Chapter 12

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JPOV

"Edward." I whispered at the same time that I groaned. I could literally feel his warm wet mouth wrapping around my hard cock. Even dreaming, I could feel the barbell in his tongue glide up my slick shaft. Fuck, even while sleeping he gives the most perfect head. I never wanted to wake-up. Since I met Edward, every night I had a dream about him, this was the first sexual one. Probably because I have never been so sexually satisfied in my whole life. I moaned as I felt a light tug on my nuts. I want to touch him, I want to feel him. I don't want to be disappointed if I reach down and he's not there, it would cause my dream to turn into a nightmare.

I can't help it, it feels so good. I try to reach out my hand out to touch him, but I don't connect with him. I sigh, sad that I am dreaming. I want to be awake, I want to see Edward, I want to touch his face as he makes loves to me with his mouth. I feel him swallow around my cock and I call out his name. All of a sudden, I feel his fingers intertwine with mine. I feel and hear him humming around my dick. It's too real.

I open my eyes and blink a few times. It's dark, but the deck light was left on so light was streaming through the sliding glass door. I look down and see Edward between my legs with my cock in his mouth. He squeezed my hand that he is holding. He continues sucking while bobbing his head up and down. His other hand is cupping my balls rolling them gently in the palm of his hand. Oh fuck that feels amazing. "Edward?" I whisper. His eyes shoot up to mine. "Am I dreaming?" He shakes his head no while slowly and oh so carefully running his teeth up my shaft.

I squeeze my eyes shut and grip the sheets with all my might. "Fuck Edward!" I yelled. I was so close to cumming, all it would take was...that. Edward swallowing around my cock. "Fuck! Shit..." I cried out as I came down Edward's throat. Edward swallowed everything I gave him, licked up the length of my cock and softly kissed the tip. He climbed up and hovered over me, kissing my lips then laying down next to me holding my naked body close to his.

"Holy shit Baby." I whispered before placing a kiss on his forehead. He snuggled as close as he could to me. I love it that he loves to cuddle. "I love you Edward." He kissed my neck and whispered that he loved me too. I looked at the clock and noticed that it was 3:14am. Tomorrow...or should I say later today is Saturday. Edward doesn't have to work for the rest of the weekend, and this past week has been one of the best in my life. But I am curious as to why he decided to give me a blow job in the middle of the night, while I was sleeping. Believe me, I'm not mad or complaining about it, I was just concerned. I realized when he climbed over me that he wasn't even hard. That right there is a huge flag. Both of us get hard as fuck just looking at each other. When we are intimate with each other, fuck, we always have to try and hold back from cumming too soon because we get so turned on. Just the other day Edward was giving me head and he came right after I did without even touching his dick. And he just gave me fanfuckingtastic blow job, in the middle of the night without even being aroused. What's going on? I thought to myself.

"Baby?" I asked as I ran my fingers through his wild hair.

"Yeah?" He asked softly while rubbing his thumb over my hipbone.

"Why did you just give me head in the middle of the night while I was asleep?" As soon as the words were out of my mouth his thumb stopped moving and his whole body stilled.

"Are you terribly upset with me?" He asked so quietly I almost didn't hear him.

"God no Edward." I said while kissing his hair. "I'm just curious Baby."

"I don't want to talk about it." He answered softly while nuzzling his head into my neck. Now I'm definitely concerned. I'm more concerned now than curious. I tried to let it go. We held onto each other not talking or moving. I didn't want to push him, but my mind was swimming. I looked at the clock and noticed it was a little after four. I was pretty sure Edward was still awake. Occasionally he would run his fingers along my body, but my biggest clue was he wasn't snoring yet. I wasn't going to be able to sleep until I found out what was going on in his head.

"Edward?" I felt his body tense. Even though I didn't need to, I asked anyways. "Are you awake?"

I could feel him nod as he responded, "Yeah, I'm still awake Jasper. I'm sorry if I'm keeping you up." He leaned back so he could look at my face.

"Edward, please tell me what's going on. Trust me, I fucking loved it, but you are worrying me, Baby." I leaned forward and captured his lips with mine. His hand weaved through my hair as he held my face to his.

"I'm really sorry you're still awake. I'm sorry I woke you up." He said when we parted.

"Tell me." I said softly. I heard him sigh.

"It's stupid." He mumbled.

"Nothing you could tell me is stupid." I responded.

I saw him close his eyes as he started talking. "I had a bad dream where you left me for another man." I took a hold of his hand and kissed his fingertips. When he opened his eyes, I saw them swimming with tears.

"Oh, Baby." I said while running my thumbs under his eyes.

He opened his eyes and continued. "I got out of bed to take a piss, when I climbed back in the bed I wrapped my arm around you...and you..." I saw him swallow and hold his eyes tightly closed. "...you said another guy's name. While sighing and smiling." My heart stopped. Even with Edward's eyes closed, I could tell he was deeply hurt. I never wanted to hurt him, I don't think about anyone but him. When I dream, it's always about him. Him and I and what our future holds.

I suddenly realized what I was dreaming about prior to my middle of the night blow job. I leaned over and turned on the lamp that's on my nightstand. Edward squeezed his eyes tight, and then opened them, blinking numerous times to adjust to the light. "Edward..."

"It's ok Jasper." Edward quickly interrupted. His eyes betrayed him though. He was hurting, but he was trying to cover his hurt. "I don't know but I guess it's normal to fantasize about other men." I pinched his lips closed using my pointer finger and thumb. His eyebrows coming together in confusion, I realized the hidden meaning in what he just said. Edward just admitted that he didn't fantasize about anyone else besides me, that warmed me to my core. He needs to realize that all my fantasies and dreams are of him.

"Stop Baby." I said with authority. His eyebrows rose at my serious tone. "I only dream of you Edward. Every fantasy is of you. Every dream is of you. I don't even notice other men anymore." He inhaled deeply through his nose at my words. I removed my fingers from his lips and placed a soft kiss where my fingers just were.

"But you said..." He started to say, but then stopped as he looked down and played with a loose thread on the comforter.

"Baby, I was dreaming about you and I." I ran my hand through his bronze locks. Hopefully this doesn't freak him the fuck out. I tipped his chin up and stared into his emerald green eyes as I told him what I was dreaming about. "In my dream...you and I were cuddling on the couch." I paused and ran my thumb across his lower lip. "After waiting for so long, we finally found out that our adoption paperwork went through." Edward didn't freak out. He had a small smile on his face. Huh. He likes that thought. "In my dream, our adoption agent had given us the information on the little boy we were adopting. The little boy we were adopting his name was..."

"Ethan." We both said at the same time. Edward leaned over and placed the softest kiss in the world on my lips.

"I'm so sorry Jasper." Edward said. "I'm sorry I thought the worst. I shouldn't have reacted the way I did." He looked at me directly in my eyes and I could feel his remorse.

"You have to trust me Edward." He nodded at my words. I trusted Edward with my life, but I have to admit if I had heard Edward say another guy's name in his sleep I would have probably reacted the same way.

"I do t...trust you Jasper. With m...my l...life." Edward stuttered out.

"Oh Baby." I kissed Edward with all the passion I could muster. I hated that I made him so nervous that he started to stutter. He looked embarrassed and that had to stop. "Baby don't be upset. Please. It breaks my heart to see you upset."

He took a deep breath. "It's so embarrassing J...Jasper. I hate that I s...stutter when I get nervous." I kissed his forehead, letting my lips linger a little bit, then I kissed it again.

"Please don't be embarrassed Baby." His bright green eyes glistened as he stared into my eyes. "It doesn't bother me at all when you stutter Edward. I just feel bad that I made you that nervous."

He took a deep breath and shook his head. "No it's not your fault." He whispered. "It's something that I have had to deal with for a very long time. I used to see a specialist, and she helped a little. But when I get nervous it's something I can't control." I nodded in understanding. One day while he was at work I did a little research on stuttering, I wanted to see if there was anything I could do to help him. Unfortunately, I didn't find much that I could do to help.

"When did it start Baby?" I asked while running my hand up and down his side. I figured now was a good time to ask since Edward rarely talked about his past and never once had said anything about his stuttering.

"It started right after the accident." He replied quietly. Edward had briefly mentioned that his parents passed away after his whole family was in a car accident when he was a child. He inhaled deeply before starting his story. This was Edward proving to me that he trusted me.

I wrapped my arms around him pulling him as close as I could to me. I smiled as Edward snuggled into me. We fit perfectly with each other, like two puzzle pieces.

I held him tight as he started to tell me his story. He started by telling me how he had just finished a piano recital and Alice and him begged his parents to go and get ice cream. They never made it to the ice cream parlor. A drunk driver ran a stoplight and hit them head on. When he woke up in the hospital many days later, Alice had told him that their parents had died. Alice had never left his side the whole time he was unconscious. Social services were there, but thankfully, Carlisle had stepped in. Carlisle was the doctor on duty when Edward and Alice had been brought in. His wife Esme was meeting him for dinner and Carlisle didn't have time to call and reschedule. She was waiting in his office when he walked in wiping tears away from his eyes. He quickly told Esme about the ten year old little girl named Alice who was now an orphan waiting for her twin brother to wake up. Carlisle told Esme how Alice said she would be his best friend if he would wake Edward up for her.

Esme had tears in her eyes as she listened to her husband. Esme had always wanted children, but unfortunately, she was unable to have any of her own. When she asked Carlisle if the children needed anything, he responded "Yes, they need parents." Both of their parents were only children, so Edward and Alice had no Aunts or Uncles and no living grandparents. Without a will, they were going to be wards of the state. Luckily, Carlisle being who he was spoke to social services and discussed the steps that would be needed in order for them to take Edward and Alice home.

Edward told me how after waking up, he was so nervous in the hospital that he constantly was stuttering. Even though Alice missed her parents terribly, she had been so excited to live with the Cullens. She didn't want her and Edward to have to live with strangers. Knowing there was a possibility that he and Esme were going to be parents, Carlisle spent every free minute in Edward's room. Even though he told Esme that they shouldn't get their hopes up, they both did. Carlisle would sit with Alice and listen to all the things she had to say. He could tell even though she acted happy, she was deeply hurting.

Esme had come by everyday as well. She would bring Alice snacks and meals and she too would sit with Alice in Edward's room. One day Alice finally broke down while Esme was there. Alice climbed into Esme's lap and sobbed as she held on for dear life. Esme didn't say anything and let her cry it all out, exactly what Alice needed. From that moment on, Alice had bonded to the Cullen's and hoped that these were going to be her new parents. While to a newly awake Edward, they were complete strangers. That didn't last long and he soon loved them as if they were his biological parents. After being their foster parents, Edward and Alice were eventually adopted by Carlisle and Esme Cullen.

"I was always nervous that if I did something wrong they would send me away. Then I would panic that Alice would have to leave them too, and I knew how much she loved them. The stuttering always got worse then." He sighed and wrapped his arms around my waist tightly. "It has never gone away completely. Now it happens only when I am nervous." He looked up at me and gave a half smile.

"Edward, thank you for sharing all of that with me." He leaned up and pecked my lips with his. "I want to know everything about you. Good, bad, ugly, beautiful. It makes you who you are today." I ran my fingertips down Edward's arm, watching goose bumps appear along the trail my fingers left.

"I told Esme about you." Edward said quietly. This peaked my interest. He never mentioned this before.

"Really Baby?" I asked noticing the blush on his face and he nodded. "When? What did you tell her?"

"Umm." He cleared his throat and started again. "I told her early one morning while you were still sleeping early in the week. They have been in Hawaii this whole week, but they really want to meet you when they come home. If that's ok with you?" He said quietly.

"Of course Baby, I would love to." I kissed the top of his head, then yawned.

"Fuck Beautiful, I am sorry for keeping you up. Let's go back to sleep." Edward said while cuddling into my side. He was out before I knew it and I whispered to him that I loved him and only him. The smile on his face told me he heard what I had said.

EPOV

I woke up and opened my eyes to the most beautiful sight in the world. Jasper's smiling face and his crystal blue eyes. He lifted his hand and rubbed my bottom lip with his thumb.

"Good Morning Baby." He said while leaning forward to give me a morning kiss. We established earlier in the week that Jasper did not give a shit about morning breath. I, however, did not want my man to smell my stank ass breath any time, especially first thing in the morning. We debated back and forth until he said and I quote, "If we both have morning breath then it cancels each other's out." His grin was blinding in the satisfaction at winning our debate. Frankly, I was happy he won the debate. Waking up and kissing Jasper first thing in the morning was the highlight of my day.

I moaned as his tongue entered my mouth, stroking my tongue and then flicking my tongue ring. As we parted, I licked my lips then placed a soft kiss against Jasper's lips. "Good Morning Beautiful." I whispered. "I'm sorry about..." I started to apologize for last night, but stopped when I saw Jasper shaking his head.

"You have nothing to be sorry for." Jasper said as he climbed out of bed and stretched as he went into the bathroom. After he finished, I followed his actions and made my way to the bathroom. I walked out of the bathroom and saw Jasper bent over throwing on a pair of sweatpants. What a sight to see. As soon as he was standing upright, I wrapped my arms around his waist and kissed his shoulder. He groaned as I kissed and sucked on his neck and played with the soft hair making up his happy trail under his belly button. "Fuck Edward." He said as he turned in my arms and attacked my mouth with his.

We stood their groping each other and making out like teenagers. Gasping we parted our mouths from each other only to catch our breaths. "I love you Jasper." I said in between breaths. He bit my earlobe and told me he loved me too, at the same time his stomach growled. Smirking I pulled away to pat his stomach. "Aw, my Jazzy's hungry in his tummy." I tried to say with a straight face but failed miserably.

His eyes went huge and he snorted while laughing and playfully pushed me away. "Yes, Baby I am hungry." I kissed him again tugging on his bottom lip gently with my teeth.

"Ok, Beautiful. Let me go make breakfast for us." I started to walk to the kitchen but thought of something I wanted to do today. "Hey Jasper?" Jasper peeked his head around the corner.

"Yeah Baby?" He asked.

"Want to go for a run this morning?" I asked. "I haven't worked out at all this week. I feel pudgy." I poked at my stomach. Jasper came up to me and wrapped his arms around my neck.

Looking directly into my eyes Jasper said. "Edward, you are anything but pudgy." He trailed his hand under my t-shirt and ran his fingertips over my abs, causing me to inhale quickly. "You are so fucking hot." He trailed his finger over the grooves in my stomach. "And you have a fucking six pack that makes my dick hard just thinking about it." He moved his hand from my stomach and cupped the side of my face. "But please believe me when I say that I will still love you even if you get pudgy. Even if you gain fifty pounds and lose all of your hair. Fuck Edward, I don't love you because of your looks, I do however love your looks but it's just an added bonus."

I attacked him. I literally pushed him against the wall and shoved my tongue in his mouth. I was like a feral animal. Hearing Jasper say those words triggered my heart into overdrive. Somehow I was turned around with my back against the wall and my pajama pants around my ankles. I cried out as I felt Jasper's warm, wet mouth surround my dick. My hand went to the back of Jasper's head, running my fingers through his silky curls.

Jasper continued to suck my cock, twirling his tongue around the head of my dick before plunging his mouth down and taking me all the way into the back of his throat. "Fuck!" I exclaimed as Jasper swallowed around my dick. He swallowed once more while tugging on my nuts. The moment he hummed around my dick and looked up at me I was done for. Panting, I tried to convey to my man that I was about to cum. "Jas...cum..." Was all I was able to get out before I came down Jasper's throat.

Jasper held my hips as he stood up, more to balance my wobbly legs I think. I threw my arms around him and we held each other as I came down from my high. "By the way, Edward, I would love to go on a run with you." I nuzzled into his neck and held him as close to me as I could. Smiling I pulled away and started to get to on my knees to return the favor, but Jasper stopped me. "I wanted to do that just for you. Please. Let's eat first." Jasper said.

I pulled away and looked at him. "But how are you going to run with that?" I said while smirking and gesturing to his extremely hard cock which was sticking straight out and causing his sweatpants to form a huge tent.

Rolling his eyes he responded by saying. "Well duh Edward. You'll help me out with that after breakfast and before our run." Grinning from ear to ear, I kissed his cheek and got started on our breakfast.

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