I'M 13 YEARS OLD AND I DON'T OWN FAIRY TAIL…..

LOKE AND LUCY FOREVER!

Chapter 5

In the human world…..

Lucy was out of the guild in a flash. Transportation magic…huh, Lucy wondered when she'd learn. It just came out of the blue like it was locked up inside her all these years. Maybe, I can breathe under water too, I'll try it some other time and see what happens… Lucy thought. It was an inside joke but it didn't amuse Lucy; she knew she didn't have time for jokes. Lucy felt a sudden wave of nausea wash over her and suddenly she was on her knees breathing hard. Lucy's thoughts were racing, some part of her body was twitching somewhere but she couldn't pin point where it was, Lucy's head was throbbing like crazy it was making her feel disoriented, her stomach churned whenever she tried to attempt to get up on her feet, Lucy's chest heaved and her breathing was suddenly shallow like she just couldn't force air to enter her lungs. Tears we're penetrating Lucy's eyes now but she forced them back. I've cried enough for one day, Lucy thought. And I've had enough of it, Lucy forced herself to get up but her knees we're wobbly she had to cling to the sidewalk for support. Slowly, Lucy began to walk again. I was fine a few seconds ago…what's happening to me? Lucy thought. Then abruptly she stopped walking and took in some air. At least it was willing to allow her to breathe now, Lucy wanted to smile but she couldn't her, facial features we're frozen she couldn't display her emotions properly like they should be. Lucy was happy, it was hard to tell what she was really thinking, but Lucy knew from the bottom of her heart that she was happy. What am I am doing? Lucy thought. Finally she manages to smile, Lucy sighed, there was nothing to be sad about, Lucy thought it was all in her head and that she was dreaming and tomorrow morning when she wakes up everything will go back to the way it was before. Tomorrow….Lucy thought, there was still a tomorrow to look forward to, she could still see her friends at Fairy Tail and she could still go on a job with Natsu and Happy, Erza would be with them along with Gray and of course Juvia who's now added herself to the group. There was a reason to be happy about and Lucy pondered on it, she was still alive…and doing well…she wasn't sick and she could live for as long as she wants. Lucy was still young there we're a lot of things she still hadn't experienced in her youth. To fall in love and get married, to have kids and see them grow up, to grow old with the person that she loves, to die in that person's arms, Lucy thought that all these could be possible if she could just pull herself together and think for a moment that sometimes people have to accept that they can't just fall in love with anybody, especially…Lucy gulped and the tightness in her throat didn't seem to want to go away, a spirit…..Lucy gripped her keys, she could name them all and wouldn't forget even when she's moments away from death. Lucy remembered the dream she had earlier where she forgot about being part of Fairy Tail, Lucy shuddered at the thought of it. Lucy's spirits…., the friends who've helped her out in times of crisis…her friends and comrades, Lucy was thankful she had them. There was one key missing; Lucy refused to think about it but it kept on entering her thoughts even when she didn't want to. It was a strange thing…thinking about the spirit world made Lucy's heart ache….knowing that there was a world beyond this one…and that there we're different beings, not really human, that lived in that world. Spirits…they weren't human as they appear to be…they we're of different kind. Humans should fall in love with their kind and sprits should fall in love with their kind as well. Lucy thought, if this was the first time it happened, a human….unexpectedly falling in love with a spirit…to be exact and direct to the point…a stellar spirit mage….falling in love with one of her spirits. Lucy wondered if there was a law on that and if she's somehow broken that law and endangered her spirit. She wasn't certain but yes it could be possible. Lucy looked up, it was almost sundown, and there weren't any stars around yet. Maybe, tonight I'll go star gazing and find him amongst the stars…Lucy thought. I'll find Loke in the sky with the stars, and I'll apologize to him and tell him I'm sorry and that I'm so stupid for not being able to tell him sooner that I love him so much, Lucy told herself. She was nearing her house now and when she finally reached it a thought came over Lucy. If only I was born a spirit, if only there was a way to change the way I am, maybe in that way Loke and I will finally be made for each other…Lucy thought but reality was so cruel. Lucy was human, Loke was a spirit, there was no way in changing the way people we're born. Loke should fall in love with a spirit who's prettier than Lucy and Lucy should fall in love with a human but no one could be compared to Loke, Lucy didn't just love him because he was handsome, she loved him for who he was and who she became when she was with him. Lucy couldn't remove Loke from her heart and she wondered if Loke thought of the same thing, whether or not he could forget about her and move on. Lucy reached her apartment and went inside trying to tell herself that this was all a bad dream.

In the spirit world….

Loke was telling himself to be practical, there came a time before she met Lucy that Loke wondered what death would feel like. To just let go and let it take over you, not knowing where you're going, not knowing if you'd be able to see your friends again. Loke accepted that all humans die, but the problem is Loke wasn't human, he was a spirit and he had an owner, Lucy…, Loke's chest felt a stabbing sharp pain whenever he mentioned her name in his thoughts. The person he loved the most and valued more than his own life. Lucy…Loke pictured out what she looked like, he missed her so much and even when she called for him he couldn't bring himself to face her the way he was right now. Lucy with her dark brown eyes, Loke remembered staring at them whenever he looked at her, and smooth blonde hair that defied gravity itself, Loke could still feel strands of Lucy's hair still on his finger tips, the sensation was too good to resist. Loke remembered every part of Lucy like she was in front of him, and his heart ached because he couldn't see her he could only think of her and imagine her face knowing she was far away from him, over a distance that was impossible to determine. Lucy's lips….the thought surprised him…Loke touched his lips and smiled remembering the first time that they kissed. Lucy's lips we're small but firm, they we're soft Loke still couldn't believe how he managed to stop himself, they tasted like strawberries, very sweet, Loke wondered what his tasted like…cherries perhaps…when he first kissed Lucy it was like heaven had just descended itself on Earth . There we're no words to properly explain it but he felt overjoyed that Lucy was letting him kiss her when for so long she was trying to push away his advances on her. Lucy kissed him back too, the second time they kissed was actually her taking the lead , in that moment Loke thought that Lucy wanted him the same way he wanted her and that Lucy loved him the same way he loved her. It made his heart race just by thinking about it. Loke wondered when he'd be able to do it again, to kiss Lucy on the lips and think about nothing else. He knew that Lucy was worried that getting involved with him would mean huge consequences. The difference in race was inevitable, Lucy was human and he was a spirit, plus, Lucy was his owner there shouldn't be anything going on between them. But what could he do, it already happened, he's fallen in love with her despite their major differences. The thing is, Loke would give up anything for Lucy, he would give up being a spirit, he would surrender Regulus, and he would change himself completely for her if she would just let him do it and not be afraid. If only Lucy trusted him enough, if only she loved him enough, then there wouldn't be any problem, if only Lucy believed he could do it and put both of their fates in his hands…then he could have proven it to her that all he wants is for them to be together. Anything…so that he could be with her…but…it seemed fate didn't want Loke and Lucy together. If Lucy loved Loke the way he loved her then the problem could have been solved a long time ago. But their love wasn't mutual because Lucy loved someone else, someone who she already confessed her love to. Gray Fullbuster, Loke couldn't help but feeling bitter towards Gray. He never thought that Gray would be his rival for Lucy's love. But it was clear that Loke had lost and that Gray had win Lucy's heart in the end. Loke also knew that Gray loved Lucy; it was obvious that he too had romantic feelings for her; Loke saw it in Gray's eyes when he looked at Lucy whenever she's talking to that girl that used to work for the Phantom Lord, Juvia Loxar. Loke had no right to say anything or to be mad at Gray for stealing Lucy because Lucy wasn't Loke's property to begin with; loving her didn't mean that she was his. Loke had no ownership over Lucy, she could love anyone she wants to love and live her life the way she wants to live it. But Lucy on the other hand had full control over Loke, he was, in fact one of her celestial spirits. And she did save him, so Loke owed her his life. Loke wondered if Lucy was thinking about him right now, or if she was spending her time with Gray she doesn't even remember him. Loke's heart trembled, his eyes cast itself on the fallen tree he just blown up to bits and apologized to it for being so heartless. Lucy was his life, he loved her, and will continue to do so even if she tells him to stop and juts moved on. He'll tolerate it seeing Lucy with another guy, because all he wants is for her to be happy even if it means taking away his own happiness. But Loke knew he would never be truly happy for them, it was too painful. Loke buried his face in his hands and thought that if he was born human things could have been different. Loke wondered about death again and smiled thinking it would come to him sooner than he expected it.

Fairy Tail was empty without Lucy. The rest of the day passed by in a blur and all the events that happened in the morning seemed to be in fast forward on everyone's minds. Cana, Bisca, and Levy left but not before Erza made them swear not to breathe what happened to Lucy to a single soul if they wanted to wake up the next day still alive. The three of them agreed immediately and ran out of the guild in top speed. All that remained in the guild we're Mirajane, Natsu, Happy, Erza, Gray and Juvia, team Natsu's newest member. Elfman had gone home ahead of Mirajane; Happy always thought that Mirajane and Elfman both lived upstairs; there we're rooms for stay INS in the guild but no one really stayed in those rooms at night. Everyone had respective homes somewhere except for Master Makarov who stayed at the guild day and night. Laxus used to keep him company but then again a lot has changed over the years. The sun has already set and those who remained in the guild had a serious conversation regarding Loke and Lucy's relationship. A discussion too serious for Natsu's taste.

"Hey…what do we do when Loke shows himself tomorrow?" Happy said taking a seat beside Natsu, who was sprawled all over the table. Not only did Natsu get sick when he was riding a form of transportation, he also got sick with serious conversations such as this one.

"We kill him of course." Gray answered. There was only one penalty Loke deserved to have after hurting Lucy's feelings and making her cry. Death, Gray didn't mind bloodshed somehow got used to it over the years, it didn't bother him anymore he just hopes Lucy would like his idea as well. Gray didn't think Lucy would like to hear the news of Loke's death hours after she tried to summon him, but failed... Doesn't Loke realize Lucy's in love with him? Gray thought. Is that jerk playing with Lucy's feelings, Gray was talking to himself now.

"Master Gray has a point. Leo the Lion has no right to live after what he has done to Lucy. Juvia will personally kill him if given permission." Juvia said. Gray gave her thumbs up for standing up for herself and speaking her heart out. Juvia's heart skipped a beat and she wondered if it was making tricks on her. Juvia was happy, she was now part of a new team with Gray and Juvia feels as though Gray and her have become closer to each other.

"He prefers to be addressed as Loke. And you fools don't know what you're saying. As much as I would love to peel his skin off or barbecue him alive for hurting Lucy. Killing the bastard would make Lucy hate us." Erza said. Gray and Juvia thought about it and admitted that Erza was right. Everyone knew that Lucy was in love with Loke even before Lucy admitted it to herself. Everyone knew, well…everyone except Loke. Loke was a chick magnet, he was a playboy, and they knew Lucy thought that playboys we're unforgivable but they also knew Lucy couldn't escape Loke's charms. Everyone was also aware of Loke's feelings for Lucy, he openly showed it off in front of everybody and as much as Lucy wanted to respond to him in the end she couldn't instead she pushed him away. Well….Loke was always challenged with girls who play hard to get.

"Lucy's incapable of hate. Lucy's kind like that you know. She wouldn't hate us just because we killed Loke." Happy said. Happy didn't fully understand the gravity of the situation. Maybe it was because he was a talking, flying cat. Before he met Carla Happy always wondered if there were any cats like him in the world. But Happy would understand Loke in some way that was still unknown to many. Happy was in love too, with Carla, so he would feel what Loke was feeling except Happy and Carla were both cats. Loke and Lucy on the other hand had issues about being born in different races.

"Lucy's kind….I'll give her credit for that. But she's easily emotional too. She won't…I don't want to say it but…she won't take the pain on her own." Gray said. Juvia agreed and nodded her head beside him.

"What are you talking about….Gray….Lucy is strong… she'll…endure anything…I believe in Lucy….I'll always do…" Natsu said still feeling sick. He was still sprawled on the table clutching his stomach. Natsu wanted to vomit and just let it out. But he won't make it to the sink in time even if he ran.

"Natsu is right in his own way. Lucy can take the pain, she'll accept it, and she'll forget about Loke and move on. But as much as I would want things to be that easy. It's impossible. Love can't fade away that easily. I'm starting to think that with all these complicated things happening to them, Loke and Lucy might be star crossed lovers. "Mirajane said taking her leave from the bar. Early evenings always made Mirajane feels some kind of tightness in her chest like she's feeling pain for everyone wherever everyone may be. And now it was Lucy's pain Mirajane was feeling. It was a feeling that she didn't understand but she knew Lucy was undergoing something difficult right now. People shouldn't belittle and think lightly of love. People think that it's so easy to fall in love and let go when you don't want it anymore, well people are wrong, falling in love is the easy part, letting go is the hard part. If it was a piece of cake and people could do it in their sleep with their eyes closed. Lucy could have done it and saved herself all the pain.

"Lucy doesn't deserve this. No one has the right to hurt her in any way. Mirajane…tell us what really happened?" Erza said. Mirajane took a seat beside her. Underneath all her armor, Erza was feeling tensed. Gray knew what really happened but was only told about the little details. Juvia knew as much as Gray knew. Happy and Natsu we're clueless.

"Lucy came to the guild different this morning. She was awfully quite and we all thought it was so unlike her to be that way. We asked her what was the problem but she wouldn't tell us straight to the point. We found out for ourselves, it was about a boy, we teased her, well…Cana, Bisca and Levy did, that Lucy didn't have any boys in her life except for Natsu and Gray and we knew she didn't have that sort of feelings for the both of you." Mirajane paused for a while to look at Gray and Natsu. "So…she tells us it's about Loke. Lucy was confused about her feelings for Loke. She didn't know what to think of him anymore. After what happened last night." Mirajane was cut off with a question.

"Something happened to them last night?" Erza asked.

"Yes…well…Loke made his usual visit to Lucy's apartment ….and they sort of…kissed…twice..." Mirajane said. Natsu's face was like 'oh…I'm going to get sick...' Natsu wasn't really fond of listening to that kind of stuff. Gray's face was like 'They kissed! Last night! In her apartment! Was that all they did?"The usual stuff went through his head. What happens when a 17 year old celestial wizard is alone in an apartment with a celestial spirit who looks like he hasn't age a day over 25? Not a very pretty situation for kids under the age of 15, if you know what I mean. Juvia's face burned bright red and was now looking at Gray. Erza was like 'How typical of him.' Mirajane was all smiles.

"So….Lucy told us she was having a hard time telling Loke what she really felt about him. We gave her some pieces of advice and even rehearsed a scenario where Lucy confessed to Loke. Cana was playing Loke and she's convinced us she was born an actress. "Mirajane said. Gray thought that this was the time for him to get in the story. Lucy DID stage a fake confession to him. How could he forget? Mirajane looks at Gray and he sighed at once; he did not like to be part of some story. Especially one that's turning out to be a tragedy. Erza noticed this; somehow she won't like Gray's participation in the story as well.

"And…Loke...well he sort of popped out of nowhere…and Lucy panicked so she did the next best thing that came into her head..." Mirajane said. Gray crossed his fingers and bit his lip. Erza's face was like 'Gray…if you're involved in this in anyway…you won't like what I'll do to you next… 'Gray gulped his answer was shown in his face too…' I get it, Erza…I get it…'

"What was it Mira?" Happy asked.

"Come on….the suspense is killing me…" Natsu was back to normal it seemed like the discussion had already interested him a bit. He always thought Lucy never really cared about boys as much as they're trying to make her seem like she's obsessed with Loke. But Natsu has known it for a long time too, Lucy's developing feelings for Loke was hard to ignore since they we're on the same team and Lucy's spirits we're part of the team too, sort of.

"Well….I thought it was wrong of Lucy to do it…especially in front of Loke…lying to him like that…Cana and Bisca thought it was pure stupidity and Levy thought that Lucy was being an idiot. LUCY TOLD GRAY SHE LIKED HIM AND LOKE SAW IT ALL. "Mirajane said. Very careful of her words. A slight mistake would set Natsu and Erza off. Gray had a little composure left on him and he wouldn't want to look uncool in front of Juvia now that they're in a relationship.

"WHAT!" Natsu and Happy we're so surprised their eyeballs could have shot themselves out of their sockets. Mirajane could tell Erza was surprised too, but then again, Erza had amazing self control.

"Gray…." Erza said. Gray was now hiding behind Juvia who was mumbling about how she would protect him till death and how she would even go up against the mighty Erza Scarlett to save his life in exchange for his own. Very melodramatic you are Juvia…Mirajane thought.

"I'm not going to do anything to you…But hiding behind your woman….I expected better from you…Gray…" Erza said. Gray hung his head in shame Juvia took him in his arms.

"Lucy doesn't like you Gray!" Happy screamed. He was now 5 meters above the ground, floating.

"Yeah!Why you!" Natsu yelled form the top of his lungs Gray's eardrums wanted to burst.

"Settle down…." Erza said and one look made Happy and Gray cower in fear. They took their seats. The air went dead and suddenly there was an awkward silence that lingered among them.

"Why did she do it? And why Gray?" Erza asked. Mirajane, Juvia and Gray sweat dropped. Erza underestimated Gray too much, it was sickening at times but Gray learned to live with it. He knew better than to argue with the great Erza Scarlett.

"Well….like I said she panicked…I personally think Loke already knows Lucy likes him…but then again after what happened he's seemingly doubted himself…He actually cried in front of us before he disappeared…and well…it was because when Loke arrived Gray was standing behind him…." Mirajane explained. It wasn't Gray's fault…he was simply standing behind Loke at that time. It wasn't Loke's fault either, he couldn't help it that it was the time of the day he wanted to see Lucy. Well…who's fault was it? Lucy's?

"Gray….stop standing behind people from now on…." Erza commanded and Gray immediately nodded.

"Lucy's always been a coward!" Natsu blurted out very suddenly when no one decided to speak.

"Don't say that Natsu Lucy is strong in her own way." Juvia said defending Lucy.

"Well…yeah...you're right…but Lucy just doesn't want to take any risks…Lucy lacks adventure…that's probably what she need…how bout we send her on a mission on her own…" Natsu suggested. Everyone's jaws dropped except for Erza's. Natsu was actually suggesting that Lucy should go and face her death on her own. How was that different from committing suicide? Natsu was from a different world than the rest of them. He took danger to the extreme it stretched everyone's imagination to its farthest limits.

"How the hell is that going to help her Natsu!" Gray roared.

"Don't you raise your voice at me Gray!" Natsu roared back and they we're yelling at each other now. Mirajane smiled at then, she was used to the both of them being this way. Their constant fighting showed that they we're really closed. Unbeknown to the both of them they might really consider each other as best friends.

"Bastard you wanna fight right now?" Gray challenged Natsu.

"You bet I do!" Natsu accepted his challenge. The two of them we're about to go all out when Erza stepped in.

"Do you want me to wring your necks this very second?" Erza said in the most menacing voice Natsu and Gray's souls left their bodies. Juvia and Happy we're now hugging each other, scared to hell, of course. Erza had the ability to scare the living daylight out of a person in a matter of minutes.

"Okay…"Mirajane said shattering the silence. " Would you guys stay overnight…it's past 7…I don't want to go home at this time of night…Elfman will know where to find me…." Mirajane added.

"We'll stay for the night…" Erza declared.

"Okay…then...it's time for dinner…" Mirajane offered. Erza followed her to the bar.

"Erza is…." Juvia's voice was tight inside her throat.

"S-scarier than she usually is…" Happy continued.

" Oh man… the things that woman does…." Gray said.

"Shhhh….she'll hear you dammit…" Natsu said in a whisper Gray immediately shut up.

" Well…it's been decided…I don't feel like crashing in Lucy's apartment right now…she'll be too depressed to notice me anyway…" Happy said and everyone agreed. Not that Juvia would understand, she never really crashed into somebody's place before, well…not the kind of 'crashed' that happy means. 'Crashed' in Juvia's dictionary meant destroy, obliterate, blow up to pieces.

"Yeah…you're right Happy…" Natsu said.

"Dinner!" Mirajane called.

"Alright I'm starved!" Natsu and Happy raced to the bar.

"That guy…..it's so frustrating to be in the same team with him…" Gray said and smiled. He got annoyed by Natsu's crazy antics but without Natsu he wouldn't really enjoy Fairy Tail that much. If Natsu would die and Gray prayed to God he never does, Gray would actually miss him despite his constant attempts to deny it to himself.

"You guys…have a great friendship.."Juvia said looking at Gray in a different kind of way. Gray blushed he hasn't seen this side of Juvia yet and he figures he would see it often in the days to come by. They move towards the bar holding hands. Juvia thought about Lucy. Things will turn out okay…in the end…if they really love each other… they'll end up together no matter what happens…. Spirit or human regardless….Juvia thought and the same as Erza she wished Lucy good luck.

Okay…..so….Loke and Lucy find it a hard time BEING APART FROM EACH OTHER…

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LOKE AND LUCY FOREVER!