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Chapter 8

Complete and Complex

(Lemons skip if you're not comfortable with them)

I turned in the bed to look at Kohaku. I smiled and he looked at me lustfully. He kissed me passionately and forced me on top of him. He caressed my curves and admired my body. He glared my bra and I smirked.

"You want me to undo it?" I asked softly. His unashamed eyes told me that he didn't just want me to undo it; he wanted to destroy it. "Don't, I only have three."

He raised an eyebrow as though to say, 'who cares?'

I shook my head and bent down to kiss him. As I was kissing him, I quickly unhooked my bra and he slid it off quickly. He threw it towards the window. I don't know if he threw it with enough force for it to land out of the window. I didn't care. His lips had captivated me. His hands were roaming my body; exploring every part that he had never touched before. I shivered as he touched my breast. He raised his eyebrow and kissed me quickly before dipping back down and kissing the tip of my nipples. I moaned.

He picked me up and got on top.

I could help but blush as he eyed me. Temptation… and his velvet eyes were full of them. His stare was mind-numbing. His kisses, his presence, his eyes—his throbbing erection against my waist…how did I manage to still be able to think? I moaned as he ravaged my neck with his lips. One of his hands made its way towards my pants and with one quick movement they were off and neatly folded by the dresser. He caressed my thigh and I became stranded, unable to move underneath him. I was paralyzed by pleasure. I felt new to this—completely powerless and yet… my mind went blank again a he caressed my breast.

I arched my back, so that I would be able to feel more, I moaned as I felt his penis move closer to my entrance. They were only separated by my thin and wet panties, and his pants. I wished that both items weren't there. I moved my hands (I was surprised to see that they still worked) towards his pants. I tried to undo them, but the lacing was too intricate and complex for me to manage to achieve that task.

"You really didn't want anyone to rape you." I told him mockingly as I kissed him.

He grinned and rendered me speechless by moving lower and passing his hand over my wet panties. The pressure of his fingers against me was exciting and just has he had with my pants… Houdini made my undies disappear. He moved lower and lower kissing my breast, ribcage, and stomach on his way to his prize.

He reached me; he kissed me in a place that I had never expected to be kissed. (I wasn't a totally clueless, but the pleasure was new to me.) Who did he ever manage to learn how to lick and kiss that way. Oh! Lord! I couldn't stop moaning. He had reached my clit was now toying with me. The pleasure was unbearable. I could feel my toes open and become star-shaped, I would lift my pelvis and my body would rock and convulse. By now my moans had transformed into full-fledged screams and howls of passion. I could feel him smiling against me. I could tell how smug he was, how close he was to…

"OH GOD!" My body dropped completely. I couldn't move, even less than before anyhow.

He didn't stop there. He wiped his mouth and face dry before moving back up and kissing me.

When had he found the time to undo his pants, I would never know, but with one quick trust he moved inside of me; I braced myself waiting for the pain that Cho had described, but there was nothing—no pain. There was just mind blowing pleasure as Kohaku's penis moved inside of me.

I had watched many episodes of True Blood, and I often wondered how those women could take on a being so big and let it move so quickly inside of them…but now I just wanted Haku to move faster and faster. Something inside me was changing, I could feel it. I grabbed him by the shoulders and got on top. I started ridding him. Pleasure—power, more pleasure. He was grunting beneath me and calling out my name. I looked down at him and when our eyes connected a bigger desire filled me up, there was, for a second, an eerie silence before the climax and then—

"Chihiro!"

"Haku!"

We came and a beam of white light moved from our united bodies and spread across the room—across the entire bath house.

I collapsed on top of him and fell asleep on his chest.

(End of Lemons it is now safe to read it again.)

In the morning I was awakened by croaking. At first I thought it was Cho's rotten alarm clock.

I raised my hand and muttered "Shut it."

My response was a groaning sound. I opened one lazy eye to see Toads mouth zipped shut. Haku underneath me awakened too.

'Jeez... poor thing what happened?' I thought naively.

'You forced him to stay quiet.' Haku laughed in my mind.

I jumped out caught by surprise by this new intruder inside my mind.

"The FUCK!" I said grabbing the sheets and covering myself.

Kohaku looked at me puzzled. A wave of guilt and calm washed through me.

'Are you unhappy?' I heard the new voice ask me.

I tried to think, but I could see into his mind and my own was becoming more and more blurry. It was an amalgam of both minds, both perspectives. I could clearly see us—but it was harder to see Me.

His face changed from puzzled to sad in an instant.

"You do not like the bond?" He asked out loud. His out loud voice was far less noticeable than his new inside voice.

Did I like the bond, part of me did, but then again maybe that was him. What did I think—where was I. I was happy? No, I was guilty—no that wasn't it, I was confused… damn. Where was I? What were my emotions? Which thoughts were my own? Why did Haku look at me that way? Why was that stupid toad still here?

'Do you want me to tell him to leave?' He asked me patiently.

"How do you do that?" I asked quickly as he ended his mental sentence.

He blinked.

"How do you know which thoughts are mine and which are yours?" I asked… I was getting irritated of always asking questions.

"Just calm down Chihiro." He said moving closer to me. He leaned closer and cupped my cheek with his hand. When we touched I felt a thousand tingling spiders crawling under my skin. It was like I had an extreme adrenaline push and yet I was calmer and more at peace. I wanted to lean in more and kiss his lips. There was a growing desire that kept burning deep within me.

There was a half croaking, half muffled coughing noise next to us. I turned to look at Toad who hadn't moved from where he was. I blushed slightly embarrassed by my sudden outburst, but mostly because I was remembering that he was here and that I was about to jump on Kohaku and do everything that I did to him last night again and again. I could feel Haku in my mind; he was almost whimpering because he knew what he was losing. Haku looked away from me and stared out of the window.

There was suddenly a gap in my mind, a deep void, a scary darkness. Something was abruptly missing. I felt alone and vulnerable. I was about to burst into tears because it was so unbearable. I turned to Haku. I looked into his green tortured eyes and the veil of darkness was lifted. I was relieved for some reason.

That's when I realised that Haku could separate our minds. He could control his mind. He knew which thoughts were his own and which were mine.

"Don't ever do that to me again." I told him angrily. The darkness and void were far worse than having both our mind connected, and now I was starting to realise where my thoughts were. I was thinking wasn't I? I took this chance. "Send Toad away."

Toad understood and although his lips were still sealed shut he walked away.

"What is happening?" Again a question.

"We've completely mated Chihiro." He looked at me apprehensively, he was expecting me to blow… probably seeing a part of my mind that I hadn't reached yet.

"And that entitles you to invade my mind." I blurted out.

He sighed, but nodded, "it also entitles you to mine." He added softly.

I moved closer to him and leaned on his chest and the thousand spiders appeared again.

"Explain it to me."

"Mating is—it's being one. Everything that I possess; my body, my powers, my memories, my thoughts and my desires they all belong to you as much as they belong to me."

"Your memories?"

He nodded.

"So I could just rummage your mind and then 'poof' I can see what you ate the past Fourth of July."

He narrowed his eyes trying to comprehend why I would bother to know that, but he shrugged and simply replied, "if you wish."

"Then…" I placed my hands on each side of his face and concentrated. I moved into his mind looking for one memory in particular. I felt him resist. He was trying to block me. He was fighting against me. I knew he wouldn't want me to know, but I had to. It was my right to know.

When I found what I was looking for I gasped. It was far more horrid and gruesome than I expected. What had I expected—sunshine and daisies… Haku closed his eyes trying to shield himself from the memory, but neither of us could stop remembering.

Yubaba was standing along with Boh and Zeniba on a green pasture. Kohaku was behind them with his arms crossed. There was a mountain of mutilated bodies moving towards them. Some were bound together by the hips, others moving on top of their fellow comrades and they were trying to eat them, ripping away ears and noses. I wanted to gag when I saw a putrid creature rip the head of another and swallow it down whole. Two more heads grew instead of one, each of them trying to eat the other.

Over them were hovering screaming bloody banshee-like creatures, male on one side and female on the other. They hovered and moved closer to one another until almost at touching distance before being repulsed like magnets each to their own side and they began wailing again. Others were crawling on the floor as they wore monk like suits made of pure gold. They moved like snakes and their busted veins turned their skin red and make it look like red scales. Other had their heads twisted at 180 degrees; they were crawling on all floors and looking up at the sky.

I tried to look away from the putridity that was painted before me, but because it was Haku's memory I could not.

"Are you ready No Face?" Zeniba asked.

"Hu-hu!" I heard No Face agreeing behind Haku.

He moved quickly in front of everyone and opened his mouth wide.

Zeniba, Yubaba and Boh opened their fans and started a strange dance as "the Darkness" moved into No Face's mouth.

A slug spirit moved to No Face's right when the last spirit walked into the trap.

The slug spirit started to glow a bright purple light.

"Now!" Haku screamed and No Face regurgitated everything that he swallowed. It was all transferred into the slug spirit.

The light started to fade. He turned and smiled at Haku before turning to stone.

That's when he flinched, that was when I found the courage to stop looking at that particular memory.

"That's the Darkness!" I screamed covering myself with the sheet. "It's hell!"

"I didn't want you to see that—the Darkness, is the name that we gave to those monsters. We could have called them the damned, some spirits do, but they bring darkness and destruction with them… the name stuck."

"It's as though they were taken out of a page of Dante's Inferno." I said shivering out of fear.

Kohaku's eyes looked at me curiously, "How do you know that name?"

"He's an Italian poet from the 1300th, he wrote the Divine Comedy." I answered.

"There was once a man who came here, he managed to achieve what he wanted and control the Darkness."

"You're Shitting me!" I said disbelievingly.

Haku shook his head. "That's why Yubaba thinks you're the key, once a human came and he controlled the Darkness. You are by far more pure and now you are now a human endowed with magic. You're special Chihiro." He kissed me softly and sent waves of calm and love into my mind, but it didn't work. I was far too scared to even pay attention to his love. He turned his head hurt by my reaction and anger.

"Why am I special? Why do I have to face The Darkness? Why can't I just be normal?" I asked.

Haku turned around, "Because Chihiro you were never normal." He leaned in and kissed me once more.

That managed to calm me down a little.

"I won't let them turn you to stone. I'll die before that day comes." He promised solemnly as he looked into my eyes.

There was a knock on the door and a muffled cough. I thought of poor Toad and how I had zipped his mouth shut. Haku laughed at my new random thought. I had to undo the spell and apologize to the poor creature.

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