AN: Now I'm starting to feel a lot of writers block coming up and I think that's from writing over ninety five thousand words in one month. I also keep finding the chapters are getting shorter and shorter because I have less motivation writing them. If anyone knows any good remedies for writers block please let me know
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Chapter Thirty Six :: Change of Heart

Kyoko sat down in her room at the ryokan, her arms around her legs. Shou had made sure to separate her and Reino when he had arrived at the ryokan, actually he had threatened him until Reino gave up and left allowing Kyoko to sit alone with her tears. She had tried to search for Corn in rivers and slight streams since Shou had thrown it but it was no use, Corn, the irreplaceable stone, was gone. How could she face Kuon again without it?

Looking down at her muddy hands she tried to curl into a ball without hurting the baby in her stomach, it was all this baby's stupid fault! It was this baby that had turned everything into such a mess. Is it? She thought nervously, Is it too late for an abortion? She paused, she had been carrying this...accident for four months now it wasn't even half way over. She looked down struggling before breaking down into more tears.

Hearing a knock on the door she wiped away her tears as she believed it to be Yumiko and watched as instead, to her horror, Shou entered the room. Bitterly she looked at him, "What the hell do you want Shoutaro?"

"What makes you think I want something!" Shou snapped before looking at her awkwardly as he rubbed the back of his neck, he looked down in frustration. "It's not like I want something with such a poor, unattractive..."

"Seems you're the only one who thinks that," Kyoko growled in reply, "Kuon asked me to marry him...not that it's any of your business."

"And I bet he changed his mind straight away afterwards," Shou replied. Damn him! That guy probably thinks he can play it cooler than me by proposing to her.

"No, actually I said no to him if it's any of your business.." Kyoko stood up before walking over to Shou, "So you finally came home, why?"

"Good...good for you," Shou nodded in surprise and then shrugged, "Because some unattractive, makeup-less girl was here,"

"Huh?" Kyoko blinked at him unsure what to make of what was said.

"Well I mean...Beagle!" he yelled at her having a face that looked more pained than angry, "Beagle! The guy who raped you!" he asked before frowning at her, "How stupid can you get?"

"I was stupid alright so what!" she snapped back, "I just wanted someone I could be with...and Kuon has some issues."

"Yeah I heard that guy was taking a break from everything," he replied before quickly adding, "Someone told me and I wasn't really paying attention, I don't have an interest in it or anything. I thought he'd stayed in Tokyo but you're down here without him."

"He's messed up," Kyoko replied nervously, "I'm scared to leave him alone with the child."

"That guy?" Shou blinked confused before smirking, "There's something wrong with him isn't there?" he asked as Kyoko gasped not knowing that she had given away Kuon's secret.

"No...he's fine," she lied as he laughed, "Beagle will probably tell anyway."

"So now that Beagle's gone," Shou commented as he looked around his old home, "Can't believe I came back to a dump like this."

"Don't call your parents house that," Kyoko snapped, "Well an ungrateful pig like you would say that."

"Excuse me?" Shou asked looked at her before reaching out and touching her hand, "I'm sorry alright," he replied.

"Excuse me?" Kyoko blinked

"Look Kyoko...I know you are boring and dull and I made fun of that, but it's nice to have someone comforting by your side at times," he told her with his most serious face on but Kyoko's mind traveled directly to Kuon, "I mean...maybe I took you for granted and I'm sorry...I guess."

"You guess you're sorry?" Kyoko raised an eyebrow, "Maybe you took me for granted?" she looked at him, "You stole a year of my life from me!" she yelled at him, "Made me leave Kyoto because of you and you just think that you might have taken me for granted. You used me! No you're not forgiven!"

"And yet," Shou replied, "You forgive Beagle for raping you? Why not get the police onto him, use Hizuri's power to do that, or if you don't feel comfortable use mine. I'm not going to let my girlfriend be with the man who raped her."

Kyoko blinked at that and she stared at him solidly in the eyes, "Your girlfriend?" Her face then turned to a look of anger, "Who are you calling your girlfriend!" she asked in horror, "I love Kuon."

"Then how come you said no when he asked you to marry him?" he asked before she looked down shaking her head.

"It's none of your business!" she yelled thinking about Kuon's mind and the different people in it, she didn't want to be engaged to someone who might have to be in hospital forever, it wouldn't do either of them any good especially when the news got out where he was, but...he was the one man who made her happy when she thought of him. "There's somewhere I have to be," Kyoko told him nervously as she thought about Kuon, how was he taking her answer.

"Where?" Shou asked before seeing Kyoko grab her needed possessions, shove him out of the room and leave. She managed to get her shoes on before running all the way to the train station so she could get to the clinic. She had a feeling that visiting hours would be over when she got there since it was already quite late but she needed to ask him if she could change her mind.

Forty Minutes Later

Kyoko walked to the entrance of the clinic and paused as she looked around for a receptionist, once she was finally greeted she dropped down into a formal bow, "Good evening," she greeted them.

"Kyoko-san," the other woman replied, "I'm sorry..."

"I know, I know it's really late," she apologized quickly, "I need to talk to Kuon, it's urgent," she whispered tears in her eyes as she looked up.

The receptionist paled, "I'm sorry," she said at once, "Kuon was suffering from dissociative identity disorder wasn't he?" she asked

"Yes," Kyoko nodded starting to feel her heart racing in her chest at the words the woman were saying, her tone and expression only increased the anxiety.

"I'm sorry," the woman replied, "Hizuri Kuon...we think...is probably gone."

"Gone where?" Kyoko asked, "Did someone come and collect him."

"It's classified," the woman replied, "But we think he might be dead."

End Chapter Thirty Six

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