Whilst reading this I HIGHLY COMMEND you listen Flyleaf- Sorrow... I sort of wrote this chapter with that playing and with the lyrics in mind, so it won't have the effect it COULD have had if you don't listen to it on repeat. Haha, look at me MS BIGSHOT making PLAYLIST requests. You know you're pathetic...well when you share my name. I'm AGAIN dedicating the chapter too: WeAreAllABunchOfLiars because I was technically dedicating the 'thing' to her, but it's conjoined in the two chapter, ergo she get two chapters! XO
GERARD
I was praying she wouldn't figure this out.
"So aren't you a little young to be a guardian?" She asked.
"Not really, I just look younger than what I am."
"And you're her official guardian?" She asked.
"We're getting the paperwork through now."
"Well you two seem...well suited." She said looking me up and down in disgust. Oh come on, she couldn't say she didn't like a bit of the Priest.
"I guess we are." I smiled.
"Well, now we can talk about the issue of her attendance. It's just terrible, truly terrible. In the last 3 years she's only showed up to one in three of her lessons and even in them she shows complete lack of respect and aversion or at best apathy towards the whole school." She said, looking at some noted on a piece of paper. I sighed.
"She's at school now isn't she?"
"That's what she said."
"And you have to be fair on her she's been going through some tough shit the last few months, with her parents and moving around and everything, no wonder she's a bit unsettled. Personally I think it's a disgrace you didn't find out about this earlier! And YOU'RE supposed to be supporting them through their academic career!" I said. The teacher bit her tongue.
BLAKE
I looked down at my knees, tapping at them and my black and white stripy tights rhythmically. This wasn't good, Gee lying, Me lying, Gee missing his WORK AND my skirt kept getting stuck in this effin chair. I tugged at it, pulling it out again. I pushed myself up, my hands flexed at the end of the chair. I swung my legs back and forwards, my chained boots clunking as it hit of the chair leg. The door opened, Gee came out of it smiling.
"See ya later." He waved to the principle before whispering 'bitch' under his breath.
"So how did it go?" I asked as the office door closed and we were left in the hall alone.
"Well she totally bought it!"
"I'm so sorry, pulling you out of college and all..."
"It's okay, I only had a history lecture today and the teacher loves me too much to fail me." He chuckled.
"I should be getting back to class..."
"No-uh. As your 'legal guardian' I HAD the right to pull you out of school and I'm totally in the mood for abusing rights." He said taking my hand.
"Where are we going?"
"Firstly to get some goddamn food, I'm starving."
GERARD
I watched as she managed to stuff the whole burger into her mouth at one.
"You look like a chipmunk." I laughed as she went purple trying to swallow it. I shoved some fries into my mouth.
"How come you pulled me out of school, but not Mikey." I stopped, crap.
"Well, I don't know..." I laughed.
"Don't worry, he's busy anyway." I raised an eyebrow as she said that.
"With whom may I ask?"
"Don't look at me like that! It's not me! I dunno!" She said, her arms raised defensively.
"I'm going to be out late tonight I have band practise." I said.
"You're in a band?" She seemed shocked.
"Ahuh." I said drinking some of the schmucky coffee.
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"It never came up... It's just Me, Ray, Bob, Frank and Mikey." I said simply.
"What? NON OF THEM EVEN MENTIONED IT!" I looked out of the window of the diner, to the folk running around.
"They should really put a sign up saying ALL HOPE IS LOST when you come in this place." She said sternly, I turned to her.
"Why do you hate this town so much? Even the first time I met you, you were being crappy about it." She chewed on her gum as I asked her that, a questionable look playing on her face.
"I don't hate it. I love it." She said simply. I have her a questioning look.
"It's perfect, well for me. It's grimy, poor, ridden with crime and dark. That's the point, it IS crappy, but I like crappy things." She said, nodding as she watching the people outside the window.
"Its perfect." I said as I stared at her, scrutinizing her face.
"Excuse me, would you like some more coffee?" The waitress asked. I nodded and she poured some more into our mugs. I took a sip out of it.
"This coffee tastes likes shit."
"Then why did you ask for it?" She asked.
"It's c-o-f-f-e-e." I said, pronouncing it carefully.
"Let's go. Now."
"Where?"
"The house. I have a stack of movies calling for, you." She dragged out the last three words, he voice changing and becoming vey sexual.
"You're a tease, you know that?" I smiled. God she was a tease, but I so liked it and she knew it. I thrust some money of the counter and grabbed her arms and pulled her out of the diner and into the car.
Hear the sound
The angels come screaming
Down your voice
I hear you've been bleeding
Make your choice
They say you've been pleading
Someone save us
Heaven help us now
Come crashing down
We'll hear the sound
As you're falling down
I'm at this old hotel
But can't tell if I've been breathing or sleeping
Or screaming or waiting for the man to call
And maybe all of the above
Cause mostly I've been sprawled on these cathedral steps
While spitting out the blood and screaming
"Someone save us!"
Heaven help us now
Come crashing down
We'll hear the sound
As you're falling down
And will you pray for me?
Or make a saint of me?
And will you lay for me?
Or make a saint of?
Cause I'll give you all the nails you need
Cover me in gasoline
Wipe away those tears of blood again
And the punchline to the joke is asking
Someone save us
Heaven help us now
Come crashing down
We'll hear the sound
As you fall
And would you pray for me?
(You don't know a thing about my sins
How the misery begins)
Or make a saint of me?
(You don't know
So I'm burning, I'm burning)
And will you lay for me?
(You don't know a thing about my sins
How the misery begins)
Or make a saint?
(You don't know
Cause I'm burning, I'm burning)
Cause I'll give you all the nails you need
(I'm burning, I'm burning again)
Cover me in gasoline again
I lay along the couch, Blake cuddles into me as we watched Nightmare On Elm Street, 1. She whimpered a little as I laughed.
"You're a wimp."
"You're a monster." She said, directing it to me and Freddy (if you don't know who Freddy is, I swear to god you need to do some MOVIE catching up A/N)
"You're so harsh." I said, stoking her arm gently as I watched our on screen monster, tease his pray.
"You're a fucktard."
"You're an ass."
"You're a dick head."
"You're a freak!"
"I LIKE being a freak, weirdo."
"Well I LIKE being a weirdo." I said, my hand moving to the remote and turning of the TV. All that was left on was the music on the stereo, randomly switching between songs. It became tense, lying facing each other on the couch, or legs entangled and hips touching. Her eyes closed, she breathed out heavily. The song changed. (IF YOU HAVEN'T GOT THE FLYLEAF SONG ON YET, PUT IT ON NOW A/N)
"I love this song." She swayed to Flyleaf.
"Then get up," I said, reaching for her hand and pulling her up.
"Gee, what are you doing?" She moaned. I pulled of my jacket that I had been literally boiling in before taking one of her hands in mine and putting one of my hands on her waist.
"We're dancing?" She smiled.
"Got it in one." I said. She moved her free hand onto my shoulder, her eyes deep into mine. She pressed herself close to me as she swayed her hips, our bodies moving slowly but our minds whizzing around the place.
"Sorrow lives through this night, I'll take this piece of you." She said, singing along with the song, our noses touching, our breathes mixing.
"And hope for all eternity." I whispered along.
"For just one second I felt whole." She sang
I closed my eyes and tilted my head so it was rested against hers. The heat of our bodies, shallowly moving smothered me the sounds faded away. Until IT had to ring, her mother fucking phone. Her eyes opened, she paused for a second, before looking sympathetically towards me.
"I have to take this." She said lifting it to her ear. I sighed. We'd come so far, so fast, maybe too far...
"Let me ask..." She put the phone to her chest, dimming the sound "Am I doing anything the Saturday?" She asked.
"It's Rays party..." I muttered, guessing who it was, my good spirits dampened.
"Yeah, I'm already doing something..." silence, "Oh right...okay, I guess. I'll see you later then! Bye!" She hung up and sat on the couch. Near me.
"What did, he want?" I asked. She rolled her eyes.
"He was wondering if I was doing anything this Saturday. Turns out he'd heard of Rays party and was going to take me anyway."
"Oh isn't that sweet, taking you to crash a party." I said sarcastically.
"Why do you hate him so much?" She exclaimed.
"He's a total Jackass! He always has been! He gets girl, sleep with them, takes some photos and shows of to his friends!" I said. She looked a little shocked.
"I don't want to talk about this and your insane grudges!"
"YOU'RE THE ONE WHO ASKED!" I said going red.
"That's it Gee, whenever I think we're getting closer your complete aversion and anger towards the world pushed me away! You can't just accept that I MAY want different things to you!" She screamed. That's it, too me she had chose him above me.
"Okay, I accept you want to be one of his sluts, HIS EFFING BOOTY CALLS! Are you happy?" I said, anger dripping of my voice.
"No I'm not." She said, shaking her head, tears brimming her eyes. I picked up my jacket.
"Since I have so much AVERSION and ANGER, I'm sure you'll prefer if I wasn't around you." I snapped.
"OKAY, BYE THEN! You know what? I might invite Bert over here and fuck him JUST because it would piss you of!" She screamed. I stared at her.
"Good luck with that slut." I said walking out of the door. It slammed behind me. I breathed out heavily. I didn't want her to hate me. I didn't want to push her away and I'M MOST DEFINITELY didn't want her sleeping with Bert. What could I do? Nothing. I walked to Rays studio. The guys where setting up.
"Hey!" I smiled, giving them a hug.
"I can't stay out to late tonight, I have loads of work to do." Bob sighed, scratching his chin.
"Cool. Let's start." I said sharply. Mikey gave me a look, he was the only person in the world who knew me well enough to tell when I was upset.
"C'mon!" I said jaggedly.
"Geez! Don't be so angry." I bit my tongue when Frank said that.
"Can we talk?" Mikey said coming up beside me. I looked around the circle of guys, worrying about me.
"Sure." I said glumly. Mikey gave the guys one of those 'I'll go' looks before taking me outside. I leaned against the brick wall, numbly taking out a cigarette and offering Mikey one. He shook his head. His loss. I lit it up and took a deep draw of it.
"What's up?" He asked.
"Nothing."
"And the truth?" I looked at him glumly for a second.
"Blake and I had a fight."
"And?"
"I was a total ass, I fucking called her a slut and a booty call and..." I shook my head.
"Wait. WHAT? Start from the beginning!"
"It was that Bert, the guy she went out with, his a jack ass. We were about to fucking kiss, I swear and he rang up and asked her out on Saturday and I was being all sarcastic about him and then we got into a fight over him and I was a ass and she called me some shit ad I called her a slut and said she was going to fuck him just to piss me of." I said, without a breath.
"Woah...that's fucked. You almost kissed her?"
"We were dancing!"
"You...dance?" Mikey asked. I snapped.
"Stop it! You wanted to know. Now that scum is probably around at my place fucking her on MY bed." I moaned.
"Look, give her some time to cool off say sorry tomorrow. You and Blake can't stay angry at each other for long, you're to alike."
"That's the problem, Mikey. If I was her, I wouldn't forgive me."