an: okay i know this is short and your all going to hate me but dont worry cause i hate me to.... stupid shy.... stupid stupid shy..... yeppers. i love you all hope you enjoy..

~*~*~*~NOW ON WITH IT~*~*~*~

!*!*!*!*!*Bella*!*!*!*!*!

I sat on my bedroom floor waiting. Yes waiting, for what I don't know.

I waited for the 3 minutes to be over.

I looked at the clock. 1 minute has gone by. UGH!!!

Time takes too long, doesn't it feel like time takes the longest when you wait.

I looked over at the clock again. 1 more minute, time takes to long.

I stand up and start pacing.

If I am, what do I do, I can tell someone. Tell my mom go back to her that sounds good, maybe she could help.

But then I would have to deal with the disappointment of my family and my brother would find out. Not a good plan.

I could tell Emmett just not say anything about the guy. Yes that would be good. But then he would find out. UGH!!!

I looked at the clock again. 3 minutes, it's now or never. I can't do it I can't look. This is the end. If I look it decides my fate. I couldn't I cant. I start pacing more.

Should I look?

Should I just throw it out and pretend it never happened. I could do that.

No I cant I have to know. I can't just leave with out it. I walk over to my bathroom. I sit on the floor. I put my head in my hands.

How could I be so fucking stupid, I mean I'm 17 years old, how could I just not be more fucking careful. How could he not be more careful? I know I didn't just get myself in this mess.

We have our whole lives ahead of us. I can't do that to him. He wanted to become a doctor. Like his dad. I can't ruin his life. What type of girl would I be.

Maybe I could, BELLA WHAT ARE YOU THINKING.

I wipe away the tears away I didn't know I was shedding, I'm confused.

So many things are at state here.

My future

His future

My life

His life

Cause god only knows my brother would kill both of us. If my dad doesn't get there first.

I get up wipe my tears. It might be nothing. I might be over thinking everything.

I look in the mirror. I look like shit eyes red from crying. Hair a mess from running my hands threw it. Make up running down my face. Yep, not a pretty site, I wash my face and pull my hair up into a messy bun.

I look down and grab the thing that has been killing me. Yes killing me. I look down at it.

FUCK!!!!

I side down the wall still staring at it.

The little pink happy face, it's fucking smiling at me. I can't do this. I sit there staring at it, smiling back at me for minute's, hours. I don't know.

I finally get up off the floor and walk back to my room.

I grab my duffle bag from under my bed. I shove all my clothes I can get in it. I grab my purse and take out my bank card.

I grab my phone and call the bank to see how much money I have, $28,789.

Its for college, but I need it. I'll go to the bank and clear out the account. Yep.

I grab my duffle bag and put in over my shoulder. Grab my bank card and phone. I write a quick letter to my dad and brother. I grab another piece of paper and write a letter to Edward.

I do the only thing I know I can do. The only choice I have. The only thing I know how to do.

I ran.....

an: i know i know.... but hey. theres going to be a 2nd story to this i promise... lol.... just wait alittle and ill give you a second one... tell me what you think... if you think i was mean .... then tell me. i know i told you guys last night that there was going to be a surprize this chapter and you were going to hate me for it.... now you have it ... do you hate me. tell me .... review,... love you all mych love

shy