Chapter 6

"You hear that Tara there here" the EMT'S jumped out and ran over to us I stepped back out of the way after a few minutes of looking at her they spoke

"I don't feel a pals," The guys yelled

"No. NO .NO .NO NOOOOOOOOO" Lyla yelled She fell to the ground and I went with her

"You have to do something she cant die do you hear me she cant die" I yelled at them

"Sir its to late' I pulled my gun out of my cut and pointed it at them "do you have any idea who this girl is?" they both looked down at her and shook there heads "She's Doctor Tara Knowles as well as. Do you know sons of anarchy?" the nodded "Well she's the VP Jax teller's old lady so unless you wont to die in a few months when he gets out of jail because you didn't save the mother of his children and his love I suggest you try your fucking hardest to saver her"

"Ye- ye- yes sir" I lowed my gun" they got straight to work they shocked her 3 times before they hurd her heart beat start I let out a sigh of relief "okay lets go get her to the hospital' I nodded

"Lyla grab the kids get them in the car take them to Gemma's ill send some boys over to watch you guys I don't feel right at the moment tell Gemma to meet me at the hospital im going to follow them make sure they do there job make sure if any of the boys ring make sure they keep there mouth shut they don't say anything to Jax until I give the all clear" she nodded and went back inside

"We have a white female late 20s it by a car out side her home was dead for a few minutes until we brought her back has multiple fractured ribs the car hit her so hard that one rib pierced her lung causing it to collapse. Broken leg she has a gash on her head we have been able to slow the bleeding down a little but its still strong she may be bleeding internal as well we didn't have enough time to asses her we need to get her as quick as we could she's Doctor Tara Knawels and Jax Tellers old lady" he said shking his head towards me. The doctor turned and looked at the EMT then turned and looked at me I crossed my arms and showed of my gun a little he nodded

"Okay lets get her straight to surgery she may have a massive hematoma from hitting the windshield which could be causing a lot of the blood we need to drain some of it take the presser of her brain we will have to insert a tube under her armpit to go straight to her lung." He said more to me then the nurses I nodded and he left

********Next day Jax point of view ********

I saw Opie walk in

"Hey man how the old lady and your kids?"

"There good tired had a big night last night" I could see there was something of but I ignored it he would tell me if he needed to I looked behind him to see Tara but she wasn't there I looked at Op confused I opened my mouth to say something but he interrupted me "Oh yeah bro we got someone we would like you to meet. This person is yae high" He put his hand just above his knee "Has locks like your looks like you sleeps like you so im gonna say he is mini you BOYS MEET… ABEL TELLER" he yelled I looked up and seen my boy come running into the room I looked up at the guard asking if it was okay if I pick him up he nodded I grabbed him and pulled him close to my chest

"Hey son" I kissed every inch of him I could reach while holding him tight to my chest I looked over at op "When?"

"About 3 days ago Tara wanted to keep it a secret to surprise you she new you would love it"

"How?"

"Seen her buying crank Tara and Gemma followed her and with what Tara said the social service lady wouldn't go in unless Wendy opened the door and Tara got pissed and went all whoop as on the door and kicked it down as she was leaving Wendy went to smack her and bro your gonna be shocked when you hear this but your mum came running in and told her to leave her DAUGHTER and her grandson go" I looked at Opie shocked

"Gemma my mother called Tara her daughter?"

"Yep I fell of my chair when Tara told me but don't tell Gemma I told you, you know what she's like" I laughed

"Where is Tara any way?"

"Ahh ill be back in a second" I tuned around and left and few minutes later Ma walked in with Eli she still looked so small I grabbed her out of her arms

"Hello baby girl. God you get more gorges every time I see you just like your mamma where is she ha baby girl"

"Mamma in hospital she VERY sick nana said" Abel said I looked down at him in shock then looked up at Opie and Gemma they both had the look like 'Crap snapped'

"What's wrong with her?" Opie came to grab Eli but I wouldn't let her go he nodded and stepped back "What's. Wrong. With. Her?" I said angry

"Jax honey calm down remember you still have Eli in your arms" I looked down at her I could see she was scared I automatically relaxed

"Then hurry up and tell me why my old lady is in the hospital and not sitting here with me and our kids?"

"She went out for a run last night and as she was crossing the street across from your place she was buy a car she died for a minute there but thanks to Opie pointing a gun at the EMTS head the kept trying she has a few broken ribs which punctured he lung and collapsed they had to insert a test tube under her armpit until she is able to breath on her own she has a broken leg and a bleed in her brain they have out her in a medical induced coma so that she can relax and heal they say the coma can last from weeks to months at a time it also accounts for how much trauma she has been through so she might wake up tomorrow but go to sleep and go straight back into the comma" I cant believe it I wasn't there to protect her keep her safe from idiots out there this is all my fault my face must of shown how I was feeling cause mum came over and hugged me

I Thought about Tara and what my life would be like without her. She had become an essential part of my life since she came back; she had saved Abel's life and my own. If she had not been around to take care of Abel I wasn't sure I would have handled prison very well. Now faced with the possibility of not having her around brought his Kids to the front of his mind. What would they do without their mom? What would I do with out her I can't live without her I know what that feels like and that killed me I can't go through that again I pushed her away last time to keep her safe and now look she's in hospital dying

********Gemma's point of view********

It was so hard to see my son who is strong, protective and always knew what to do, look so broken I had to slap it out of him I grabbed Eli out of his arms and gave her to the boys I grabbed Jax and lifted him up

"You listen to me and you listen to me carefully she will be fine she a tough woman she hasn't gone through all the shit that she has been through the last few months to die now the doctors say she is doing grate for what's wrong with her so you stay strong for her she needs you to be strong you are her other half she knows when there is something wrong with you I know you can feel when something's wrong with her do you remember that time when you where 12 and you fell out of that tree getting the ball and you where hurt badly" I nodded" Well when I went to go get her because I knew she would be upset when I tell her you're in hospital and I didn't get her so when I picked her up he was crying so hard like how she did when her mum died and I asked her what was wrong and she told me her heart hurt her body hurt she felt so much pain but she didn't know what it was from and then I told her about you and she asked when it happened and when I did she told me that was when she started to feel the pain I know you feel pain and your hurting but you have to stay strong for her and your kids" I looked over at Abel and Eli with the boys and his gaze went with mine and he nodded

"Okay but keep me updated I went to know everything that happens if she moves a finger you tell me I don't care if you tell me that she had to go back into surgery you keep me updated take care ma I can't lose her please ma"

"I will honey I promise I have to go and get back to her I will call you when I get there or ill call Op if he's still here and tell you what's going on" he nodded "Oh I found this in your room with some of Tara's stuff im guessing she wanted to give it to you I didn't read it so I don't know what it's about" He looked at me shocked I smacked him upside the head "Shut up Tara's my daughter and im not going to read something that she's wrote just incase its dirty and I defiantly don't wont to read about my son and daughters sex life even though there aint a lot of it right now" I laughed

"Thanks ma " (Okay so right around this point I have MAJOR writers block I don't know what to write I wont you guys to like it I have all these ideas in my head but they would have been better if it was back when Jax first started out in prison lets hope I can come up with something. 2 and a half hours later just watched season 3 second to last episode when Jax gets Tara's back and I read what people thought was going through there heads and it really helped me so I hope this works)

"okay I better get oing honey ill talk to you soon Opie's gonna take the kids back to my place later when the times up im sorry that you cant be there but she will come through do you wont me to tell her anything?"

"Just tell her I love her and not go anywhere cause her family needs her" he looked around and all the boys nodded and so did I

I blow kisses to every one and left

********Jax point of view********

*The letter*

When I first open the letter I seen writing straight away

Hey baby this letter is what I haven't had time to talk to you about actually its more like a little diary

Dear Jax it's a week after Eli was born and we are staying at the club house for a few days some important thing going on and the boys want to keep us safe I guess you have a little something to do with that we are staying in Opie's room I wont walk into you room I don't even like walking past it every time id do I see that stupid slut in my head with that bitch smirk on that whore's face I know I said I forgave you for that but I feel like I didn't not at heart I told you that cheating was something that was a deal breaker for me and I know why you did it you say it was to keep me safe from what happened to Donna and half sack but it still hurt Jax it will always hurt but I know that I can trust you and I hope it stays that way

So its been a few months and we just had the court hearing Wendy the whore got custody but I will do everything in my power to get him back which I hope is soon I miss you I wish you where here to keep me sane it been about 3 hours since they take Abel and I haven't even stopped crying Eli does these little thing to make me laugh but it just reminds me of what Abel did but im okay I have my family here helping me get through it I guess you where wrong about that to SAMCOR is my family and always will be

Then out of know where the writing stops then I remembered that she was always doing things to get Abel back and having to take care of Eli and the club even with mm of house arrest she was still crazed with everything

******** Gemma's point of view********

Days went by and there was still no change in Tara. They had hooked her up to life support, which included a feeding tube and ventilator. Every few hours, a paleontologist would come in and run a small plastic tube through the ventilator, which would make Tara cough. They said that was a good sign, but it only made me feel sick. It sounded like she was coughing up her injured lung and I hated seeing her in pain I knew it would be WAY worse if Jax's was here

"We have some concern that Tara isn't responding to our reflex tests. We'd like to do an MRI to see if her brain is still active."

"And if it's not?" I whispered.

The doctor paused as a brief flash of sorrow crossed her face. "I'm sorry to have to be the one to tell you this, but if the tests come back that Tara's brain is no longer functioning, you may want to consider taking her off life support. If it comes to that, we can discuss organ donation as an option."

The doctor walked out and a few minutes later a couple of orderlies came in and took Tara out of the room so they could do the MRI. Feeling restless, I told everyone I was going down to the cafeteria. I hadn't really eaten anything recently. I also wasn't sleeping very well. I slept at the hospital every night in Tara's room. I only ever left the hospital to take showers and check on the kids Abel kept asking for mummy and he cried every time I told him she was sick after and hour I rang Jax and told him what the doctor said before I could finish saying that there could be a chance the phone hang up I new he was hurting so I went to the one place Tara and I would go to together after her mum died her grave

Rosie Maria Knowles

I am so sorry that this one doesn't seem that good im trying to get everything together in my head I have writers block I have 2 other stories that im writing and a book that im trying to get published and now my teacher need's me to write a story to go into the New Zealand herald its so hard and im only 17 and im also doing my photography im thinking about taking a picture and posting it on my page to give you an idea of what Jax and Tara's daughter would look like let me know if you would like me to that and I can see what I can do. Okay that's my little rant I hope you review PLEASE I beg you down on my hands and knees beg I love hearing what you guys have to say I hope you do tell me the good the bad the ugly im all eyes