Chapter Four: Dan's confession
"Hey, hey, hey." Dan said wrapping his hands around Blair, when she returned to the loft crying. "Are you alright?"
"Serena hates me." Blair said softly. "And for once, I don't blame her. I'm so stupid."
"No, you're not. And Serena doesn't hate you. She's just a little mad you didn't tell her where you were…she was really worried about you, Blair. Besides, I know Serena… she might be mad with you now, but in an hour you two will be best friends again. Trust me; it'll all blow over in a bit." Dan said cupping the back of her head in his hand and squeezing it gently.
"No Dan, you didn't see how angry she was." Blair said pulling away from Dan's embrace and sitting onto the couch.
"She'll get over it… you guys have had worst fights, right?" Dan said running his fingers nervously through his scruffy hair.
"This one was pretty bad." Blair mumbled, looking down at her hands. "I think you should go and find her."
"No." Dan said quickly and then nervously when Blair lifted her head to look at him he added, "I mean…she was pretty pissed at me, too."
"She has her reasons."
"I know, but I don't regret what I did and frankly, I would do it again in a heartbeat."
Blair's lips formed a small smile. "You're really sweet, Humphrey. But I think you should go and find Serena. You guys should have a chat."
"Why?" he said sitting down next to her on the couch. "I'd rather stay here with you."
Blair raised a perfectly arched eyebrow. "Really now?" she asked a little surprized by his answer.
"Yes…I mean, we could uh-watch My Fair Lady? Or Roman Holiday…whichever you want."
"As tempting as Audrey sounds right now, to my already stressed and perplexed nerves…you need to be there for Serena. So, I think I will pass on the movies until you sort things out with S. "
"Look Blair, I don't see what the big deal is. We both lied about you staying here. She is more likely to forgive you before she forgives me or even speaks to me again, for that matter. I'm sure she is fine…there is no need for us to chat."
"You don't get it, Humphrey, do you?" Blair said rolling her eyes. "Why do you think she was so mad that I was staying here?"
"Because you didn't tell her."
"No…because I was staying here." She said emphasising the word again.
"And you didn't tell her." Dan said persistently.
"Argh! Aren't you supposed to be good at reading people and scenarios when you're a writer?" Blair snapped. "Look, the reason that Serena got so mad that I was here, is because she felt-"
"-Left out." Dan said snapping his fingers. "Yeah, I totally got that too."
"She was JEALOUS, you moron." Blair said slapping him hard on the arm.
"Jealous?" Dan said shaking his head in disbelief. "No, no. She was upset we didn't tell her that she was here. You're her best friend and she probably felt very left out…I bet she thinks we didn't trust her enough to tell here that you were here."
"God, Humphrey you can be so thick!" Blair said growing angrier by the minute. "SERENA STILL LIKES YOU!"
"What?" Dan asked, completely overwhelmed by shock.
"Serena still likes you! So can you please just go and make things right?"
"She can't- she's not- she's with Max now, right?" Dan asked, running his fingers through his messy hair.
"Apparently not. She was going to take you out tonight, that's why she came here."
"Are you making this up, Waldorf? It's not one of your schemes to get me to go over and make sure that she is okay?"
"It's not a scheme." Blair said honestly. "You still like Serena, right?"
"I will always have a place for Serena in my heart, Blair." Dan said.
"Then, please for the love of God…go and make things right. She needs to hear it from you that we are just friends and you're letting me crash here for a bit and that's all. There's no need for her to be jealous and had I known that she still liked you; I won't have come here in the first place."
"Look Blair, if it's that important to you… I will go and speak to her. But I don't know what you expect me to do to make things right."
"Ask her out. She's crazy about you." Blair said nudging him.
"I don't think I can. "
"What do you mean, Humphrey? You still like her, right? You told me once that you will always have feelings for her…so what's the problem? It's Serena…she's the love of your life! Not to mention, I just told she wants you back, so you don't have to worry about any rejection."
"I will always care for Serena, Blair. She was such an important part of my life …and well, now we are family." He said grimacing slightly. "But I don't want to get back with her. I have tried…we have tried so many times and it never works out. Our relationship is doomed."
"Don't say that." Blair said softly. "If you still love her, you should fight for your relationship…you should fight for her."
"What if I don't want to fight? What if there's someone else? Blair, I don't love Serena anymore…I've been over her for a long time now. In fact, I'm in love with-"
"Sorry," Blair said cutting him off quickly as she picked up her ringing cell. "It's Dorota. I've been waiting for this call all day. It's really urgent, I need to take this. Do you mind if I take this?"
Dan sighed heavily and plastered on a fake smile. "No, its fine. Please, go ahead." he said as he got off the couch and started to clear up the table from their earlier dinner.
"Thanks Dan." Blair said smiling sweetly. "Oh and you should go and speak to Serena." She said as she answered her phone. "Dorota, tell me everything."
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"All done, Miss Blair." Dorota said pulling off a pair of plastic gloves and throwing them into her cleaning bucket she was holding. "Bathroom cleaned, changed the bed to your bed sheets and I vacuumed and dusted your bedroom."
"So the bathroom is thoroughly scrubbed?"
"Dorota scrubbed everything so thoroughly…everything sparkles now."
"As long as there is no trace of Humphrey left… I can go bathroom now." Blair said heading towards the bathroom. "Can you believe that I won't go until I knew you had cleaned it?"
"But Miss Blair, Dan is not that –bad." Dorota said frowning a little. "Man live by himself and the place is pretty clean."
"Oh puh-lease. It's not him so much that I'm worried about. His little slut face sister lived in this loft too and god knows what I would have caught from her, had you not scrubbed this place so thoroughly. Besides, I'm sure Dan has not given the place a proper spring clean since she left for Hudson."
"I still think he doing good job." Dorota mumbled when Blair had disappeared into the bathroom.
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"Wow, Dorota." Blair said coming out of the bathroom. "It really does sparkle."
"I scrubbed the bath tub so hard...that you could sleep in there now." Dorota said smiling with satisfaction.
"Eww no. God knows what Humphrey and Vanessa have done in there." Blair said pulling a disgusted face. "I don't think any amount of bleach or vigorous cleaning could scrub out that."
Dorota rolled her eyes when Blair wasn't looking and continued to wash up the kitchen.
"So, tell me again what Louis said." Blair said sitting down on at a stool by the kitchen bench.
"He asked where Miss Blair is…I told him that she was on vacation…he said Dorota is liar and got in limo and drove away. Then Dorota called you."
"Do you think he knows that I am here?" Blair asked. "Like, he didn't follow you here or anything."
"No, Dorota waited like you said…packed some more clothes for you and then came."
"Good." Blair said a little relieved. "Besides, if he had followed you here, he would have come up by now."
"Miss Serena was very cranky." Dorota said drying the last plate and putting it away quickly. "She kept saying that she was hurt you did not tell her where you were."
"I know." Blair said sighing heavily. "She called me and I won't tell her. Then she turned up here and was very cranky with me."
"She came here?" Dorota asked handing Blair a cup of coffee.
"Yes and now, we are not speaking."
"Why?"
"Because she likes Dan and she is jealous I went to him." Blair said before taking a sip of her coffee. "She wants to get back with him and she thinks I'm in the way."
"But Dan still like Serena, yeah?" Dorota said taking a sip out of her coffee.
"I thought he did. But before you rang he told me that he is in love with someone else."
Dorota gasped and spilled a bit of her coffee on the bench. "But Miss Blair, that must be you."
"What? No way!" Blair said rolling her eyes. "Humphrey and I are just friends. "
"Dorota do not think so. The way Dan looks at you…he is like a little puppy. Dan has not dated anyone since he kissed you, Miss Blair."
"But you forget that he kissed Charlie." Blair said correcting her.
"So…people can slip up sometimes." Dorota mumbled.
"Don't be silly. We are only friends and if he did like me as anything more, I would know and I would have never come here." Blair said, hoping that she sounded convincing enough and praying at the same time that this was exactly the case.
"Do you think Serena will tell Prince that you are here?" Dorota asked suddenly.
"No. She's mad at me. But she wouldn't betray me like that." Blair said with complete faith in Serena.
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"Just call him and tell him that you need to talk." Dorota said passing Blair her cell phone.
"I don't know what to say to him." Blair said fighting back tears that were forming in her in eyes. "I don't know what the right thing to do is, anymore."
"Miss Blair, if you are having second thoughts about wedding to Prince…you should call off wedding and tell Mr Chuck that you still love him." Dorota said smiling widely.
"I do love Chuck. I would be lying if I said that I didn't, Dorota." Blair said sniffing a little. "But Louis is the father of my baby and I can't bring myself to raise this baby without its father."
"Maybe you should ask Mr Chuck how he feels about raising another man's baby." Dorota said reaching for her coat. "Call Mr Chuck and speak to him before you decide anything, Miss Blair. He loves you, Dorota know this. I have to go, Vanya is on late shift and I need to look after baby tonight. Good luck." She said kissing Blair on the top of the head.
"Thanks for everything, Dorota." Blair said smiling. "Have a good night."
"You too, Miss Blair. Don't forget to call Mr Chuck and call me to tell me what you decided." She said before closing the door to the loft and leaving Blair all alone to her thoughts.
Blair picked up her cell and hit speed dial number one.
"Blair?" Chuck asked, picking up after the second ring. "Where are you? Are you alright? I've been worried sick…"
"I'm fine. Do you think you could come to me, so we can talk?"
"Tell me where." Chuck said immediately.
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"Thanks for coming." Blair said, closing the door to the loft.
"Are you sure that you are alright?" Chuck said reaching out for her hand to squeeze it.
"Yes, I just needed to get away…Louis is back." She said, enjoying the feel of his hands on hers.
"So I've heard. Have you spoken to him?" he said dropping her hand suddenly.
"No…I wanted to speak to you first." Blair said sitting down on the couch. "What are we, Chuck?"
"I don't think I understand." He said sitting down next to her on the couch.
"I feel like I'm stuck. My head tells me to marry Louis, but my heart- my heart is telling me to pick you." Blair said looking deeply in his face to see his reaction. "I've lost my way and you have found yours…so I wanted to ask for your advice. Tell me what to do, Chuck. I am so confused."
"Blair, I can't make this decision for you." Chuck said solemnly. "It's something that you need to decide for yourself."
"But I can't, Chuck. I have to think rationally now. If I wasn't…pregnant, I probably would have dumped Louis by now. But every baby deserves to know its father…or at least have a father." Blair said sighing heavily. "Do you think you could love another man's child?"
"Blair…" Chuck said closing his eyes for a second. "Why are you asking me this? You love Louis and despite what you think or may be feeling right now…in a couple of days when you see him face to face…you will sort everything out. I think your hormones are confusing you."
"You're right. It's probably just hormones." Blair said fighting back the tears. "I'm sorry to drag you out here, for nothing. Well, I think I will call it a night. I'm exhausted." Blair said standing up quickly. "Thanks for being here for me, Chuck. You're a great friend." She said faking a smile.
"I'll always be here for you, Blair." He said standing up and kissing her forehead before walking towards the door. "Send my regards to Humphrey."
"Good night, Chuck." Blair said closing the door behind him and breaking out in tears instantly.
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"Was that Chuck, I saw driving off in the limo down stairs?" Dan asked closing the front door behind him.
Blair quickly wiped the tears from her eyes and forced a smile. "Yes, I called him past to talk."
"Are you alright?"
"I'm fine." Blair snapped irrated. "Why does everyone keep asking me that?"
"I'm just concerned, Blair. You've been crying…did Chuck upset you?" Dan asked, placing his hand on her shoulders.
"No. I was trying to take off my make-up." Blair lied quickly.
"You are a terrible liar." Dan said leading her to the couch. "Sit. Tell me all about it."
"I asked him if he could love another man's baby…" Blair said sniffing a little. "…and he said that my hormones were confusing me and I should stay with Louis...so that's a no!" she said laughing awkwardly.
"I'm sure he was just in shock." Dan said.
"No… he seemed certain." Blair said wiping, away at some tears that fell from her eyes, with the back of her hand. "Anyways it's best to know these things, right?"
"Blair…"
"It just hurts. I mean, after everything we have been through…not having Serena talking to me and Chuck pushing me towards Louis makes me feel…I feel so alone and vulnerable."
"You'll always have me." Dan said reaching for her hand. "I'm not going anywhere." He said squeezing it and bringing it to his lips for a quick kiss.
"I'm scared Humphrey." Blair said through misty eyes. "I'm scared that I'll be left to raise my baby alone."
"You won't be alone…you have great friends…people that love you-"
"That's not enough." Blair said shaking her head. "My baby deserves a father…it deserves to come from a family. If I end it with Louis, because I don't love him anymore and Chuck doesn't want to raise my baby…who will?"
"I will." Dan said quickly.
"That's very sweet of you, but-"
"No, Blair, I'm being serious." Dan said taking her hands in his. "You will always have me…I'll be here to support you with any decisions you make…I want to be a part of this."
"Why? Why would you do that, Dan?" Blair asked, sniffling a little.
"Because I am in love with you, Blair! Can't you tell?" Dan asked, running his fingers through his messy hair. "I am so crazy about you…I would do anything for you!" he said getting off the couch, to pace the living room floor. "I was trying to tell you earlier…before Dorota rang…that I couldn't be with Serena…because I love you, but I was cut off. But now…now you have options…you have me. So as long as I am around…I will continue to love you."
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Author's Note:
A sorry in advance for:
Any boringness that this chapter may entail. I tried my best to cut out as much as I could but a lot was needed to set the future storylines.
For the disgusting Dair references… this is definitely nota Dair story! I love and adore their friendship, but writing this chapter was making me vomit in my mouth haha.
I really hope people are reading this. I always love getting reviews on my stories no matter how negative or judgemental they may be… just so I can feel like I am not writing this for nothing. I probably will trial this story out for a couple more chapters and then scrap it if I am not feeling any love. I have other stories to focus on and plenty more ideas for Chair fics =]
To whoever is reading this…thank you for your support ;)
Paris xx