So this is the first chapter and it would be reaaaallllllyyyyyy nice if I got some reviews to tell me your opinions =D

Holding back

I circled around the house, preparing myself for entering, from cutting the last ties I had to Sam so I could start my new life without the heart break and betrayal. Yea everyone saw Emily as the angel child that was pulled to Sam through the imprint but I knew better. I knew that she had had her eye on him from day one, from the day she saw him to the day he finally gave in. if I had known this would've happened, that my cousin would be this heartless, I would have done anything in my power to keep them apart. But I hadn't known until it was too late, I hadn't known until he had set eyes on her and his heart had slipped from my grasp. A couple of days later I had gone to his house to see if there was any way I could bring him back and I had caught them in the act of screwing around. My heart had shattered into a million unidentifiable pieces, pieces that were to never be put back together; no matter how many years went past.

Finally I resigned myself and changed back into my usual sports bra and shorts. There was no point in wearing anything else as I could easily phase and break whatever clothes I had on and besides, none of the boys saw me in that light, to them I was the annoying she-wolf that snapped at the slightest thing and pined after Sam. I'd admit to the snapping; I wasn't very good when it came to sympathy and I would lash out, put up a wall and withdraw into myself whenever anyone tried to get close. With a quick breath I walked up the stairs and into the house, bracing myself for the worst.

Sam POV

I had just come into the house, my house, when the gang had all stormed in. Immediately Emily pulled away from my embrace and started laying out the food. Ever since Leah had snapped out of her depression (at least she stopped showing it, deep down I knew she still felt it), Emily had been growing more interested in the likes of strangers we met while going out. At first I shrugged it off, thinking she would come back eventually but she just seemed to be drifting further away. With a sigh I sat down at the table.

The door banging alerted everyone to the approach of Leah, the one and only she-wolf. She walked in with her head held high, her brown hair catching the light and her minimal clothing showing off her slender build. I had the fleeting urge to go and cover her up so none of the other guys would see what she looked like but held myself on my seat. Out of nowhere, Emily came sauntering up and sat on my lap, kissing me passionately on the lips before turning to look at Leah. A look of hurt crossed her face before it was replaced with a mask of indifference, her whole face turned cold except her green eyes which showed the true pain she was going through, the pain of having to see me with her cousin, the pain of betrayal. "Sam we need to talk" she stated, a serious look on her face, making my heart leap into my mouth as this could not be good news.

I sat there in shock, not moving a muscle as I stared blankly at Leah. She had just explained what she was planning on doing and how she was going to. She wanted to leave the pack, leave La Push altogether and move somewhere where nobody knew her and she could start a new life. Turning towards Emily, I saw the same look on her face and I knew it must be hurting her to think about her cousin leaving her life.

Emily's POV

Finally, she would go away and I could have Sam all to myself. I knew the only thing keeping him with me was guilt about the scars and of course, the imprint. I had had my eye on Sam from day one and had known sooner or later he would realize I was the better girl. Of course being the typical male he hadn't seen this until his wolf had pointed it out. At first, it was fun being around Sam but then I figured he was so much different to me although I continued dating him. Then I stayed with him just because it hurt my cousin. She was always the pretty one, the smart one, the one everyone wanted to be or be with. No one ever looked at me; no one ever looked at plain old Emily until I had Sam. That turned heads, which made them notice me, envy me, see me as a person and not just "Leah's cousin". I didn't regret how I did it because she never was sympathetic towards me so why should I care.

As soon as she had said the news it felt like I could laugh for hours. Now I knew that if I broke it off with Sam, he would have to pine after me for eternity. There would be no chance for him to go running to my mutt of a cousin's leg. I would now be known as the heart throb that made others jealous. Now all I needed to do was wipe the smirk off my face and stop Leah from seeing the longing look in Sam's eyes. That should be easy enough, a simple kiss would make her forget everything and for the heart break to return and drive her away. Sure enough she only stayed long enough to farewell everyone and then she sprinted out of the house, vanishing into thin air.

A couple of the wolves had glared at me before running out after her, Seth especially but I didn't care because Sam looked like he was trying to follow. Stationed myself onto his lap and wriggled forwards, getting his attention but not all of it. With one last glare towards the kitchen door, I focused myself onto him and only him. It ended with Sam giving in and giving me what I wanted, what I needed to keep him with me long for Leah to run far enough away to never be found unless she wanted to.