Hey guys! Once again, I know I shouldn't keep making lame excuses for me being a horrible person, but I literally have not stopped to take a breath since my last update! What with leaving school (not permanently, just until sixth form, that's junior and senior year in high school I think. I don't know, I'm English!), and then parties and training… I'm just happy I don't drink, or I'd have a hangover the size of Africa the way I'm going! But all the commotion is dying down now and I can relax for a bit for I go on my holiday :) And I'll be back in time for iLost My Mind on August 13th! I am super excited, how about you guys? Also, if you have twitter, please follow me at illuminouslove so we can talk about all things Seddie and whatnot! Okay, enough of my shameless self-promotion, on with the Seddie!
Disclaimer: I would normally try to find something humorous to say in these disclaimers (and by 'try' I mean 'fail') but I've come up with blank. So, I do not own iCarly! That work? Good.
Previously on iPause:
"Because it was the only way to get you to realise that you are in love with Sam!" I cried, watching as Freddie's face went as pale as a sheet.
"You knew?" he asked incredulously. The boy may be smart, but he is also an idiot.
"Yes, of course I knew! You were just too stupid to see for yourself!" I explained. "No offence." I added.
"Some taken." Freddie replied, he would obviously be offended at someone calling him stupid. I rolled my eyes at him.
"It's true. You were. So I gave you a little push, just to get the ball rolling." Freddie was taking this better than I had expected. He was thinking it through.
"But what does it matter?" he said quietly, the sad look returning to his features.
"What do you mean?" I asked, the excitement washing away.
"None of it matters. She doesn't love me, she doesn't even like me. So what does it matter?" He said, standing up and backing away from the couch, hurt on his face.
"Freddie-" I stood up with him, reaching out to try to comfort him. He recoiled.
"Carly, don't." Freddie looked up at me once more. "It doesn't matter." He turned and walked out the front door without another word. I was left by myself again, although quietness of my apartment seemed unfamiliar.
I busied my self once more, picking up the magazines on the coffee table and organising them neatly.
"…idiots." I found that I was talking to myself. "…so blinded by stupidity." I added, throwing my drink down the drain. "…and fatcakes." A giggle broke through the silence of the apartment. It wasn't me.
I ran to the stairs, turning to see Sam with her hand clasped over her mouth trying to retreat. She froze when she discovered she had been found out. I crossed my arms and stared at her pointedly as she straightened up to face me. "How much did you hear?" I questioned. Sam usually faked innocence pretty well, but not this time.
"Wha-?" I cut her off.
"How much did you hear." I repeated strongly, watching the false innocence drain into a look of guilt.
"Everything."
Chapter 13:
Confessions of a meatlover.
Carly's POV
"Everything?" I repeated, my voice rising even higher in shock. "You heard everything?" Sam looked at me like I was losing my mind, which quite frankly, was a possibility in that moment, before nodding her head once more, her golden curls bouncing off her shoulders in the movement. "Sam! That was private!" I scolded her, I have told her time and time again about eavesdropping. "What have I told you about eavesdropping on people's private conversations?" I folded my arms and looked down at her pointedly. Sam groaned as if she'd heard this a thousand times, well actually, she probably has.
"That it is rude and wrong." She droned in a monotonal voice, rolling her eyes in true Sam fashion.
"Exactly! I'm glad you are learning." I said. Even though she never actually does what I say, I appreciate that she listens and understands. Sometimes. Sam scoffed and stood up, annoyed now.
"Well you weren't exactly supposed to hear me!" she cried, "I needed more food and I heard you two talking." Sam explained, gesturing towards where Freddie and I were sitting with her hands. "It looked like it was important so I turned around to go back upstairs when I heard my name." She looked at me guiltily. "I got curious. I'm sorry." Woah, that's a new one. Sam apologised without having to be told to first.
"You wouldn't have even known I was listening if it wasn't for you and your bat-like hearing!" She said, of course blaming her getting caught on me.
"Hey! I don't have bat-like hearing!" I denied, covering my ears with my hands after being hit with a wave of irrational paranoia. "And besides," I continued, attempting to draw the conversation away from me and my perfectly normal ears. "I wouldn't have known if you hadn't giggled! I mean, I don't see what was so funny that you had to gigg-" I stopped dead. My thoughts froze at the sudden realisation. Sam giggled. "Oh my gosh. You giggled!" I cried pointing my finger at a surprised looking Sam. She looked at me again like I was losing my mind before swatting my finger away with her hand and rolling her eyes again.
"Please. Sam Puckett doesn't giggle." She replied, her signature smirk signing her name in the air.
"Oh, but Sam Puckett did giggle!" I laughed, smiling now that I finally had something to hold over her head.
"No I didn't!" she denied, chasing me as I ran around the couch yelling, 'Sam Puckett giggled! Sam Puckett giggled!' over and over until-
"OKAY!" she shouted, slightly out of breath from the chasing. "You win. I giggled." She admitted ashamed. Sam sighed and threw herself down on the couch, where I joined her. "I didn't mean to. It's just…" she hesitated, looking for any excuse not to explain herself. I laid my hand on hers reassuringly and urged her to carry on. "I don't like it! These feelings. They are horrible! He makes me feel all soft and girly, like I really am his 'Princess Puckett!' And the worst thing about it is that I don't care! I don't care if people think I'm a daffodil, and I hate it!"
Sam was frantic as she grabbed my shoulders and shook me in panic. "I can't become a daffodil Carls! I'm turning into you! This is very bad!" She seemed to be talking to herself now rather then me, trying to tell herself what to do.
"Sam!" I said, pulling her out of her thoughts and mumbles. "I'm not gonna lie. I'm slightly offended that you would place becoming more lady-like or 'like me' as a bad thing," Sam rolled her eyes. "But you need to understand what you are feeling. You are in love with Freddie. He is in love with you. You know this. He doesn't. You said you heard everything?" I asked as I continued to watch Sam's expression. She was silent for a bit, staring off into space with a blank face, the corners of her lips pulling up into the slightest of smiles when she though back to what he had said. She nodded absently. "Okay, then it's your move. You saw how upset Freddie was. You have the power to change that. You have the power to make something of this. But you have to understand that you are still Sam Puckett. He is still Freddie Benson. Whatever you guys have together won't change that. You are still gonna be my crazy, awesome best friends who fight and argue all the time. Except now, you get to end it with a kiss instead of Freddie's vertebrae being crushed with a flying orange." Sam smiled at the memory. "The question is, do you want it?" I ended, watching as Sam took it all in.
Sam looked up at me and grinned. "Boomba." She said. I take that as a yes.
I laughed at my crazy blond friend and threw my arms around her, hugging her tightly. She sighed and whispered, "Thanks Carls" into my shoulder as she hugged back. Now it was all down to finding Freddie.
"What are you going to say to him when you find him?" I asked curiously. Sam thought about it for a second, tilting her head slightly.
"I think I'm just gonna go with whatever feels right in that moment." She mused. It was a good plan, she needed to be careful of how Freddie might react in the state that he is in. I nodded approvingly at her answer.
"So where do you think he wen-?" My unfinished question was answered when Freddie walked through the front door. He was about to say something when he looked up and froze at the sight of Sam standing by the couch. She was also frozen in his gaze, neither of them looking away. Then there was movement. Sam began to walk towards Freddie, starting off as a walk but ending with a run as she threw her arms around his neck and pressed her lips to his. Freddie stumbled back a few steps to gain his balance, and then responded to her kiss with just as much passion and he placed a hand on her cheek. I should've known that even when they're kissing they'd be fighting for dominance. It was so… Sam and Freddie. Still wrapped up in each other, I decided to give them their privacy. They had some things to work out. They pulled away from each other just as I reached the stairs, gasping for breath after their, you know, 'lack of oxygen.' Freddie stared into Sam's eyes, confused.
"What was that for?" he breathed. Sam smiled widely.
"It felt right." She answered, looking back to grin at me. Freddie frowned slightly.
"I'm confused." He said, Sam rolled her eyes at him.
"Oh, just shut up and kiss me, you dork!" she laughed, before melting into his kiss once more. And I could've sworn I saw Freddie smiling into the kiss too, before I made my way up the stairs and into my room.
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