~!~!CHAPTER 17!~!~

~~!~~Bella~~!~~

I was getting ready for Edwards house and was miserable. I couldn't stop thinking about how the Cullen's were going to take it. I really didn't want to find out either but I knew it was the right thing to do.

"Will you hurry up?" Charlie said standing in my door way. I couldn't decide if I should wear something that would hide my belly or just wear something of my maternity shirts I bought right before I came home.

"Yeah I'll be down in a minute just have to pee" I said, he turned and walked away. I quickly grabbed my baggie hoodie and went to the bathroom.

I walked down the stairs and out the door locking it behind me as my dad waited for me impatiently. Think he was about to die of boredom from the look of him. I couldn't be too sure as I jumped in the car he pulled out of the drive way and we were on our way to the Cullen's but not before putting on my seatbelt.

When we pulled up to the front of the Cullen's house, I felt as though I would explode from everything I was feeling, Panic, confusion, terror etc. It was times like these I wanted drug's the most. I shook my head, I couldn't do that anymore, I haven't done anything in a long time and I won't anytime soon.

Me and Charlie got out of the car and walked up to the house. He put his arm around me and said "please be aware that I will support your decision no matter what they say" he smiled and kissed the top of my head.

"Thanks dad" I said threw deep breathes as we came to the door. I knocked.

The door opened and there was Edward smile on face. "Come in" he moved to the side and motioned us in.

"Thanks and we will be talking a little later" My dad said to Edward as he walked into the house and right into the kitchen like he knew where everything was. It was like my whole family knew this house like it was their own I swear.

I walked in the door enough for him to shut it before he turned me in for a hug. He kissed my forehead and whispered to me that everything was going to be okay, I highly doubted it.

We walked into the dining room where everyone else was sitting waiting for us to join them. The dinner was beautiful roast beef dinner with loads of sides. Salad, mash potatoes, corn, peas, carrots, bread rolls. Etc. we all dug in.

There was mild chatter going around and a lot of questions about where I was and why did I leave I told them that I went to Canada to visit my aunt and I avoided why I left. Now wasn't the time for that topic.

After we ate the meal Esme made for all of us we decided to go out in the living room where we could all sit conformably. I think Edward did that for my sake, more than the rest anyways. While we were sitting in the living room I couldn't shake the feeling of uneasiness. I wanted nothing more than to run out of there and never to look back but I had three people on my side and I guess that was a better odd then some. But really who cares what they think Bella this is your baby not theirs. I thought to myself.

"Okay so Bella and I Need to tell you all something." Edwards started. "Bella's..."

"Pregnant." I said. Everyone just stared in shock not knowing what to say for a minute or two. Then it surprized me when the first one to speak up was Edward's dad.

"What?" he got a little loud "are you kidding me your seventeen. You can't have a baby, do you know what it's like to take care a baby how much it cost, you're not even outta high school yet never mind have a job like hell you will have this baby I will not allow it. Get rid of it." he ranted. I started to cry.

"Dad we are not getting rid of it we have decided to keep it and we will manage. It might affect us in some but lots of people get pregnant and go to school and get jobs it's not like we will be hopeless." Edward said.

"I think you should keep it" Esme said which surprized everyone in that room. We all looked at her as she said "I think you should keep it for many of reasons this might be the only chance you get to have a baby. And or this just might help you kids stay off the drugs from now on. And yes we know about the drugs even Charlie does" Charlie nodded. Shit. "But maybe just maybe you guys can take this as a learning curve and work with it to make it work. "

"You cannot be serious Esme. You can't think this pregnancy is a good idea."

"I am serious as I always am. It is destined that Bella and Edward are meant to be together. They have always been together and will always be so may as well get something good out of it. But under one condition they both go to school and they both still live at home the baby will be with Bella but is in all means always aloud over here whenever. "

"I guess there will be no fighting you on this. I will have to agree with your mother Edward." Carlie said. "You will be going to school and finish high school when you're supposed to. " Edward Nodded.

Rosalie and Alice grabbed my hands after that and pulled me out of the living room and up their stairs into Alice's room. The guys I think we're heading into the back yard as the adults were in the living room talking. I couldn't believe how Esme put her foot down in my favor and I didn't even say anything other than I was pregnant. But I guess she's not my mother so she wouldn't yell at me anyways.

I couldn't help but sigh in relief. "Take It Off" Alice Said Pointing to the baggy sweater I had on. i took it off. "Now the shirt" she said. I didn't hesitate.

"Oh my god. What did you do? Just because my mom didn't give you trouble doesn't mean that I am not. I want you to know that I am not impressed at all with you keeping this baby." I looked down in shame tears starting to build up in my eyes. "I just can't believe you would do this to yourself, having a baby when you're older with a job is hard enough and you're having one in high school."

"Alice Stop. Can't you see you're upsetting her? You're hurting her feelings." Rose said. She came up and put her arms around me, "I'll be there for you when you need me" she whispered into my ears.

"Thanks" I said. As I pulled back on my sweater not caring about the shirt that went under it.

"Well I am not going to be there for you I can't believe you would do this now you're going to get fat and you're not going to be able to hang out and do drugs anymore and I'm not stopping just because you and my brother fucked without a condom on. I can't believe I have to suffer because of you. And if you're going to have a baby and let it hold you back that's your choice but it's wasn't mine and I'm not paying for it" she yelled at me with tears of anger in her eyes. That where I couldn't take it anymore, who the hell did she think she was?

"This has nothing to do with you Alice. Go have your fun. I don't need your fucking help anyways. When have I ever … that's right never. And you know what just because this baby is your family doesn't mean you have to be a part of its life. And from now on your nothing to me… you're a selfish bitch who only cares about the next time she gets high and you can do that all you want because from now on you stupid bitch I'm done with you" I said and turned around and walked away I didn't want to deal with that any longer how dare she get mad at me.

I stormed down the stairs and out the door, and went straight to my dad's car open the door and sat my ass down in the passenger side. Who the hell was she to think that I was going to let her blame me for ruining her life? If anything I ruined Edward's life and mine, where the hell did she think that anyone was going to make her keep her life on hold for my baby. What the hell.

The front porch light flicked on as Edward walked out the door and towards me. I opened the door and he bent down in front of me.

"Are you okay?" he asked as he touched my cheek. I leaned my face into his hand and signed

"Yeah I'll be fine, just wanna get home and go to bed." I said not wanting to explain what a selfish bitch his sister is. "Is my dad almost done?" I asked.

"Yeah he will be out in a minute just getting some left overs for work tomorrow I think" he laughed. "Do you want some company tonight? I could come over threw your window like before?"

"Not tonight I'm just wanting to go to bed" I lied. Truth be told I didn't really know what I wanted to do at this point and I just lost one of my friends. It was taking everything I had in me not to cry right then in front of Edward.

"Okay well I'll see you tomorrow then okay?" he asked. I nodded. He put both hand on either side of my face and kissed me softly and passionately. I kissed him back with everything that I could and I could feel the love in the kiss and it was so good I didn't want it to stop. But then my dad cleared his throat and broke us apart. "Goodnight Bella "

"Good night Edward" I said before shutting the car door as my dad got into the car and drove home.

As we pulled up to my house, I looked out the window and seen my car I decided that a drive would be in order. I needed to clear my head and going to the lake to watch the waves sounded like a good idea to me. So I jumped out of the car after telling Charlie what my plan was and told him I might stay out all night but would call to tell him I'm safe.

I jumped into my baby and started her up. I was trying to decide if I wanted Edward to come with me. I decided that maybe I could use some company after all so I texted him

Hey you want to come for a drive with me?

Yeah when?

Now!

Come get me

Be there in a min.

I drove back over to his house and he was waiting at the end of the drive for me, guess not wanting everyone to know where he was going or who he was going with. For my sake not his, he jumped into the car and I pulled away and started the drive to the lake.

"Is everything okay?" he asked again.

"Yeah everything's fine I just want to drive and clear my head?"

"Rose told me what happened with you and Alice and how Alice freaked on you. I'm sorry my sisters a bitch."

"Can we not talk about her, I don't want to think about that right now…. I don't need her in my life. She's just one less druggy in my life. Thanks god. She really needs to get over herself like it's my fucking fault that she has to quick her drugs. How does my pregnancy affect her? Like man I want to slap a bitch."

"So much for not wanting to talk about it "he laughed. "You're cute when you ramble"

"Whatever"

Edward put a cd into the playing as I kept quiet and listened to what he was about to play. The song hey soul sister came on, I laughed "Really? Soul sister…when did you start listening to this song?" I asked while through laughs.

"Well when you were gone for that while I was listening to the radio while sitting in my car parked at school smoking up and I heard this song and it just reminded me of how I felt about you." I smiled.

The next song started to play as I pulled into the parking spot right by the beach. The song smile by uncle cracker came on. I laughed and shook my head. "What this one too" I turned to look at Edward and he was blushing.

"Yeah well this came on the radio right after I found out you were pregnant. I love you Bella" he said leaning towards my lips I kissed him and then it started to get heated. While his tongue went along my bottom lip asking for access he lifted me from my seat and on to his side of the car, Straddling his lap now letting him into my mouth till much needed air.

"I will be there every step of the way baby. I promise" he said and I kissed him hard with passion. I loved him in that minute so much I couldn't hold it in.

"Make me yours forever" I said.

"Always" he said.

The next couple of days Edward came over and we were allowed to miss the rest of the week but the next week we had to get caught back up and go to school every day. It was kind of cool only being me and Edwards in this house all day. Till the others got off of school sometimes they would come over here or go over to Edward's house to hang out with Alice. This wasn't a big deal because I had Edward it was like he didn't want to leave my side. Which was cute till we hit school.

The Monday morning when we had to face the world again and no one at school has seen me for a couple months and then I show back up pregnant and I was guessing everyone already knew about it because good news travels fast but bad new travels faster. And I was a little scared about all the looks I was going to get and the whispers behind my back.

Who cares Bella I thought to myself. Really why was I so nervous about this I don't care what they think. Who are they to judge me? How many people in this school have all slept together at some point probably had some STI's going around the school too. One could only guess.

I got outta my car after grabbing my school bag from the back and started walking towards class when someone stopped me. I turned around to see Lauren standing in front of me with hand on hip and chest pushed out. She looked retarted, trying to look like she was better than me. All she was doing was making a fool out of herself.

"Is it true?" she asked. I looked at her in confusion.

"Is what true. Oh did you finally realize you're a whore?" I raised my eyebrow

"Not that." Clearly not realizing that I called her a whore. "Are you pregnant?"

"Oh yeah that's none of your business bitch!" I turned away and started to walk away

"She was just calling you a whore, look who's talking, getting yourself pregnant who's the dad, someone random off the street. We know how you don't really care about who it is as long as you get it right like James. Didn't care that he was someone's boyfriend just pick him up do him there on the spot and don't even tell him your name till after the sex. Wow why don't you speak to yourself when you're spitting out words that describe you more than us. "Jessica spit on the ground in front of my shoe, like I was dirt.

This pisted me off so much that I threw back my fist and brought it forward with all my weight and punched her square in the nose. She fell on the ground calling me all the names she could think of.

"The last time I checked it was none of your business if I was pregnant to begin with and if you have a problem with who my baby's dad is, tell it to him. I think you know him, he's the one you bag to suck his dick every time you see him. You piece of shit and if you ever. Look at me again I promise you, you will regret it" and with that I turned and walked away. I didn't realize that everyone has surrounded us and that my walking away was a little difficult.

When I finally made my way through the crowd I found Edward and he wrapped his arms around me and leaned into my ear.

"Nice Hook. But I don't think you should be fighting now that your pregnant." He said. I nodded letting him know he was right and went into class.

While at school there was so many whispers by lunch I needed to leave and went and ate with Edward in his car. It was good to have at least him; I couldn't do it without him.

After lunch it was the same whispers, loud remarks from Lauren, and people turning their heads away as if they weren't just staring at me. I wanted to scream and just tell everyone to fuck off and grow the fuck up. Congratulate me and not judge me, I just couldn't take it anymore.

One of the guys Mike called out to me. I turned to look as he ran up to me. "What" I said not being nice. But I was having a bad day and didn't want to be bothered.

"I just wanted to see if you were busy tonight" he said.

"Why?" I asked

"Because I was thinking you could come with me to my house and we could get cosy without a condom now that you're already knocked up, we don't need protection." he said wiggling his eyebrows. Who the hell did this guy think he was? What the fuck!

"Are you retarded or just plain stupid?" I asked. "Because last time I check condoms aren't just for protection against pregnancy they are protection against STI's too dumb ass and the last time I check Lauren and Jessica both caught something a while ago after sleeping with you." By this point I was starting to get louder and more angry and the tears were threatening to come out" So I suggest you leave my site before I rip you dick off and make you choke on it." I yelled.

Edward walked up behind me putting his hand on his shoulders. Hearing me yelling made him worried. "Is everything okay Hun he whispered into my ears." I shivered a bit calming down only slightly

"No it's not okay this asshole just fucking said this shit to me about coming over to his house to fuck him without protection. Fucking idiots all around me people are just fucking plain stupid; I want to slap every single person who has a problem with me and tell them to grow the fuck up."

Edward grabbed the side of my face breathing ever so lightly into my face as he spoke. "Bella breathe! Calm yourself down and forget about the idiots in this school its only you and me remember… no one else is involved and it doesn't matter what they think. They do need to grow up but so do we and you can't be flying off the handle every time someone makes an idiotic remark at you. "He said. I pulled away from him.

It kind of pissed me off that he was saying I kept flying of the handle every time people said something wrong to me, my anger now switch on him. Even though I know he was right, "U Mr. Edward Cullen can go fuck yourself!" I screamed. "You are the fucking one who helped me in this and no one seems to be saying how bad it is for you to have a baby because no one knows it's YOURS". Now they all knew or all were going to know in the next 5 minutes.

"Well now they do Bella." He said still calm voice he tried to grab me back into his arms I pulled away again. I don't fucking think so. He looked at me hurt for a minute. "You want everyone to know it's mine then I will tell them right here and now" he turned to the crowd we have gathered around us while we were fighting. Mike had seemed too disappeared in this mix.

But before I heard what he was about to say I turned away and blocked him out. I walked to my car and got in. I wanted to hurt someone something. So I took it out on my steering wheel. I was just so angry at everything all the time now and I didn't know why, everyone was rude and with that I decided some alone time was in order so I put my car into drive and drove.

I didn't really know where I wanted to go or where I wanted to be. I just wanted to be alone. I felt as though Edward was suffocating me like I love you but go away and stop trying to get me to calm down and shit. Like fuck what are you my birthing teacher 'just breathe Bella' fuck that. I won't calm myself for no one except my baby and this is my baby making me this angry so it's for my baby.

I couldn't help myself from starting to cry I felt as though everyone was out to get me or against me having this baby, I felt as though everyone thought they knew what was best for me. At one point I even start thinking about drug's just one hit of anything right now would be great I wish I had some pot to mellow myself down.

How nice it would be to take a line of coke or a pill of e anything to help me forget about today and its events. How I wish life could be simple and not hurting. I started to cry harder making it harder for me to see the road clearly, like it was raining and there wasn't a drop out side of the car.

Everything started getting blurry so I took my hands off the wheels forgetting that I was driving at 70mph for a sec to wipe my eyes and when I finally got my vision back all I could hear was a horn and headlights in my eyes and that's when it hit me.

I hear loud noises but my eyes are closed, they are calling for help. i try calling for help and i cant, I try opening my eyes but they won't open, I trying moving my hand and I can't move. I'm scared and they voices talking are serious. I hear a noise like a saw or something. Then I feel a weight being lifted off of me. That's when everything went black.