An: hey guys sorry i havent updated sooner .... its been a bad couple of weeks.. anyways here is what i got done so far ill update as soon a possible...my son is sick so i dont know when that is going to be... but anyways here is what youve been waiting for ...

!~! ~! ~! ~Bella~! ~!~!~!

I ran

I ran to my car and got in. I started the car and pulled out of the driveway. I went to the high way and made my way toward Canada. I knew there was one place I could go. One place no one would think of.

Crazy Aunt Christye

I know she would never turn me down and no one would think I would go there because no one ever talked to her. They kind of disowned when she got pregnant at 16. It wasn't her fault she was raped.

One of the best things about my aunt was that she was only 29, and yes my aunt Christye was one of my favorite aunts. She was the one that would smoke me up when I went and visited her 2 summers for like 2 weeks. I didn't have to hide my drugs from her. She was the one that got them for me.

I took the next exit off the high way I have been driving for at least 3 hours and needed gas.
I wanted something to eat so after I paid and filled my tank up. I headed over to some diner and got some fries.

I knew it would take me about 4 or 5 days to get there. I was going to Toronto. When I get there I had no idea what I was going to do. The first thing is going to see a doctor.

Five days later I was in front of my aunts little white house. I didn't know if I wanted to run towards the door and hug my aunt, or open the door of the car and throw up.

I looked at the door again for like the millionth time. But instead of seeing a closed door I seen somebody standing in the doorway looking to see who was parked in front of their house.

Well it's now or never.

I opened the car door and got out. I started walking towards my aunt that was standing there. She looked at me like she was seeing a ghost, as I walked closer the more her face turn to confusion.

When I looked at her I say my mom but blonde and blue eyes. I walked till I was about 5 feet away from her and stopped.

Before I could say anything she threw her arms around me, I wrapped my arms around her and began to sob. Other then my mother she was the closest one to me. We used to chat all the time on the phone. She told me once that if I ever needed anything or a place to get away from home I would always be welcome.

"Bella what are you doing here?" she asked pulling away looking at my face, her hands still on my shoulders.

"Aunt Christye I need a place to stay. I will tell you everything. But I really need to go pee." I said. Hoping and praying that she wouldn't turn me down I needed someone to understand why I am not getting rid of it. I knew she would and I know why I don't want to get rid of it. She didn't to her son and I'm not going to too. The baby inside me deserved to live. And I was not taking that away from it.

"Of course sweetie, come in and pee and ill get us something to drink. Coke good for you?" she asked while opening the door and leading me inside.

"Yes thank you, ill be right out." I said walking towards the bathroom.

After I came out I wondered into the kitchen to see my aunt sitting with 2 cokes in front of her at the table. I walked over to her taking a pop and sitting across the table from her.

"So you want to tell me why you're here Bella?" she asked. I looked up at her and took in a deep breath.

"Well I guess I need to start from the beginning." I said she nodded her head for me to continue. So I did. "Well I got sent to my dads because mom caught me doing coke off of this guy Adam's chest. I know it was wrong but I thought she was gone till the next morning.

"Anyways mom came in and bitched me out. She said she was giving me a second chance and if I didn't straighten out that I would be put into a hospital. She sent me to Charlie. But Charlie between work and sleeping and some kind of police crap he had to go to, he was never home. Anyways the first night I got there Emmett told me that they all did drugs there.

"I went to a party and slept with my best friend Edward. Remember him?" I asked her. She looked at me for a moment and then nodded.

"Yes I remember him the one you used to bath with when you were younger."

"Well yes that's him. Well I didn't know it was him and I slept with him. I didn't know till the morning after that it was him. He didn't remember it either. About a week later he found out that I was the one that slept with him. He wanted to keep his rep and his balls; well that's what he said. So we didn't tell anyone about us sleeping together.

"We kept sleeping together whenever we could. For 4 months we slept with each other when we could. Anyways, about 3 mouths ago I stopped getting my period. But see I thought it was stress because a lot happened. I didn't get morning sickest nothing like I was supposed to get."
I looked at my aunt to see if she got what I was saying. She was looking into my eyes trying to find something.

"Are you trying to tell me that … That … You're pregnant?" I nodded looking down at my pop finding it fascinating.

I could look at afraid of what I was going to see. I really didn't want anyone to know she's the only one I told , and I didn't want her to be disappointed in me like I know all the rest were going to be when they find out.

When I finally got the courage to look up at her she was smiling from ear to ear. What the fuck?
Then she did something I didn't expect she squealed like a little girl in the Barbie section in a toy store. She did a happy dance and then threw her self at me.

What the hell. I thought she was going to yell or something. But not this, I don't know what I expected. I thought I was going to run out of breath and pass out because of how tight she was squeezing me.

After that she told me how great it was that I was pregnant and how it is a blessing and god had a reason for everything. I think she was on crack. I loved my aunt but come on. The first thing I would do if my niece or daughter for that matter came up to me and told me she was pregnant at 17 I would be so yelling and screaming at her. I don't know why. But I was scared.

Soon after we talked she told me that there was a apartment in the basement if I wanted to rent it was a one bedroom but it had a kitchen and living room and bathroom with shower. I told her I would look at it in the morning and that I was tired and needed some sleep.

She showed me to my cousin room after getting my bag from the car. We send her good nights and I curled onto Christian's bed, not really falling to sleep but more of a paralyzed state. I didn't move just closed my eyes and thought of what I was going to do.

After getting up to pee 2 more times I finally fell into a dreamless sleep.

I woke up in the morning to a bright light shinning into the room. I looked up to see the window curtains being open by my aunt.

"Aunt Christye what are you doing?" I asked as I sat up and wiped the sleep from my eyes.

"Its time to see your new apartment" she said as she walked over to me.

"what are you talking about" I asked totally lost at what she was talking about.

"Silly Bella, I told you, you could have the basement apartment. Now get up breakfast is ready for you down stairs. And then we can look at your new apartment."

I looked up at my aunt and smiled through the tears that were now forming in my eyes. I didn't know what to say. So I settled with the only thing I could say.

"Thank you so much" I felt the tears running down my face "I can't explain how much this means to me. I swear it's only until I'm brave enough to tell the rest of the family."

"No it is not a problem. Take as much time as you need too okay. There is no rush to get you out… but I do think you should tell at least your father soon. Or at least somebody other then me." She said

"Okay I will. Just want to take time to think I guess" I got off the bed and went to my aunt and hugged her. "thanks you" I said again.

"Your welcome now lets go eat." Aunt Christye said as she started to pull me towards the door. I followed her downstairs to where the kitchen is and sat down.

After I was down eating we went down stairs to see the apartment. It was a one bed room apartment with a finished kitchen and bathroom. And you know what I was happy. I was happy that I could do this. My mom always said that you have to be knocked on your back before you can look up.

Meaning that if your life is so bad that's when your life will start looking up. I know its weird but I think it will be better. I think that my life is going to be looking up from now on. Only problem is that I need to tell my parents, my brother, my friends, and Edward. I mean he is the baby's father. He has a right to know.

After we moved my stuff down stairs, we went out and bought a bed. Aunt Christye got second hand things for my apartment. Showing me everything I could get that was still nice. The only thing we didn't get second hand was my bed. I bought that myself.

Later on when we home, we sat and watched a movie till I fell asleep. Only to be awakened by my aunt and told to go to bed. And that's what I did. I fell asleep that night knowing that I could be off a lot worst and because I wasn't I was happy.

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2 weeks later

In the last 2 weeks I have been all like blah. I wanted to tell everyone but I didn't know how. I needed to talk to somebody. I wanted my best friends back. I wanted my brother and my dad back. I wanted everything I had before back. I was now, 14 weeks pregnant. Yah I know, 3 and half mouths. I looked about 5 or 6 my aunt said.

I was getting bigger everyday I was feeling really fat to. I still haven't talked to anyone, which was starting to get to me. I needed to talk I needed to tell someone that I was okay. My cell phone rang off the hook. All the time I would ignore it. they weren't just from my dad or brother they were from my mom, Alice, Rosalie, jasper, Edward, even Esme had called me. I don't know what to do, I wanted to tell somebody I wanted to tell everyone. I was happy I wanted this baby. I wanted my life with this child. I wanted my boyfriend back.

I just didn't know how everyone would take it. I needed to call and tell them. I wanted to scream my head off, get everything out in one scream. Sometimes I would cry myself to sleep.

My aunt was so supportive; she would ask me how I was. Shed talked to me about everything and anything. My cousin didn't even know I don't know how he wouldn't know I was a fat cow, but I guess I'm hiding it well.

I decided that today was the day I would call and tell everyone I'm okay. I didn't know how I was going to do this its going to be hard I know that, but I had no other choice I to needed to tell somebody.

I needed to tell 2 people that were the most important and that was my parents. I needed to tell them, they gave me life and they'll accept me or they won't.

Hopefully they will accept me.

I leaned over to my coffee table and grabbed my phone. Oh my loving phone, the one that has been ringing so much I needed to turn it off, if I wanted peace and quiet.

I looked through my contacts and found my mom, I needed to three way them. It's the only way I would get through telling them both.

I pushed talk

I held the phone to my ear and let it ring.

Ring

Ring

"Bella, Bella, is that you sweetheart? Are you there. talk honey I need to hear my little girl." My mother sounded panicked through the phone.

"Mom" I choked on a sob.

"Oh Bella honey," my mom was crying now. "Where are you? Why did you leave your fathers? Please tell me what happened. What was so bad you had to leave?" she asked in a rush. Like I was going to hang up on her and she would hear from me.

"Mom ill answer everything once I get dad on the phone okay? For now I need you to wait" I said before I three way my dad into the conversation.

And it rang.

"Forks police department. Chief Swan talking, how may I help you?" my dad said as he answered.

"Charlie" My mom sobbed. "Some ones on the phone that would like to talk to you"

"Who?" my dad asked

"Hi dad" I breathed.

"Oh my, Bella is that you" he spoke so quiet I almost missed it. " my baby girl. Where are you? When are you home? Better yet, Why in gods name would you leave. Just run away from me and you…."

"Charlie stop and let her speak will you" my mom cut him off.

"Sorry"

"Its okay … I'm okay. Really I am. I need to tell you something though and I want you guys to not get mad okay?"

"Sure baby girl were all ears." Dad said.

"I'm pregnant"

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