let you sleep. What are you doing up?"
"Ahhh just had a dream I thought I should check on my babies"
"Oh okay…" he trailed of "Tara can I ask you something?"
"Sure" I went down and sat on the floor next to him "What's up?"
"Why didn't you call me or Donna when John died? We would have been her in a flash"
"I know your going to laugh cause it makes us sound like such kids. Okay I just didn't wont you guys to feel like you where taking sides mine or Jax's side because if I had of told you I would of told you not to tell him and you would of come and he would of thought you where picking me instead of him" he laughed "Told you, you would laugh"
"Oh I cant help it god we did sound like kids but you weren't a kid then you where 19 you looked 19 but your head was like you 24 you, You had to grow up fast when your mum died and your dad became the drunk you had a job and 13 at TM you where buying the groceries instead of you father taking care of you it was the other way around you grow up so quick and then you had to grow up quicker when John came along you have been through so much"
"I know Op it sucked but it made me the person I am today if I didn't go through all that I could be so crank ho like Wendy"
"Speaking of Wendy Gemma told me about the other day I cant believe you smashed them both on your own I must say that is awesome it must have been the secret lessons we had" We both laughed
"Oh yeah it was those I remember we use to stick pictures of peoples faces on a punching bag and just go at it for hours and one day I seen a picture of Jax and some blond ho sitting on his lap and o blow it up and cut there faces of and stuck them on different punching bags I had finished smashing her one when I started on his I was half way through his when you guys walked in as soon as you seen who the picture was you looked over at me and seen the anger in my eyes like I was going to hit him and quickly ran over to me and pushed me into the bathroom and locked me in there I was in there for hours you had forgotten about me you ran so fast that day I thought your legs where going to drop of" We both laughed
"Yeah I remember that it felt like they where going to fall of I think it was about a week later you finally go revenge on me" I laughed
"Oh yeah im sure that was my best EVER" he started to glare at me "Oh don't look at me like that you do have to admit it was good"
"Okay it was but I thought I was like dieing you put laxative in my food" I laughed "But then I went to the doctors and he told me what had been happening so I got pay backs" I stopped laughing
"Oh yes I hadn't seen you eat the food I made you and you told me that Jax was hungry so you gave it to him I think I started to cry and you felt so bad you told me you where joking feeling all bad and I punched you so hard I broke your nose I felt so bad for weeks after that"
"Yeah I remember you where like my slave for the first week" We spent the rest of the morning reminiscing about old times when we where interrupted by my cell I looked at the caller id and it said unknown I got up and walked out of the bedroom so I wouldn't wake the kids Opi followed me
"Hello"
"Tara?"
"Yeah"
"Its Rosen"
"Hi is there something wrong are Jax and that okay" I quickly started to panic
"There fine this is about you I just got a call from Wendy's lawyer … Wendy's going for full custody over Abel" WHAT I dropped the phone and fell to the ground crying NO
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