I do not own Twilight
I let the rain wash over me, as if it could wash away all my problems away. The rain wasn't heavy but it wasn't that light either. I hugged my knees to my chest. I loved sitting here on the roof. I would look t the horizon and would imagine myself running toward the sun and chasing the moon.
I guess I could do that now. Run to the moon. I felt a small smile tug at the corners of my lips at that thought.
Part of me always knew that something like this could happen. The wolf was always part of me. She ran thick in my blood. She was always there, in my mind, my heart, and now my body. When she sprung to life earlier, I felt like I was finally free. Like a weight was lifted.
In the back of my mind I could have sworn I saw her look at me with her warm brown eyes and thank me.
It made no sense, but neither did my life for that matter. There were my parents for starters. My mom is half vampire and my father is a werewolf. They're supposed to be mortal enemies. Yet they're soul mates. Makes no sense…. But at time it does.
I let out a sigh of frustration. I feel alone. Yeah I have my father and uncles to help me out with the change, but it's not the same. They're all males. I'm a female, the only female of the pack. To top it all off, I'm the Alpha's daughter.
"Your not the only one." I jumped a bit and almost fell if it wasn't for the cold hands that grabbed me.
"Sorry." I looked up at the golden eyes of my grandfather before I looked down.
"That seems to be the word of the day." I mumbled under my breath.
"He never wanted this to happen to you, you know?"
"I know." I barely whispered.
"He didn't want this life for you. He never did. Not even when your mother was pregnant with you."
"Sounds like he always feared it happening."
"He did, but when you started to mention the dreams…. It just got worse."
"I don't understand."
"I know. He was just scared that you-"
"No the dreams." I said finally looking up at him.
His brows furrowed in confusion and his eyes seemed to glow a bit. His normally bronze hair looked brown now that it was wet. My grandfather looked no older then 17. Truth ne told he was much older.
"What do you mean? You dreamt of your wolf before you turned into one. Now you are the wolf."
"That's just thing. I dreamt of a wolf with silver hair. I looked at myself threw dad's eyes. My fur is russet just like him."
He stood quiet and looked down at his hands, but I kept talking.
"Not even my eyes are the same grandpa! The wolf I saw every night, had golden eyes, mine are brown…. If I've been dreaming of myself this whole time, then why is it I look nothing like the way I do in my dreams?"
He let out a heavy sigh and he ran his pale fingers through his damp hair. He looked forward and narrowed his eyes. A look that only meant he was either thinking hard on something or trying to recall something from the past.
"Leah."
"What?" I asked confused.
"Lee. Your middle name comes from an old nick name from a woman named Leah."
"What-"
"She was a friend of your fathers, and a member of the pack. She was the first female shifter."
My eyes widened at that. I've known all the stories and I know practically everything about the wolves. I grew up with them and I knew each and everyone of them. Including the first ones. However this was news to me.
"She was Seth's sister."
"I didn't know he had a sister."
"I know."
"I didn't even know there was a female in the pack."
"I know."
"Well why didn't any of you tell me?" I screeched out.
"We did." He answered blankly not looking at me.
"No you didn't! I would have remembered."
"We told you… when you were a young girl. You were probably three or four at the time. It was the last time we told you."
"Why?"
He bit his lip and he started to swirl his wedding band around his finger.
"Grandpa." I drawled out.
"She disappeared."
"What do you mean? She just left?"
"No she disappeared."
"Grandpa that-s"
"You were the last to see her."
I tilted my head to the side the way a dog would do when they are confused. Ironic isn't it?
"She was and still is, your godmother. You mom and grandmother were against it. But your father had his heart was sent on it. We all loved her except for them. The only your mother some what agreed is because she felt like she owed it to her. Your mom she said yes, because she pitied her. She couldn't have children of her own. So she was always there."
"Well she isn't here now. She isn't here when I need her."
He clenched his jaw and fisted his hand. I know he hated it when I talked like that. He didn't say anything. He understood why I was so angry.
"She would be here for you. God knows, she had a hard time. But," She shook his head and ran his hand down his face, "When she left, everything changed. We looked for her, but her trace…. It just.." He let out a defeated sigh.
"What?"
"The trace ended 30yards away from the house. Then it just was gone."
"Gone? Is that even possible?"
"No. We looked in every direction, but we found nothing. She was baby-sitting you that night. No one else was in the house other then you and her. When we got home. You were hiding in the cabinets. You were alone in the house. Jacob was furious. He went after Leah but…. Within two minutes, he came back empty handed and scared."
I didn't say anything; I just sat there trying to take in everything.
"We stopped telling you about her after months of trying to find her. Each time we went we found nothing. We hoped you would forget about her and that night. Over time you did. But when you started to have the dreams… that's when your dad got scared."
"Why?"
"He thought you were connected to her some how. Seth thought it could help find her. But your dad was scared. He was afraid that you would turn into a wolf. That your wolf would go after her."
"He was scared I was going to leave." I whispered.
"Yeah. Carlisle tried to reassure him, that you were just dreaming of your wolf. About you when you phase…. But."
"It isn't, and it's her."
He nodded, "He's scared of what can happen if you do go after her. That we might not get to you. That something can happen."
I nodded my head and bit my nail. I had nothing to say.
"He never tried to keep this from you. He only wanted to protect you."
"I know."
"He loves you, and so do I."
"I know and I love you both to."
I laid my head on his shoulder and he wrapped his arm around me.