Alright so I've decided I've been bouncing about a little too much so I'm going to go back to making it more simple, I still want to make it interesting but for the moment I'm going to have Kuon and Kyoko trying to put the past behind them and some cute fluff as well as some angsty drama.

Chapter Twenty Four :: Voices

Ren paused nervously as he looked at Yashiro and Hikaru and the doctor who were all staring at him in shock, he looked at Kyoko his heart hurting him at how she had just given away one of his secrets. He looked down before shaking his head, "I loved Samantha..." he replied, "At least the idea of her, but I didn't know her. You don't understand..." he whispered looking away, "You don't understand how voices affect me."

"You mean my voice?" she asked forgetting everyone else was there, "You mean because of what you've told me about my voice. I'm sorry, I can't be your protective charm after this." She looked at him her eyes pained, "Why couldn't you tell me that you..."

"Why can't you tell me about your father?" he asked as Kyoko looked down, "I thought I made some progress when I saw you last week when you came to the house. I thought those images of Shou were helping you to understand,"

"Kuon..." she sighed as he looked at her desperately, "If I was alone I would have said yes I understand, but how can I trust you not to leave me and this child? How can I understand that you don't have some kind of fear of being a father? I've imposed on you too much.."

"Your so called "imposing on me,"" Ren said back, "Was what made me happy, the way you're acting scares me. It makes it seem like I won't be able to get you back so why bother telling you my secrets," he looked down, "Maybe that guy was right, perhaps I am crazy."

"My father..." Kyoko whispered, "Was a yakuza member!" she yelled at him as he blinked not expecting that, tears came to Kyoko's eyes again, "I...I mean," she sniffed, "That's only what I heard the okami-san say at the ryokan where I grew up."

Kuon paused before looking at her, "So your father had a violent past?" he asked as Yashiro looked at Ren trying to think of what to do so they wouldn't be late whilst Hikaru was staring between the two of them. This seemed like a five wheel car that only operated with two wheels. "You said you didn't have a father though, at least that's what Maria-chan told me."

"He left..." Kyoko replied, "I was told never to talk or ask about him by my mother, he left my mother when she was pregnant I found out later. Men with violent lives are often very self centered but at the same time they have to be, it's how they survive."

"Do you believe that I will leave you as your father left your mother?" Kuon asked digging deeper at the problem, "Kyoko..."

"I don't want the child to suddenly wake up and see that daddy has left us," she screamed at him, "I can't trust you...you didn't even care about Jennifer."

"Jennifer slept with many people," he told her, "It wasn't like I was her first and it also wasn't like I was her last. Many people slept with her, she wasn't like you..."

Kyoko's face darkened and she bowed her head before shaking it, "Why because this is a rape?" she asked as Hikaru looked away and took her ice cold hand but even that she pulled away from him. "Because this isn't a child you have to feel responsible for..."

Kuon looked down, "A child with me would be messed up..." he said as Kyoko blinked, "I...my mother chose the wrong story to tell you. Of course, she doesn't know much of this story, but my dad knows. I was diagnosed when I was fourteen...I've been in remission since I was sixteen," he told her, "Even the president doesn't know."

In remission? Fourteen? What is this? What is he talking about? Kyoko blinked at him before looking away feeling her gut churn, "What?" she asked as he looked at Hikaru and the doctor.

"I..." he looked down before shaking his head, "I'm sorry I caused a disruption," he bowed before leaving, a gloom surrounding him. Kyoko jumped up, only dressed in the gown and chased after him.

"Kuon..." she whispered nervously looking at him and Yashiro, "What is it? If you love me you'll be honest with me."

"It's nothing," he said looking around in fear, "It could end my career., no," he looked at Yashiro, "It would end my career."

"Kuon," Yashiro said going over to him, "No matter what it is, if you want to act then I can represent you."

"If it isn't as bad as what I've already heard, what is it? That you're some psychotic killer? That you raped little kids?" she asked exasperated as she followed him down the halls. "Tell me!" she yelled at him, "Tell me and I might be able to help you."

"I hear voices," Kuon said looking at her as Yashiro sighed

"That's cruel Ren," he said, "You can obviously tell that Kyoko-chan is trying to comfort you."

"When my stress is at its highest," he told her, "I hear things..."

"Those are probably just your grudges Kuon, everyone hears them. There are the grudges which come out and say mean things and then the angel who comes out to help them," she laughed lightly, "Everyone has got a devil and an angel combination."

"Kyoko..." he whispered to her, his whole expression turning weaker, "I...hear the dead."

"What are you talking about? Oh memories," she nodded, "Well that's nothing to be ashamed of. I mean I sometimes think of father's voice in my head and him telling me things and I've thought of your voice...I mean Shou's voice lots of times," with that she turned and blushed.

"Kyoko," he said not knowing how to get it into her head, "Would you want to be with someone who's ill?"

"Ill?" Kyoko tilted her head to the side, "Well, I...I mean...I like you a lot even though I don't want to anymore and you are rather sick to not care about your own daughter despite how she isn't here anymore, but...but if I knew maybe...I could understand."

"Rick's voice..." Kuon replied, "I hear it sometimes."

"So..." Kyoko said looking away, "That doesn't mean your sick..."

"I guess not," he turned and left with her just wondering what was going on. He sighed as Yashiro looked at him and then got him to sit down.

"What were you trying to tell her Ren?" he asked as Kuon took a deep breath in

"You're a mutant," the blonde haired American yelled at him as Kuon blinked staring right at him. He looked down feeling that people were calling him this all his life. At this point of his life, he, a fourteen year old boy, living in his father's shadow and losing it. "You're disgusting!" he screamed about to punch Kuon in the face as they stood there in the American private high school.

Kuon looked at him before feeling a punch and then tried to strike out again however he didn't want to, he didn't want to hurt anyone. He looked down, what was that that Rick had told him about a chicken? He looked up at the senior year student and thought about the difficulties it would cause for his parents if he were to fight back, if he were to get suspended.

He felt the person kick him a couple more times and then he looked down, classes had ended for the day but for him to do this on school grounds, he had to find a way to move it away from the campus. "What do you want from me?" he asked before noticing a couple of people staring at him. It was because he was the Hizuri kid right? The son of the Japanese-American Hollywood actor.

He felt his head grow lighter and then dropped down to the ground only to hear someone behind him. "Kuon?" he looked up and then stared at Rick who was with him, "Kuon what's going on? You're not hurt are you?" he asked before Kuon looked at him.

"Of course not," he replied, "Just sticking up for myself..."

"No man...it was weird, you were like beating yourself up and yelling at the air," Rick replied, "You sure you're not okay, not turning suicidal on me are you?"

"No..." Kuon replied "But the guy..."

"There was no one there Kuon..." he said as the blonde blinked staring at Rick as if he were the crazy one.

Present Day

Kuon looked down at his knuckles as he sat on the bench not saying anything to Yashiro before he looked directly at him, "Yashiro...you're more of a friend than a manager right?" he asked him as Yashiro frowned.

"I do my best to be both with you," he said, "I don't think that I can necessarily pick a side but even if I wasn't your manager Kuon I'd still consider you a friend, but if we weren't friends I'd think of changing who I'm managing," he said slowly

"I think..." he said before seeing Kyoko rush out clothed and with her bag.

"I apologized to Hikaru..." she said before looking at him, "I think I was using him to make you jealous..." she sighed, "Or perhaps I was scared that without the baby there there'd be no one there. Kuon..." she looked at him, "If you promise to be honest with me from now on I'll come back to the house, I don't want to announce that I'm dating you though," she said as he blinked.

"Pregnancy hormones?" he guessed, "Next thing you'll be beating me up with a hammer...or at least trying to."

"No," she shook her head thoughtfully, "You must have had your reasons and Hikaru asked me if I wanted to be with anyone who would I be with?"

"And you said Kuon?" Yashiro asked excitedly.

"Actually I said Tsuruga Ren," she replied, "But...I'm sorry," she bowed deeply to him as Kuon blinked at her in complete shock and smiled.

"No problem, do you want to come see Konyaku Konyaku?" he asked her and she nodded shyly, "I mean I'm sorry for interrupting your date."

"I'm mad at you, but I've calmed down," she said before feeling him kiss her lips and her box flew open again. It seemed they had made up although it would still be some time before she could truly forgive him and it would still be some time before this secret was revealed.

Next: Kyoko, Kanae and a Conversation about Weight Gain

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