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LOVE ~ ARC MORPHEUS
They can never understand
the kind of love that we have
For how could they?
How could they ever fathom
the depths of our bond?
They do not hear our whispers
nor the sweet nothings that come out of our lips,
they do not know the places
where I seek you,
and where you await always to be found.
They do not know the nights
when I lie awake thinking of you,
they do not know the mornings
when I awaken in joy
yearning to see you,
and to know you better than I have ever known you
in days that passed.
You are mine and I am yours,
we are joined in bliss
as we danced,
forever we danced.
We were lost in our passion,
yet we were never truly lost.
They can never understand
how two hearts can speak
without uttering a single word,
how two minds can understand,
without explaining a single thought.
Only LOVE speaks,
Only LOVE hears,
Only LOVE
can ever truly understand.
CHAPTER 7
THE REALIZATION, RUNNING,& TRANSLATIONS
~EPOV~
Why?
As Nick, Daniel, Jacob, and Emmett, plus half the city police maneuver me from my knees and make there way through the crowd back behind the barricades all I can think is...why? Why did she run? Why did she run away from me?
I could see it clearly on her face...I knew that she was not running from the actor Edward Mason, I could tell that she recognised me from another place...our dreams maybe?
She knew...the look on her face said it all...with all the emotions passing between us at that moment. It was like looking in a cracked mirror and seeing the other missing half of my soul reflecting back at me...I just knew she was feeling the same things' I was. It was there in her eyes', full of love, as I know she had to have seen it in mine. She started to walk towards me but then seemed to change her mind. What made her stop? I was going to her...but, what happened? I thought through those last moments ...damn...the director was pulling my attention away... just for a split second but that was all she needed...for something to make her change her mind. But what...I just don't understand.
We were so close to finally being together.I felt as if my very heart had been ripped right out of my chest. She took it with her as she left...and I want them both back...I needthem back. But, at least one thing was proven today...she is real, as real as can be; not a figment of my overworked imagination.. I'm not crazy, what a relief!
The love of my life was here right before my eyes, but she slipped away as quickly as she appeared. Not for long though, because I am more determined than ever to find you now. I know your real...that's more than my heart or my soul had...before I saw you under that tree. You are so beautiful...just as I see you in my dreams, my love.
As I kneel back on the grass smiling to myself...I can't help the smile that spreads across my face, as I know that she exists. There's just something I'm still missing, something very important. Something that I think can lead me to her. Yet, all I can think of is seeing her here today and her face, and all the emotions that swept across her face as her eyes met mine for the first time.
"Edward, are you alright?" Nick anxiously asks.
"Yes, I'm fine Nick. I just need a couple more minutes to get my thoughts together and then I'll be right there."
"Nick, I told you she was a real woman. That was her...that was her I saw today," I say incredulously.
Nick frowns slightly and looks at me questionably, "Are you sure Edward, really sure?"
"Yes, of course I am sure. I knew it the minute I saw her under that tree, then when she stepped into the sunlightI just knew without any doubt in my heart it was her. I have got to find her Nick! I don't care what you have to do. She either lives here in this town, or she had to have stayed at a hotel, or motel. There are lots of things' and places you can check out, right?" I ask sounding more desperate by the minute.
"First off Edward, you have scenes to finish filming for the can't go off half-cocked looking for some woman you glimpsed in a crowd and we don't know anything about. So, you need to get back to work. I will do some investigating and inquiries.Maybe someone knows or knew her, or they may have even got part of her tag. Just go on out there and do yourstuff before the director has a coronary, and I will see what I can find out, alright?"
I take a deep breath and realise that he is right. I have got to get myself together, finish here and then concentrate on finding her after filming is done for the day, so reluctantly I just nod in acceptance.
"Please do anything...everything you can to find out her name," my voice pleading.
I get up from the ground and make my way over to the director telling him I am ready. So, from there we start filming the different scenes, and it is so very hard not to smile the whole time. She is real, and that is the utmost thought in my head right know. Now to find her, that's the next hurdle.
~BPOV~
Oh God, please don't let me have a car wreck. I need to just pull this car over and get myself calmed down a little. Well, at least calm enough so I can safely drive my ass back to the hotel. I've got to figure out in my mind what just happened to us back there.
I pull off into the first convenience store I see, turn the engine off, and just sit there...staring into space...it was him. There is no way I can deny that now...it was really him.
The look on his face, the look in his eyes...there were so many emotions pouring out towards me. I could feel it...spilling out of him and into me like an invisible force field. Love, the happiness and relief of finally seeing each other in the flesh all but consumed me. But, what could I do, as that was Edward Masen the famous Hollywood actor, the most sought after man that every female in the world wanted...Arghhh!
What am I suppose to do with myself now...how am I suppose to do anything about this situation. It's totally out of my control...I just feel so lost, so confused, so torn because I really didn't have any choice but to leave and walk away. It would have caused so much controversy and trouble for...everyone. But,inside my heart still needs him, It still yearns for him...my husband, my lover. People would say I was crazy, but there he was, right before my eyes. Almost within my reach...If only.
There is no mistaking what we were both feeling in our hearts and minds, the moment when our eyes locked onto each others and our souls cried out.
I took a few more deep calming and cleansing breaths, then I knew I had to head back too the hotel where I can try and make sense of what all this just meant. I need to start thinking more rationally if there is a way for us to be together.But first things first, I need to find out if what I am feeling has any bearing on what is in my dream journals.
But, damn, the ring has practically burnt my skin when I was moving closer too him today. The intensity of sensations coming from it, almost through it..was coursing through me...through my heart and directly to my soul. God, I feel as if my heart has been torn from my chest. I know I left it back there with him... and now I need to find a way for us to be together in this world before this drives me insane. There has just got to be something I am not seeing that is linking the journals, the ring, the dreams. All of this has got to mean something.
Somewhere out there in this universe has to be something or someone who can explain the feelings we are having for each other.
Enough of this Bella! One thing at a time ...
Right, I need to get back to the hotel first, then maybe...oh God, I love him so much. I feel my strength waining and I restart the engine and pull back on the highway before I crumble and turn the car around.
I reach the hotel, the valet takes my car and I slowly trudge into the foyer, waves of tiredness ebbing at my mind, I feel so drained. I just need to make it to my room and close out all this madness around me.I glance around waiting for the elevator and notice the security people looking at me so funny.
Oh no, maybe they have been told about some weird woman looking like me making such a scene at the set. Maybe their looking at me for another reason. Maybe he had them told to be looking out for me. Maybe I need to quit being so damn paranoid and just go to my room.
I decide that first of all I need to contact the university to see if they have come up with anything. Some small break through to help explain even the smallest bit of all this craziness. But I Istill can't let them, or anyone else know what is truly going on. I've got to figure this out without bringing anyone else into all this...this craziness.
Once in my room, I drop my bag by the door, and barely make it to the couch where I just crumble down from the mental exhaustion. So much going through my mind. What do I do first?
Right, I need to call room service and get something to eat and drink, and then try to sit here calmly and work through all the events of today. Surely there is some sanity that can make sense of all that happened to us today. Just some small clue as to what happened back there between us. But, all I truly know is I want to be with him...I want to tell him how much I love him...how much I have missed him. I just need to find a way through to him without any more heartache and pain.
~EPOV~
Finally...to be done with all this for the day. Now I can go to the hotel, and my room and find some peace and just to be left the hell alone. I need some time to process everything and see if I can make any sense out of what happened on set. Why did she leave? I just don't understand any of this . We both knew in that brief moment what we were feeling for each other. But, why do I feel this way for her? Why do I feel as if I can't live without her...that she is my very life?
I know without a doubt I love her with all my heart, with all my soul, and I will not stop until I find her. But, why did she run away? I was going to her, and she was coming to me. Damn it, enough! We can discuss all this once I have found her...then, maybe we can figure what has brought us to feel the way we do for each other.
Right now, I need something to drink...something strong. Looking around at my security team.
"Daniel, Jacob, do you guys fancy joining me for some dinner? I am fixing to order from room service and something strong to drink, and I figured after the day we all have had we deserve it. We might as well go ahead, and throw dinner in there so we don't get so drunk none of us can do our jobs tomorrow. But, right this minute I need something...something to calm me the hell down," I ask sounding exhausted.
"Sure, we'll be right over. How about we call Nick over, too? I think we might just need to discuss what happened today. At least, I know he does. Does that sound alright?" Daniel asked apprehensively.
"Sure, why not. I expect he has quite a lot to say to me, and a lot of questions. But, hurry up as I want to to go ahead and order something to drink. I need it bad to face the interrogation I got coming from Nick," I answer sarcastically.
As I approach the couch to wait on everyone Nick walks in with Emmett
"Just what the hell were you chasing Bella down for? Did she do anything?" Emmett's anger bursting through his words.
"Wait just a minute, you said Bella? You know her? You know that woman today?"
"Yes, I know her. She is a friend of mine and my girlfriend's. Nick said it was alright that she came down to see you working on set. Did something happen...I mean, I tried...I thought I had found a place she would be out of the way of everyone doing their job. Besides, I was trying to keep her close by because she said she wasn't feel good. Why all the questions about Bella?" Emmett replies with caution.
I just stand there for a minute absorbing the fact I know her name...Bella. Oh God, finally an answer to so many questions I have racing through my mind. Bella...beautiful. I realise that Emmett is my key to unlock many answers I have been craving for a long time.
"Emmett, come on and sit down. There is so much I have to discuss with you about, well I need to ask you about...Bella," I spurt out excitedly.
"Edward, I think the first thing we need to do is sort out your reasons for running right into a crowd of fans. Your security is my top priority, above everything else and I can't have you doing things' like that no matter what. I understand that you are feeling an urgency about finding that young woman, but pulling another stunt like you did today is not going to happen. Not as long as I am assigned to protect your ass, do you understand," Nick interrupts us authoritatively.
"I totally understand, but let me try to emphasis too you guys how important it was that I find her. Then, there she stood right before my eyes, and the next thing I know she is running away, going right through the barricades. I couldn't think of anything except stopping her from leaving," looking down rather ashamedly at my actions of earlier causing my team such panic.
"But, now that I have Emmett to help me fill in a lot of blanks on who she is, where she lives, you havenothing to worry about. No more stunts like today...unless... I happen to see her in another crowd before I can reach her by other means. Now, I hope you understand what I mean," I speak sternly looking at them for their answers.
"Now, I am ordering us something from room service, and if you all want we can go ahead an order dinner, as I have quite a lot of questions for you, Emmett. If you will be kind enough to help me," I ask pleadingly.
"Sure, right after you tell me what it is you want with Bella," Emmett states firmly and crosses his arms across his chest.
I just knew that this was gonna be one long and very interesting conversation.
~BPOV~
As I am sitting on the couch, suddenly a wave of nausea hits me, and a dull feeling of panic. Damn it, what is it now. I feel like I need to...run. But, what am I running from this time. I am perfectly safe here. He's not here...but, wait a minute. All the security, and this is suppose to be the best place to stay here in Chattanooga. Maybe he is staying here...which means...I can't be here with him. It would be unbearable, until I sort out what is happening too us. I need to pack and leave this place as quickly as possible. I can't have him find me yet. I can't face him until I know for myself what is going on between us.
I need more answers and at the moment I just have more questions to add to my never ending list! I think it all lies in my journals, the dreams, and this...ring, as I look down at it. I think I'm just going to do just that, as I start to throw things' into my bags. I call down to the front desk and inform them I am checking out today, and I will be down in a few minutes. I just know this is the right thing to do... at least right now.
I want him and me to understand what is going on between us. So, I am going home to get the answers we need. I've got to leave him...again. I'm so tired of leaving him...of us having to be apart. I feel as if my heart is breaking, as if I am fixing to fall to pieces. Edward, I may be leaving you now...but I will be back, no matter where you are, with answers to all our questions, my love.
I get down to reception reaching the check out desk. I inform them that I was just notified of a family emergency and I have to go home. Once I am finished there the valet brings my car around, but not before I notice a lot of staring being done by his security, 'sheesh' those guys give me the creeps.. I pray they don't take too much notice of me. I can't draw anymore attention to me right now. Just going to get in my damn car, and leave and head home.
As I pull away I look back in my mirror, and I know without a doubt that he is there somewhere. I say to myself...'I will be back, my love. Just take care of my heart. I will be back.'
Then, all I can do as I pull away the tears start to roll. Uhh, not again as I head for the interstate, hopefully to find all the answers we need.
~EPOV~
Room service arrives with our dinner and drinks, everyone sits down, and starts to enjoy their meals I begin too feel nauseous. as though I am fixing to be very, very ill, so I grab me something to drink and sit back. Why and what are these feelings? I usually only have these in my dreams, but I'm wide awake.
There it is again...that feeling as if my very heart is being torn right out of me...as if I am losing her all over again. Such a feeling of panic overtakes me I get up and walk over to the window looking down upon this town. I feel as if she's leaving me all over again. What can I do? How can I stop her if all I know right now is her name...Bella. Oh, please don't leave me again, Bella. I have found you finally...please don't leave me. But, the pull on my heart only intensifies, and I know you are down there somewhere running away from me yet again. But, I'm fixing to get some answers about you my love, and I will find you...again. This time I won't let you run away from me ever again.
After everyone has finished dinner, they all start off to their separate rooms. I look up and catch Emmett's eye.
"Emmett, can you stay behind for a little bit, and let me ask some more about Bella. There are just so many questions I need answered, and I have no one else to turn too except you. You know her...and I finally know her name. Oh God, that is more than I have had in such a long, long time. All I've had are dreams about her until you said you know her. Please, please talk to me!" I look up with the best begging face I can muster.
Emmett looks at me smiles and nods. "Sure, I'll tell you as much as I feel comfortable telling you about Bella. I don't know much as we have only been friends for a very short time, but if it is that important to you, I can talk to my girlfriend Rose. She is Bella's best friend, but it is going to take a lot to convince her to tell you anything. Rose is very protective of her friends, and especially Bella. They are like sisters, and even I don't try to get in the middle of that. They are thicker than blood, man."
I look him in the eyes almost pleading " I finally get too know she is real, and not just a figment of my imagination. Now, just tell me... please Emmett...does she live here? Where does she work? Does she have a...boyfriend? Just tell me anything and everything you truly feel comfortable sharing with me. I am a starving man here, and all I want is information to quench this hunger. Can you even comprehend the importance of her in my life?"
Emmett seems to finally be understanding the enormity of what Bella meant too me and why I needed too know everything he could confide too me about her. The way he looked back at me was a look of surrender and understanding, he could see that I was sincere and that I was totally in love with Bella.
"My first question is how do you know of Bella, as I sure as hell would have thought that she would have mentioned it too me if you two had a history? Also, why it is so important to you Edward too know about her," Emmett inquires guardedly.
I let out a huge breath and point to the beers in front of us, we both take a large gulp and I begin to try and explain the madness that has been my nightmares over the past years.
"This could take a while as it started seven years ago for me personally, I started having dreams...very vivid dreams...about a beautiful woman. I couldn't tell much about her features in the beginning, except she was very slim, long brown hair, and I would awake suddenly every night feeling my heart pounding in my chest. I had no idea what it was all about, but over the years there hardly was a night that I didn't dream of her. And, as the dreams continued they became more intense and more detailed, and this meant that I could see more of her face. But, what was so strange was...it was almost as if it were set in different periods of time. Aah, Emmett please don't sit there looking at me as if I have lost my mind. I have been asking myself that for years, and today seeing Bella there just confirmed I was not losing my mind... I'm just trying to tell you what I have been through."
"Hey man, I don't think your crazy...at least not yet. The way I understand it from Rose is that Bella has been plagued with similar dreams for quite some time, too. But she has not shared with me any details about them. Only it has been going on as long as you have been having them," Emmett states.
"Well, that only makes this more mysterious. If she is having dreams, too, and apparently for as long as I have. Wow, so this could mean we are connected by our nightmares at least, the past year or so the dreams have been so vivid I could practically see her as if she were standing right in front of me. Then, today when I saw her under that tree, the feelings hit me like a freight train ...I was feeling sick, but yet my heart was pounding so hard, and the feelings I was...I am having for her are just consuming me. I love her Emmett, more than my very life. And, then yesterday when we arrived here they just kept getting stronger. Now, right this minute I feel as if my heart has been ripped right out of my chest. She's here, isn't she?" I look at Emmett right in his eyes. I can see it without his saying anything that I'mright.
~BPOV~
Almost home, and hopefully closer to some answers. This is really beginning to kill me, but I know that part of my answers are in that lab with Professor Volturi and ProfessorJohnston. I am hoping that they have had at least enough time to figure out what it was I wrote the other night. It's still early, I think I'm going to head straight there.
As I pull up to the lab I notice there cars are all still in the parking lot. Thank goodness something is going my way at last. So I park my car quickly and take off running towards the building. I rush down the hall, and stop just outside the doors praying they will have some news for me. It was only one little sentence...I'll take anything they have found so far. I just know I have got to hurry to find out what's happening to us. I just know from the feelings that are growing stronger every day that if I don't figure this out soon something bad is going to happen. I reach for the handle and pull the door open as all three of them look towards the creaking lab door, and then at me with looks of confusion and surprise that I am there, then the slightest smile crosses Professor James Johnston's face. Oh, thank you God...he has been able to uncover something. Now if only it's something that will tell me or lead me to the slightest clue as to what is going on with Edward and I. I take a deep breath and walk towards them all...waiting, pleading with my eyes to please, please!
"Well Bella, we are very happy to see you. We have some exciting news, so maybe you should sit down whilst we try to explain the bits and pieces we have been able to uncover," says Alex excitedly.
"So, you have been able to translate my ramblings?" I aska little too eagerly.
James looks at me questionably,"Are you alright, Bella?"
Trying to put on my best poker face , I look at him, "I'm fine James, thanks for asking. I am just a little tired from my trip."
"Well, we all were under the assumption you were going to be gone until the fourth. Has something happened to bring you back early? Is your family all right?" Alex asked sounding concerned.
"Alex, you know that all my family has passed away. There is no one but me," I say matter-of-factly and coldly.
Victoria turns and looks at me, "I am so sorry, Bella. We had no idea."
"There was no reason for any of you to know about this, as it surely doesn't have any bearing on what you are trying to do for me. Now, I understand you have made some progress in some of the translations?" I add a bit too quickly and coldly. I just want them to get on and tell me what they have found...nothing more and nothing less will ease this gut feeling I have of impending doom.
"Well, if you'll go ahead and take a seat I'll get the papers together, and show you what I have been able to translate for you," James says.
As I take a seat I attempt to take a deep calming breath when a feeling of relief washes over me. Victoria sits next to me, as James and Alex go about gathering the papers'. In a matter of minutes they are all back and sitting across the table from me as they spread out the papers' for me to see. James pulls the journal out first opening it up to the last pages' I had written on. He turns the book around facing me and begins to explain.
"I had a bit of a problem with this one as it was not in a complete sentence, just words spread over the sheet. So, I went word by word, and with Alex's help we were finally able to piece it together. It was partly in Latin and Aramaic, which I understand you are not fluent in either language. Am I right?" James questions .
"That is correct,I have only ever studied French, some Greek, and the newer Latin. But, even with what I know of Latin I could not make any sense of what I had written. It seemed to be of an older version, and that is why I brought it to Alex."
James looks at me then starts to point out the different words to me, and finally where they have managed to piece it into a sentence. He continues to show me the piece of paper I had brought into Alex right before I left on my trip. It say's...'I will always be with you', and on the other paper, 'Forever Yours.'
At this point I turn to look at Victoria and see the look on her face. That is the last thing I remember as I slipped down the chair onto the floor...into the darkness.
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