Title: Sometimes it's about more than the obvious. SLASH Gibbs/Tony
Chapter 4
Summary: Gibbs disappears after Mike's funeral and no one can find him. That is until Tony receives a strange letter that explains there may be more than one reason Gibbs disappeared.
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It had been hours since the heated exchange had taken place. Tony was still sitting on the floor, his knees pulled up, head against the wall, arms resting on his knees. He had run the gamut of emotions in the hours he had been sitting here. The self loathing came first. Being forced to face his own issues and fuck ups that he tried to bury deep inside can do that to you. Then came the anger, as he wanted to go out and beat the hell out of Gibbs physically, to repay him for the emotional beating he had just taken. After that was forgiveness. He knew how hard all this was for Gibbs, knew everything said was to push him away, get him to leave or just to build hate. Now he was in the worry and concern stage. Worried that he hadn't heard even a small noise from on deck, no movement, no indication that Gibbs was even still on the boat. But where would he have gone? If he had jumped overboard, Tony would have heard the splash. No, Gibbs was up there, probably sitting there staring out at the water hoping it would calm him. That or he had fallen asleep, one of the safest ways to avoid the emotions plaguing him. Tony knew Gibbs wasn't thinking about an apology, but hopefully he wasn't preparing for another round.
Glancing out the porthole, Tony realized it was long past dusk and was quickly getting darker and the temperature had dropped considerably. The nights got cold out here and letting Gibbs sleep out in the cold night air was not a good idea. As much as part of him hated the thought, he knew he needed to go check on Gibbs.
The concern finally motivated Tony to move. Pushing himself up the wall his legs wobbled slightly as he took the first few steps. His face scrunched up in pain. His legs had fallen asleep and he felt the pins and needles with every step. Cautiously, he made his way onto the deck of the boat, his eyes taking a moment to adjust to the dimness of the night around him. Stopping at the top of the steps, he saw the other man across from him. Gibbs was sitting against the side of the boat, in the same position Tony had been sitting in for hours, except Gibbs' head was in his hands.
Calming his growing nerves Tony spoke.
"You should come inside." Tony whispered, as if any loud noise would startle the animal within the man. "It's getting cold."
Raising his head, Gibbs looked over at Tony.
Tony felt his body shiver, telling himself it was from the cold night air, but knowing it was because of the look on Gibbs' face. A look that was a bizarre mix of remorse and rage. It wasn't over, Tony knew that now, there was more to come.
"Please." Tony's voice was still calm and quiet. "Come inside."
Gibbs nodded
"I can make some coffee...to warm you up." Tony forced a half smile.
Another nod.
"It's gonna be okay." Tony's voice was barely audible.
Again a nod.
"I'll start the coffee." Ducking back inside, Tony's hands shook as he scooped grounds into the filter, then grabbed the pot and filled it with water. Putting the pot back on the burner, he hit brew and turned around. He stared at the blankets from the bed in a pile on the floor. Needing something to do beside standing and waiting for the coffee to brew. Tony picked them up and tossed them on the bed. That's when he felt it. The arm snaked around his waist and jerked him back.
"You have about one minute before I lose all control." Gibbs whispered against Tony's ear . "One minute until I throw you on that bed and fuck you."
Tony's body shuddered and a low moan dripped from his lips.
"I need you." Gibbs growled as his hand clawed down and squeezed Tony's cock. "But I won't force you...no matter how much I want you."
Tony didn't move, didn't speak.
"Tell me to stop." Both of Gibbs' hands were now at Tony's waist, tearing at the button and zipper on his shorts. "Right now! Tell me to stop and I will."
This time the reply was a moan and a small push back.
"You need to tell me." Gibbs panted. "Because once I have you on that bed, I won't be able to control it and I won't be able to stop...even if you beg me to."
"Why would I beg you to stop?" Tony sighed, rubbing his ass over Gibbs' already hard cock.
"Because this is going to be raw and angry." Gibbs grunted. "Nothing loving or caring about it."
Tony whimpered. "I don't care."
Gibbs jerked the shorts down Tony's body, then shoved him forward.
Tony fell with a thud onto the bed, the air rushing from his lungs as his chest hit the mattress. Before he could catch his breath, he felt the presence of Gibbs' above him, felt the strong hands force his legs apart then the weight of Gibbs naked body on top of his.
"Gibbs." Tony sighed breathlessly.
Unceremoniously, Gibbs licked his finger then shoved it deep inside Tony's ass.
Tony's body shuddered at the surprise intrusion.
"Nice and tight." Gibbs growled, working his finger in and out a few times before adding another.
An uncontrollable grunt ripped from Tony's lips as Gibbs scissored his fingers inside his ass. Thrusting back, he fucked himself on the digits.
"That's it, fuck my fingers." Gibbs snarled, his cock aching to take the place of his fingers. "Get your tight ass ready for my cock."
Tony tossed his head back as he worked over Gibbs' fingers, his own cock now hard and pressing painfully hard against the mattress.
"That's enough!" Gibbs snapped, yanking his fingers out of Tony.
Tony cried out at the loss of sensation.
"Don't worry." Gibbs growled at Tony's ear again. "You're about to get something bigger and better."
The desire came out in a whimper as Tony closed his eyes and waited.
Rubbing his thumb over the head of his cock, Gibbs spread the pre-cum over the entire head using it as some form of lubrication.
Tony felt the pressure against his sphincter and clutched at the bed sheet. He shivered as the head of Gibbs' cock pushed inside. A deep moan dripped from his lips as he welcomed the new intrusion.
"Like that?" Gibbs whispered.
"Yes."
"Then you'll love this." Gibbs plunged the length of his cock all the way inside Tony.
Tony bit his lip to stifle the scream as his body trembled with a mixture of pleasure and pain.
"So fucking tight." Gibbs groaned as he drew his cock back then slammed in again. His eyes fluttered closed as he reveled in the tight warmth of Tony's ass. "God so good."
Wanting more, Tony rocked back and forth on Gibbs' cock.
"That's it." Gibbs sighed pulling Tony up by his hips. Tony went to his hands and knees willingly.
Gibbs growled lunging into Tony a few times then wrapping an arm around Tony's waist and jerking his torso up.
Tony's back made contact with Gibbs' chest, his knees forced further apart by the new position, Gibbs cock buried to the balls in his ass.
"Feel that." Gibbs moaned. "My cock just filling you up."
Tony whimpered and nodded.
"Rock your hips." Gibbs ordered.
Slowly Tony rocked in Gibbs lap, the movement massaging Gibbs' balls.
"Fuck yes." Gibbs clawed at Tony's hips dragging the younger man faster and harder over his lap and cock. "I could come just like this."
Tony didn't respond, knew no response was wanted or needed.
"But that would be a waste." Gibbs raised Tony up slightly then jerked him back down hard.
"OH GOD!" Tony cried out as Gibbs repeated the action over and over again.
Gibbs left Tony sitting there on his cock as his hands scratched their way up Tony's chest, stopping at Tony's nipples to pinch and squeeze the hard nubs. His lips brushed across Tony's shoulder kissing and nipping at the tender flesh. Then he sank his teeth into the space between Tony's shoulder and neck marking the flesh.
Letting out some guttural cry, Tony reached back clutching at the back of Gibbs' neck wanting the mark, wanting more. And Gibbs gave it, his lips placed a kiss on Tony's neck then bit down hard again. Another cry from Tony as the bite left another mark.
Removing himself from Tony's grip, Gibbs' lips were again at Tony's ear.
"Beg me to fuck you." Gibbs ordered.
"Fuck me. God please." Tony begged.
Gibbs' hand clawed back down Tony's chest and wrapped around Tony's hard cock."You can do so much better than that."
Tony's breath caught in his throat as Gibbs stroked quickly over his length.
"Beg me or I'll stop." Gibbs commanded. "Convince me that you actually want this."
"Jethro fuck me." Tony's body trembled. "Fuck my ass and come inside me. Please Jethro do whatever you want to me. I just want to feel you come!"
As the last word left his lips, Tony's upper body fell forward and he ended up on his hands and knees again. No more words were spoken by either of them as Gibbs frantically pumped in and out of Tony, his hand still stroking the younger man's cock.
Tony felt the release threatened, felt all sanity drift away as Gibbs' madness overtook him as well. This is exactly what Tony had wanted for years and the need to come washed over him quickly.
"JETHRO!" Tony screamed as his body convulsed and he dropped to his elbows, unable to hold himself up any longer.
Gibbs felt Tony come in his hand, felt Tony's body tense and tighten around his cock. It didn't matter he continued to lunge in and out of Tony unwilling to give into the pleasure. He leaned forward, slightly.
"Your ass was made to be fucked." Gibbs groaned. "This is what you really want isn't it?"
"Yes."
"A big cock in your ass."
"God yes." Tony sighed.
"You're gonna beg to be my cock toy now aren't you."
"God yes." Tony moaned.
"You'll beg and plead for my come." Gibbs grunted.
"Yes."
"And you'll lay there and take it." Gibbs felt the release building. "Up the ass or deep down your throat."
"Anyway you want me to take it." Tony whimpered.
"TONY!" Gibbs howled as he buried his cock in Tony and came. "FUCK YES!"
The world went white and Gibbs collapsed down onto Tony, his body completely spent and trembling as his cock twitched inside Tony. With a grunt, Gibbs ripped their sweat covered bodies apart and rolled down on the bed next to Tony. It was the last thing he remembered before he was lulled into the first real sleep he'd had in days.
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His eyes suddenly shot open and he looked at the top of the hull of the boat. God it had to be a dream. He swallowed the bile that rose in his throat. Please let it be a dream! Slowly turning his head, he closed his eyes again when he saw the naked man asleep next to him.
"Son of a bitch." He mumbled to himself as he ran his hands down his face. Looking back over at Tony, the man looked peaceful. He was laying on his stomach, his lips slightly parted, his arm stretched out, his hand on Gibbs' hip. Carefully, Gibbs lifted Tony's hand from its resting place and placed it on the bed. Tony stirred, pulling his arm back against him, but didn't wake up.
Climbing out of bed, Gibbs silently made his way to the bathroom, quietly closing the door behind him and falling against it.
This is why he didn't want Tony here, knowing that the anger would manifest itself in his desire for the younger man. It wasn't supposed to be this way, not with Tony. He wanted Tony, had for so long, but this shouldn't have been how it happened.
Taking a deep breath, he started the water and climbed under the spray. It started off cold making goose bumps appear all over his body. As the water warmed it gently started to relieve some of the tension in his aching muscles. But it would never be able to remove it all. Placing his hands flat against the wall in front of him, Gibbs dropped his head and let the water run down his neck and back.
Gibbs didn't move, even when he felt the hands circle around his stomach and caress over his chest. He still didn't respond when the lips dropped kisses across his shoulders.
"Gibbs."
Only silence.
"Jethro."
"I'm sorry." Gibbs sighed and shook his head. "For all of it."
"There's nothing to be sorry about." Tony ran his hands over Gibbs' back.
"You shouldn't have let me-" Gibbs paused. "After everything I said."
Tony wrapped his arms around Gibbs again, this time pressing their bodies together.
For a moment Gibbs accepted the closeness, his hand squeezing Tony's, then just as quickly it was over. He ripped Tony's arms from around his body and stepped out of the shower.
"I didn't want you here." Gibbs grumbled. "You shouldn't have been here."
"I wanted to be here." Tony sighed. "I knew what would happen."
Gibbs' body shuddered. "You should have left."
"I didn't want to leave." Tony stepped out and stood before Gibbs. "I don't wanna leave."
"Why?" Gibbs asked, staring at Tony.
"I love you." It was said calmly, nonchalantly as if Tony had said it a thousand times before.
"You shouldn't." Gibbs shook his head grabbing a towel, wrapping it around his waist and storming out of the bathroom.
Following suit, Tony did the same and stormed after Gibbs.
"But I do and I'm not going away." Tony said a harshness in his tone.
Gibbs turned around, his eyes full of sadness as they met Tony's. "You'll go away, everyone that loves me...everyone I love, always goes away."
"It's been ten years." Tony shook his head. "I'm not leaving."
"Walk away, run away." Gibbs paused. "You'll be better off."
"I don't think so." Tony sighed. "I'm in way too deep."
Gibbs slumped down on the edge of the bed. "You'll get hurt, by me or worse you'll end up-"
Tony went to his knees before Gibbs. "The deaths of people you love, they weren't your fault."
"Yes they were." Gibbs sighed. "Shannon and Kelly, I should have been there, but I wasn't. Jenny. I knew something wasn't right when we finished that mission. And I knew something was wrong in LA, felt it in my gut. And Mike...all because of me. Cobb's weird kinship with me, I should have known he'd come."
"None of those were your fault and no one wanted to leave you." Tony wanted to make Gibbs understand. "And Jenny, if anyone is at fault it's me."
"No. It wasn't your fault." Gibbs shook his head. "You were following orders."
"And so were you, in every one of those situations." Tony let his hand run over the outside of Gibbs thigh. "Shannon and Kelly, you were a Marine, following orders and you don't know that you could have stopped it. Jenny and Mike, work orders. They both knew. Knew what was coming and both went out the way they wanted."
"And you?" Gibbs sighed heavily.
"Hey now." Tony smirked. "I have no plans to check out anytime soon."
"But where will I be-" Gibbs' hand caressed Tony's cheek, his voice shaky. "When something happens to you?"
"Probably standing next to me head slapping me and telling me what a dumb ass I was for getting shot by some bad guy."
The corners of Gibbs' lips curled in a slight smile.
"And do not start on the fact that we put our lives in danger every day and that you could lose me every time we get a call." Tony rolled his eyes. "Because it's always been that way and it will always be that way. But I know you have my back and I have yours."
"I already almost lost you...too many times." Gibbs hated even thinking about that.
"So tell me you love me so we can move on." Tony grinned.
Gibbs was silent a moment, but then nodded. "I do."
A small coy smile played across Tony's face.
"Have for a long time."
"And that's why you didn't want me here." Tony paused. "Because you knew what would happen."
"Yeah." Gibbs took a deep breath. "I knew denying my feelings for you would become the breaking point. Which would make you the target for the anger."
Tony nodded.
"I needed to be in control of something, anything, and taking you gave me control of my feelings about you."
"So you have the control back?" Tony asked.
"No." Gibbs shook his head. "Because I used you."
"In case you didn't notice." Tony smiled. "I wasn't complaining."
"That doesn't make it right." Gibbs ran his hands through his hair. "You didn't ask for that and it wasn't how it should have been."
Tony forced his body in between Gibbs' legs, his hands resting on Gibbs' thighs.
"I wanted you." Tony stared into the steel blue eyes that always made his heart race. "How or why it happened isn't important."
"Yes it is." Gibbs shook his head. "I love you and using you, taking my anger and frustration out on you sexually isn't...isn't how I ever wanted to be with you."
"Jethro." Tony grabbed Gibbs' face staring deep into his eyes. "I let you. You asked me and I let you."
Gibbs didn't respond.
"If I'd have said no, you'd have walked away." Tony needed Gibbs to understand that. "But I didn't say no. I wanted you and I knew exactly what was going on. Okay?"
Gibbs nodded, taking Tony's hands and holding them against his chest.
"I didn't mean anything I said earlier." Gibbs kissed Tony's hands. "It was my anger and wanting to push you away.
Tony nodded.
Gibbs shook his head. "And because I'm a dumb bastard."
"Yeah." Tony nodded. "I know. I think the gash in my forehead proves that."
"I didn't mean to-"
"I know." Tony smirked, cutting off Gibbs' sentence. "But I know you're a bastard. I know about the ex-wives and the Bourbon."
Gibbs rolled his eyes.
"The long hours at work, the never sleeping." Tony groaned. " The countless cups of coffee and the damn boats."
"And?" Gibbs asked.
"And I still love you and want you." Tony pressed his body closer to Gibbs.
"That's not how I wanted it to be." Gibbs whispered. "Not the first time...not with you."
"How did you want the first time to be?"
Gibbs' hand rested against Tony's neck, his thumb rubbing over his Adam's apple. "I wanted to tell you how much I loved you."
"And?"
"Kiss you." Gibbs said as he captured Tony's lips, tenderly tasting every piece of Tony's lips. Kissing both, then the top and bottom separately. Letting his tongue brush against Tony's mouth he requested entrance and Tony's lips immediately parted. He began his exploration again, relishing in the flavor of Tony's mouth. It was everything he had ever wanted that first kiss to be and more. He slowly let the kiss end, Tony smiling at him as their lips finally parted.
"Your lips are so soft." Tony sighed.
"Okay." Gibbs chuckled, amazed that of all the things Tony could say that was what he picked.
"I didn't expect that." Tony took a deep breath. "Your hands."
"What about them?" Gibbs asked.
Tony took Gibbs' wrist, holding the hand up, he ran his finger tips down Gibbs' fingers then brushed the tips.
"The fingers are rough, calloused." Tony sighed, then touched the palm. "But the palms are soft."
"And you like that?"
Tony nodded. "Creates this amazing sensation over my cock."
"Really?"
"Yes." Tony's eyes closed for a moment as he remembered the earlier events. When his eyes opened again they locked on Gibbs.
And Gibbs' heart stopped, when he saw that it was all still there. The desire, the hunger, the need and most of all, the overwhelming love. He didn't deserve any of it, Tony deserved better, a hell of a lot better.
"I want you again." Tony sighed. "Please."
Gibbs' finger brushed across Tony's lips. "I think I should show you what the combination of my lips and hands can do to your cock."
Tony moaned and licked at Gibbs' finger.
"Like that idea?" Gibbs smiled. "My lips around your cock."
"Jethro." Tony whimpered.
"I love how you say my name."
"Good." Tony licked his lips. "Jethro?"
"Yes." Gibbs sighed.
"Suck my cock."
Gibbs growled, hauling Tony up and tossing him on the bed.
Tony laughed, no longer surprised by Gibbs' strength, but amused by it.
"You deserve better." Gibbs shook his head. "So much better."
"Too late." Tony grinned. "I want you."
Gibbs laughed, the first honest happy feeling he'd had.
"And I'm not the catch you think I am." Tony smiled.
"Yes you are." Gibbs placed a kiss on Tony's lips. "You're funny." Another kiss on his neck. "Clever." A kiss to his throat. "Loyal." A kiss to the chest. "Honest." Another kiss moving down his chest. "Dedicated." A kiss to the belly button. "Sexy."
Tony chuckled.
Gibbs stopped, placing a kiss at the hairs above Tony's cock, then looked up, their eyes meeting. "Hot as hell."
"How many times have I told you, you need new glasses." Tony grinned.
"No." Gibbs shook his head. "You are amazing."
Tony just rolled his eyes.
Gibbs fingers raked up Tony's hard on, eliciting a moan from the younger man. "Don't, you are-"
"Please Jethro." Tony's body squirmed on the bed.
At the words Gibbs' palm rubbed across the head of Tony's cock.
"Oh God!" Tony groaned, his breath catching in his throat.
Gibbs wrapped his hand around Tony's cock slowly stroking over the shaft. His tongue flicked out across the head tasting Tony for the first time.
Tony's body trembled as he watched Gibbs' lick his lips, savoring the taste, then taking another lick. This time Gibbs' tongue dipped into the slit on the top of Tony's cock pressing and licking deep.
"Fuck." Tony cried out. "Are you just going to tease me?"
"Maybe." Gibbs smirked. "Or maybe not."
Tony moaned, throwing his head back and closing his eyes, as he felt soft lips wrap around the head of his dick and suck deeply. A second later, Gibbs mouth sank down taking Tony's cock deep into his mouth until the head hit the back of his throat.
"Jethro!" Tony whimpered, his hand clawing at the back of Gibbs' head. "Suck it harder."
Gibbs started bobbing over Tony, creating a frenzied pace that kept Tony on edge.
"So good." Tony licked his lips. It truly was. So warm, the perfect pressure, Gibbs' tongue licking up the underside of his cock with each upward movement. Then he felt the finger slip inside him and arched his body. "Oh God!"
Working his finger in and out a few times, Gibbs quickly added another and heard Tony moan again. With each pass of his mouth, Gibbs slid his fingers deeper into the younger man.
"You're gonna make me come." Tony roared.
Oh if Tony wanted to come Gibbs would make him come. Impaling himself on Tony's cock, Gibbs' lips reached the base and sucked hard. At the same time his fingertips brushed against Tony's prostate.
"JETHRO!" Tony screamed as he lost all control. His body tensed as he came buried deep inside Gibbs throat. His head fell back and he melted into the bed, gasping for air.
Gibbs licked and sucked at Tony's cock, until there was nothing left, then crawled back up Tony's body.
"You are full of surprises." Tony panted, still trying to steady his breathing.
"How is that a surprise when I told you what I was going to do?" Gibbs smirked.
"Just assumptions I had."
"Right." Gibbs paused. "And what did I teach you about assumptions?"
"Never assume." Tony's eyes fluttered open.
"Especially about me." Gibbs grinned.
"I won't." Tony smiled. "Ever again."
"Good."
Tony shoved Gibbs down onto his back and straddled his body, surprising Gibbs with the quickness of the action.
"My turn." Tony smirked.
"For what?" Gibbs asked innocently.
"To suck your cock." Tony licked his lips as his hand squeezed Gibbs cock.
Gibbs groaned, thrusting into Tony's hand.
"It's gonna be a very, very long night." Tony sighed.