Chapter 6
A New Beginning ~Jacob's POV~((I AM SOOOO SORRRRY! I have been putting this off for a reallllly long time! soooo forgive meh? plz? AND thank you soo much for standing by meh(nt literally...cuz tht would b scaryy) Im hoping tht the next chapters wouldnt take meh sooo long 2 finish! I LOVE YU ALLLLL! ANDDD thank you soo much for alll the awesome comments!**kisses**!))
"Jacob," Emmett said, walking awkwardly towards me. "Can we talk?" He fidgeted with his hands while he said this, avoiding eye-contact. Just the sight of him being so...shy, was enough to make my heart skip a beat.
"Y-yeah...sure," I somehow managed to mutter. He turned stiffly, and immediately started to head for the forest just to the side of Bella's house.
I followed suit, a little unsure. I mean, following a huge, grizzly-sized vampire into the woods wasn't exactly on my top priority list. Hopefully, he wouldn't kill me and toss my body into the river. Really, it is, after all, his fault. I didn't ask for it, and I most certainly didn't enjoy it.
Okay, I was totally lying. So I enjoyed it a LOT more than I was supposed to, so sue me...
Oh god, I sound like such a girl! Stop it Jacob, bad Jacob! Those kind of thoughts will surely get you killed, be they vampires or wolves, it will most likely be bye-bye Jacob.
"Where are they going?"Bella asked Edward.
I shrugged at the brunette, rolling my eyes. Sighing, I continued to follow Emmett.
"Emmett needs to speak to Jacob. Alone" Edward whispered to Bella, suddenly making his presence known. I wrinkled my nose a little. "Come on, love." The bronze-haired vampire led her away, and they both went inside Bella's house.
'Does he know?' I automatically thought. 'Peachy. Just freaking fantastic. That's all I need, a gang of sparkly-vampires at my throat. Pun intended.' The thoughts running through my head brought up another troubling question: What the hell was I going to tell the pack? Sure, they'd be understanding, I mean, it was an imprint after all. But it would be humiliating to 'come out' to the whole pack. Seth might be happy about it; everyone already knew about his 'crush' on Edward. I'm pretty sure everyone was pretty freaked out by it, merely keeping it to themselves.
And Quil and Embry; really, no one can be that close and not be gay...
I was abruptly pulled out of my thoughts as Emmett suddenly stopped. I smashed in his rock-hard back and landed on my butt. "Ow!" I yelped and jumped up. My hands flew to my tail bone and I squealed. I looked down to see a big stone with a pointed top. Likely the cause of my current situation.
Emmett bellowed in laughter. His hands on his stomach and as shook. Sorta like a really sexy Santa Claus. Minus the beard, white hair and fat. He even had the dimples to boot.
"Okay. I get it. It was pretty funny," I chuckled.
"A-are you alright?" he said between laughs.
"Yea. I'm fine. No thanks to you. "
"Sorry. Next time you fall I'll catch you. "
"Good." I knew it didn't really mean anything, but I hoped that it was some sort of promise. "So why did you bring me to the middle of the woods? "
His smile faded and the once happy mood vanished without a trace.
"Well um.. It's...Sorta hard to explain..." He begin pacing, looking at his feet and fidgeting with his hands."You See I didn't really plan on...er...You know...the..-"
"Kiss?" I finished his sentence. He looked up quickly and his eyes got big.
"Yeah...But I wouldn't call it a kiss..."
"Oh. Like a heat-of-the-moment kinda thing?" You do not randomly kiss some guy for no reason! IMPRINT!IMPRINT,MAN! I really just don't want to tell him. He'd shoot me down, then step on me and crush me with his giant vampire feet...Stupid ,stupid Jake. I signed.
"Yeah. Exactly. You understand, right? I mean it wasn't like we liked it or anything..." Emmett said in a rush. "It was all just a mistake." He said almost sad, but that was probably my mind playing tricks on me. "We should start over fresh. A new beginning. I really like hanging out with you, Jacob. Your one of the coolest people I've meet in a long time. I don't want to lost this friendship already and because of something that was all my fault. I'm sorry, Jacob."
I smiled the best I could manage, even though tears brimmed in my eyes and threatened to spill over. "Yeah. Your right we just need to forgive and forget. No biggie." My heart throbbed in my chest. It felt like someone had just cut me open and poured bleach on my insides.
A single tear rolled down my face. I tried to wipe it away before Emmett could see, but it was obvious he saw through my facade.
"Jacob, What's Wrong?" Emmett asked, stepping forward as if to comfort me.
"N-nothing!" I said a little too quickly, taking a very small step away from the vampire. "I just...I just remembered, though, I have to... I have to go home, my, um, dad wanted me to...help with something." I took another, larger step away, keeping my eyes diliberately focused on the ground.
"Jacob...wait." Emmett said, something, some emotion I couldn't identify, suddenly flashing in his eyes.
"I'll see you later!" I said, already half-sprinting away from him. "Tell Bells I said bye!"
Pain seemed to suddenly rack my body, and I quickly jogged out of sight of the house. Tears streamed down my cheeks like a never-ending flow of agony, and my heart ached in my chest.
***Emmett's POV***
"What just happened...?" I muttered to myself. I hated to admit it but, I didn't want Jacob to leave. Everything was just so bleak without him around anymore, not to mention the pain in my chest. I hadn't felt so much pain since I was human.
"Damn it!" I screamed, slamming my fist into a nearby tree. The sound of my voice echoed in the thick forest, and the force of my hit split the tree straight through. I didn't even flinch as the enormous tree fell, cracking, splitting, and knocking down several others.
I wanted to be with Jacob, but why was it so damn hard just to say it? Oh yeah-probably because Rosalie would slowly and painfully kill Jacob and then dress up in a freaky wedding dress and hunt me down, kill me, chop me into tiny pieces, and then burn whatever was remaining. But it's not really like she had much room to talk. She was fucking some college student in Seattle for about two months now and it's not like it's the first time in all the decades we've been together.
I looked back distractedly at the mess of fallen and broken trees I'd made. 'Shit,' Was the first word that crossed my mind. 'I'm gonna have to clean this up now, aren't I?'
Looking around to make sure no one was watching - but, I mean, what human would be out in the middle of the forest just randomly like that? - I shadily fled from the scene. Yeah, I'd caused the mess, but I was just too damn distracted with the current matter at hand to even give a shit.
Bella looked up suddenly as I entered through the door. She was sitting with Edward on the couch, a worried look on her face. "Emmett," She said, standing from her seat next to the vampire. "I heard...like some really big crash. I mean, um, what...what happened, is Jake okay? Where...where'd he go?"
I looked towards the bronze-haired "brother" of mine, as if he would help me answer the brunette's questions. Instead, he just looked back at me, a rather sad look on his face, like he'd just watched someone die. 'You heard everything...didn't you.' He looked away. 'Didn't you?' I barely registered the very slight nod of his head.
A sharp twinge of guilt hit me. 'Damn it all...'
~ Jacob's POV~I stormed through the front yard of our small house, knocking over anything that pissed me off- which at this moment was just about everything. Tears still streamed down my face like some weird never ending pool of agony. I hated that I couldn't hate Emmett, If anything I think I might have actually loved him more, WHICH WAS COMPLETELY STUPID! He'd practically just tore my heart out of my chest and feed it to his leech siblings.
I burst through the door, knocking the door off its hinges and falling on the wooded floor of our living room. I could have swore Billy almost jumped out of this wheelchair and hit the roof. I cursed under my breath before climbing the stairs to my room.
"Damn..." Billy mumbled before looking back at the stairs and yelling after me. "Jake! What's wrong, boy? Knock the damn door down and not even stick around to explain or even help fix it for that matter."
"Not right now, Dad. I don't wanna talk about it. Have Paul or Embry help fix it," I yelled back. I knew I was being a dick but right now I didn't really care. I slammed the door shut behind me and crawled into bed, pulling the covers over my head and crying. Everything was just so screwed up. I wanted to be a normal teenage guy, with a normal teenage life and a normal teenage relationship, But obviously that was never going to happen.
I laid there for hours thinking about everything that I wished I could change or do over and after awhile I began to drift off into Sleep Land and if I were lucky maybe I'd never wake up again. Maybe I'd stay there and live peacefully and happily in a place that I controlled. A place where I could be with Emmett without worry or confusion. But in time all good things have to end.
(YAY! I did it! It took long enough ! anyways... the next chapter things are gunna heat up because after all Fire + Ice= Steam! lol! soo review, message, and favorite!, it makes me feel good. :)) more reviews= more encouragement!
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