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So here I go with chapter 20 as revealing the BIG SECRET! And the father is...

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R POV

Knowing that things were going my way made the mood I was one so much better. The kids loved Dimitri and they were all natural around him, which made me the happiest woman on earth. Ve had also improved tons since she didn't call Dimitri any names anymore, she barely snapped at him anymore and she didn't even complain when he came over. With Ve even coming along I couldn't stop planning things ahead. I wanted Dimitri to stay over more often, I wanted him here for Christmas – which was one month away – and then I never wanted him to leave and I wanted him to move in and now I'm moving to fast…

I took a deep breath. Ok let's just plan something easy. Today both Dimitri and I had the day off, the kids were home and Dimitri was playing with Alex in his room as I cleaned the kitchen. Ok something easy…

"ABBY!" I called out. I could hear her move in her room, her door opened and then she half ran down the hall. She popped up in the doorway smile on her lips, "Yes mommy?"

"If you could go anywhere today, where would you go?" I asked. Abby was very creative when it came to activities, she often comes up with fun stuff for the whole family so I was giving her a shot! Then her face lit up, "The zoo!" she exclaimed.

"That's a great idea!" I smiled.

"Can we go?" she asked eyes wide in surprise as I told her that I liked the idea.

"Why not? I thought we could go the whole bunch" I said, "Is that a good idea?"

"YEY!" she jumped up and down before she ran out the hall screaming, "The whole family is going to the zoo! THE ZOO!"

I chuckled as she was running down the hall yelling. She was telling everyone and after a few seconds Dimitri appeared with a confused smile on his face, "So where going to the zoo?"

"Yeah I thought it could be nice doing something all together" I shrugged leaning against the bench, as Dimitri came closer hugging me. "I think that's a great idea" he smiled kissing the top of my head.

Dimitri got everyone ready while I made a quick lunch including sandwiches, sodas and tons of fruit and some sweets. I knew the animals would keep the little ones going all day but some sugar couldn't hurt. Ve didn't complain she came willingly with out a word. I'm starting to like the small change that has happened. When everyone was in the car, cash in our wallets and lunch in the back we were on our way.

When the car started rolling Abby exclaimed one again, "WE'RE GOING TO THE ZOO!"

"Oh mommy, look at that! And over there, oh Dimitri can I pet that?"

"No honey, the fence means no petting"

"But I want to pet the, the p-pan-pan-ther, the panther!" She said after some trouble reading. Dimitri ruffled her hair, "No means no" He said lightly taking her hand moving on. She grumbled something but cheered up as she saw some other animal she kept bugging Dimitri about if she could pet or not.

"But why? Why can't I pet that one?" She glaring at him hands on her hips.

"Because tigers and very dangerous animals, I wouldn't want you to get hurt"

"No tigers are nice, Jasmine as one in Aladdin and he's nice"

"That's a cartoon Abby" Ve filled in, "Not the same thing squirt" She said messing up Abby's hair just like Dimitri had done earlier. Huh, weird.

Alex was sitting down by the cows – like he hasn't seen those before – Ben was stuck by the lions and Abby just got there while Ve kept them company and a watching eyes as Dimitri made his way over to me.

"Sorry she's bugging you so much, it's usually me telling her no petting lions and hippos" I excused. He smiled, "No problem, she's just excited" He took my hand as we made out way over to Alex. I crouched down, "Honey don't you want to go see the other animals? You've been watching the cows for fifteen minutes"

"I like cows" he giggled clapping his hands together. "Ha-ha cow went poo-poo!" he laughter filling the air. I straightened up, "Well that is definitely not my genes" I frowned.

Dimitri chuckled, "I use to like cows too, nothings more fun when a cow take this huge dump and-" he stopped himself when he met my questioning gaze. He cleared his throat running a hand through his hair, "Let's pretend I didn't say that out loud- is that an ice bear?" he asked changing subject pulling me over towards the white icy bears. I laughed, "So you like cows huh? I didn't know that" I teased moving my arms around his waist from behind.

"There's a lot of things you don't know about me" He smiled mysteriously.

I raised my brows, "Like what?"

He just smiled looking at the ice bears. Sneaky bastard…

I turned to Alex, "C'mon Alex, there's ice bears here! They swim in the water!" I said a bit to excited. Alex got up on his feet looking excited, "Water?" he came running over, Dimitri lifting him up so he could see better. "Bear, bear, look mommy the bear!" he chanted over and over again. Abby and Ben ran over hearing Alex excitement.

"This is awesome! Dimitri do you think I can swim with them?" Ben asked looking hopefully up and Dimitri. He smiled, "I don't think so" Ben looked sad, I could see Dimitri didn't like it. "But maybe when you're older!" Ben's face lit up.

"Dimitri!" I hit his shoulder shooting him a look.

"What?" he looked at me wide eyed, "I couldn't tell him no"

"Why do I always have to be the grown up?"

Both Ve and Dimitri snorted, "Yeah right mom, you the grown up…"

They are so weird today…

We sat down by a table under a tree to eat some lunch before we entered the fish house in the middle of the zoo. Once everyone got their sandwich, soda and fruit peace fell over the whole group. Under the table Dimitri took my hand resting it on his thigh. I smiled but did nothing I continued eating my sandwich.

"Mommy, why do have your hand on Dimitri's thigh?" Abby asked nibbling on her sandwich. I grimaced slightly, "Because I like him" I tried to saw casually.

Abby looked over at Alex then put her hand on his thigh. "I like you Alex" She grinned. Alex whole face lit up and he giggled, "Me like you to"

I hit my hand on my forehead as Dimitri chuckled, "Not like that Abby, you'll know when you'll get older"

"Ok" she shrugged and kept eating her sandwich. I looked over at him, "How come you always come up with these great advices and I don't?"

"Because I'm the smart on in our relationship," he said kissing my forehead, "Now eat your sandwich"

There was something in Dimitri's voice that you just couldn't say no to. If he told you to do something you did it cause you wanted him to be happy. I'm such a sucker for him.

After lunch was done we walked around the zoo again. We saw sharks, dolphins and tons of fishes in the fish house. When we'd walked around for another hour we reached the cat animals again since Ben just kept going on and on about going there again. I followed Alex over to the cows again cause he wanted a last glaze and since I let Ben has his wish through it would only be fair to Alex to let him have it to. We I dragged him away from the cows after about half an hour I could hear Ben stalking Dimitri about something he wanted to see.

"Why don't you ask Ve?" Dimitri suggested looking desperate for ideas.

"She doesn't want to go, she told me to ask you"

"What's going on?" I asked as I got to them.

"Dimitri won't take me to Pallas cat" Ben said looking sad. I frowned looking at Dimitri, "What's a Pallas cat?"

"It's a new cat they just got in on the zoo and I really want to see it"

"Then why don't we all go?" I asked, I didn't get why Dimitri said no though but if we all went that might be ok?

"Why can't we watch the lions again?" Dimitri suggested.

"I want to see the Pallas cat!"

"I agree with Dimitri" Ve said joining the conversation. I frowned at both of them, "We've watched the lions three times already, no stop fuzzing and let's go look at the cat!" I said firmly. Dimitri actually looked a bit worried, I didn't get why so I ignored it as I took his hand dragging him over there.

We stopped right in front of the Pallas cat cage where we could see six cats moving around.

"They are so cool!" Ben chanted as he stared at them wide eyed. I raised a brow not feeling anything special about them. "So what's the big fuzz about?" I asked Dimitri as the kids were looking at the cats.

"I don't like cats" he said looking strangely at the animals.

"They're just cats"

"No they're Pallas cat" Dimitri corrected.

"Which means?"

"Pallas cats are common in Siberia and Tibet"

"That doesn't say why you're afraid of them?" I said looking at him. He looked down on me, "I-I'm not afraid of them" I raised my brows in question.

"I just have a lot of respect for them"

I studied him for a while pursing my lips, "Did a Pallas cat scare you were little?"

He looked over at me too quickly, which gave him away. He was frozen as he swallowed and I couldn't help but to smile, "It's ok to be afraid"

He didn't say anything and I knew I might have touched a sensitive spot. I cupped his cheek making his eyes land on me, "Kiss me," I told him. He was smart enough to lean down pressing his lips to mine. He relaxed once we kissed again, my man might be strong but he couldn't restrain my kisses. I smiled smugly when we pulled away. He rolled his eyes since he knew well why I was smiling. We held hands watching over the kids as I noticed Ve standing next to us. She looked kind of grossed out.

"Hey you ok? I'm sorry we kissed in an open space with you around but-"

"It's not that" she cut me off. I noticed she was looking at the cats. Suspicion hit me and I had to try this, "Are you… Are you scared of the cats?" I asked studying her closely. She grimaced as I mentioned the cats.

"No" she said still staring at them, "I just don't like them"

"Your brothers and sisters seems to" I tried.

"They like everything" she said. "Pallas cats are weird and not for me"

This is almost ridiculous. Right then Ben came by tugging at Dimitri's hand, "Can we get some ice cream?"

"Sure" he smiled then looked over at me if it was ok. I nodded since he already had said yes.

We went to and ice cream stand, I ordered for Alex and Abby, Ve got her own as Dimitri and Ben ordered together.

"Two chocolate fudge please" Dimitri said to the ice cream man. "Large cup, blue spoons" I frowned as I looked at him. Blue spoons? Who cared what color the little spoon had?

The man handed over the ice cream and Dimitri handed him the money. The kids and Dimitri sat down on a bench while eating. I preferred standing at the moment. That's when I noticed something even weirder. Dimitri was eating on the right side of his ice cream and not all the way around. I looked over at Ben who did the exact same thing. Once they were done on the right side they didn't start on the left like obvious, the started on top. I blinked a few times, "Aren't you two having the same ice cream?"

"Yeah"

"Chocolate fudge is the best!" Ben smiled as he got ice cream on his chin. Dimitri handed him a napkin and right then he got some on his cheek and as in a movie they both dried the ice cream away on the exact same time, the exact same way.

This is insane.

I knocked on The Belikov door. Olena had called me earlier before we went to the zoo asking if I could come over and hang out. She said she wanted to get to know her future daughter in law.

It made me giggled when she said it like that. I haven't even thought of anything that has with marriage to do with Dimitri though it's not an impossible picture now that it's mentioned. So here I was, confused about all the similarities between my kids and my boyfriend and ready to get to know his mother. This is a weird day…

"Roza!" Olena exclaimed as she opened the door, bright smile on her lips, "C'mon in" she said stepping aside welcoming me inside. At the Belikov's I always felt at home. I looked around in the familiar surroundings.

"I really love this place," I said looking at the walls and ceilings. She moved an arm around me, "I want you to think of it as your second home"

I smiled towards her, "I already do"

Her smile was brilliant. We made some tea and she took out some newly made cookies out of the oven and I felt like a little kid again. We sat down in the living room chatting about everything between my job, to her job and my past. We hit the subject of Dimitri and I was so into hearing about him from his mother point of view.

"Oh he had his crazy years, he always wanted to help people. Weather it was Viktoria and her homework, or an old lady at the mall. He even went to help people in the ghetto parts of Russia"

"He's like an angel" I got out.

"Yeah" her eyes were shining, "He's my angel and I've raised him to help others"

"I've noticed, he's having a hard time saying no to the kids. But still he always has their attention I don't get how. All the other guys I've dated they always hated especially Ve, but now" I trailed off, "I don't know"

"Well he has that impact on people, in the end it's hard to say no to him" suddenly she laughed, "Oh there was this one time, it's quite unusual but still sweet in a weird way. There was this seminar at his school once about women who could have kids, or wanted kids but they couldn't find anyone to help them. So they were talking about donating sperms and such" I listened closely, is she serious?

"And then one day" she chuckled, "He came home with all these forms telling me that he's donating his sperm to help women who can't get their own"

My eyes widened.

"Yes I know" she said noticing my facial expression, "I told him what this means, but he was all in, he wanted to help them"

I was frozen, "So, h-he donated his sperm?"

"Yes, it was actually when we lived here earlier before we moved back and forth between Russia and Here"

"H-here?" I stammered.

"Yes" Olena didn't notice anything. "I really can't believe he want to do it, but he's a good soul so I knew he was doing the right thing"

I nodded trying to put the pieces together. Dimitri. Donating sperm, here. There's only one sperm bank in town, a place I got my kids from. Can that make Dimitri- No, no he can't be. He can't be my kids father there's just no chance. I mean there's many others with brown hair that likes cows, chocolate fudge ice cream and are afraid of Pallas cats.

I realized how stupid it all sounded. This is absurd. This can't be true, can it? No it can't. Or can it?

"Rose are you ok?"

"Eh…" I blinked, "I forgot something at home that I have to do, can I come back in a while?"

"Of course, but are you sure you're ok? Should I call Dimitri?" she asked looking a bit worried.

"No, no I just went a bit stressed when I forgot something, it'll be fine. I just need to go fix it" I smiled trying to look calm.

"Well ok then, I'll see you later?"

"Yes"

I was standing out side the city sperm bank feeling butterflies killing my stomach and my hands were shaking. Could this be? No he can't be the father of my kids, why would he be? Well it's not like he chose who to give his sperm to but still!

I mentally slapped myself and walked inside making my way towards the reception.

"Good afternoon, what can I help you with?" A large older woman said with a sweet accent.

"My name is Marie Mazur and I am a customer here"

"Oh, always fun to meet a customer, are you happy with your result?"

"Of course, I love my kids but I was wondering if maybe I could-"

"I'm not giving you the information about the father" She said suddenly totally cutting me off before I even finished.

"Why not?" I asked feeling slightly offended.

"A, I've been through this before, crazy single women trying to find someone to love them and B, you'll need his papers signed to hand you our copy so when you have those papers I'll welcome you back. But I wouldn't get my hopes up since you don't know who he is" she said almost rubbing it in my face. I felt anger grow within. Who does she think she is? I mean hell no she can do this to me! I'm not giving up here I just need those damn papers. I left not saying another word to the woman behind the counter. I will find those papers and find out what's real.

I drove my car back to Olena, taking a few minutes in the car to breathe and come up with what to say if she asked what I had to do. Return something's at the video store, leave a bag of clothes at my parents and pick up Ve from a friend. I knocked on the door. Olena opened within a few seconds, "That was quick!"

I smiled, "Yeah, it wasn't much but I needed to return something's so I wouldn't get a ticket"

She chuckled, "Been there honey, no need to apologize" we went inside and I sat down in the sofa again noticing three photo albums on the table. "What is this?"

"I know it's my duty as a mother to show you pictures of Dimitri as a little one, so I thought I could spare him and do it with out him knowing" She winked. "I'll just get some more tea and cookies and we can get down to business"

You have to hand it to the woman she's amazing! I didn't want to ruin it all and start searching through Dimitri's room, so I left that for later.

Olena arrived with more cookies, a teapot and cups. I could live here.

She opened the first album telling me about her first and all the other pregnancies and we shared tons of stories. She also had a thing for chocolate, ice cream, cookies and coca cola on top. I thought I was the only one.

Then we entered the subject of kids and I got my wallet to show her a few pictures I always carried on the kids.

"This is Ve when she was three, she hated me cause I wouldn't let her come on one of my dates" I smiled, "She threatened she wouldn't speak to me again, when I got home she was crying her eyes out cause she missed me so much" I chuckled.

"She truly is a piece of art that girl" Olena smiled looking at the photo, "Just like her mother" she said looking at me. I blushed and grabbed another photo. "This is Abby on her first day at school"

"What a cute dress!"

"She picked it out herself, I think she was more excited to wear the dress than going to school"

"I have an adorable picture in my wallet, wait a second" she said excited and got up half running for her wallet upstairs. I put my wallet back in my purse and as she got back she was waving a photo in her hand, "This one's adorable"

She handed me the photo and a smile spread on my lips. Then I frowned studying the photo closely. It was picture of Ben bathing in an outdoor pool in the summer. Why would she have a picture of Ben in her wallet?

"Um, how did you get this picture?" I asked trying to keep a straight face, masking my confusion.

"I took it" she said she said sipping on her tea.

"When?"

She chuckled, "At home"

"But how did you get a picture of Ben?"

Her eyes focused on me then looked at the picture, "That's not Ben, that's Dimitri when he was eight"

I froze, "D-Dimitri… when he was eight?" I stammered.

"Yes dear, is something wrong?"

I shook my head trying to shrug in of not wanting to ruin it all, "No it's just, he looks just like Ben"

She took the photo studying it then she looked surprised, "I've never noticed!" she smiled, "That's strange" she said and just then her phone wet off.

"Excuse me" she apologized answering her phone saying something rapid in Russian. "Would you mind if I take this? It's Karolina and it's urgent"

"No, no of course take it"

She smiled, "Thank you, have a look around while I'm on the phone"

"Thank you" I said after her as she disappeared into the kitchen. I tried not to sound hurried as I went upstairs knowing where Dimitri's room was.

I opened his door and went over to his desk. Dimitri had such order in all his drawers it can't be that hard. He had all different maps and files for things. He had filed it all after years and then months. I found the year I first got pregnant searching for a papers marked with the sperm bank logo. I flipped through it all and didn't find anything. I went to one year earlier and skimmed through it. Then I noticed something familiar and moved backwards as I saw the logo. I pulled the papers out seeing it was his copy of the recite. He'd done this half a year before I decided to get pregnant, that same year his family had moved back to Russia and they came back just last year present time. I sat down on Dimitri's bed taking a moment to think this through.

Do I really want to know this? Dimitri practically is the kids' father figure, but knowing for sure would be good right? Or would it only make things worse?

How the hell am I going to break it to him that I searched his room, get his papers illegally from the sperm bank now knowing he's the father of my kids?

Or what if he wasn't? What if it's someone else, which leaves to where I am right now!

Weather Dimitri is the father or not he's staying. He's not going anywhere.

"Rose?" Olena called from down stairs. I broke from my haze putting the papers in my pocket. I got up making my way to the stairs, "Yes?"

"I'm sorry but Karolina is in need of a babysitter since she had to go on a business trip for tonight, so I have to go. Hope you're not angry with me?" she said looking liked she was letting me down.

"No, of course not, I should be getting home anyway. I left Dimitri alone with the kids and maybe it's time I go home and let him off the hook" I said. We hugged and I assured her it was ok and that I needed to leave after all.

I drove down to the bank again, papers in hand and a plan in my head. I walked up to the desk again, my hair pulled back into a ponytail wearing a jacket I had forgotten in the car.

"Hello again" the woman said I picked up her name as Ana.

"Hi, I'm sorry if I was much trouble earlier I just thought I could do things differently"

She studied me seeming to buy my lie.

"My name is not Marie Mazur and I am not a customer here. Though I work for a Mr. Belikov who sent me here"

"And Mr. Belikov is a customer?"

"Yes, I have his papers here" I said handing her the papers, "He wonders if he can find out who he got his little give-away if it's not too much trouble. He knows that some leave to be anonymous but wanted me to try"

"How come he didn't come down here himself?"

"He's at the hospital, he had an accident and have always dreamt of a family. He thought maybe if he had a chance to find his own he could get back on his feet, so he handed me a job he would only trust with me, his personal assistant"

"I see, let me just check our system and see what I can do"

"Thank you so, so much" I said calm. God she was slow… I almost wanted to laugh since maybe this could work and I could feel the hope growing within me.

"All I could get you was the information about the woman who is the user, no photo but I hope that will be enough?"

"Of course, it's more than enough. He will be more than happy!"

Ana behind the desk smiled thinking she had helped a man in need to find his family. Sucker…

She printed out the copy and put it in an envelope saying is was only for Mr. Belikov's eyes only, I agreed with her, took the envelope and got the copy recite back and headed out. I got into the car, throwing my bag and the rest of it all in the co driver seat holding the envelope in my hands.

What if he wasn't the father? Or he wasn't?

I started shaking biting my lip. I opened the envelope slowly swallowing hard as I pulled out the paper, closing my eyes as I held it in front of me. I took several shaky breaths not knowing if I could handle this. I licked my lips exhaling one more time and my eyes were open. My eyes followed the sentence:

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Name: Dimitri Belikov

Sex: Male

Hair color: Brown

Eyes: Brown

Origin: Siberia, America

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User of seeds…

Rosemarie Hathaway.

Times: Four

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Oh dear god…

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