This Girl's Smile Chapter 18: Admittance, a parodies and spoofs fanfic

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Okay, you know who you are who told me to listen to this song and know I'm addicted to it!

Sexting- Blood On The Dance Floor.

Here We Are- Breaking Benjamin

Special K- Placebo.

Fly Into My Arms- Nick Cave.

FRANK

Had she just hung up on me?

But.

I couldn't believe it. I was fucking trying to tell her something!

FUCK.

What was I gonna do now? She was the once person I thought could help Gee. I could see him dying. We were all watching him waste away and we had no idea what to do. So I was just going to have to wait and see what would happen.

----3months later----

BLAKE

I leaned over the bath with the hair dye in my hands as Jason rubbed it through my hair.

"Dude, this is going to look so good..." I leaned forward and kissed him before leaning back again, my back curved over the bath.

"What was that for?" He smiled.

"For being amazing." I smiled back. Jason looked down for a second, his face changing before resuming his natural smile.

"Okay we're all done here. Just leave it for a couple of hour and..."

"I've done this before; I'm not a complete dumb ass." I laughed jumping up and putting my shower cap on my head. I heard Jasons phone bleep, he looked down at it.

"I gotta go out, you gonna be okay by yourself?" He asked.

"Yeah sure, hon." I said sub consciously as I grabbed for the crappy home phone and jumped onto my mattress, my eyes skimming along my posters. I heard the door slam shut as I dailed Alicia, Christa, Jamia and Kaitlin quickly telling them to get their butts to my place. Jamia, Kailtin and Christa were busy so it was just gonna be me and Lic. I told her to come over in an hour of two so I had enough time to wash out my hair and dry it up. When she eventually arrived, you should have seen her face...

"Oh my god! Your hair is fucking orange!" She exclaimed.

"I knooww!" I laughed jumping up to give her a hug.

"ZOMG, You're the flying tangerine."

We both sat feet to head on my mattress, eyes glued on the TV.

"So you going to come out and see the guys with me?" Alicia asked simply.

"Nar...They won't want to see me..." I answered.

"Of course they will! Mikey's always moaning at me telling me to get you to come with us one time..."

"Yeah, yeah..."

"Seriously! Don't you want to see Gee?" She asked. I didn't reply this time...

"Blake?"

"I'm watching Vampire Diaries, shut it."

"This isn't vampire diaries..." Alicia noted. I tried to contain myself, but I had to let out a giggle.

"So...?" She smiled, looking down at me. I let my head roll onto its side, looking back to the TV.

"I'm with Jason now...I can't see Gee, it'll just make it harder..." I mused.

"Hmmph...stupid Jason..." Alicia huffed.

"Oi!" I laughed, throwing a pillow at her in defence of my boyfriend.

"What can I say? You and Gee were meant to be!" Lic laughed sarcastically before dunking just in time as I lunged for her.

"Not clever!" I giggled, trying to attack her again, accidently kicking over the skittles.

"NOOOO!" She laughed as I tickled her meanly.

GERARD

-2 days later-

My excuse was the drugs. Definitely the drugs and the death...

Oh god, I can't believe she was dead.

I didn't know what was happening, it just was...

"Okay, we need to stop..." I said pulling away from the girl who was attaching her lips onto mine, she moaned as I said that.

"This isn't right..." I said pushing her of me. It wasn't like she wasn't attractive or anything...but she wasn't what I wanted.

"That's not what you were saying ten minutes ago!" She giggled before latching back onto me, her body hovering over mine.

"I'm serious!" I shouted, she jumped of me, I looked down guiltily.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to shout..." I apologised, but her eyes were already set coldly.

"Oh fuck you!" She announced before walking of, out of the room so I was left in MCRS makeup room by myself. A couple of minutes later some one knocked on the door.

"C'mon in!" I sighed. It was Mikey.

"Dude, I just saw that girl you were checking out before running down the hall swearing her head off!" He laughed. I grimaced.

"Yep, that's partially my fault...I kind and made out with her then rejected her..." I laughed. Mikey just stared at me.

"You what?" He gasped.

"I...made out with her?" I blushed.

"What the fuck Gee? This isn't you! You don't make out with-." I didn't let him finish.

"Who the fuck are you to tell me who I am?" I demanded.

"Your brother who's known you for 18 fucking years! Gee, I know you need to get over Blake- but..."

"WHAT THE HELL? WE NEVER EVEN WENT OUT!" I exclaimed!

"And all the alcohol Gee? You're fucking killing yourself!" He said ignoring my last response. We sat staring at each other, with a look of disgust.

"What would Grandma say?" He said simply. My thorat went dry.

"Get out." I said stiffly.

"Gee..."

"GET THE FUCK OUT! I DON'T WANT TO FUCKING TALK TO YOU AND I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT HER!" I screamed unsure if I was talking about my recently departed Grandmar of Blake...

"Fine."

Hey there,
I know it's hard to feel like I don't care at all.
Where you are and how you feel.
With these lights off as these wheels
keep rolling on and on. (and on and on and on...)
Slow things down or speed them up.
Not enough or way too much. (and on and on and on...)
How are you when I'm gone?

[Chorus:]
And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

Spare me just three last words.
"I love you" is all she heard.
I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever.
[x2]

You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

(YOU...KILL...ME...WELL)
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
My final breath is gone
So I can fall asleep tonight

(YOU...KILL...ME...WELL)
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.
[to fade]

BLAKE

-2 day earlier (back to original time)-

He still wasn't back. It didn't bother me that much...it's just, when I'm alone; that's when my monsters come out. I lay on my bed, boredom stiffing me. I didn't want to think about me because I knew that only ever lead to tears... I remembered how Frank had been worried about Gee. So it made sense to ring up and check on him...even if it did hurt.

"Hello?" I heard his teary, some what unfamiliar voice answer.

"Gerard!" I exclaimed.

"Hey Blake..." He said softly. I stared curiously down the phone.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"It's my grandma... she died." Gee cried. It's probably important for you guys to know that the Ways and their gran were real close, she bought them there first van and she'd always been the sweetest thing.

"Oh my god... Jesus Christ...When? How are you? What about you parents and Mikey? How are they holding up?" I asked.

"It happened yesterday...Mikey's okay, still crying, but it doesn't look like he going to do anything stupid and my parents are holding up okay..."

"What about you?" I repeated.

"Honestly Blake? Not to good...Not to good at all..."

"Gee why didn't you tell me before?"

"Well I don't know Blake, maybe because you haven't even bothered to pick up the phone and talk to me in 2 months!" He shouted down the phone angrily. A ping of guilt hit me. Silence...

"Look Blake, I'm sorry...I didn't mean to lash out at you."

"No you're right...I'm sorry." I said weakly.

"Where have you been?" He asked numbly, seeming to dance around the topic of his gran or us.

"In hell..." I sighed truthfully, sticking the phone between my ear and shoulder and picked up my computer, to check my emails. I could hear Jason enter the flat, the door creaking.

"Look Jason's back, I'm sorry, I got to go..." I muttered as Jason entered the room, my eyes lowered to the many missed emails.

"Yeah, cool...see ya." Gee said before hanging up. I couldn't help but feel bad, but Jason for some reason hated when I talked to Gee.

"Hey, who was that?" Jason asked as he sat on the other end of the bed.

"No one..." I said not looking up. Someone had sent me an email entitled 'affair.' I clicked on it confused, the sender was with held.

"So what you up to?" Jason asked trying to make convocation.

"Just checking my emails..." I said innocently, clicking on the url the email has sent me to youtube.

I almost chocked as I saw the video, it was Jason- half naked hanging over a camera...then... jumping onto a bed a kissing this girl... My computer speakers played out the sound. Jason's eyes bulged; he knew what it was. I looked away from the screen in disgust as they started...well, you catch my drift.

"Blake....I'm so sorry..." He said shaking his head.

"When was this?" I demanded. He stared into my eyes.

"Please Blake don't ask..."

"When the fuck was this?"

"A couple of weeks before I left with my parents. I'm sorry, it was a mistake..."

"We were going out?" I spat in disgust.

"I'm sorry..." My eyes had started the burn fiercely.

"Get out!" I screamed. He didn't.

"No, I need to explain."

"GET THE FUCK OUT!" I said jumping up, trying to push him out, but he just caught my wrist and held them together menacingly.

"I didn't mean it! I love you!" He exclaimed. I wriggled out of his hold and slapped him. Mistake. He hit me with the back of his hand on the face, leaving a red mark. I felt myself start to cry.

"I hate you." I whispered I couldn't believe had of all people had cheated on me... I opened the door to the apartment and with all my force pushed him out when I had caught him in a state of daydream. I closed the door and bolted the door. He hit it with his fists desperately.

"I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! Let me explain!" He pleaded, as he threw his weight at the door. I opened the window and as cliché as it sounds, picked up his computer and threw it out of it, then his clothes. He remained outside my door, but now was looking in through the post box.

"Blake? What are you doing?... You bitch! Stop that!" He screamed as I ripped up his pillows before throwing them out of the window. My legs gave way and I ended up on the floor my back up to the wall, crying as Jason beat at the door.

"This is my apartment too! You can't throw me out!"

GERARD

I sat on my bunks playing with my phone, wishing I hadn't exploded at Blake like that. I stared up at the ceiling, breathing heavily wishing that someone or something would fill up my empty time. Something did. My phone rang out loud, I answered it to hear Blake's voice.

"Gee?" She cried, I sat up straight.

"Blake what's wrong?" I asked. I could hear some one shouting profanities in the background and thumping.

"It's Jason, he cheated on me..." She cried "I chucked him out, but he's outside shouting at me and I don't know what to do..."

"What? He cheated on you?" I said in disbelief, I could see Frank who was lying on the bunk to the immediate right to me stare at me in confusion.

"Gee I'm scared he's getting really violent."

"Hey, shh, it's okay. I'm going to stay on the phone with you until he goes." I told her, I could hear her sobbing.

"I feel so stupid." She spat

"You're anything, but stupid." I told her, un sure what to do and how to contain my rage.

Paper bags and plastic hearts
All are belongings in shopping carts
Its goodbye
But we got one more night
Lets get drunk and drive around
And make peace with this empty town
We can make it right

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
Well make the great escape
We wont hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

Tonight will change our lives
Its so good to be by your side
And well cry
But we wont give up the fight
Well scream loud at the top of our lungs
They'll think its just cause were young
Well feel so alive

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
Well make the great escape
We wont hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that well never find
They don't mean a thing tonight

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
Well make the great escape
We wont hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
Well make the great escape
We wont hear a word they say
They dont know us anyway
Throw it away
Forget yesterday
Well make the great escape
We wont hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

2 hours later Blake told me that it was okay for me to put the phone down, I did so with a sigh. My knuckled clenched, by now the guys had all gathered around me in interest.

"What the hell happened?" Mikey asked.

"She got sent some video of her boyfriend and this girl fucking..." I sighed, rubbing my eyes.

"No way!" Ray exclaimed.

"Yeah, then she threw him and and chucked his stuff out of the window and he sat outside shouting ant hitting the door for the last 2 hours..." I said stiffly getting up.

"Where're you going?" Bob asked.

"I'm going to go get drunk, wish to join me?" I asked sourly, they all just stared at me.

"I'll take that as a no." I huffed before walking off.

I knew why they were staring. To be honest I would have stared like that too... Frankly... All I cared about right now was my dead grandma and the girl I was in love with.

Yeah...

I said it.