So, now we've cleared up that Rachel's very impulsive. But Kurt wasn't at all. He used to plan things over and over again, until they verged on perfection. His problem now was: how was he going to tell Rachel that he liked her? Because there was no doubt about that. He did like her. He wasn't quite enthusiastic about liking a girl, since his sexuality was the only thing he was sure of, but he could deny he had feelings for her.
So he started thinking about the things Rachel Berry liked the most: herself, compliments and music.
Since he had already filled her with compliments, he decided to write a mash up for her, like she had done for him (even if she wouldn't admit it). Kurt stayed up all night, trying to mix together two perfect songs for her..
and the following day, after school, he walked to the Glee Club room, ready to sing. He would have asked Mr Shuester for permission to sing first, and he wouldn't have taken a no for an answer.
"Mr Shue, if I may?" he said, his hand raised. "I've got something to say, and I wrote a mash up about it"
"Good, Kurt" Will was happy that his kids had been writing a lot of songs, lately, and he couldn't refuse.
Kurt stood up and faced his friends. Finn sat next to Santana, frowning. Rachel was sitting at the first row, and was looking at Kurt with a curios expression. He asked Sam to play the guitar for him, handed him some sheet music, and then he began to sing:
"My best friends hot,
my best friends hot,
no matter what I do won't love me..." sang Kurt, closing his eyes as his cheeks reddened.
"Won't you apologize to me for being such a tease?
I'm not gonna tell you all the things I might like, but..
If you wanna know, here it goes,
I'm gonna tell you,
there's a part of me that shows
if we're close, it's gonna let you see everything..
but remember that you asked for it!" As he was singing, Kurt found it very stupid; first of all, Rachel had never asked him anything. Hoping he would have soon stopped blushing, he opened his eyes, and continued:
"I'm trying to do my best, to impress,
but it's easier to let you take a guess at the rest,
but you wanna hear the things in my brain..
and my heart, will you ask for it?" Kurt cursed himself for writing such a lame mash up. He even hated the Jonas Brothers now. He sadly noticed that Rachel was laughing at him.. well, not laughing, exactly. She was.. smiling, actually. Kurt calmed down a little bit, and sang:
"I'm gonna tell you that you're mean
'cause you don't show,
you interrupt another dream,
so out you go..
I'm not gonna tell you all the things I might like..
I think lyrics need to rhyme,
and you're not asking,
but I'm trying grow a mustache.." sang Kurt, smiling as Rachel put her hands on her mouth.
"I love the sound of violins,
and making someone smile..
and I love you when you say my name,
so hold my hand, put on a show..
I still don't think you understand..
Well, you probably know more
than you ever wanted to,
so be careful when you ask next time.." There was some sort of sadness in those words that moved Rachel.
"Should I tell you now?
For your perusing,
at times confusing,
hopefully amusing,
here, I'm confessing,
I'm in love with you!" Kurt was glad the song was over. It was stupid, badly mashed up, and had absolutely no sense. Mr Shuester was kind of perplexed. "Well.. well done, Kurt" he said, encouraging him.
Kurt sat down next to Rachel, his face was as red as a tomato. Rachel looked somehow pleased. In fact, she was sneering. Kurt sighed in relief: luckily, he was wearing a pink scarf that day, so if Rachel had asked him if his song was about her, at least he could have played the gay card. Thankfully, she never mentioned his ridiculous performance, and Kurt could consider himself safe. But also, he was despairingly trying to find a way to confess his feelings to Rachel. He had the terrible sensation that, if he hadn't done it soon, she would have got herself another boyfriend, maybe even Finn. She always complained about how unpopular she was, but she had made out with more guys than Kurt had. In fact, he had never kissed anyone before, except Brittany, but it hadn't meant anything to neither of them. It was the matter of time; Kurt had to act now.
On the other hand, Rachel was glad he had forgotten about her mash up; unlike Kurt's, it wasn't lame, actually it was really well done, but that's just because everything Rachel did, impulsively or not, turned out to be perfect. Anyway, she hadn't talked about the Introducing me / My best friend's hot mash up because she didn't want to remind him about hers, so both songs were set aside. Although, Rachel was again quite amused by Kurt's clumsiness, and she had wondered a couple of times whether or not his song was dedicated to her. It was hard to say; after all she had made it very clear, by adding 'blue' to the lyrics of her mash up, while he hadn't even bothered specifying if his 'hot best friend' was a girl or boy. And it was a massive detail, since Kurt was gay.
"He's gay." Rachel kept telling herself. "And I'm a fool. We' great friends, and I'm not going to ruin everything just for this silly crush. I have to move on. I already have with Finn, it turned out to be easy, so why should it be any different with Kurt? All I need is a plan B." And by 'plan B', she meant 'boyfriend'. But they didn't have much time to date, since Regionals were getting closer everyday.
