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Weird Fixation

Throughout all of Sikowitz class I would throw a glance at Cat, and she would avoid it. It was really worring me. What am I going to do if Cat never talks to me again? What the fuck is this? What do I mean what am i going to do? I'm going to keep living my life. It doesn't matter if she doesn't talk to me. I don't need her. But I do. Suddenly, Sikowitz' voice startles me.

"Jade. Would you like to come up please?" I was so lost in thought I hadn't noticed he was in front of me waving his hand side to side as he spoke.

"Uhm. What? What do you need?" I'm still disoriented. This never happens to me. At least very very rarely.

"We're going to perform a scene." He says slowly. "I want you to perform."

I stand up, and walk to the little platform. He follows. Then he says, "Hmmm, Cat. Come up here."

Cat's eyes practically pop out of her head, and she shakes her head. "No." She whines. Why must she whine? What a baby.

"Caaaat. Get up here." Sikowitz says menacingly. "Now."

Nervously Cat stands up, and walks to the stage. I've never seen her quite like this before. I mean I've seen her a bit scared, but never like this.

Running impatient I say, "So what's the scene?"

"Okay." Sikowitz looks to the class. "Today you guys can choose. What scene do you want Jade and Cat to perform?"

"Jade has to be nice." Tori says. I'm going to strangle her. Wouldn't that be nice? I smirk, but then she says, "She is deeply in love with Cat, and is trying to figure out a way to tell her. No more like she is going to tell her, but she's like in that cute nervous stage..."

Then Beck chimes in, "And as obvious as it is that Jade is trying to tell her she loves her, Cat is completely clueless. So there is no possibility for Cat to say 'do you like me' or 'love me' Jade has to say 'I Love You'. That clearly." That motherfucker!

I don't know if my face shows it, but the way I am feeling is a mixture of anger, nervousness, cluelessly lost, and psychotic. Psychotic for the ideas of torture that are passing through my head for those two wankers. Did I say 'wankers'? Man, I've been watching too many British movies.

"Sounds boring." Again Sikowitz bringing me out of my thoughts. "We need a twist...Ah! I know. Cat is deaf. So there is no way you can tell her. See if it's just telling her, it's boring, but if you show her...Class let's see how Jadelyn West displays her love to Caterina Valentine."

"Don't call me that!" I hiss.

My fucking God. For Christ sake. Jesus! What am I gonna do? As all may know I am a great actress, but THIS. This is out of my range. Surprisingly, Cat seems to be perfectly in her role. She starts giving me faces. Slight sounds, but no accurate words. She starts making signs that she can't hear me. Ok Jade get yourself together. Get yourself TOGETHER.

"Sweetheart." I say, but my voice breaks. This is pathetic. "What I feel for you, is greater than anything else." Wow. So that's the best I can do huh? Throwing these cheesy movie lines. "You see.." Fuck I've never felt so out of oxygen. Not to mention I'm just standing looking at Cat and moving my arms nervously everytime I speak. I feel awkward. Like Sinjin. Well, Sinjin could probably do a better job than me right now. I'm gonna say it, "I lo.."

"Jaade." Sikowitz interrupts. I let out a sigh of relief. Thankful that he interrupted, and I had an excuse to look away from Cat's longing eyes. "You have to show it Jade. You are speaking, and the girl can't hear you! You're only moving your arms like this.." He mimicks my earlier arm movements. That definately pisses me off. I glare at him. "Oh common Jade this is such an amateur scene." He shakes his head in disbelief. Now I'm raging.

Just as I was about to really act. To try and do this 'amateur' scene, the bell rings.

"That's enough for today." Sikowitz says. Sikowitz had a cactus by the door, and as everyone walked out he yelled, "Nobody grab my cactus! It's sacred. Visions of the Gods."

He really needs to lay off the drugs. I shake my head, and head to grab my bag. I realize Cat left already, so I quickly head out the class, looking around for her.

I see her at her locker, putting a book away. I walk to her. She doesn't see me coming. "Hey Cat."

She looks at me, and gives me a look before turning back to her locker. The look is...annoyed. Hey she annoys me! I don't annoy her! Ok that's it. We're gonna talk about this whether she likes it or not. I wait for her to close her locker, then I grab her by the arm. "Jade let me go." She hisses. Trying to get out of my grasp. I can't believe she's doing this!

"No. You are coming with me." I hiss back. We get to the janitor's closet. I open the door, and throw her in. Then I close the door behind me. I look quickly around the room to make sure we're alone. I don't know why, but I rush to her until I'm almost pushed against her on the opposite wall. She's completely against the wall, with her arms down.

My hands are placed on the wall, her head in between them. "Now you are going to tell me what the hell is wrong with you." I say sternly, but make sure not to raise my voice, since she's a bit 'sensitive' right now.

"What do you care?" She shoots back.

I get closer this time my forearms are placed on the wall. I'm almost completely pressed against her. A few 2 inches apart. "Don't you talk to me like that."

"Why not?" She yells at me. "Uhm? You can do whatever you want? But I can't?" I've never seen her this defiant. "Get off. Of. Me." She shoves me hard. She's stronger than I thought, but I push her back. Now I hold her arms above her head. Our faces almost touching, but I make sure to keep our hips a bit apart. I look down, and see her breasts heaving. I'm starting to feel...weird. She grunts trying to escape my grasp, and I look up. She is so mad. Even though this is starting to feel a bit...weird. I hold my grasp.

"Look. I know you're mad, and..." Here goes my pride. "I'm sorry." I whisper, but we're so close I know she heard me.

Her eyes soften a bit, but something else is there that I can't really describe at the moment. She looks likes she plotting something. I haven't let go of her. The apology is said, and she doesn't seem as angry, but we're breathing hard. Haven't seperated an inch. I am completely fixaded. From her lips, that I seem inviting, to her deep chocolate eyes. I catch her glancing at me the same way I looked at her. I have to break away before I do something stupid. I feel that hours have gone by. The silence was deep, but something had to be said. Looks like she isn't going to be the first to speak so I guess I will.

With my sudden croaky voice I manage to say, "I...I..I'm hungry...so.." Then she sways her hips into mine in the most sensual way. As she whispers, "Then eat." She takes her arms out of my hands effortlessly, but my hands stay against the wall. Her hips are back against the wall by now, giving me space. Her hands just hanging loosely by her sides.

It felt like forever, and not enough time. I had no recall of how long we had been in this closet, or what just happened. It felt weird, but so fucking good. Am I turned on? For fucks sake I only broke up with Beck Friday. It's only been three days. Well, I had stopped loving him, and stopped feeling any passion for him for more than three days. But Cat? Sweet and innocent Cat. What just happened (I don't know how long ago) was not sweet, innocent Cat. I am so confused. My hands are still against the wall. Our faces are still to close to be considered friendly. Her hands are still hanging loosely, and her eyes are still staring at me. Waiting. Then I notice her hands starting to tug at the bottom of my shirt.

"So." I gasp. Finally breaking somewhat out of the trance. "I think imma go home and...eat." I back away from her. I walk backwards to the door. Not breaking our eye contact.

"You still owe me." She says in a serious quiet tone.

"Ok? What do you want?" I ask curiously.

"Why don't we go to your house? And we can eat? And watch some movies? It'll be fun!" Cat says with her usual over enthusiastic cheery tone. Her childish personality is back. She looks at me with those puppy dog eyes, like nothing strange just happened a few minutes ago. She's waiting for my answer.

"Sure." I say, but I feel like I didn't say it. Sort of like when you're watching TV and your into the show, and your mom says to do something, and you say 'yea yea'. You don't know what she said, you just agree. Just because.

"Yay!" She claps her hands together. "Jade, aren't you going to move? I can't open the door if you're leaning on it." She giggles.

"Uhm..yeah sure." I move and open the door. She heads out first. What the hell just happened? Worse of all Cat's gonna come to my house. We're gonna spend the day, and my brain's still not working! I don't think I can handle it.