AJ was lying in bed, the sheets down around his knees. He propped himself up a little and ran a hand through his hair. "Oh hey. I didn't think you were coming. Around midnight I gave up and went to bed. What time is it?"

"It's 1 am," said Bobby, who was trying very hard not to stare at AJ's tiny, tight shorts. He suspected AJ's exposure was deliberate, and AJ confirmed his thought by smiling and stroking his thigh. Bobby licked his lips. AJ turned on his stomach and patted the pillow next to him. "Come lie down and get comfortable."

"Thanks, but I'd better take a chair. I've got some things on my mind tonight, and we actually do need to talk about them." He walked over, grabbed a chair from the table, and angled it to face the bed. AJ turned back towards him and smiled, making no move to cover himself up. "Bobby, when people come to visit my hotel room at 1 am, we usually don't do much talking."

"True," said Bobby, taking a seat and slinging his legs on the bed, "and when I decided to come down here that was the only thing on my mind. But I ran into James, and we talked a bit, and now I want to know where your head's at. I'm not into doing the I love you wait I hate you bit, because damnit, it hurts to get yanked around. I want to be patient with you, and I'm gonna try real hard, but please, just, I don't know, remember I have feelings too."

"I understand," sighed AJ. "I mean, James said the same thing to me. He said we both need to straighten up and realize that love's not gonna fly smooth. I think he might be a little tired of me."

"Eh, maybe. He's never gonna turn you away, though. That's not the kind of guy he is."

"Yeah. He's cool. He knows a lot about you." He paused for a second. "You know, after that weekend we were together, I went home and I walked up to my house...and for a while, I was ashamed to go in. My wife was in there, my kids were in there waiting for me, and I'm coming home with a sore dick and a man on my mind. It really messed with my head. I went in and kissed her hello, and all day I was thinking, did she taste anything funny? Does she know? Do I look different?"

"How would you look different? Did a rainbow shoot out of your pants?"

"She knows me inside and out Bobby. Would you please stop trying to score points off me?"

"I'm sorry."

AJ rolled onto his back and scratched his stomach. "I spent some time at home, and at church, and on the internet. Did a lot of research. I prayed a lot. Seemed like I had six different answers for every question. In the end, it came down to one thing - I love you. I love my wife and I love you, and I need both of you in my life. I could go on and deny myself and quote scripture until the End Times come and it wouldn't change a thing. I would be lying to myself, and I can't live like that. I'm not gonna run away with you and live in a commune or nothing, but I need you. That's the God's honest truth."

"So how are you going to do this and still go to church every week."

"I don't really know. But I was reading my Bible one night and I kept going to the scriptures about love. Romans 12:9 says love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. And Song of Solomon 8:6-7 says place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grave. It burns like blazing fire, like a mighty flame. Many waters cannot quench love; rivers cannot wash it away. If one were to give all the wealth of his house for love, it would be utterly scorned. Probably shouldn't have been reading Song of Solomon, though, that's the sexy book."

They chuckled together.

"And like I said the other night, the night when you took my hand, you're a good guy. I feel it in you. I feel it when I look at you. And if I try to stop myself, I'm going to be angry and hateful all of my days. Ain't no living like that. So I realized what I had to do, and tonight, I did it." AJ looked over at Bobby, who was rubbing his chin in thought. "So now you know where my head's at. What do you think?"

"I went through the same thing. I was going out with my wife when I first had sex with a guy. I had kissed guys before, but never had sex, and after it happened I felt like shit, which was pretty understandable since I was cheating, you know? But I was lucky in that she didn't throw me out, and instead we made our peace with it. I tell her everything, and I still love her as much as the day I met her. As long as we're open with each other, and respect our home life - I'm not bringing anybody I fuck home - things are fine. Before this, I hadn't slept with a guy in five years. Funny, that's about the same time I first started crushing on you."

"Nobody could compare to me, huh?"

"Yeah." Bobby put his legs down and leaned towards the bed, his hands sliding across AJ's stomach. They kissed briefly, each of them savoring the contact and touch of the other's soft lips. Bobby ran a thumb along AJ's cheekbone and with one final long kiss, sat back in his chair. "Got a question for you."

"Ask me later. I can't think with a hardon."

"Close your eyes and listen, then. I want to pick your brain about Tommy."

AJ made a face. "I try not to. He's been real annoying lately. Like he used to be okay and then suddenly somebody stuck a big stick up his butt. I don't know why James hangs out with that guy. Why do you ask?"

"He's been acting really funny around me and tonight he wanted to buy me shots. Usually he treats me like I shit on his dog, and tonight he was all drunk and friendly. And when I came down here, he caught an attitude that I wanted to talk to James."

"Maybe he likes you. Like, likes you likes you."

"But the last time he was in my room, I was naked, and he whined until I put some clothes on. I couldn't even move that night because I was in so much pain, and he's all 'put some shorts on!' Fucking dick."

"What night were you naked with him?"

"The night we got together."

"You moved well when I got there."

"Yeah, well, uh, James gave me something..."

"Bobby, do you mean to tell me you were high that night? I knew I smelled something funny when I came in there. I thought it was those two, but you? Baby, no."

"It was just one time, okay, and my back was killing me. Although it was probably the reason why I came on to you so hard."

"You kissed me because you were high?"

"I made the leap to kiss you because I was high and not in pain and yeah, really fucking horny. It wasn't like I didn't want to do it all along, it just...amped up what I was already feeling and gave me some courage or whatever. I wasn't high the other times, so it's not a big deal."

"Well if I'd known I was screwing a stoner, I might have had second thoughts."

Bobby stared hard at AJ, who cracked a grin. "Almost had you!"

"Oh, fuck you AJ. I should have known you were fucking with me."

"See, this is what I mean, Bobby. You're so much fun."

"Yeah, yeah," Bobby grumbled. But he couldn't stay mad at AJ long, especially when he was smiling like that. "I'll get you back. Just wait."

AJ slid a hand into his shorts. "You can get me back tonight, if you want."

Bobby was sorely tempted to rip off AJ's shorts and take all of that thick, juicy cock into his mouth. He knew just where and when to touch him and have him screaming and writhing in the bed. The problem was, Tommy's issues were weighing too heavily on his mind. How could he relax and give AJ's dick the attention it deserved when they were being watched so much?

AJ's eyes never left Bobby's as he pulled down his shorts and started stroking himself, his fist sliding languidly up and down, one small drop of precum oozing down the head of his dick. "Come on, baby. I haven't felt your mouth on me in so long..."

Bobby sat still for a bit, watching, his own dick getting harder and harder. AJ's hand started moving faster and he cupped his balls with the other hand.

"Come on."

Bobby sighed and dropped his head. "I can't. Not tonight. Not with us being watched like this. We have to wait until Tommy's not on a run. He won't always be around."

AJ sighed. "Yeah, I get it. I'll just wait to jerk off until you leave, then."

"I'll be doing the same upstairs."

They gazed at each other sadly for a moment. Bobby got up and put his chair back. "Can you just look outside and make sure the coast is clear before I go?" he asked.

"Sure thing." AJ pulled his shorts up and got out of bed. Bobby watched him walk to the door, his beautiful ass flexing with each step. Oh, when he got back in his room, he was going to come so hard he'd blow out a light fixture. AJ peeked out, and then closed the door in a hurry, a horrified look on his face. "Tommy's sitting in the hallway!"

"Fuck!"

"What the hell are we gonna do?"

"Take the ice bucket and get some ice. He was pretty drunk when I talked to him, maybe he's too fucked up to notice anything."

"Good idea." AJ grabbed the ice bucket and went outside. Bobby started pacing anxiously. Question after question fired in his mind. How the hell was he going to get back upstairs if Tommy was fucking sitting guard? What if they waited him out and it turned out he wasn't the only one snitching? Eric had already threatened AJ and practically stopped pushing him - would he go all the way and fire him? Would he publicly out them both and ruin their careers? With each thought, his blood ran colder and colder until he was almost on the edge of panic. Try to calm down, he told himself out loud. Tommy was really drunk. But...shit!

Eventually, AJ came back. The ice bucket was empty and he was laughing a little. "He was sleeping. I guess he couldn't work his key and he passed out right there in the hallway. I woke him up and he crawled in his room. Couldn't even walk!"

Bobby's internal temperature dropped 10 degrees. "Damn, AJ. This is some crazy shit!"

"Yeah, I know what you mean. You better go upstairs while the getting is good."

"Yeah. I'll see you soon, all right? I'll check the house shows and see when we can get together."

"Soon, I hope."

"Me too." Bobby walked to the door and kissed AJ goodbye, long and passionately. By the time they pulled apart his dick was throbbing so hard he could hardly see.

"Try not to worry too much, Bobby. We'll think of something."

"Hope so." He kissed AJ again, and then went out of his room, closing the door quietly behind him.