June 20th 2010

Emma bounced beside me as I walked hand in hand with her mother up the steps to her grandfather's front door. I knocked three times and Bella rolled her eyes.

"We have a key." She informed me and Emma ignored us, either that or she wasn't paying attention.

I shrugged, "Old habits die hard... I think that there will always be a part of me that's scared of him."

Bella scoffed, "Oh please."

Charlie pulled open the door and I couldn't help but straighten up. Bella nudged my foot with her own and I sighed, giving her hand an apologetic squeeze.

Charlie laughed and patted Emma on the head as she towed him by the hand into the kitchen, her hair bouncing behind her as she ran. I heard Charlie laughing and Bella hugged my arm as we walked much slower through the house.

"I hope our grandchildren get on with us that well when we get older." She whispered.

I groaned, "Grandchildren implies that she's grown up... and I don't want to think about that yet... a those... hormonal... teenage boys..." I shuddered and Bella kissed my shoulder after she finished giggling.

"You were a hormonal teenage boy... that's why I got pregnant when I did." She laughed.

I nodded seriously, "That's why your father scares me."

As I watched Emma, I couldn't bring myself to regret anything that had happened to do with her. She wasn't and never would be, an accident, and I was a dangerous person to be around if it was ever suggested that she was a mistake.

Yes, we hadn't planned it, but that was not the same thing.

It was a different thing entirely.

July 1st 2005

Bella moaned against my lips where she was laying on my bed underneath my. I could feel every contour of her body through her thin summer dress against my own shirtless torso. My shirt, along with the long fourteen calculus homework, was lying abandoned on the floor. And as Bella reached down to run her index fingers under the hem of my boxers I shivered, knowing that if she had her way the rest of my clothes would soon be joining them.

I shook my head and pulled away slightly, moving her hands to back beside her head. She moaned and tuned her head to the side so she could breathe.

Unfortunately for both of us, this exposed her neck to me. I felt my pants grow tight as I bent down to kiss her neck, biting and sucking like some kind of animal.

Bella moaned and her hips bucked slightly towards mine, "Please Edward."

I shook my head, gasping for breath as she turned to flip us over but I pulled away firmly.

"No Bella... I don't... we haven't got any... no..." I was struggling to make sense, and I think that was because her hips were no longer pounding against my own, they were grinding.

"Bella no... your dad..." I stammered and my arms shuddered.

She grinned and pushed me backwards, causing me to land against the pillows, with her straddling yam waist sooner than I thought possible.

I shook my head and she sighed, running her hands up my bare chest and placing kisses behind their trail.

"Edward..." She breathed against the bare skin of my chest causing me to shudder and grip the heard board behind my head as I eyes clamped shut in acute need.

"Edward..." She whispered, "You know you want to."

I swallowed, "Bella... pregnant... no..."

She laughed and kissed under my earlobe, "I'll be fine."

Whether it was the fact that I suddenly had no desire to argue with her at all, whether the need had just got to strong, or whether because I truly thought that there was no risk of getting pregnant, I suddenly found my hands exploring Bella's naked body, my own laying under hers as she straddled me. She smiled and I watched as her face clouded with pleasure, my own eyes rolling into the back of my head.

I had for seen no real problem, until sometime later.

July 21st 2005

I shut my locker, wondering why exactly Bella, my long term girlfriend had been avoiding me. I couldn't imagine that it had been something I had done, not that I thought I was above that kind of thing, it's just... well it had been three weeks since we had finally... you know... and since then we had been closer than ever.

Out of the corner of my eyes I saw Bella walking towards me. She looked up form where she had been hugging her books to her chest and quickly went to walk the other way.

I crossed the corridor in two long strides and wrapped my arm around her waist firmly, pulling her to the side and spinning her to face me.

"Why are you avoiding me?" I asked, and the hurt was evident in my voice.

She swallowed and I saw tears in her eyes as she looked down, unblinking.

"Bella..." I gasped quietly and cupped her cheek. She cringed away slightly and my hand fell to my side.

"Love tell me what's wrong please..." I moaned towards the end and she swallowed.

"I'm pregnant Edward." She said quietly and my heart stopped beating.

"I'm going to have yurt baby." She whispered and took a step away from me, the tears flowing on nearly both of our faces now.

"That's what's wrong." She breathed and turned and ran down the hall towards the girls bathroom. I watched as everyone looked after her, and the turned to me. I blinked back my own tears and turned away from them, marching out into the car park and hurling my books on the back seat. I slammed the car door so hard I thought the windows would smash. I leant my head against the roof where my arms were folded and began to cry.

"What have I done?" I whispered.

She'd leave me now... I was sure of it.

Now that I'd ruined her life, she would leave me, and I'd lose her and my child.

Nice job Cullen. I had thought as my world crashed down around me... nice job.