AN: IM BACK! Did you miss me :) im so sorry that i was gone for so long but now im back and have a high school education :) YAY ME! Anyways now on it with it.

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~!~!~Bella~!~!~

"THAT FUCKER GOT YOU PREGNANT!" Emmett roared. I looked around to see everyone looking at him with bugged eyes. "I'm Going to kill the little shit." he turned around and started walking towards the front door.

"Emmett stop please" he ignored me turning the door handle and started to walk out the door. "STOP!" I screamed. He wasn't going to kill Edward for something he doesn't't even know about. "Emmett he doesn't't know." I said. He turned around to look at me.

"He doesn't't know?" he looked at me again wanted me to confirm that he heard me right.

"Yeah he doesn't know. That is why I left Emmett I couldn't't let it ruin his life I am keeping it and I don't want him to have to put aside his dreams because my birth control didn't't work!" I said looking up at him.

"Your not going to tell him. don't you think he deserves to know." he said looking serious. " I would want to know if Rose got pregnant."

"I am going to tell him but you cant go off killing him before I get my chance to talk to him." I laughed a bit. " I just need a bit more time before I do." I wanted to tell him so badly, I wanted him to be the first to know but I couldn't't face him I didn't want to see the look in his eyes and I didn't't want to hear what he was going to say. I was terrified.

"Well don't wait to long cause you know how I am with secrets" he smiled but it didn't touch his eyes. "Are you sure you want to keep it? You know its going to ruin your life too. Your so young, why not wait?"

I looked at him with tears in my eyes. "Emmett I want to have this baby it wont ruin my life its going to help it. It may be hard at times but I know that ill make it through them because I know I can be strong. I know that its going to be hard to go to school and still raise the baby. But ill be fine don't worry about me so much I know what I'm doing I know I will miss a lot but I'm ready for it. I know I am." I said with the tears running down my cheeks.

Emmett hugged me tightly. "I love you sis and I am here for you. You ever need anything ill be here. I promise."

I looked up at my brother and smiled my biggest smile. "Lets Go inside and eat" I said opening the door. I walked to the kitchen with Emmett in tow. We both went straight for the food as everyone else was already eating. We sat down with the family at the table and started talking with them.

"So do you have any names picked out yet?" my mom asked smiling.

I frowned. " No I don't to be honest I haven't even thought of one. I want to wait till its born before I decide I think." I said putting a bite into my mouth. Or at least till I tell Edward I thought. Still didn't know when that was going to be I didn't want him to even know I was home yet in fear that he would come over to the house and see me when I didn't have a sweater on.

"When do you think your going to tell Edward?" Mom asked. She could always read me like an open book.

"I don't know" I said honestly.

"Well I do believe that you should tell him soon before you go some where or someone else see you and finds out. You know small town gossip spreads pretty quickly."

"Yeah I know…. I think I just want to sleep some more and get my stuff unpacked before I go rushing over there." I said looking down at my plate, hiding my face. I didn't want anyone to see how scared I really was.

"Well if you want I can bring him over here tomorrow after school." Emmett said. I looked up at him and glared.

"No I would like to call him myself. It is only right that he can find out by me myself that I'm home and would like to talk to him. I don't need you to slip anything to him, like you said you don't keep secrets safe."

"Well I think Emmett can keep this a secret for as long as you want to sweetie." Charlie said staring at Emmett. "If he doesn't ill take away his car" he laughed at Emmett's pale scared face.

"Yeah well I wasn't going to tell anyone anyways so whatever." Emmett said taking another big bite of his food. We all laughed.

After we were done dinner I told everyone that I wanted to go back to sleep because of the trip home. I said good night and went upstairs to my room. I pulled out my I pod and put it on the base and turned the volume low that it was only background noise. I striped and put my PJ's on, Track pants and Edwards wife beater. I really don't know how I ended up with a lot of Edwards clothes, I think I still even have a pair of his boxers too, somewhere in my room.

I laid under the covers and with being home and knowing that my family still loved me I fell asleep.

~!~!~Edward~!~!~

I was lying in bed when my phone went off. I picked it up to look who it was. Jessica figures. Man I couldn't stand these chicks anymore, they couldn't take a hint. All I wanted was my Bella back. I wanted to hold her and tell her I love her, I wanted to talk for hours about anything. I wanted to be able to kiss her whenever I wanted. I wanted to just talk to her to find out why she left. Its been fucking 3 weeks and like 4 days or something.

What! I've been counting. I missed her so much I haven't had a good night sleep since she left. I couldn't sleep without her in my arms. I usually just close my eyes and think till my brain thinks itself to sleep. I always think of Bella. No matter what I am doing I'm always remembering the things we use to do. I used to love when we would lay on my bed high out of our heads and we would just lay her naked and talking about our school or her old life in Jacksonville, or my old life before she came and turned my life upside down but not in a bad way.

Since I was like 10 I knew that I was missing something in my life, just never knew what that was. And now I know, Bella!

She was everything I could ever ask for in a girlfriend. She was smart and funny and not air headed or brain dead like these girls in forks. She liked stuff I did and some stuff I didn't. These girls in forks don't even talk to you really they just want the fuck.

Don't get me wrong I did like that, but now not so much. It was all about Bella now. I was useless without her. It felt like my heart turned to ice. Frozen solid not having a reason to burn with the passion I had when she was here with me. I always wanted to be doing things with her, or to her I might add. When she was around I didn't see anyone else. I still don't.

Everywhere I go the memories of us flood my mind and all I want to do is escape. I take drugs lots of them washing them down with the alcohol. It doesn't matter anymore if I am here or not. She's not with me. God I'm acting like she's dead. But its even worse knowing that she's out there just not wanting to be with me. She writes in the letter she does not want to hurt me or ruin my life but she leaves me not knowing that she's the only thing good in my life other the my parents and my sister. Sure I have the others but they just bring me down when they get all over each other. I don't want to see that because I lost that.

Why did she leave. What reason was so horrible that it would ruin my life or whatever her letter said. Its driving me crazy, the drugs don't work anymore.

I roll over groaning, I haven't had a good night sleep since she left. I close my eyes as the darkness threatened to take over and I fell a sleep seeing Bella's eyes right before sleep over took me.

The next morning I woke up, had a shower, brushed my teeth then got dressed. Then I was downstairs and out the door, jumping into the drivers seat of my car. I started the engine as it purred to life. It was my car that settled me most days, I would drive for hours not really going anywhere. But just being as far as possible. I would always have to turn around and come back which always made me more upset.

Why did she leave? Why did she have to run away on me like this? Why couldn't she have just taken me with her? I really could think of any reason why she would leave.

As a pulled into the school I saw Emmett standing beside the jeep with the rest of them. Emmett had his head thrown back laughing at something as rose hit him in the head. I shook my head same old Emmett.

I got out of the car nodding toward them as I headed towards the school no need to let them see how bad I really am. Even though I know that they all can see it.

Lunch time came around in no time. The classes always passed without me knowing it. I was never paying attention, always thinking of her. I walked into the cafeteria walking straight to our table. I wasn't hungry I only ate when it was necessary.

When I sat down the others nodded at me. I was staring into space as they talked and ate. I didn't hear any of it, that was till I heard Rose asking everyone what they were doing tonight. She wanted to have some drinks at her house. Her parent wouldn't be home till late.

"Me and jasper have a date planned tonight. Its been so long since we have down anything like that." Alice said frowning at that fact.

"Well I don't know what Charlie wants me to do tonight around the house or if Bella will want to come but I will see if I can come chill with you baby." Emmett said putting his arm around Rosalie smiling. We were all staring at him. "What?" he said thinking of what he said. "Oh shit!"

"Bella's back?" Alice asked, she was looking at me through the corner of her eye.

"Yeah but I wasn't suppose to say anything." he said looking at me. He shook his head. "You guys cant say anything, she didn't want anyone to know she was back. She has been back for about 3 days now."

" Why didn't she want us to know?" Rose asked. Why was it not me asking these questions? I couldn't find my voice. I was in shocked. She's back but doesn't want anyone to know. What the fuck man I'm her boyfriend! I was starting to get angry.

"She just said she wasn't ready to see anyone." his voice cracked at the end. He was hiding something.

"What are you hiding Emmett?" I demanded more then asked. He looked away.

"I cant say its not my place." he said.

"Tell me Emmett!" I say a little louder now.

"Edward calm down. This isn't his fault, he was asked by his sister not to say anything. You can not be angry with him when it has nothing to do with him. Only that he promised to keep him word." Jasper said sounding like my father or maybe even my mother. I wanted to hit him.

"If you don't tell me ill go over there and talk to her myself." I said as I got up and walked away as fast as I could. I was out the door of the school and in my car in no time. I drove so fast I was there in less then 10 minutes. She wasn't going to hide from me. Not no more.

I jumped out of the car and headed for the door as I was knocking on the door Emmett was pulling into the driveway. He must of followed me. Bella opened the door before Emmett could get up to the door. I looked at her she was wearing my pull over hoodie and basketball shorts which oddly looked like the ones I was missing as well as the sweater.

She stared at me for a minute then looked behind me. "I'm sorry Bella" Emmett said with worry in his tone. He was scared of his sister. "I let it slip that you were here and Edward didn't want to just let it go. He left before I could stop him" Emmett told her quickly.

"Its alright it was bound to happen soon, small town and everything." She smiled at him. "Now go back to school we will be fine. I have a lot to talk to him about."

Emmett hesitated before nodding and walking back to his jeep. Calling over his should. "If you need me call me!" he got into his jeep and drove away. We stood there in silence for a couple of minutes staring at each other.

"Why" I choked out finally.

"I think you should come in" she said walking back into the house towards the kitchen. I quickly shut the door and followed. "Would you like anything to drink?" she asked. I shook my head no. I didn't want a drink I wanted answers. "Okay then."

"Bella I know what your doing and it wont work." I smiled, it didn't reach my eyes.

"Edward" she started. "You know that I love you right?"

"Well you say you love me but if you did I don't think you would of ran." I said plainly, I wasn't trying to be an ass but like come on she shouldn't of left.

She looked at me sad tears in her eyes. "I'm so sorry Edward. I never wanted it to be like this. I wanted to tell you before I left text you or call but I couldn't do it. I tried a couple of times to make myself pick up the phone and tell you where I was. But I couldn't." she looked away from me in shame.

"All I wanted was for you to be happy. I wanted to be the reason you were happy, but I couldn't when I knew that after what I need to tell you would ruin you life." she then looked back to me tears streaming down her beautiful face. " I'm going to tell you something that is going to change your life forever or it may not. Its your choice on what goes on from here." she wasn't really making any sense to me.

"And what is it that is going to ruin my life forever?" I asked looking straight into her beautiful eyes.

"Edward I'm pregnant"

"Wh …What?" I sputtered out. I looked down at her middle half. How could she be pregnant. She was on birth control wasn't she? Is it mine. No I know it had to be mine. She wouldn't be saying it would ruin my life if it wasn't mine. I just stared at her middle half of her body for about 5 minutes before I breathed out a quiet "How?"

"Well see that's a funny question I'm guessing my birth control stopped working or you have some super sperm." she laughed lightly. She was prefect even in this terrifying situation she still seemed to find some things funny about it. I on the other hand had no Idea what I should do.

Should I run like she did, should I ask if its mine. Should I go over and kiss her and tell her everything will be okay. I don't know what she's thinking about doing with it so I ask.

"And your planning on what?"

She hesitated for minute studying me. I was starting to get worried she wasn't going to tell me. "I am planning on keeping it Edward." she looked down.

I was going to be a FATHER! At seventeen no less. Fuck! What were my parents going to say and my sister. Emmett already knows I'm guessing and I am betting that Bella had something to do with me not being dead right now. What was I going to do I was going to have to get a job and go to school at the same time as raising a child. And medical school. Shit! I wanted to become a doctor like my father. Now it was like that dream just got crossed out on the list.

"Say something" Bella said panicky. "Please"

I looked up into her eyes to see the panic written all over her face. "I… I don't know what to say?" it came out more as a question. What could I say to that.

Bella came to stand closer to me looking up into my eyes she grabbed my hands in hers. "I know that your scared, because believe me so am I. I am terrified of what is coming our way. But it is your choice if you want to stand with me or if you want to go your own way. I know you will come back when your ready to see your child. I love you so much and that is why I could not get rid of it, like I have thought of so many times." she paused taking a shaky breath.

"Its your choice if you want to stay with me and become a family at such a young age. And I would not be mad at you if you were to leave…." I cut her off

"Bella I am not going to run away, you did not get yourself into this….this" I paused looking for the right word not finding the right one. " well this situation and I will not let you go down by yourself for something I helped in. I love you and now that your pregnant it just makes it that much more great." I Smiled to show her how happy I was. I don't know why but I'm happy about this. Just wish it was a little later in life. "And I am scared I will admit but I know that we can do this if we are together and if this is what you really want." I took her face in my hands. "I love you Bella"

I crushed my lips to hers putting all I had into it. I knew we were young and that I sounded so sure we could do this. But to be honest I was anything but sure. I was so confused but thinking that I was going to be with her was all I needed. I pulled away looking at her again we stared into each others eyes for maybe five minutes before I finally asked. "Can I see?"

She looked at me for a second before she realized I was talking about her stomach. She nodded but instead off lifting up her shirt. She started to pull me out of the kitchen and up the stairs. We went into her bedroom and she closed the door.

" I don't have a shirt under this only my bra. I don't need to be standing in the kitchen topless if Charlie happens to walk in." she smiled. As she took her sweater off. She was bigger then I would have thought. I looked at it and reached out toward her wanting to touch it. I bent down in front of her and just looked at it as I placed my hands on her baby bump.

This was really real! I sat there for a moment just looking at it. Thinking about how we were going to do this. "How many months are you?" I asked quietly.

"Ill be four months in a couple of days." she says taking a deep breath.

"Its beautiful." I said leaning in pressing my lips to her tummy which now held my beautiful little sea monkey which is what I suppose it would look like right now.

I stood up and kissed Bella again. How I missed these lips. I pulled away first needing air.

"I think we need to tell everyone" I said still holding her around her waist not wanting to let go of her. "Well everyone else that doesn't know. Like my parents and the rest of the gang."

"Yeah well I don't know if I can handle that. What are your parents going to say. My parents were understanding weirdly enough but what are you parents going to say about you knocking me up?" She spoke the worry that was written all over her face.

"Bella" I moved my hands to her face. "first off don't ever say that again, that I knocked you up its sound all wrong. And second my parent are probably going to be surprised and maybe freak out but they will be okay about it eventually. They will stand by our decisions because they love us. And they know how miserable I have been without you."

"Maybe you should invite me to dinner then." she said looking up at me smiling. "But I must worn you that I can eat a lot now" she laughed. I expected as much.

"Well then ill go home and tell my mom to make dinner for all of us, call Charlie and ask him to come over too." I said placing a gentle kiss on her lips.

"I love you" she said as I pulled away from her.

"I love you too" I said as I walked out the door. This was going to be one interesting night.

AN: How do you like it? push the button and let me know:) also my timelines might be a bit messed up im sorry, i tried to get it but i really i spent so much time away from this story i dont know if i can really do it the way i was going to before. anywho push the button you know you wanna! :)