ENJOY
Chapter 13
"Where is the answer?" Chris asked
"Bottom left it says pregnancy results" they quickly looked there after a second Jax dropped the paper and Chris stepped away from him
"OH I WIN" I yelled
"Wait don't jump a head of your self just yet Jax is just glaring at him he's not doing anything just yet"
"Oh yeah a bet I can count how many seconds before he hits him"
"Okay do it then"
"I will. 1.2…3 (BAM)" Jax jumped and punched him in the gut "Ewww that looked like that hurt" Jax jumped ready to hit him again but I quickly jumped up and stood in front of him "Jax baby calm down I know you wont to hit him but that's not a good Idea you do know your mum will kill you when she finds out your sister just got the crap beaten out of her and your beating up her fiancée"
"God sometime I hate it when you're right"
"Yeah but you love me"
"Yeah you know I do" I smiled and gave him a quick chastity kiss
I turned around to Chris a bent down to where he was on the floor
"Are you okay?"
"What the fuck do you think?" he said angry
"What is you problem with me I haven't done anything to you im just trying to help you"
"Help me HELP ME," He yelled, "What a fat load shit that is don't you think?"
"Okay seriously you need to get an attitude check. What the hell has got you so mad at me"
"ME" He started to laugh "You wont to know why im so angry towards you" I nodded "It's because you're the reason someone I love and cared about died" I stood up and stumbled back shocked
"What me? Who?"
"Yeah you 5 years ago at the hospital in Chicago" Chicago 5 years ago I tried to rack my brain to think who but I lost a few people 5 years ago in Chicago
"Im sorry but I don't know who your talking about"
"A beautiful girl she was 17 years old she had been shoot because she was trying to help me you just sat there and let her die on that table you did nothing to help her" I gasped and stepped back and sat down
"Kay lee Marks she came into the ER with multiple gun shot wounds to the chest and 1 to the face"
"They shot her multiple times one knocked her down but she got back up and they shot her a few more times to make sure she never got up" he started to cry
"She had long brown hair with blond streaks she had a birth mark on her colure bone shaped like a love heart she had cute little freckles on her face"
"You remember her?" he asked shocked
"Yes it was 6:54 and I was just finishing with my shift when I hurd that she was coming in so I stayed to help. When they brought her in we take her straight to the ER I was helping them out there where 3 of us we worked on her for hours fixing everything. When surgery was over and we brought her to her room. I was so tired I hadn't slept in 2 days I was meant to go home hours ago but I stayed"
"Why did you stay?" Trinity asked
"Because when I looked at her I seen myself I seen what could have happened to me if I had stayed in Charming"
"What happened?" Jax asked sounding sensitive. I turned and grabbed his hand and pulled him towards me and held his hand tight drawing strength from him to help me finish
"I checked on her after we filled the family in and went to the lounge to sleep before my shift started again. I don't know how long I was asleep for before someone started to shake me awake telling me that I needed to hurry that Miss Mark's was going into cardiac arrest. The other doctors where in surgery so they where told to come get me. As I ran into her room I seen a person which must have been you standing over her telling her that she wasn't to leave that he needed her. I moved you away you looked up and looked deep into my eyes like you where looking right in to my soul and you said 'Please help her she's all I have left I cant lose her'. I felt the tears spring at the moment you said that. I nodded and you went and sat in the corner of the room. I don't know how long I was there for but I was doing everything I could think of to help her when I realized that she had blood in her lungs"
"HOW DID YOU NOT SEE OR NOTCIE THAT" Chris yelled at me. Jax went to step forward but I pulled him back and stood against him looking closely at Chris
"I thought it was because 1 of the bullets had been shot into her jaw so I thought it was blood from that. Until I realized that there was too much blood for just that I quickly rushed her to the ER but by the time I had everything set up it was to late she was gone. After we pronounced the time of death"
"3:15" we both whispered
"I fell to the ground and cried and cried. I was in so much pain it was like the pain I went through when I lost John"
"John. Our dad?" Trinity asked
"No our son John"
"Oh im sorry I didn't me-"
"Its okay no one knew Jax only found out a few months ago we where kids then" she nodded "Any way after I had finally calmed down enough I walked back to the room where you were waiting you where still in the corner. I didn't have to say anything to you, you looked up at me and said 'I know' I wanted to ask how you knew but I couldn't see that look you where giving me any more. How did you know?"
"She was my sister I always new when something was wrong with her I brought her up" his voice started to sound happy and not angry he sounded like he was at peace with some things "I hated you I still hate you but I don't blame you there was nothing you could do I realize that now"
"Is that why you where so mad at me when you found out what happened with Trinity?"
"Yes I blamed you I felt like it was your fault but I know its not I just wanted someone to blame you where there when the one thing that was important to me was taken away and you where there when the love of my life was beaten I was in there to protect her"
"You couldn't have protected me even if you're the one 1 went with tonight then you would have been the one that put a gun to that creeps head there was nothing you could have done tonight" Trinity said. Chris put his head in his hands I let go of Jax and grabbed Chris and hugged him
"Im so sorry that I couldn't do anything to save your sister I tried I did everything I could she loved you she told me that before she died you raised her to be a good person you should be proud of your self for that and I know that your going to make an awesome dad" his head snapped up and looked at me
"Im going to be a dad" he kissed my cheek and ran over to Trinity "Where having a baby" you could hear the smile in his voice he's so happy.
I turned back to Jax and seen him standing there watching them
"Hey guys you can go home when ever you wont you have the all clear," I said
"Thank you Tara" Trinity said
"Yeah thank you so much" I smiled and nodded
"Jax baby come on lets go and leave them to have some privacy and I miss our kids," he laughed
"Sure babe" I grabbed my bag and went out side when I realized that I had to ride on the back on Jax's bike
"You suck right now teller this is the one time I wish you were normal and had a car so I wouldn't have to ride on that bike in this dress" he laughed
"I am normal babe" I put all my weight on 1 foot and pout my hands on my hips and raised one of my eyebrows "Okay im not normal but this is as normal as your going to get"
"I know don't worry about that I love you just the way you are" he smiled He tried to kiss me gently; I could tell that he tried. But the moment his lips pressed against mine, something between us just exploded, and we both forgot how to think. My hands seized his face. His arms wrapped themselves around my waist and crushed me against his body I quickly stepped back "Jax baby we don't wont to do what your thinking I am not having some one I work with walk out and see us doing it on your bike" he laughed and scrunched up his nose
"Fine let's get home then" I pulled the dress up and stepped up on a foot peg before swinging my other leg over. As soon as i was on she scooted as close to Jax as possible so no one would see up my dress. Thanks to the little slit it was easy to get on the bike but now it showed off a ton of leg, going all most of the way to my upper thigh, oh well
******Next day****** Jax point of view******
(BANG, BANG) I rolled over groaning and looked at the clock 6:43
"Jax baby can you get that please"
"Why can't you get it?"
(BANG, BANG)
"Because I was up at 2 feeding Eli so now it's your turn" I groaned and got up I started to walk to wards the door
(BANG, BANG)
"Im coming im coming" I went to the door and unlocked it the door swung open and there was Opie "Fuck man what are you doing here?"
"Where is she" he said angry I looked at him confused "Where is she?"
"Who?"
"Tara where the fuck is Tara?"
"Tara's asleep. Keep it down the kids are asleep as well"
"I don't care get her NOW" he went to step around me to go up the hall t Tara but I put my hand on his shoulder and pushed him against the wall"
"Calm the fuck down you wont to talk to Tara you calm down" he take a deep breath in
"Im clam now get Tara" I shock my head a told him to sit down I walked up the hall way and seen Tara putting cloths on
"I hurd im coming can you check on the kids while go" I nodded and kissed her head I walked into the kids room and seen Eli laying against Abel I wonder how she got there i smiled and closed the door quietly I hurd Tara and Opie talking
"How could you, Tara? I thought you were my friend; you helped her kill my child my unborn child" WHAT I was shocked Tara did what now? "Why didn't you tell me I could have talked to her?"
"Opi, she was scared and she asked for my help. I never said a word because it wasn't my place and because it would break doctor patient confidentiality. She came to at the shop and asked for my help as a doctor I referred her to someone who could do it for her I went with her that night and talked to her about it. It was her choice, she had thought about it a lot she even said that she would love to have your kids sometime in the future but she felt that you weren't ready for a kid she thought it was bad timing. All you guys were screwed up in your own ways about Abel and she didn't won't people to hate her for it. I wish she had talked to you about it before anything happened. I know you wont to blame someone and I get that but you cant blame me Op you need to go home and talk to your WIFE the women you married yesterday that you promised to love through sickness and health through richer or for poorer till death do you part"
"I know im sorry Tara I d-"
"Its okay Op I get where your coming from I do I really do"
"Thank you" I hurd silent's for a minute then the door close
I wonder if Tara had ever thought about an abortion
"Tara?" she spun around and looked at me and smiled "Did you think about an abortion?"
"Yes I did I made a appointment"
"You were going to have an abortion without even thinking about me? What I wont maybe?"
"Yes, I considered it but I couldn't I wrote a list I can show you that list if you wont I left it in the same place I hid it the day I wrote it" She turned around and walked into the living room I followed her she went over to the mantel pulled out a picture of Abel and I and opened the back and pulled out a paper and passed it to me
All of the reasons I shouldn't keep the baby
*Jax didn't want me.
*He blamed me for what happened to Abel.
*He would be in jail when the baby was born.
*He wanted me out of his house.
*I am a doctor who worked crazy hours and I can't raise a baby alone.
All the reasons I should
*I love Jax. And have always wanted another child with him
*When Abel was back and things calmed down, he would stop pushing me away.
*We love each other and were adults.
*We had a nanny; I could raise two kids despite my schedule.
*Jax makes beautiful babies and I would go through pain for the rest of my life to make a bunch of little Jax's
"Ive always wanted kids with you Jax I love our kids their the most amazing thing that's ever happened to me with you in there of course. I regret it every day thinking about what I almost did to our daughter and it kills me Jax I hate it but we have our daughter I knew it would be dangers but I chose to stay and be a part of your life; so I decided to keep it, no matter how you felt. I didn't care if I ended up raising her on my own it didn't matter I was willing to do it a long time ago and I knew that I was willing to do it again" she started to cry
"Im so sorry Tara" I wiped away her tears "I love you"
"I love you to"
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I don't know what you girls might think of that 1 I hope you like it please tell me what you think I know there is a lot of people following but I haven't hurd from you guys so PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE tell me what you think it will mean a lot
I hope that explains a few things to some people who asked why Chris was mad at Tara. Ill explain a little more about this later as well