Lying on the blanket that was resting on the grass, Kate smiled as Johanna lay on her stomach beside her, singing to herself again with random sounds as the brunette smiled. She loved her job; everyone knew that when they saw her at the precinct, it was something she was extremely passionate about but she loved her family more and she hated that the only time she got was the weekends, the mornings when her little girl was half asleep and the evenings when her daughter was getting tired and angry. Hearing footsteps, she looked up to see Rick standing there with a bag, a smile covering his face as he knelt down and kissed her gently before sighing.
"It's nice having you to ourselves" he whispered onto her lips as she shut her eyes for a moment, the feeling of Johanna grabbing her fingers making her laugh as she opened her dark eyes again and rolled onto her side so she could look at her daughter. "I think Johanna agrees with me as well" he smiled, watching Kate stare at their daughter, her finger running down the small girls back as Johanna continued to sing to herself, the smile growing on Kate's face as she just watched. Sitting up slowly, Kate sighed as she felt Rick sit behind her, his legs either side of her as he wrapped his arms around her waist and pressed a kiss against her shoulders which were revealed by the strappy dress she was wearing. "I mean it Kate, it's nice to just have you to ourselves" he whispered onto her bare skin as she felt a tear roll down her cheek. Noticing the small drop that was running down her face, he gently wiped it away with his thumb and sighed as Kate collected Johanna into her arms and bit into her lip. "What's wrong?" he asked.
"Am I a bad mom?" she blurted out, shocking him as he stared at her in confusion before looking down at their daughter who was clinging onto Kate's dark hair. "I'm never here for her, It would probably be better if I wasn't, I'm practically a stranger to her" she admitted, staring down at her daughter who was looking right at her with her dark eyes.
"Whatever is running through your brain Kate, stop it. You're an amazing mother and everyone knows how much Johanna means to you, she loves you Katie" he sighed as he tightened his arms around her, keeping her close as she rested her back against his chest and shut her eyes. "Who wakes up in the middle of the night when she cries and walks up and down the corridor singing to her? You do" he smiled. "Who baths her and plays with her even when their exhausted? You do" he declared. "Who calls at least four times a day to ask how she is? Because the last time I checked it was you Kate" he listed as she continued to stare at her daughter. "Yes you work but you love her just as much as the next person and you're always there when she needs you" he smiled as Kate bit into her lip. "So stop thinking stupid things Kate" he announced before pressing a kiss against her cheek and smiling.
"I just wish I could be there for her more often, I want to watch her grow and I'm scared I'll miss the first word and when she starts to crawl and all those important memories" she explained as Johanna grabbed her finger in her small hand. "I'm scared I'm going to miss her grow up and she won't forgive me for that" she admitted, knowing that if anyone could calm her worries it would be the man who was sat behind her, supporting her both physically and emotionally.
"Kate, you're not going to miss anything I promise" he whispered into her hair as she slowly nodded, her eyes shutting as she felt the breeze run across her skin, Johanna still clutching onto her finger as Rick held her close. "You're going out tomorrow" he said a few moments later, confusion covering her face as he sighed. "You, Lanie, Alexis and Johanna if you want to take her are going dress shopping for the wedding" he explained, her eyes opening quickly as she turned her head to look at him. "I've always reserved a table at the new Chinese restaurant that's just opened and you've wanted to go to and then in the evening, you and I are going out to the movies" he smiled, Kate beaming as she listened to everything he said.
"You didn't have to do that" she quickly commented as he smiled. "But thank you, you really are amazing" she sighed, her lips slowly moving closer to his as she leant into kiss him, a cry leaving the small child's lips before they could.
"Someone doesn't like that mommy is paying them all the attention" he commented, watching as Kate lifted Johanna into the air slightly and sighed. "She really is beautiful Kate, she takes after you completely" he sighed as he stared at his fiancée and daughter, feeling something he'd never felt when he was Meredith and Alexis as a child. He loved Alexis when she was a baby and loved her even more now but he never had those moments of having a picnic with both his redhead and her mother because he never felt even half of what he felt for Kate with the blonde. Digging in the bag, Kate sighed as she pulled out one of the bottles and held Johanna up slightly, beginning to feed her daughter again as Rick watched, loving the look of complete happiness that covered the brunettes face as she relaxed. "You're an amazing mom Kate" he sighed as she remained still, completely relaxed in the act she was doing.
"Well I'm lucky to have an amazing partner as my baby's father" she smiled back before she kissed him, loving how natural it seemed to be spending a Tuesday afternoon sat in the park with her daughter and fiancée and how work seemed a million miles away from the paradise she was in, no matter how much she was doubting herself.
I know this chapter is short but in the next one they will be going dress shopping, out to lunch and to the movies as well as anything else I decide to put in here. I hope you enjoyed this chapter and please review, they make me write faster. The more reviews, the faster I write!