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Chapter 9!
Maura stared at the post it note for a long time. She looked at her watch and sighed. Maura closed her eyes for a moment, rubbing her face and neck as she sighed again. This day just needed to be over. She finally picked up the note and tossed it in the trash, grabbed her coat and bag and headed upstairs to go home. She had not planned on running into Jane and when she did, she nearly fell over. "Oh, I-I got your note, but I figured it was late and you were most likely already gone and I," Maura was rambling...and looked flustered. It was a real sign to Jane that something was up.
Jane grabbed Maura by her upper arms, so she wouldn't fall. "Hey...what's wrong?" The brunette asked worried and stroke gently over the blonde's face, but remembered she was at work, so she took a step backwards to keep a professional distance between them. "Something's wrong, Maura...what is it?" Jane could tell that something was up by the way she looked and acted. And she only wanted to help her girlfriend. It made her feel bad, seeing Maura like that.
"I c-I can't talk about it. Don't ask," she said sharply and hated being short with Jane. She looked down at her feet, clearing her throat. "I am fine," she said softly and looked back up. She pressed the button on the elevator and it opened almost immediately. "If you want to come over, that's fine...I just need to go," she said and then her eyes shot up just a bit to a person standing off in the distance, smiling alluringly dark at her.
The brunette stepped with her into the elevator and as the doors closed she turned to Maura. "Maura tell me whats wrong. C'mon, I wanna help." Jane said and looked into her eyes. Her guts already told her that it had something to do with Rachel. She KNEW it, but she didn't know what had happened. "Please Maura...tell me what Rachel did." Her eyes were soft; she really did care about Maura.
Maura looked down and rubbed her forhead. She breathed harder and shook her head as Jane asked her what was wrong. "I-she...pinned me against the wall and touched me..." she blurted out before she was able to stop herself. She turned away from Jane and wrapped her arms around her small frame. She wanted to become a part of the elevator wall. What Rachel had did flashed in her mind over and over again. Her smell, her touch, her taunting words.
"She did what!" Jane had a hard time not to sound angry. She knew if she freaked out now, it would make Maura feel even worse. Jane pulled the blonde in a hug and gently stroke over her back. "I'm so sorry Maura...I'm sorry she did that to you." The detective whispered; her hand gently stroking through the blondes hair. "Did you call for help?" Jane asked; her voice still soothing as she kept trying to calm her girlfriend down.
"No, but I slapped her hard," she said with her face buried into Jane's chest. She hated the fact that she trembled within Jane's holds. She didn't want Jane to think that she could never take care of herself. She generally could...but there was something about Rachel that had stopped her cold. She didn't know where to run or what to really do.
"That's my girl." Jane said with a smile as she heard that. She kept holding her in an embrace. "She'll be gone soon...and then we'll never hear from her again, hopefully." The brunette whispered soothing words. But at this very moment Jane realised something. As much as she loved being in control, she wasnt with Rachel. It was in Rachel's hands basically, if Jane could continue working as Detective or if something happens to her... Before the lift doors opened, Jane gently let go of Maura and kissed her lips. "I have to drop something off at Ma's, and then I'll be heading right to you, okay?" Jane said softly. "Should I bring some food, too?"
"No, I am not hungry," she said gently as Jane offered with the food. "But bring yourself something when you come over or I can have my cook come over and make you something. I just can't do it tonight," she said as she exited the elevator and walked with Jane to their cars. She was parked in secure parking as was Jane. She smiled as she got into the car, but didn't say anything more.
Maura pulled up to her garage and opened it. Then she slipped out of the car and walked down the short path to the mail box. The night air was crisp, but her mind was elsewhere and she really didn't notice anything. She looked up and around for a moment before heading towards her house.
He watched her getting out of the car, seeing the woman that Rachel had described to him. That was her; that was definiatly her. He pulled his mask over his face; he was ready to pounce. He heard her heels clicking and knew she was coming closer. As she wss close enough, he jumped out of the bushes, and pushed the blonde woman against the rough wall of her house; covering her mouth with one hand. Naturally, she was struggling and he pressed her harder against the wall, causing her cheek to rub against the rough wall.
Maura startled hard, but once the hand went over her mouth, she screamed with everything that she had inside of her. Her body went tight with fear ad she struggled but was no match for whomever held her. She cried out sharply as her cheek was roughly pressed against the wall of her house. In the shadows, no one would see her...or them. Panic set in. She felt good against him just as Rachel had said. The woman was soft and very easy on the eyes. In the street light, that was clearly seen that she was right.
"Listen carefully and stop moving or I'll slit your throat." The man whispered into her ear, smelling her sweet perfume as he was this close. "You better do as Rachel says or you'll be very sorry. She sent me to tell you again...I hope she made her point clear now...nod, if understand." He said as he gave a push; pressing her body and face even harder against the cool, rough wall of her own house.
Maura shut her eyes tight and froze as he threatened to cut her throat. She swallowed and tears fell against his hand over her mouth. She smelled very good. Maura made a soft whimpered sounds at the name of Rachel and she tried to look at her attacker. She groaned in pain as he shoved her harder into the wall of her house. She felt warmth against her cheek and knew she had several tears in her skin. She trembled massively hard and nodded to save her life.
"Good. Just be a good girl and do as Rachel says and you'll be fine." The man slowly loosened his grip a bit and removed his hand from her mouth. "Oh and Rachel says 'hi'." He said and pushed her hard against the wall, before he ran off. He was as quickly gone as he head appeared, leaving a crying Maura behind.
About 20 minutes later, Jane parked her car in front of Maura's house. She had brought chinese food and couldn't wait to eat it. It had smelled so good on the way to Maura's house already. She got out of the car, grabbed the paper bag and walked up to Maura's door.
Maura was boarding on panic mode as he said his last words to her and then shoved her hard against the wall. She hit the side of her head of the cheek that wasn't torn and dropped to the ground. Her eyes fluttered and she saw nothing but darkness a moment later. When she didn't answer the door, that's when Jane decided to go around to the back. She would see the garage open, Maura's car in the drive way and mail litered the drive way.
Jane walked around, still the bag of delicious chinese food in her hands; wondering why Maura didn't open. Maybe she was in the shower! She was skeptic as she saw the garage still open and as she walked towards it, she suddenly saw Maura lying on the ground. The detective dropped the bag and immediatly rushed to her, "Maura!" She dropped on her knees and pulled the woman's head on her lap. Her eyes scanning over her body seeing if she had a stab wound or a gun wound or anything else.
Blood poole the ground as Jane lifted her from the ground. Jane saw several cuts on her cheek and huge gash to the left side of her forehead. She was lifeless within Jane's arms. Her skin was cool to the touch and her clothing was little twisted around her small frame. God knows how long the woman had been lying there on the ground, but even in the dim light from the street, she looked ghostly pale.
Jane paniced as she saw all that. She undressed her blazer and laid it over Maura's cool body. She then pulled her cell and called for an ambulance. Her head was spinning and she felt like crying, but she had to be strong now, for Maura.
The ambulance arrived 10 minutes later and took Maura with them; Jane rode along; holding the blonde's hand on the way to the hospital. Once they arrived the EMT's went off with Maura and Jane wasn't allowed to join - so she had to wait in the waiting room. She was walking up and down, impatient. She wanted to know what was wrong and she hoped she'd find out, considering she wasn't a family member.
It was about an hour after Maura was taken back into the ER when someone came out to get the detective. They said that she had a mild concussion, but that most of the cuts were superficial and would heal without scaring. The doctor also reported some bruising on her wrists, but that there were no signs of a sexual assault. Maura was awake and she had been asking for Jane.
Jane tried to calm herself down first, before she walked into Maura's room. The brunette walked over to the blonde and smiled at her, as she gently took her hand in hers. "Hey honey, how are you feeling?" Jane asked in a very soft voice. She looked at the scratches in Maura's pretty face and gently reached out to stroke over her hair softly.
"Other than a little dizzy and heavy in the head, I am actually ok," she said in return and flinched a little when Jane touched her. She swallowed and looked up at Jane, taking a deep breath, "Someone just attacked me as I was getting my mail. I didn't see his face, but he mentioned Rachel's name. Jane...the message was I had better listen to her. I think it is because I hit her...it has to be..."
Jane squeezed Maura's hand gently and leaned over to her, kissing her lips softly. As she stood back up you could clearly see the anger in the detectives face. Her dark eyes were sparkling with anger. "It's fine Baby..." She whispered as calm as she could and stroke over her head gently again "...I'll take care of it." Jane said. This statement wasn't open to debate - it was a fact. No one and nothing could stop Jane from 'taking care of it'.
"I was so scared Jane...and the first thing I thought of...was never seeing you again," she trembled out as she saw the anger very real in Jane's face. "God Jane...she really hates me...she hates me because you don't...because you want me and she wants you," she said softly, but the fear in Maura's voice was real and what made Jane's blood boil.
Every muscle in Jane's body was tensed with anger. "Nothing's gonna happen to you anymore, I promise, Maura." The brunette said and kissed the blonde's forehead. "You are save now...I'll protect you." She whispered and looked down into the eyes of her scared girlfriend. "Try to sleep now, okay? I'll be here when you wake up again, I promise." Jane assured her.
Maura nodded and slowly closed her eyes. She was worn, tired, and still very scared. Jane's words helped, but going back out in several hours, terrified her to her core.
Rachel wrapped her robe around her body as she left the hotel's bathroom. She towel dried her hair and glanced toward the door. She had received the news about the doctor's attack about two hours ago and then she had showered. She smiled to herself, but she also imagined having sex with Jane and the pretty doctor.
As soon as Maura had fallen asleep, Jane left the room. She knew that nothing's gonna happen to her if she left her behind in the hospital. Jane was more than furious. Since she came here with the ambulance, she didn't had a car. She called a cab and drove to the hotel, she knew Rachel was staying. She flashed her badge at the receptionist who told her immediatly Rachel's room number. Jane got the elevator up to her room and approached in front of her door. She took a deep breathe and then hammered with her fists against the white hotel room door. "Open up, Rach!" Jane yelled; pure anger in her voice.
Rachel had just laid down on her bed when the loud ramming against her door, startled her so hard, that she literally jumped off the bed. She stood, frozen and staring at the door. She considered not even answering it, but thought better of that. Finally, the door opened, and Jane would come face to face with the person that her raw anger was directed at. Rachel stared at Jane. "What the hell Jane?"
Jane pushed the blonde backwards and closed the door behind herself. Oh, she was angry. She pushed up the sleeves of her blazer and stared at her former girlfriend in pure anger. "I warned you to stay away from Maura! How DARE you sending some guy to her to scare the hell out of her and hurt her?" Jane stepped closer; pushing the pretty blonde again, causing her almost to trip. "You are messing with the wrong woman, Rachel!"
Rachel stumbled backwards, but didn't fall the second time Jane shoved her. She was breathing heavily now and her eyes were wider with a slowy growing fear. She knew Jane's anger...but she had never seen it this bad. She held her hands up, "Jane...hey...I didn't do anything to the doctor...Maura," she said sharply and backed up from the woman so that she wasn't shoved or pushed again.
"I know YOU didn't...but you hired someone... I want a name, Rachel..." Jane said angrily, her eyes still sparkling with rage. Her chest was rising and falling in a quick manner; her blood pressure was high, her head spinning with all the built up anger inside of her. She grabbed the towel that was wrapped around the blonde's hair and pulled it off her head, causing her blonde hair to fall losely over her shoulders. "NOW!"
Rachel blinked and made a sound of sharp surprise as Jane jerked the towel from her head, tossing her blonde wet hair over her shoulders and against her face. "I don't know anything about what you are taking about Jane! Dammit! Get the hell out of here...Get out!" She yelled, stepping back farther away from her. She could say that she was starting to be a little than just scared...she was starting to be slightly terrified.
Jane had never felt that she had that kind of power over the ruthless Rachel; she enjoyed it. Her angry face turned into a smile as she ordered her to get out. "Oh?" Jane asked amused and sat down on Rachel's bed; letting her upper body fall backwards and propping herself up with her ellbows; as she looked at the blonde. "What are you gonna do about it? Get your guy to mess me up too?" Jane asked cooly.
"He wasn't supposed to hurt her...just give her a message," Rachel said in the heat of her fear before she realized what she had said. Once it came out, there was nothing she could do. "He wasn't supposed to hurt her. I wanted to play with her...that's all. That's all. I just wanted to watch her squirm, like I used to be able to do to you," she said, stepping closer to Jane and folding her arms across her chest. She was still hesitant to be close to the woman.
Jane watched her closely; her face staid the same. "But why? What's your problem with Maura? Tell me." The brunette wanted to know. She knew it was Rachel and that she admitted it, just showed Jane that she still could scare the hell out of people if she wanted to. She never had tried it with Rachel before, but apparently it worked with her too. "What did she do to you? You, the greek goddess aphrodite who got everything in her life she ever wanted.." Jane said; a bit of mocking in the last part, considering Rachel always made such a big deal out of her beauty. And she was beautiful - no doubt about that.
"Nothing," she said and the lack of emotion in her words gave Jane an eerie chill. "She didn't do a thing to me. She did hit me though, so that could be something," she said and shrugged her shoulder lightly. She glared at Jane. "You could share...if she has you...she must be the prize...although I would leave her alone...if you would just give me what I asked for a few days ago at lunch..."
"Why are you so obsessed with getting your will? I know you are a spoilt brat and your parents bought you everything you wanted and in life you also always got what you wanted. Is it so shocking not to get your will for once?" The brunette asked the blonde and looked in her eyes. She wanted to understand her way of thinking; she needed it for herself. NEEDED to know that she hadn't been in a relationship with a total monster which would show Jane she had a bad judge of character. She didn't accept that - she didn't want to.
"I am used to getting what I want Jane. I want you back and I will do anything to get you back, even taking the one that you love so that I can get you back. I always get what I want," she said, moving closer to Jane who still laid on the bed. She eyed the woman and ran her tongue over her lower lip. "I didn't want her to get hurt...I just wanted to sleep with her so that it would split you up and then you would be mine...It was really that simple," she said, folding her arms under her chest.
"Rachel...you are fucked up. You're sick." Jane said bluntly; and she somehow felt sorry for her. That wasn't normal and it hurt her in a way seeing that. Jane used to be head over heels with that woman and now it seemed like she was only a shadow of what she used to be. "You should seek help...and I mean it." Jane's voice was calmer now; softer than before. "You have to get used to the thought that not everything in your life goes your way."
"You see that's just it, Jane. I don't," she said flatly and quickly moved to the bed and pinned Jane to it. She laid over the woman, straddling her lower body to keep her down and hold her arms with her hands. She lowered her face to Jane's, smiling down at her. She then lowered her lip and took Jane's as her own. She kissed her and Jane remembered why she had loved her.
The shock and surprise was written all over her face as the blonde suddenly pounced her and pinned her down on the bed. She felt Rachel's lips on her own; tasted the cherry chapstick she probably had put on after she got out of the shower; felt some wet strands of Rach's hair over her face and against her own neck. Her heart was beating fast in her chest and for a moment everything happened in slow motion for Jane. It was like she stood next to her own body and watched herself, as she returned the kiss for two seconds. Then the brunette turned her face to the side. "Rachel, no! I'm with Maura, you have to accept it. You're a beautiful woman, you can have anyone!" Jane pointed out.
Rachel grabbed Jane's face gently and turned it back to her. "But I don't want anyone else. Jane, I want you," she said and stared Jane in the eyes. Once she knew that Jane wasn't going to fight her for control, she let go of her other arm and moved it down Jane's body. She rested it over Jane's thigh as she looked at her in the face. "I want you...ever since we parted I have wanted you...but if wanting you brings her along...I could share...some of the time..."
"That ship has sailed, Rachel...you had me and you broke my heart. I'm not going back." Jane told her and held eye contact with the woman above her. "Now I am with Maura, and I am happy...she's everything you're not." The last words sounded bitter but she didn't care. Rach hadn't cared about breaking her heart either a year ago. "And I'm gonna kill you if you hurt her again... you know I am not kidding."
Rachel's swallowed and tightened her jaw. She shook her head and pushed her hand between Jane's legs. "No, it hasn't sailed Jane. It never will. I lost you too, you know. Breaking your heart wasn't in the game plan...it just happened. I had to go...but now I am back...can't you forgive me and take me back," she asked her and then her eyes darkned in color. "I could have fucked her brains out had she not pushed me away...sex...is harming someone Jane..."
Jane reached between her legs and grabbed Rach's wrist and held it. "You...you better grab your stuff and return where you came from. I'm getting another lawyer and I don't want to see you here ever again." Jane whispered dangerously. "You are done, Rachel...it's over. You lost. And I am sorry for you. I truely am, because I know something in your hread isn't right." She looked in her eyes.
Rachel tensed when Jane stopped her hand from going farther between her legs and she stared down into her face. She swalllowed and shook her head. "No, there is nothing wrong with me. I just need you back. That is what is wrong. I am still in love with you and you have moved on. That is what is wrong. Dammit Jane!" She said in anger and let the woman go, slipping off of her and sitting on the edge of the bed. She ran a hand through her wet hair and stared out in the room.
The brunette sat up herself and glanced over to her former girlfriend. "That's life, Rachel..." Jane said in a soft voice. She hesitated but eventually scooted close to her and laid an arm around her. "You'll find someone great one day...just turn back to the person you used to be. That person was very loveable but...this now...this is not you - that's not the person I fell for years ago." Jane told her and gently rubbed her upper arm.
Rachel let out a deep breath and shook her head, not looking at Jane as she spoke and flinching slightly when the woman touched her. She continued to stare at the floor, thinking as Jane spoke. "I am still that same person, Jane. I just don't let go of what I want...and I don't want to let you go," she said, finally looking at the woman. "I still want to help you, if you want me to...if not. I will be gone by tonight," she said flatly.
Jane thought about her words and even though she knew that Rachel would get her out of the mess, she also knew she couldn't have her here any longer; for Maura's sake. Jane got up from the bed and looked down at the blonde mess that used to be her girlfriend. She placed a hand under Rachel's chin, leaned down and kissed her sweet lips; closing her eyes. She slowly stood back up straight. "Have a good life." Jane said, as gently as she could.
Jane would feel Rachel melt as she kissed her and she warmly kissed the woman back with the same passion that Jane would remember. When Jane broke the kiss, Rachel slowly opened her eyes again and watched as the woman left. There was nothing more that she could do...she saw that now. The pretty doctor had stolen Jane's heart...Deep down inside, she wondered if anyone else ever could. Now she knew...
Three days later...
Maura had been home from the hospital for two days now. She had some dizzy spells from time to time, but she was mostly steady as she walked. She sat at her desk in the living room and looked over files that she had sent over from the office. Jane was coming to her place for lunch and she just passed the time looking at work, while she waited.
Jane got two subway-sandwiches on her way to Maura's. She parked her car in front of the blonde's garage and got out. Jane was glad that Rachel was gone now and she could tell Maura was happy about that too. With the two sandwiches in the paper bag, she rang the doorbell of her girlfriend, waiting patiently for her to open.
Maura looked up and smiled as her doorbell ran. She set her pen down and got up, moved to the door, unlocked it and opened it with a smile. "Hey you," she said and stepped aside for Jane to enter. Maura had bruising along the left part of her forehead that moved a bit into her ear area. Her cheek was still red from the scratches that it had received, but other than that and some dizziness, she was good. She shut the door behind Jane.
"Hey." The detective smiled and kissed Maura's lips, before she moved pass her and placed the bag with the sandwiches on the living room table. "Hows working from home?" The brunette asked amused and sat down on the couch, looking at her girlfriend. She had promised Maura to take care of Rachel and she did - she was glad about it. Things started to get back to normal between her and the blonde.
Maura moved back from the foyer, following Jane into the living room and sat down next to Jane, smiling. "I like it. I don't feel so restless and I can sit down or lay down if I need to," she said, shifting in the couch and setting Indian style, facing Jane. Maura's face was a haunting reminder of the woman that Jane used to love on the woman that she loved.
Jane opened the bag and handed her girlfriend a sandwich with a smile. She tried to avoid mentioning Rachel's name or remind her girlfriend of what had happened. "Today I met up with my new laywer...he is brilliant but a jerk."Jane said and chuckled. "He said he'll get me outta that mess but I'd have to attend a one-week sensitivity training. I need anger management. Ts, anger management my ass!" Jane said and bit down into her own sandwich. "But it's still better than loosing my job." Jane pointed out while chewing.
"This is true Jane," Maura chuckled and took her sandwich from Jane and opening it in her lap. She took a bite and made a pleased sound at how good it was. "Sensitivity training...well I can see how it might be needed, just a little," she teased her lover and flashed her a cute smile. "I hope that she will be ok," Maura said, referring to Rachel, but not really saying her name. She didn't hate the woman...but she would be ok not having to see her again...
Jane looked up from her sandwich and searched for Maura's eyes, holding eye contact for a moment to figure out how she felt; mentioning HER name. "She's a strong woman, she will be..." Jane said quietly and took another bite of her sandwich, interrupting the eye contact with her girlfriend. "I never told you why Rachel and I went seperate ways..." She stopped and swallowed her sandwich before she cleared her voice.
"It was 3 years ago, I think. Korsak was still my partner back then and one case had really gotten to him and he backhanded a suspect...of course the suspect filed a complaint and Rachel came to negotiate a deal or represent Korsak in court if needed... I was fascinated by her as I saw her walking into the bullpen...and apparently she was fascinated by me...We didn't had to voice it - we both knew we wanted eachother... I dont wanna get into details but a month later we were dating, and that was when the Hoyt-case came up...I was working day n' night on this case...I put work before her... That was wrong, I know that now... and after we got Hoyt and I was recovering in hospital, she came to my bed and told me she accepted a job offer in another town...she kissed me and left...and I never heard from her again..." She looked up to see Maura's facial expression. "I needed her so bad after I got Hoyt...I was...traumatised...I needed someone to hold me... I needed someone to be strong FOR me for once...and she just left...she broke my heart."
Maura's face turned from content and happy, so sad and pained for Jane. She blinked once and reached out to touch Jane's face once her words faded into silence. She shook her head, "I am soo sorry Jane...that pain...it could only intense...she was and you are...so that loss...it would have killed anyone. You were going through so much," she said and took one of Jane's hands into her own, lightly trailing her touch over the scar. "I hate that she did that to you...but I also thank her because you are now with me...I will take care of you...I understand your job because it is my job as well...that's-that's why we fit...Jane, that's why it will work. You and me..." she said softly and just held the woman's hand.
The End
Alright guys, you made it through the whole story ;)
How did you like it?
We finished writing an alternative ending for episode 2x08, so I'm gonna post this soon :)
And at the moment we write on an AU story where Maura and Jane go to same school together... even young Hoyt appears in the story – if you guys are interested in that, I'm gonna post this story too.
Any thoughts?